Sad B!tch Hours

Brøken's playlist

Its crazy how in a span of 2 years I have developed trust issues, separation anxiety, social anxiety, depression, insomnia, ADHD and alot more. I feel trapped, like really trapped. I dont understand when everything went so downhill. Sometimes i feel like giving up on my life and throwing myself into bad habits that can ruin my life because I know that sooner or later I'm gonna ruin my life anyway. I don't have one person in my life who I can go to because no one really understands, like truely understands. I don't feel safe with anyone, like I have to be alert all the time with what I'm saying and how I am acting because I am terrified of what could happen if everything i feel and think about just came out of my head. People would think I am crazy. I have learned that there is a difference between being alone and being lonely. Being alone means having no one. Your by yourself. Being lonely means you can have people but you feel like your on your own, no one can relate to you, no one cares, or at least it feels like it. I finally found out what depression truely is, for me atleast. Its where you consantly compare yourself to others, brutally hate on yourself, critizism is your life. All you think about is, "Is he looking at me weird?" "Is my shirt to tight?" "Can they see my fat?" "Should I wear this outfit?" "You look so bad, change." "You don't look good, they wont accept you." "Put on makeup, your acne is showing." "Your jeans are too tight." "Go workout you getting big." "Stop eating, its not helping you." "Stop crying, no one cares anyway." "Kill yourself." "Your not important." Thats what my head is always filled with. All I can ever think about is what other people see me as. And I know the whole, "Don't care what others think!" If I could I would, but thats the world we live in, fit the standards, or be judged. Thats how it is, and its not changing anytime soon. I just want one person to genuinally ask me, "Are you okay?" So I can say no, and cry and vent to them for them to LISTEN, not say, "Same lol" or "Relatable." Why can't I find that one person who can see through the mask, and I know I sound dumb because I am lying to everyone expecting them to see through the lies but I know. Its hard to stop doing something after you have done it day after day, week after week, month after month, year after year. I can't just stop. Its not that easy.

playlist for the broken ones.. </3

Slowed songs

i hate all men but when he... (slowed & reverb)

Alec Benjamin - How it feels to be replaced (slowed + reverb)

i need help I'm failing all my classes...
art by: https://twitter.com/volcanofrog?s=20
artist on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/6LArUyIoMiHmDvvOAsE2cd?si=Wf-bsSimTkWfDw0QQZRB5g
artist on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCj9fD9faZE8t1gAcG8Td4UA
song on youtube: https://youtu.be/Gp9gFXf56yQ
song on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3IxMaULfjq4IT2IN6v54PB?si=ec3cbbfdf9ba4930

Dream - Mask [Slowed + Reverb]

FNAF Song Too Far |BonnieTheBunny

demons - joji (slowed)

**DISCLAIMER: THIS IS NONPORFIT AND FOR FUN, PLEASE SUPPORT THE ARTIST**

What can I say? nightcore version of this song :) enjoy.

Nightcore - Riot (_Hollywood Undead_)

worldstar money - joji (slowed) instagram @wyabreez

original song: lovely - billie eilish and khalid

lovely

Yeah Right

joji - yeah right (slowed + reverb)

Joji - Slow Dancing In The Dark (Slowed Chilled)

James Arthur - Train Wreck (Slowed)	

𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚗𝚜 - 𝚝𝚠𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚢 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚙𝚒𝚕𝚘𝚝𝚜 (𝚜𝚕𝚘𝚠𝚎𝚍)

i didnt make this 

credit: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MweznDDylOk

you were good to me - jeremy zucker (slowed)

7 years old / latch slowed

the popular song everyone now knows from the movie “to all the boys: p.s. i still love you.” except it hits harder than the original one. enjoy! 

the creds go to: namjams on yt :)

ashe - moral of the story [slowed + reverb]

Enjoy!

Full Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yOx8qqU-0XE

Into The Pit Remix/Cover

home by cavetown (slowed + reverb) but you're trying not to cry as your parents fight downstairs

tw mmuted yelling + crying sounds

Alec Benjamin - How it feels to be replaced (slowed + reverb)

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