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2023

A growing collection of things I've written, recorded, and produced myself <3

Hotel Housecat Originals

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A dream to work with the brilliant @Mothercain 🖤

tentillforever - w/ Ethel Cain (@mothercain)

elusin ☆ possessive **peas edit**

Get Drunk (Lana Del Rey)

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Elusin - God Likes Me

Elusin - Possessive

Elskling 2

instrumental is sampled track 'Home' by Gustavo Santaolalla for "The Last of Us"

neighbor

White Silas / Ethel Cain cover of poachers pride, originally from Nicole dollanganger's natural born losers

White Silas - Poachers Pride (Nicole Dollanganger cover)

Verse 1 
The boys of summer come just to see the 
Sun that they grew up with, 
Setting in our eyes 

And they’re drunk on all the things they grew up on 
‘We was raised by the ocean’ 
Written in their skies 

prechorus 
The sun is in your eyes tonight 
Swimming in the bright moonlight 

Chorus 
I’ll keep you close to me 
‘Cos I’ve never felt so free 
Show me the summer breeze 
Show me the sun rising, 
The sun rise 

Verse 2 
The boys of summer come just to feel the
Sun that they grew up with 
rising through our sighs

And they’re crazy 
Darling you’ve got your lady 
And you wanted to save me?
Well, you’re right on time 

Prechorus 
The sun is in your eyes tonight 
Swimming in the bright moonlight 

Chorus 
I’ll keep you close to me 
‘Cos I’ve never felt so free 
Show me the summer breeze 
Show me the sun rising, 
The sun rise

Boys Of Summer (demo)

Strange Boutique-Drown

you gotta find heaven in your head
lie awake asleep in bed
a thousand questions left unsaid
we'll find each other in the end

nuclear daisies - heaven in your head SPED UP

Mannequin

LYRICS:

I drink shame like wine
Do you wanna taste?
Well you can soak up mine

And if I let you drown
Won't you cough it out?
Pretend I never cried

And if I let you down
Won't you turn away?
'Cause I'm leaving now

I was only trying to relate
But I said too much
Now we're going down

And won't you call me angel
Call me your angel
Tell them I was an angel
When I'm sleeping in fire

I eat hate like bread
Do you like the taste?
Well you can take my head

And if I let you choke
Won't you hear my sins
'Fore we end up dead

And I will let you down
Won't you turn away
'Cause I'm leaving now

I was only trying to understand
What makes a man
Now we're going down

And won't you call me angel
Call me your angel
Tell them I was an angel
When I'm sleeping in fire
When I'm sleeping in fire
When I'm sleeping in

Sleeping In Fire

Drain You (Nirvana)

cocteau twins - serpentskirt

sample::: peach loves wood by peach mcintyre

that dick so fucking good

sample ::: if i die young by the band perry

if i die yung (un_mixed)

LYRICS:

i wish you still called me when you were drunk
the way that you used to when we were younger
the boys act like dogs so we get on the phone
when did you got tired of writing back home?

you love the lights but do the lights love you?
do all your new friends hear your words like i do?
oh i love that crowd but i know where i stand
can you handle the sight of the eyes you command?

be your own man, do what you want
God knows you've got cooler places to haunt
and you're workin hard, harder than me
i guess it don't take twenty-twenty to see

we're through (i'm still hanging on)
what did i do? (i'm still hanging on)
waiting on you (i'm still hanging on)
still waiting on you (i'm still hanging on)

you're moving on up while i'm hangin around
hands in my pockets our old stomping grounds
did i offend ya? did i run my mouth?
am i just a reminder of this dead-end town?

well you're still electric, at least so i hear
i wouldn't know you've all but disappeared
when should I catch you? maybe next year?
i'll gamble my heart on your last resort beers

I guess that i'm bitter, i guess i've been burned
i'm such a child the way i never learn
don't hold it against me, my judgement's the worst
i know that you'll get it, and that's just why it hurts

we're through (i'm still hanging on)
what did i do? (i'm still hanging on)
waiting on you (i'm still hanging on)
still waiting on you (i'm still hanging on)

I wish you still called me when you were drunk (I wish you still called me when you were drunk)
I wish you still called me when you were drunk (I wish you still called me when you were drunk)
I wish you still called me when you were drunk (I wish you still called me when you were drunk)
I wish you still called me when you were drunk, I wish you still called me cuz i'd still pick up

I Wish You Still Called Me When You Were Drunk

This one goes out to my girl Diane Selwyn

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LYRICS:

in all of my dreams i am missing my teeth
and dead things come back just to die again
ive sold our souls for a pink limousine just to circle the ground we’ll be lyin in

that surf rock you’re playing i cant make it out 
not quite like the ocean but how the lake sounds
this picture is silent you’re screaming too loud
echoing even now you’ve closed your mouth

how would you like to disappear?
i know a place
tell me that theres nothing i should fear
then waste away
every rotten corpse i’ve kissed on sunset boulevard
reduced to dust 
and gold dont rust
but im still no star

sometimes i see you in girls on the screen
lips red like blood while you smile and wave
i never said that it should’ve been me
and you never cared to know anyways

i went to bed begging woke up confused
static on standby electrical blue
glow in the dark as you’re leaving the room
please don’t turn it off i cant sleep without you

how would you like to disappear?
i know a place
tell me that theres nothing i should fear
then waste away
every rotten corpse i’ve kissed on sunset boulevard
reduced to dust 
and gold dont rust
but im still no star

pick me up drive me home wont you stay baby
pick me up drive me home wont you stay baby
pick me up drive me home wont you stay baby
pick me up drive me home wont you stay baby

pick up your laundry
pick up your laundry
pick up your laundry
blind now but once i could see

how would you like to disappear?
i know a place
tell me that theres nothing i should fear
then waste away
every rotten corpse i’ve kissed on sunset boulevard
reduced to dust 
and gold dont rust
but im still no star

Pink Limousine

The same song as before but holy fuck why did I use so much reverb the first time

Prison Guard (2024 Mix)

LYRICS

You said it’s easy money
And nothing’s set in stone
Well I’m gonna live forever
And you’re gonna go on home

Are you a good man to your family?
I’m a mystery to mine
I’m gonna live forever
I’m gonna borrow baby’s time

When the devil gets to talkin
And the devil gets to do
And the devil wants his shirt back
He’s gonna come a lookin for you

But I ran off with your interests 
And I took your poems too
Sold your evil for a sandwich
Wrote a tune about the view

Borrowed time
Borrowed love 
Running blind
Wake up, baby release the doves!
Borrowed time
Borrowed love
Running blind
Chin up, baby release the doves!

Mmm-mmm
Mmm-mmm
Mmm-mmm

I’m a flirtin with your demons
Did you think you were the son of God?
I’m a freak show teasin Jesus, 
Man your son is out here barking like a dog

I’m a stray cat catching sparrows
You say you’re just a wild thing too
With a bit of power dripping from behind your lips
You couldn’t swallow up the truth

When the devil gets to talkin
And the devil gets to do
And the devil wants his girl back
He’s gonna come a lookin for you

But I ran to where you come from
Back to the twilight zone
I’m gonna live forever
And you’re gonna go on home

Borrowed time
Borrowed love
Running blind
Wake up, baby release the doves!
Borrowed time
Borrowed love
Running blind
Chin up, baby release the doves!

Are you mad that this means nothing?
Are you tired of chasing birds?
Still going for that trophy?
Are you disappointed in these words?

Do you need more dedication?
Do you need a thoughtful prayer?
Cause I’ve got this raw ambition
It’s around here but I don’t know where

And I’m angry at the future
For leaving me behind
And I’m angry at the stars for being
Way too fucking high

And I’m angry at my shadow
For trying to take my place
She hits but I forgive because the
Shit she writes is…
(Actually it’s not even that great)

Borrowed time
Borrowed love
Running blind
Wake up, baby release the doves!
Borrowed time
Borrowed love
Running blind
Chin up, baby release the doves!

Borrowed time
Borrowed love
Running blind
Wake up, baby release the doves!
Borrowed time
Borrowed love
Running blind
Chin up, baby release the doves!

Release the Doves!

4 things

lullaby

lullaby (ur going to die here)

drain me (feat. Ethel Cain)

Here's my bluesy reimagining of Lana Del Rey's For K Part 1/Drive-by, an unreleased song (don't sue me!!) back from her Lizzy Grant days. She released an acoustic album called Sirens under the alias May Jailer way back when, and then later tried to have it erased from existence.

Sleeping In Fire

𝑯𝒐𝒕𝒆𝒍 𝑯𝒐𝒖𝒔𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒕