Ashmøde

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Pain (mini)

DSLR SERIES

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tired

Written by chat gbt, beat/singing ashmøde 

Yeah… windows down, engine hummin’…
Shorty smokin’ heartbreak in the passenger seat.
I know she poison… but damn, I like the taste.” 

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[Verse 1]
Midnight slide in the matte black Benz
Chrome on the grill, pain deep in my lens
She roll my blunts with them venomous hands
Every kiss feel sweet till the crash begins
Cig ash fall on my leather seats
Toxic love, but she still elite
Red nails, mind full of deceit
Gave her my heart, now I’m missin’ a piece

Cruisin’ the block with the bass on kill
She smilin’ wide while she poppin’ a pill
Tattoo tears, but I never cry still
Rather die ridin’ than live in the chill
Eyes like hell, soul like sin
She pourin’ that lean like she baptizin’ him
Necklace dancin’, wheels still spin
Love me to death, and I love how it end

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[Hook]
I mob through the city with a demon in heels
Whip got gloss, but the pain too real
Shorty like smoke—can’t touch, can’t feel
But I let her ride ’cause I’m numb to the deal
She poison in Prada, heartbreak in Chanel
She heaven and hell, and I’m stuck in the spell
Motor hum loud, but the silence yell
Told her I’m cursed, and she said, “Oh well…”

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[Verse 2]
White seats, red flags, still I let her in
Rollin’ with a ghost in a coupe full of sin
Every word drip like a knife on skin
But I chase her touch like the high I’m in
Shadows in the mirror when I swerve that turn
Heart stay froze, but the tires still burn
She light my smoke then she twist and turn
Said she love pain, now it’s my turn

Cartier frames hide the dead in my stare
Fake love thick in the midnight air
She play me sweet, but I’m well aware
That bitch like a dream and a nightmare pair
But I keep on drivin’, engine sing
Hope and hell, she my favorite fling
Two more lines and she’ll grow them wings
But for now, she mine in this six-speed thing

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[Hook - Repeat/Outro]
I mob through the city with a demon in heels
Whip got gloss, but the pain too real
Shorty like smoke—can’t touch, can’t feel
But I let her ride ’cause I’m numb to the deal
She poison in Prada, heartbreak in Chanel
She heaven and hell, and I’m stuck in the spell
Motor hum loud, but the silence yell
Told her I’m cursed, and she said, “Oh well…”

smøøthride

Assisted by chat gbt for now :)

Verse 1 – Deadpan Flow]
she blockin’ the sun, yeah it’s no fun, i hate it
she was warm when she died — like a rose when it faded
now i’m stuck in the frost, heart buried in granite
every word that she spoke, now a ghost when i say it

life’s an ice cold bitch, and i’m done with the flirting
every day is a rerun, just pain and the hurting
agony boiling, anxiety burning
fuck this job, fuck this bitch, and this bridge that i’m turning

coughin’ up dreams like i got black lungs
storm comin’ in, yeah the reaper got drums
my soul like the snow — no sun, no hum
just ash on my jeans and a blade for the numb

[Verse 2 – Deadpan Deeper Drift]
lights flicker in the crib, but the heat ain’t runnin’
i ain’t slept in a week, heart beat still drummin’
stuck in a loop, i exist for nothin’
mirror got cracks and the face ain’t trustin’

they say “it gets better” — where the fuck is the proof?
i been draggin’ my name through the dirt and the noose
every smile that i fake just tightens the truth
i’m a ghost in my skin, got nothin’ to lose

cig burn holes in the coat i wear
head full of static, lungs full of despair
ash on my jeans, blood on the snare
if hell got a room, i been crashin’ there

no calls, no texts, just silence and static
i sleep with the demons, my dreams turn manic
heaven ain’t callin’ and hell feels average
walkin’ through life like it’s all just traffic

cracks in my skull like the screen on my phone
i talk to the void ’cause i feel more at home
she said i changed, but i been this alone
i just learned how to lie with a colder tone

ash on my jeans and regrets in my coat
life ain’t a wave, it’s a noose and a note
every smile is a mask that i force down my throat
if you listen real close, you can hear me choke

[Verse 4 – Deadpan Void Talk]
i don’t laugh, i don’t cry, i just stare at the ceiling
lost count of the nights i confused pain with healing
if hope was a drug, then i’m past the dealing
just a corpse with a pulse and a fake-ass feeling

nothin’ left in my chest but dust and static
she left, i ain’t break — guess i’m too damn damaged
walk through fire and i don’t feel tragic
this heart’s been dead, i just dress the casket

moonlight hits the blade on my sink
stare too long, might start to think
but thoughts too loud and my will too weak
so i light one up just to kill that streak

Ithurtsaløt2.m4a

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(Intro – whispered)

Ash on my jeans, got blood on the roses
Diggin’ my grave with the thorns she chose

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(Verse 1 / Hook Half)

Screamin’ in the night with the blade on skin
Wrists drip red where the dark begins
Waterfalls flood but the pain don’t stop
Just a ghost in the air when my heartbeat drops

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(Verse 2)

Ash in my lungs, can’t feel the fall
Cold steel thoughts when the demons call
Slit both wrists just to kill it all
Can’t live with the pain, with the war, with the wall
Voices in my head like a fucked-up song
Stress got me wrecked, been dead too long
Brain like static, I can’t take aim
So I tattoo my name with a twelve-gauge flame
Lake run black, got a brick on my leg
Sink like guilt, no prayer, no beg
No light left, just a shadow frame
Tryna end this loop, this glitch, this game

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(Verse 3)

I did it for you — yeah, I bled for you
You pulled the trigger, now I’m dead for you
Want a flower? Here’s a rose that rots
Dead in your hands, that’s your plot
Screamin’ agony, breathin’ hate
Slit my wrists at a desperate rate
Blood like Niagara, pourin’ clean
Another cold corpse in a dying dream
Fuck the pain, fuck the fame
Fuck being trapped in a coward’s name
Blame on me? I held that weight
’Til I cracked that mirror and sealed my fate

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(Hook / Chorus)

Screamin’ in the night with the blade on skin
Wrists drip red where the dark begins
Waterfalls flood but the pain don’t stop
Just a ghost in the air when my heartbeat drops
Lake got depth, tie the brick real tight
Jump with the hate, disappear from sight
Pain, blame, fame — it’s all the same
Just hate, hate, hate — that’s the game
Just hate, hate, hate — that’s the game

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(Verse 5)

Yeah, slit the wrist, let the blood drip slow
End the pain, fuck the glow
Can’t stand bein’ nothin’, I’m a ghost on show
Just wanna fade to black, bullet to the logo
End me, end this — I confess
Just a mess in a corpse dress, no rest

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(Verse 6)

Anxiety burn like a rose decayin’
She block the sun, now the sky stay fadin’
Mind full of holes, chrome on lap
No love, no god — can’t take it back
Bones-type flow, let the past collapse
Hate her, hate me, let the world collapse

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(Verse 7)

Pain’s all I feel — no numb, no peace
Hate the fame, hate the leash
I’m a glitch in the void, a whisper in gray
Ash on my jeans while I rot all day
Blood in the wine, still sip, still pray
Hate it raw, hate it all — let the devil play

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(Verse 8)

Woke up again, wish I didn’t, that’s fact
Heart don’t beat, just ticks and cracks
Mirror got a scar, can’t face that ghost
Shell of a soul on a haunted coast
Static in my head, can’t sleep, can’t eat
Tryna die in my dreams, but the pain repeats
Voices in a riot, screamin’ “now or never”
I just might tonight — flip the switch forever

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(Verse 9)

Ash in my throat, lungs full of rot
Screamin’ for help — rather get shot
No love left, just pills and a blade
Mind full of smoke, soul startin’ to fade
Fake smiles, fake gods, fake peace
Six feet deep, that’s the only release
They say “keep goin’” — I say “why?”
Rope to the ceiling, kiss the sky

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(Final Hook / Chorus – same as before)

Screamin’ in the night with the blade on skin
Wrists drip red where the dark begins
Waterfalls flood but the pain don’t stop
Just a ghost in the air when my heartbeat drops
Lake got depth, tie the brick real tight
Jump with the hate, disappear from sight
Pain, blame, fame — it’s all the same
Just hate, hate, hate — that’s the game
Just hate, hate, hate — that’s the game

tiredøftheshit.m4a

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(Verse 1 chorus)

Mob through the night with a demon in heels
Speakers blowin’ out, I don’t care how it feels
Hades in the rear tryna spark that flame
Whip too clean, got a ghost in the frame

Benz blacked out, I’m stuck in the past
1980s smoke fill the dash
Stone face, soul cold like the pavement
Name on your tongue? That’s a death engagement

Stomp it out ’til the blood look artful
DSLR—yeah, the frame look awful yeah
Ice in my grip when I swing on sight
Click-clack flash, now you out like a light

(Verse 2)

Stop creepin’, you ain’t no gremlin
Name in the dirt, now it’s stuck, no endin’
Pushed in deep like it’s quicksand grip
Watch it sink while I light my spliff

Laughin’ hard while you beg for a win
Trip, fall, crawl, then you do it again
Over and over, you stuck in the loop
Failure your brand, I just watch from the coupe

(Verse 3)

Fuck the pain, take it out on another yeah
Hades love the choke, so I’m deep undercover
Yeah, she like it rough, I don’t feel no shame
Fuck the pain away, i forgot her name

Smoke thick like it’s 1980
Mind gone dark, can’t nothin’ save me
Cold grip tight when I light that spark
Dead man walkin’, no flame in the heart

(Verse 4)

Mobbin’ through the city with the weight on my chest
Feelin’ like I’m cursed, no time for rest
Too much pain for a boy like me
Try to hold tight but I’m sinkin’ deep

Hate the pain, yeah, fuck that noise
Hate the blame yeah, never had a choice
No fame, no light, just static
Try and I try, but I’m stuck in the madness yeah

(Verse 5) 

Watch the consequences hit like yin and yang
Balance in the blood, yeah the blade still hang
Funny how we both feel the pain the same
But you drown in the bottle, I’m numb to the flame

(Verse 6) 

Fuckin’ save me, I’m lost at the rave
Glock in the bag, yeah I’m diggin’ my grave
Blow my brains out like confetti rain
Happy birthday, bitch—ain’t that insane?

(Verse 7)
Yeah, fuck the pain, fuck this shit, fuck this life
Stomp your face ‘til your teeth take flight
Kick your shins ‘til the bone give out
I’m done with it all, let the silence drown

(Outro mini chorus)

Mob through the night with a demon in heels
Speakers blowin’ out, I don’t care how it feels
Hades in the rear tryna spark that flame
Whip too clean, got a ghost in the frame

DSLR

Lyrics assisted by chat gpt
Made with looper on bandlab
Sadboy rap

(Mini talking)
Yeah I’m sick of this pain, sick of this brain
Been running from myself but I ain’t fast enough

(Verse 1)
Ash on my jeans, blood on the blade
Been crying since 2006, crying my heart out everyday since then

(Verse 2)
Like I said, I’ve been running from myself but I ain’t fast enough
Tired of the lies, tired of the drugs, tired of the pain

(Verse 3)
Tired of this shit, I haven’t slept in days
Creeping like a maze, dark soul been stuck in this pain

(Verse 4)
Tired of the pain, tired of the hurt, tired of this shit
It hurts a lot, a lot — it burns and it burns

(Verse 5)
Yeah screaming and crying, ash on my jeans, blood in the mud
That’s where my heart is

(Verse 6)
Crying everyday, it sucks but what are you gonna do
Ash in the cup, blood in the wine — the best combo

(Verse 7)
Been crying at myself, I hate myself
I hate everything about myself, it sucks

(Verse 8)
Yeah I’ve been running from myself but I ain’t fast enough
Tired of the drugs, tired of the pain, tired of the fame

(Verse 9)
I just want it to end, end, end
Crying in my room, that’s all I do
Cry on the couch, I hate this shit

(Verse 10)
Don’t understand what this means
Don’t understand the hurt, the pain, the agony

(Verse 11)
I just don’t understand
Why do I have to get treated like shit
Just why, why, why

(Verse 12)
Crying and crying, that’s all I ever know
Blood in the wine, ash in my cup
I just wanna be put down like an old dog

(Verse 13)
Lucky verse 13, give me some grace
I just want fame so I can prove everyone wrong
And live a better life

(Verse 14)

Yeah I need a safe place
Ash on my jeans, blood in my cup, mix it up
So tired of this shit

(Verse 15)
Yeah hating this pain, crying in the dark
Crying my lungs out, that’s all I can do

(Verse 16)
Nothing but a crying machine
That’s all I’m programmed to do
Just cry

(Verse 17)
Yeah when will it end, I hope it’s soon
Soon, not next week, not next moon
I hope it ends like now? Please?

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Lyrics assisted by chat gpt
Made with sampler on bandlab
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Lyrics assisted by chat gpt
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