testo:

it’s blue amy sitting on the bed
look at me with my diary
reading and translating what i wrote at twelve
and now i’m facing my past
i’m facing my wrongs
i’m facing my faith
i’m facing what my heart made

it’s strange i still feel like a baby
remember when you called me crazy
now who is crazy?
i’m still climbing your thoughts 
with my voice stronger than ever
lil girl was told to shut up but everyone was screaming

lil girl saw a world bigger than hers
and had to learn to stay still and pay respect
she was boiling up
ready for her moment to start
now she’s not gonna stop
even the shadows still make her afraid 
she would picture them 
and put them with flowers 
in an old frame
and right above 
she would write rest in peace,
rest in peace my whole life
can’t even recognise her memories
they look distant like the stars
when she’s walking down the street 
they look at her
but she feels their weight 
galaxy pressure
never sure she is on the right way
right pattern
she always thinks about the the right pattern
to put on her dress
now that she can style
only by herself 

it’s strange i still feel like a baby
remember when you called me crazy
now who is crazy?
i’m still climbing your thoughts 
with my voice stronger than ever
now i’m only looking down on you
supposed to look up at you

didn’t learn a straight line even from you
so i’ll be curving through my wrongs
but you’ll never catch me making your mistakes
lil girl is now takin the ash to fly high way
where the stars are
lil girl can stop being anxious 
when the bride believes in her
has she found faith in herself?
we don’t know yet
we just know she’s choosing to devote her life
to protect lil girls like her
existential pressure weighing on her shoulders
she just feels like a baby
but she’ll never comprehend 
those childish self made grown ups
even if she’s prolly one of them 
only difference is she’ll put her face
on everything she does
unlike those people growing up
growing up you’ll know
how to make up
when you fucked up
i can assure you
everything she sees,
everything she does
feels fucked up
they say she wants the world
her standards are too high
but you’ll always find her begging for an apology
you won’t hear the end of it
till she has what she wants
she’s not gonna govern you respect
so her world would finally collide 

it’s strange i still feel like a baby
remember when you called me crazy
now who is crazy?
i’m still climbing your thoughts 
with my voice stronger than ever
now i’m only looking down on you
supposed to look up at you

ig: blue.amy_
rec/mix/master: manano.c24