dethtech

(sic)

wasting away another shitty week
my future's looking pretty bleak
now all i do is fucking whine
and call kids faggots online
i know i should probably get some help
but i don't really care about myself
my life just seems so damn cruel
'cause i peaked back in middle school

i'm just another screw up that refuses to grow up
i'm stuck in hell and i can't tell which way is up
no luck, i'm so fucked
get fucked you bitch
don't try, just quit
i'm too unfit
i'm fried to shit

i'm going nowhere and i don't care
'cause i'm well aware my life's beyond repair
never worked out where i wanted to go
feels like it's too late
guess i was just too slow

everyone's passing me by
seems too pointless to try
all my friends outgrew me
act like they never even knew me
being me feels so humiliating
that's why i spend all day dissociating

i got no drive
don't feel alive
losing my mind
i'm out of time

Going Nowhere

featuring @luvwillow

i know that you never really liked me
it's okay i only wanted your body
there's no way i'm gonna make it now
'cause i'm too burnt out and feel too let down
i hate myself and the way i think
somebody like you could ever be in sync
with my fucked up thoughts and bad ideas
for the first time i can see things clear

an acquired taste
so out of place
i could never look you in the face
maybe that's why you went mia
never knew the right words to say
thinking about you is pretty sad
how can i miss something i never had?
give me a chance and i'd run right back
i already know it's too late for that

i'm such a big loser
i can't find my words anymore
haven't been happy since age four
i'm lonely stuck here being poor
it's not my fault that you just suck
kill myself i'm a bastard who lost his luck
if i could take your pain away
i think i'd do it another day

even now i'm still hoping
at this point i'm just coping
never gonna get far
complaining with my guitar

an acquired taste ft. luvwillow

i let go of what made me whole
and dug myself a deeper hole
i fucking hate being alone
but it's all i've ever known
there's nobody left to care
so why the fuck am i still scared?
i don't think there's any coming back from this

i can't find any bliss

can't take living in this skin
did my life ever really begin?
sink into my cold sheets
don't wanna wake up this week

i'd ask you to stay
but you're too far away
i don't know if i can take another day
i wanna find a way
to not be so afraid
maybe then i could fix this mess i've made

i'm the worst of lovers
we'll never find each other
i'm a jerk, i'll suffer
and you'll just find another

Bliss

@crustsox cover

i don't know how to sing

Kind Stranger

i think there's something wrong with me
nobody seems to disagree
i just can't take it anymore
wanna slam my head against a door

why do i hate being awake?
guess my life was a mistake
why does everyone have to hate me?
i'm getting sick of being me

i'm sick of waking up
everyday's the fucking same
so sick, i've given up
i've only got myself to blame

it's hard to believe that i'm still here
and it's getting worse with every passing year
now i don't like anybody that i know
they're all just better at letting go

Sick

i lay awake at night
'cause i don't feel alright
i'm not gonna get any better
not now, not fucking ever
so i curl up into a ball
try to forget who i am at all
then i'll just stare at my bedroom wall

3 am and i'm sad again
i just want this pain to come to an end

tears start to fill my eyes
no one is here to see me cry
oh why do i deserve this?
i feel so fucking worthless
nobody lies by my side
can't see the hell i try to hide
as i sleep inside my cell i dream of suicide

3 am

i'm not sure that i exist
never took any shots, so i never missed
this vacant feeling persists
i can't take living like this
staring at my screen is my only routine
i don't know where i've been since i turned sixteen

no friends to who i can confide
i'm not dead, but i don't feel alive
i never seem to have the time
spending all of my days online
wishing i had someone here to talk to
i've been forgotten by everybody i knew

i'm falling away, further everyday
i got lost trying to find my way
losing my grip on reality
another victim of a self induced tragedy

feel like i'm gonna black out
stuck in this game, i wanna back out
i can't continue without someone to lessen my doubt

dethtech

whatever