featuring @purg1900
produced by @prodbyzanaris
mixed by me

verse 1 @youngkeygen

ive tried so many times
but its fine, but its fine
blood drippin from my eyes
cry under sadness sky
only thing i ask is why
do i wanna fucking die
so restricted, hands are tied
free me from the pain inside
i dont want2 cause more pain
lay at my window watching rain
did i dig myself too deep?
or am i real fucking weak?

chorus @youngkeygen
drown me out in april showers
fucked my life up does it matter
14 years of my life wasted
all my memories have faded
lay my corpse down inna bed of flowers
decay slowly evry hour
make my soul leave my body
laying down im disembodied

verse 2 @user-934352348
free me from this pain inside
im not gnna lie imma die b4 its 9
take these drugs jus 2 fuck me up
I DONT LIKE 2 BE MYSELF SO I GET FUCKED UP
i dont know what i am
i feel like imma fuckin burden, man thats all that i am
fuck my mind imma die tonight
IMA FUCKIN BE A NO ONE TILL THE DAY I DIE
free me from this pain inside
im not gnna lie imma die b4 its 9
take these drugs jus 2 fuck me up
I DONT LIKE 2 BE MYSELF SO I GET FUCKED UP

chorus @youngkeygen
drown me out in april showers
fucked my life up does it matter
14 years of my life wasted
all my memories have faded
lay my corpse down inna bed of flowers
decay slowly evry hour
make my soul leave my body
laying down im disembodied

ill never see heaven ft purg prod zanaris

i know y'all was waiting for this one

lyrics
oh i wish you'd stop and talk to me
how i wish you gone, and walk away
oh i wish you'd stop and talk to me
oh i wish you'd stop and walk with me

oh where'd you go
i wanna know
don't leave me stranded
leave me cold
soul to be sold
soul to be sold

let me know
it's getting old
who have we told
i don't know
under control
under control

we don't need a reason
you part of the reason
that i can't feel it anymore

body on the floor
there's blood on the floor
and you at my door
something can't ignore

oh i wish you'd stop and talk to me
how i wish you gone, and walk away
oh i wish you'd stop and talk to me
oh i wish you'd stop and walk with me

oh where'd you go
i wanna know
don't leave me stranded
leave me cold
soul to be sold
soul to be sold

let me know
it's getting old
who have we told
i don't know
under control
under control

walk away
ion wanna talk today
i can't do this everyday
ion wanna go insane

ion wanna go insane
but the second that you talk to me
is the second that i entertain
is the second that i entertain

UNDER CONTROL

IMHIM ft iayze [ Mingo ]

weirdo👽👾(IMMORTAL x SWITCH)

"brain stew"

tell me why i shiver at night alone in my room
when i think a little too much I feel my brain start to stew
to the point where if I open my mouth up they'll all come loose
I don't got a single thing to lose to tell you the truth
so let me spill it out on you before i kill myself boo
because the longer i dont talk, the more I feel I'll stay mute
all the thoughts that boil in my head they feel like a noose
i cant escape the way they choke me out while thinking of you
i know it sounds so fucking twisted when I put this in words
cuz how i feel is complicated, but what isn't with her?
I told you how she broke my heart, yeah, you were with me, you heard
I want you to hold my hand, as i go spread my wings in the hearse
I won't leave you though, I just don't know how else to express
I feel I have no breath with all this shit on my chest
you're the only one that understands me more than the rest
i feel stupid writing 'bout you, but I won't drop the pen
I'll keep going nonetheless, I cut myself on the desk
let me finish up this page, I watch it soak up the red
I put my life into these songs, all the tears and the sweat
and not to mention all my time, but fuck it all, I digress
i have a tendency to off go on tangents, i feel the devil speak
his words exit my lips, when I'm truly too fucking dead to speak
his thoughts are in my head, I'm possessed, I don't think I'll get to see
a day past twenty, I thought I'd be dead when I was seventeen
a long year later and im feeling the same way
my ship is fucking sinking im so wrecked, I scream mayday
my lungs fill up with water, when I look at her chain lace
so I can better appreciate all the air that you gave me
I know I sound like im dumb when i talk this in my songs
This shit it comes from my heart, but really, girl, really how could it not?
With all the shit that I was, and all that broke me apart
Which part of me do you love? me, or who I'm gonna become?
I gotta admit that I be confused from abuse
I swear its nothing about you, its from the blacks and the blues
but that just motivates me more to write these songs on the move
catch me up on top the moon, yeah imma take you here too
I been walking so damn long, you see the blood on these shoes?
I don't think there's hope for me, I do this shit all for you
I don't really got a future, but I want one for you
but yeah, one of these days, you know imma run from my room

SPOTIFY

'brain stew' [prod. tundra beats]

Safe's Song

She broke me

[Lyrics]

[Arfid]

I hate all these drugs 
I keep my mind straight
I just had enough 
No you can’t take me own thing
I hate all these drugs 
I keep my mind straight
I just had enough 
No one will feel my pain

Its just hard to think straight 
Even when ur right there 
I just wanna fight back 
You can make me fight back
i jus feel made me broken 
In my emotions

I jus hate my mind
I cant even think straight
Even when you cry
I jus wanna go bang
Only time I’m fine 
Is the time im wit u

I jus hate my mind
I jus need to think straight
Even when you cry
I jus wanna go bang
Only time I’m fine 
Is the time im wit u

[key]

let me be your victim, take advantage of me
ima disappear, plz forget ab me
answer should be clear, its not longer we
why am i still here if everyone hates me?
baby its ok, ik u hate me too
been more than a year, wanna forget ab u

laying in my bed, wonder if its my fault
better off dead, say that to myself
fucked up in the head, bleed on the asphalt (x2)

Hate ft.youngkeygen (iof)

Arfid (@fukuarfid)

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