The title of this track is directly referred to a specific place in New York City. For residents of the district of Queens, especially for those from the family-oriented Middle Village area, Juniper Valley Park is a special place, where they can meet people, take a stroll, play football or tennis, run at the stadium, or spend time with family and friends at some special events. One evening in the late Fall I went for a walk to Juniper Valley Park when suddenly, out of nowhere, a strong wind began to blow, while the trees and even swings started swaying from side to side. Then I looked up at the sky that seemed to be cut open, kept falling down gravitating toward the park, and I felt like being at the center of the universe. This is how I remember that incredible evening and I hope this song fully reflects this amazing feeling. Enjoy!

Kamil Walczak - JUNIPER VALLEY EPICENTRISM (Alt.)

Emotionally very challenging song about the joint drug use as a method of escapism from harsh reality and troubles associated with everyday life. The initial title of this track was “The Golden Shot” which is a reference to the best know but rare method to commit suicide by the intake of drugs. However, it is not always easy to figure out if the golden shot was just an accidental intoxication or a real suicide (without a farewell letter left behind). Anyway, I lost a few good friends to drug abuse, and the entire Grunge Movement collapsed largely because of the drug addiction of its leaders. Somehow, deep inside, I felt obliged to write a song like this one… My drug of choice is gothism. Enjoy!

Kamil Walczak - ESCAPISM ON DEMAND

This track is a result of my highly valued and close collaboration with Wojciech Makowski, who is still my dearest friend since elementary school. It started with a few lines of text in which Wojciech described his loneliness, sitting for hours in an empty room. This feeling reminded me of my childhood trauma and several drastic scenes that I experienced as a victim of domestic violence from my father, all of which happened behind the closed door of an empty room (although there were unwritten neighborhood agreements and social consent for this type of practices). We somehow put these things together and this sad song came out smoothly as some sort of mash-up. Enjoy!

Kamil Walczak (feat. Wojciech Makowski) - EMPTY ROOM

Kamil Walczak - JUNIPER VALLEY EPICENTRISM

Em & Double-U - SHORTCUT

Em & Double-U - BONDAGE OF EXISTENCE (Dehet Sinn Cover)

Hanging Graveyard - DAYBREAK RESURRECTION

Hanging Graveyard - MELROSE BALLROOM DEATHROCKISM

Produced by Mark Xenophontos 

Lyrics by Mark Xenophontos 

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Double shame that drowned me in the rain
Pulled me down a deep and dark hole
My weak flesh burning out in vain
Couldn't lift an inch to stay whole
Was dying there with no pulse or flinch
Losing ground, inch by bitter inch

Oh God come save me from myself
Before I stumble further down
This trauma's screaming out for help
These wounds are screaming loud
I can't let it end without a sound

I can't keep the secret any longer
Can't pretend I've got it all together
Can't pray when I don't feel spiritual
The weight keeps pulling me under
So come and help me find the way
Need Your light to break through the grey

Show me how to be stronger
Can't keep this secret any longer
No more lies, no more shame
Breaking free from all this pain
No more lies, no more shame
I'm calling out Your name

Need something more than me
More than what these eyes can see
When temptation comes around to betray
Every promise that I made

Gotta be a better man today
Gotta rise above this grave
'Cause I know what I believe
Even when my heart's afraid
Oh God I'm reaching out my hands
Before I fall too far away

This battle raging deep within
I need Your strength to make a stand
Can't fight these demons on my own
I can't keep the secret any longer
Can't pretend I've got it all together
Can't pray when I don't feel spiritual

The weight keeps pulling me under
So come and help me find the way
Need Your light to break through the grey
Show me how to be stronger
Can't keep this secret any longer

No more lies, no more shame
Breaking free from all this pain
No more lies, no more shame
I'm calling out Your name

Send me to the other side
Where the darkness cannot hide
So I can't break the final seal
Won't bow down to what's not real

Send forth Your holy chariots now
Where every knee must bow and kneel
Let Your fire make me whole again
Burn away this guilty skin
Fill me with Your light within

I can't break
Won't break the seal
Send Your fire
Take me higher
Light the way

I can't keep the secret any longer
Can't pretend I've got it all together
Can't pray when I don't feel spiritual
But I'm reaching out from under
You came and helped me find the way
Your light broke through the darkest grey

Now I'm rising up much stronger
Won't keep this secret any longer
No more lies, no more shame
You broke the chains, I'm not the same

I'm free, I'm free, I'm free
No more shame
I'm free, I'm free, I'm free
Won't keep this secret anymore

No More Shame

Dragged into the cold where mercy starves and loyalty bleeds raw, we learn the truth in the jaws of the hunt.
Only the wolves forged in the crucible survive — not by strength alone, but by the instinct to rise when torn apart.
Teeth, grit, and a heartbeat that refuses to freeze.
Faith isn’t gentle… it’s survival in the wild.

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Crucible Of Wolves

Sparks by Coldplay (Metal Cover) by Gavin Kerr

Kamil Walczak is a solo artist, session musician, songwriter and music producer, who works tirelessly on several projects simultaneously. His musical journey began in the early 1990s when he played drums as a session musician. In 1992-93, he was a bassist of the Polish coldwave band, A Herd Of The Rushing Vises, which broke up after recording a demo tape "The Bad Place” (1993). Since then, he has been writing lyrics, composing and arranging songs. Since 2019, he is associated with the Metronome School of Music and Recording Studio in New York City. Among his releases are: 4 EPs (“Obscured By Gothism”, "Alternative Obscurity", “Overblown By Animosity”, "Alternative Animosity"), 4 singles (“Never Say It's Over”, "Someplace Safe", "Take Me There!", "A Coldwave Summer Breeze"), the singles collection ("By Goth Means Essential..."), and 2 full-length studio albums ("By All Means Necessary...", "By All Means Alternative..."). He is currently working on his next gothic album ("The Torchbearer Of Gothism"), being also involved in other music projects (Em & Double-U, Hanging Graveyard, Bloodmooners, Em & Triple-U).