Deep October

Drugs are cool at seventeen
by now I might just overdose
Better choices pressuring
but I'm too fucking sober though
Moms I'm in the mezzanine
How set you'd be
If I was one who stole the show
You're not here for lecturing, I hold my own
Clouded mindset
Blurred perspective
Doubt my conscience heard the message
Found my eyesight through detection?
are you blind yet? I could question
And every night I wake up in a casket made of gold
Mistress made of plastic on her mattress made of stone
I find her attractive
It's too bad she has to go
Back home to her dad's house 
I'm a bastard and he knows..
My mother thinks I'm crazy
My brother thinks I'm nothing
My father thinks he'll save me
And they'll laugh when he doesn't
To assure me my safety
I stay far from the public
And I do this shit daily
And do not try to rush it
My sister asks me "brother 
Why you being so quiet?"
I can't tell her I'm fucked up
I tell her I'm just tired 
Been up two nights on substance
And that explains my mindset
Why the family loves us
And why my drugs expire.

I can't feel love; too tired
I'm stuck inside my mindset

production: @fl0ete
mastering: Luke Miller

Brace Yourself (prod. flöte)

Gustav Ahr's Album

worlds away (prod. horse head)

cobain w/ lil tracy (prod. smokeasac)

im still learning (prod. killedmyself)

http://lilpeep.com

http://lilpeep.lnk.to/sober
https://youtu.be/xAMgQQMZ9Lk

the brightside (prod. smokeasac)

Come Over When You're Sober

save that shit (prod. smokeasac x iivi)

Awful Things ft. Lil Tracy (prod. by smokeasac x IIVI)

produced by @teendepression 

art by https://twitter.com/TrapSirC

lyrics:

i used to be scared to just be myself
right until i fucking caved and just changed myself
twitching on the floor i dont need no help
i need to dump my thoughts on someone else

smoke up a zip all to myself
all this marijuana just kills my health 
i cough more than i can speak
if block that thought i dont feel so weak

if i block that thought i dont feel so weak
time moves fast and life looks bleak
before i pass i wanna live my dream

nights grow longer i lose sleep
mind grows stronger limbs grow weak
just put me out of my misery

i couldnt fuck with the vices soon
all of the shit has subsided blue
waters are filling my eyelids
i think im reaching the island

come out the water and feel renewed
all of the troubles have left from you
go do whatever you wanted to
when life doesnt matter its possible

oh god
how long have you been standing there
lights grow dim
i cant get air
i cant win and its not fair
and i cant move so get the fuck out of here

i couldnt win if i wanted
continue it when i say stop it
nothing else could ever hurt me
when im busy already hurting

i guess all my work was a waste shit
im getting sick of the way i say
my words cause im always eating them
and im getting sick of the taste

cold out
but no snow out
its august
but i wear a coat out

on the walk back
from your house
phones dead so i listen to the street sounds

i used to be scared to just be myself
right until i fucking caved and just changed myself
twitching on the floor i dont need no help
i need to dump my thoughts on someone else

smoke up a zip all to myself
all this marijuana just kills my health 
i cough more than i can speak
if block that thought i dont feel so weak

the island (prod. tinyforest)

produced by @white-shinobi

lyrics:

so many places to go
i wanna visit with u
whenever im not touching road
u give me something to do

baby could u call me back
i keep on trying again
girl u dont gotta hold back
just let me love u again

how u gon say u not into me
then get up on me again 
how u gon talk about trust
when u think im fucking ur friend

baby i know u been playing me
that shit it tears me apart
but i cant really complain
i knew that shit from the start

i been in the fucking zone
producers hit me on the phone
nobody can get enough of me
so why am i feeling alone

why am i feeling alone
come by cause im always home
ring the bell if i dont come
then im out back in the smoke

she always said im a stoner
but she get it from me for the low
i been feeling like a goner
but i guess thats just how it goes

im so sorry but 
this cant wait
i needed to go
i needed to tell u everything and then some more
i needed to know
if we feeling cold

u cant help but pull away from me
sometimes words are hard to believe
this may sound crazy if it dont make sense
so let me run it by one more time again like

so many places to go
i wanna visit with u
whenever im not touching road
u give me something to do

baby could u call me back
i keep on trying again
girl u dont gotta hold back
just let me love u again

so many places to go
i wanna visit with u
whenever im not touching road
u give me something to do

baby could u call me back
i keep on trying again
girl u dont gotta hold back
just let me love u again

wintr nites + morning rain (prod. white shinobi)

produced by @idealismus

this track is completely non-profit

lyrics:

the comedown
nothing good happens in the come down

u are now hearing bout the come down
slept in late put the song out late
always high as fuck when i walk round
took that nap cause i been too baked

u are now hearing bout the come down
ice cube tray in the bong ok
i just wanna pull up rolls royce now
but life just didnt work out that way

life just didnt work out that way

slept in late put the song out late
always high as fuck when i walk round
took that nap cause i been too baked
u are now hearing bout the come down
ice cube tray in the bong ok

homie wake up at four
10 alarms said 8
but i been up all night and soon enough ill be up all day
working hard no pay
i dont care it feels great
accomplishments im glad i made

living the dream and the dream way too lucid
all of my fans said they knew i would do it
im never stopping so dont get it twisted
im sorry but music is over the mrs

808 earthquake
am i always sad no way
sacrifices by drake
hell nah i feel great

u are now hearing bout the come down
slept in late put the song out late
always high as fuck when i walk round
took that nap cause i been too baked

u are now hearing bout the come down
ice cube tray in the bong ok
i just wanna pull up rolls royce now
but life just didnt work out that way

the comedown (prod. idealism)

produced by @idealismus

cover art by SirC at https://twitter.com/TrapSirC

this song is completely non profit

lyrics:

i been feeling kind of lonely
maybe i should try and find somebody decent for me
i dont need no one to hold me
just that some of these ideas i have need to reach somebody elses ears
falling out with my peers
i dont enjoy nobody elses company and im scared
nobody really knows me
well enough to say whats wrong with me
and the people there that try deserve the deepest of apologies

took me 6 months
but i blew past
miss my medication
got brain zaps
looking at the scene
i dont reflect rap
im a skinny freckled kid
with no face tats

i live the life
if u minus all the ammunition
bitch i do the drugs
but i never wanna go to prison
my own blood turn on me
to see that shit is sickening
but i thank em for my lyrics
cause they fueled the feelings

blueberry og straight out the deal
my exes tell me im cold and i should learn how to feel
i dont feel no love because i know its never real
every girl i meet just want mcdonalds fries and a pill

i cant connect with them
the only one i liked wont respond again
id love to prove that ive evolved from then
ill never be back in that apartment

sap (prod. idealism)

instagram- fatherfuneral
-----------------------------------

IM ALWAYS NUMB
IM ALWAYS STUCK
LIKE HOW THE FUCK
U COME UNDONE?
A CONUNDRUM
NEED ADVICE
BITE MY TONGUE
WHILE IM YOUNG
IM AFRAID THE LONG RUN
WILL BE ROUGH
WE’LL BE TOUGH..

MAMA ILL BE DAMNED TO KNOW
YOURE HIGH OFF THE ANTIDOTE
NOW FOLLOWED BY A PHANTOM AS
HIS HAND CREEPS UP YOUR PANTY HOSE
THIS IS WHY IM SCARED OF GHOSTS
GREW UP SAW YOU DANCING FOR
A MAN WHO LOOKS SATANIC SO
IM FRANTICALLY
PANICKING
INSANITY ALL IN MY FAMILY
NEVER TAUGHT ME TO PREAPARE FOR THINGS
THEY SAID ITS ALL JUST HEREDITY
I THINK ITS NONSENSE
THEY ALL JUST WANT ME 
TO GIVE MY LIFE AWAY
IM THINKING POSITIVE
NEGATIVE FORCES
DRAINING MY ENERGY
NEED TIME AWAY IN DIFFERENT PLACES
GET ME AWAY FROM HERE
YA 
REGULAR BASIS
EVERY DAY SHIT
ANOTHER HEMISPHERE
YA 
AND I CAN TYPICALLY 
JUST IGNORE IT
BUT I WANT ANYTHING FIOR ME AND MY SHORTY
SHE HAS EMPATHY FOR WHATS IMPORTANT
AND IVE BEEN LISTENING TO HER LIL GORGEOUS 
THOUGHTS AND SYMPATHY
I DONT DESERVE IT 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GbnrZ7Hd4x0

Instrumental created/produced/composed by @kaynives & @atbrehant

My vocals mastered by @darkskyparadox AGAIN

thanks to my girlfriend for the image <3

https://soundcloud.com/kaynives/rapideyemovement

SCARED OF GHOST [prod. KAY NIVE$ &  BREHANT x DARKSKYPARADOX]

produced by @idealismus

this song is completely non profit

lyrics:

ash in my lungs hard to breath
gloss grey m4 two seats
imma hit the gas and rip this fuckin lullaby
im finessing up until the day i gotta die

in the back of the function getting stupid high
could you say that shit again because im hella fried
getting up and socializing would be suicide
i just want a quarter pounder meal, 
but get it supersized
im feeling good tonight 
sitting out back at a friends house
in the deck lights

pool water keep reflecting off the moonglow
tequila shots in the patio
usually the time is slow when its a shit time
but its great and its slo mo

no please no photos
just memories you could see the best view
its the best when you got no one tryna best you
cause they just wishin for the best you

ash in my lungs hard to breath
gloss grey m4 two seats
imma hit the gas and rip this fuckin lullaby
im finessing up until the day i gotta die

ash in my lungs hard to breath
gloss grey m4 two seats
imma hit the gas and rip this fuckin lullaby
im finessing up until the day i gotta die

patio (prod. Idealism)

produced by @idealismus

this song is completely non profit

lyrics:

sorry i was couch locked
i heard you knock but i couldnt get the door knob
that excuse applies to so many people this year
but its not my fault you in your feelings
on my riff raff shit
blueberry rocketship
your tonsils out your mouth
when i split your bottom lip

the flow just came to me
the belt has double g's
im facing bong rips and i blow em off the balcony

im feeling presidential
whole squad deep queen street in a rental
no one get inside my mental
but i could shutter island someone if i need to

the fear is colour and its bleeds through
fuck im only here to greet you
why you talking getting drinks like we should plan it
i didnt even wanna meet you

december christmas party
last year dont get me started
new year was so inviting
compared to the one before it

christmas party (prod. idealism)

produced by pilgrim at www.youtube.com/channel/UCCDlc0Nw…2jQPEX6A/featured

lyrics:

i phone down to one percent i know
you expect a call from me i know
we supposed to link before the snow
you wanted to go out before its cold

i been loftin i fucked up i know
getting sick of me and girl it shows
you deserve it better you should know
but im not putting shit before the flow

someone hit my page and check me out
how you always this when i dont
you been getting jealous and it shows
try and make your mark before i go

before im fucking bitches getting dough
driving lamborghinis getting dome
girl you know im playing thats a joke
how come you can never take a joke

75% tinted
salad bowls its not spinach
got supernova got purple cheese got blueberry up in it

crack open that dart
this batch swisher pull harsh
this weed smoke smellin fart
you could see the cherry in the dark

i phone down to one percent i know
you expect a call from me i know
we supposed to link before the snow
you wanted to go out before its cold

i been loftin i fucked up i know
getting sick of me and girl it shows
you deserve it better you should know
but im not putting shit before the flow

i didnt mean to hurt you
grown woman with the grey goose and a curfew
i should be more careful
you cant block emotions like a learned to
you cant face the pain when someone hurt you

you sad as fuck you sure look like it
get someone else cause i been biting

i phone down to one percent i know
you expect a call from me i know
we supposed to link before the snow
you wanted to go out before its cold

i been loftin i fucked up i know
getting sick of me and girl it shows
you deserve it better you should know
but im not putting shit before the flow

my phone cracked as fuck but shit im broke
life is life and thats just how it goes
lately i dont like the way it flows
ill change its direction i suppose

gotta a couple friends out on the ropes
they been fuckin up thats how it goes
i been selfish i been staying home
someones gotta say it i suppose

i know (prod. pilgrim)

produced by classixs beats found at www.youtube.com/channel/UCkNqXC7nc4gtHQ8cKU48iow

lyrics:

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

hit me with a feature boy just know this is art
come at me with garbage and ill rip it apart
honestly i been about it prior to you
and i dont need a fucking friend i need a drink and a dart

i dont even smoke but i think i should start
take a couple years and give em back to the dark
eliviate the pain and fucking take out my heart
eliviate the pain and give me back to the dark

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off

they want a love song
but i havent felt love in a minute
its been so long
truthfully im not sure if i was ever in it
but now its all gone
the people and the visions we both thought of as vivid
thought of as lucid
fuck all the bullshit
strangle and beat up and fucking spit on the cupid
im so gone
scotch and a spliffy had got me saying some shit 
i never dreamt of
sertraline pills im not an artist im a motherfucking
pill box
right now fuck the flashing lights i think id rather see a 
red dot
headshot
maybe its time that i met god

4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

i cant finish project
or put it in motion
everythings sounds shitty
by the damn second verse
got some real friends
sending me some warm texts

but its a shame that my phone dont work

i got debt on debt
u like my shit oh bet
i might not make it for a while
cause im fucked in the head
find me sleepin in bed
i got a 12 hour rest
imma wake up for an hour then go do it again
i needa wean off

give a fuck if im dependent on the meds
as long as i get up and think enough to make a track
its weird to have a thousand people screaming what i said
im good at working under pressure when im sad i write the best
smoke alot of weed but im addicted like its crack
i been rippin blunts until i feel it in my back
when you adopt the music you adopt it till u dead
your brain'll change and you can fire thoughts like your a gat

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

wean off (prod. classixs beats)

produced by @paysrmusic

lyrics:

imma try to be sober for a week
tossing turning i been fucking up the sheets
why continue when the futures looking bleak
barely living and my chest is scaring me

i could give you the attention that you seek
i could help a thousand people to their feet
i could fucking save a life but never me
dont you try cause theres no way your saving me

i could feel heart palpatations happen when i breathe
i could feel the acid climbing everytime i eat
they say its a scary life
take this itll work
its been half a year
and im only feeling worse

residential doctors tell me its anxiety
i could fucking tell you that now get to helping me
i wonder what the feelings like of breathing normally
cant identify the happiness when its so new to me

slow down
i cant even
smoke now
i been on the same damn
come down
since this time last year
this time last year
this time last

march now
hot or cold i never go out
see my friends like once a week at best
cause im in the zone now
im not myself when its cold out

i been seeing shadow figures 
in the corner of my vision
i been thinking bout my friends
and all their thoughts and all there feelings
i dont think they really like me
and that thought really frightens me

im being honest
and that doesnt happen alot

honesty (prod.  PAYSR)

produced by nicholas allan found at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChXjXO9F6i4O8fnrQc1lpzA/about

lyrics:

mouth like guns
lately all it do is blow smoke
ill never find new love
if im chasing the one from before
fuckings not fun
when it doesnt feel like before
got me checking every newsfeed
as soon as i walk in my door

cold like numb
had to wipe the pictures from my phone
swept up moved on
but i feel her touch to my bones
if i ever blow up
will i see your name on my phone
promise i would never judge you baby
how the fuck could i judge home

watching the process of falling
in love with a person other than me
i dont think i can handle this
but ill unconditionally
love you, even if its not me,
with you, even if you hate me,
i just wanna see you happy
thats been helping me breathe
baby

come back and grind your body on mine
we kiss we hitting our teeth
bit lips until they would bleed
we'd strip and take off the sheets
lights on she said she wanna see love making
youll come round eventually
you can be as late as you please
they can build my grave with two seats
baby

mouth like guns
lately all it do is blow smoke
ill never find new love
if im chasing the one from before
fuckings not fun
when it doesnt feel like before
got me checking every newsfeed
as soon as i walk in my door

cold like numb
had to wipe the pictures from my phone
swept up moved on
but i feel her touch to my bones
if i ever blow up
will i see your name on my phone
promise i would never judge you baby
how the fuck could i judge home

my home (prod. nicholas allan)

produced by pharaoh vice

lyrics:

quarter ounce in a tupperware still smellin thru
pick a track and i beat it up till its black and blue
applejack in my alchohol and im shifting views
only do what i tell me to and i just cant lose

w's ill take all of you and stay undefeated
pot nuggets like a minecraft server they always seeded
come up ripleys believe it or not, you dont gotta believe it
black cap polo cap tracksuit adidas

i mean it im so high im laxed on venus
built my mind to battle demons
if theres a future for me i know my friends could forsee it
fortune teller dont you tell me what your seeing

disaronno
giving me a wobble
tequila shots
droppin lime into the bottle
lookin like a fly 
with the way im on my shit
with the way i rub my hands
when i know im going in
when im stacking rubber bands
gotta count that shit again
5's are blue and hundreds brown
when u counting canadian

double sour with the bars and then the timing
make the music taste just like a lemon lime ting

quarter ounce in a tupperware still smellin thru
pick a track and i beat it up till its black and blue
applejack in my alchohol and im shifting views
only do what i tell me to and i just cant lose

quarter ounce in a tupperware still smellin thru
pick a track and i beat it up till its black and blue
applejack in my alchohol and im shifting views
only do what i tell me to and i just cant lose

your girl blowing my twitter feed

that pussy want me like fancy feast

test my bro before testing me

squad full of big dogs i know they'll eat you up like pedigree

riding dirty like mad max
got lights iun the whip like cash cab
broccoli on my dome and
my girl hot as fuck like dab smoke
she loving me like lucy
we rippin j's like juicy
were in the bed she gimme head
then ride the tube no fousey

in the cut like infection
i made the cut like an athelete
im one manning this boy band
might fuck around and go zayn malik

fuck around and go harry styles

fuck around and go jb

not emo rap bitch fuck a rawr fuck studded belts and fuck xd

i been building up xp

everybody tryna make a genre
but no one making no masterpiece
couldnt care about an image
got no crowd pleasing aesthetic

i write bars, wear random clothes, dont cut my hair
dont sweat it

wake up get high
lets get it

quarter ounce in a tupperware still smellin thru
pick a track and i beat it up till its black and blue
applejack in my alchohol and im shifting views
only do what i tell me to and i just cant lose

quarter ounce in a tupperware still smellin thru
pick a track and i beat it up till its black and blue
applejack in my alchohol and im shifting views
only do what i tell me to and i just cant lose

Deep October

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