bleh

Heart break fast u gotta show it
No new friends like ion know shit
Heart beat drums all in my potion
Fuck this world i hate the notion

Believe it or not
Look me in my eyes
Believe it or rot
Believe it or die

we're all just gonna die anyways so lets get high

yuke [@trapnn] - fruitfly (prod. me hoe)

w/ @six-days-after-christmas

like a deer in headlights 
when i saw your face i froze in fear 
ran back home in hopes that 
all the thoughts i had would dissapear 
thinking bout ur face while sitting sippin on some shitty beer
lay in bed dreaming that maybe one day 
youd be near 

monday wasnt good at all 
walking past you in the hall 
i saw you with your friends 
laughing and joking  at someones expense i 
didnt know them 
but im glad it wasnt me 
cus im hoping 
maybe i can talk to you at least

i cant get any closer 
my friends told me walk up but i dont even know her
i havent had this feeling in a while itold her
i know how it endsmaybe try when we're older 

cuz its i hate you and you hate me
your lifes a little more private but i'll still see 
cuz if ur all i need you're all i'd be
but i cant see that much from here i'll just see u in my sleep

deer in headlights

you gave birth in july

life is a bitch n i hate her.

https://open.spotify.com/track/2dVF6UbTqFC050PLICqSXt?si=6a462d1d1fb34d6f

prod me ft @copics

@requiem-for-you
i wanna follow u home
in the dark i roam
in the dark im prone
waiting for u dear

the cold air in october
smells the best when u are sober
too bad im hungover
i was feelin pretty sad

@copics
tell me whats wrong with you
mess with my head
its all you know
its all you think
sometimes it gets to me
rid your ignorance towards me
and youll see

october w/ crayon

from october 3rd prod @six-days-after-christmas

im just trying to enjoy this shitty life of mine
i cant sit and cry its all just wasted time
i could spend it working hard but i just cant write
the way i treated u was really fucking wrong this time
and when u told me its forever i was nodding out
but the way youre always watchin its not hard to doubt
i would spot you at a show even if 10 meters down
i dont think id say a word cuz it would just make you frown

staring at the corner of my room
the lamps not real but still feels real to you
just break me down until i split in two
its all for you

merry christmas you stupid bitch

https://open.spotify.com/track/35YvzadMQu9evj1PXw3xdw?si=O9mqalcaR_SZgbRXj9xe1Q&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A6ijYfYb03EIxm7pHHHmOPn

prod me

i dont recognise myself in the mirror
im looking so much thinner i
didnt eat my dinner
my heart just isnt in it

nothing ever feels real anymore
im passed out bleeding on the bathroom floor
consumed by derealization im waiting for
u to bring me back to reality once more

u were bleeding all over
i was the first to notice
cant believe no one saw this
girl u looked so perfect

i dont recognise myself in the mirror
im looking so much thinner i
didnt eat my dinner
my heart just isnt in it

derealization

https://soundcloud.com/menthol100s/demos-and-then-some-alex-g

ngl i do not feel like titling these i found them on my laptop

wifiskeleton - demo #9 (crashing, crashing)

woke up with this feeling before
now i hate my life cus my girls a whore
taking pills till i fall on the floor
ill be one with the wind if i drink some more
her love youll never find in me
im stuck looking for the remedy
just take me away
just take me away
wont forget how it feels
wanna kill this bitch but it seems too real
wont forget how it feels
yea i cheated on you now its such a big deal
"please stab me" bitch gladly
feining for her love thought it would be everlasting
please just take me away
just take me away

love isnt real you fucking whore

real eyes realize real lies

I can’t feel my head, its somewhere inbetween her legs
Not in the basement was making music in the shed
My brains on the walls of my room and my bed
Helen

But maybe I’m just psycho
It’s getting worser I know
I need you for survival
I hope your suicidal
Because I’ll kill you soon

helen - im such drunkkkk fuckkkkk -_-

I guess its put up or shut up
Your on your own two feet
I finally found myself a girl that’s really just like me

Your just so pretty like a diary
It really feels like its	 all a setup
It’s that she’s really just so sweet to me
It really feels like its a setup

helen - yep now shes after me

prod me

i love the way u smell
i love the way u talk
and the colour of ur nails
i love the way u walk
yea that shit could cast a spell
but i hate ur new boyfriend
i hope ur doing well :/

saw u in class
pulled up ur ig
i kno i never asked
cuz im way too shy to be
talkin to u
my request went right thru
saw the noti on ur phone
but u didnt have a clue
who i was

i know i cant
tell u how im really feeling
cuz ur sometimes so demeaning
and that crushes my being

but i got a crush on u baby
pls love me no maybes
yea the way u flip ur hair
it drives me fucking crazy
kill me and degrade me
i swear i can take it
anything to be with u
i kno that we can make it

(i know i cant
tell u how im really feeling
cuz ur sometimes so demeaning
and that crushes my being)

i love the way u smell
i love the way u talk
and the colour of ur nails
i love the way u walk
yea that shit could cast a spell
but i hate ur new boyfriend
i hope ur doing well :/
x2

hope ur doing well

https://open.spotify.com/track/5rFqazROwCjEN83I91xFHW?si=72a9658bf5e54163

prod me ft @revivle ...again ^_^

@requiem-for-you
oooh
baby whatchu do
i dont have a clue
cus im not rlly one to listen
you
broke my heart in two
it never regrew
now im jus cold and heartless

u never said bye to me
im so anxious im biting
my nails ill gnaw my skin
till i can feel something

@revivle
late night talks
i could talk to you for hours baby
you dont listen to me
break my heart and call me crazy
i know i cant play these games
talk to me like whys that so hard
i just wanna feel something
got a past that im not proud of

gave it all that i could
(blame it all on me)
i cant leave but i should 
(i cant seem to stop)

stop myself from texting you again
maybe we were better off as friends
wondering when the lyings gonna end
baby whachu....

@requiem-for-you + @revivle
oooh
baby whatchu do
i dont have a clue
cus im not rlly one to listen
you
broke my heart in two
it never regrew
now im jus cold and heartless

u never said bye to me
im so anxious im biting
my nails ill gnaw my skin
till i can feel something
x2

heartless w/ revivle

@revivle @requiem-for-you

take my time i'll listen again
i know i'll be pissed in the end
wasted my time, i know i'll be fine, 
i know that you're trying, i know that you're

playing my songs, rewrite your wrongs
think of the times that you did me wrong
sit and i cry, i look at the sky,
i recount the times that you lied

(@revivle) sooo 
what was i supposed to do? 
i thought you'd have all the answers
but i guess i was wrong in the end
you're only hurting yourself baby
i don't wanna talk
but even though its wrong
i want you all for myself
but i can't
get over the feelings i felt

rewrite your wrongs

sorry this song isn't that good i wason substances
https://open.spotify.com/track/53QPzruYbEJB124FSb5r9a?si=0913b21b94d446d5
I want a girl, that'll travel with me round the world
No friends, no plan, just a map with her name and it’s pearled
She doesn't even know me, but I write it like we met
Got a folder with her pictures, but she doesn't know it yet

I romanticize pain like it's all that I get
Yeah, she's been posting with him, but I'm somehow still obsessed

Scars on my back from the dreams that I chase
Slept on the floor with her tweet on my face
Told my therapist that I'm fine, but then I went and rotted for days

I'd starve if she told me she liked my waist

i just wanna travel

Originally showed in the discord 
I’m not trying to disrespect anybody with these uploads. I do not capitalize off of these uploads 
Just trying to get Cyrus’s music out

stupid college slut

prod me

take your time
im too busy in the morning
so dont waste your life
sitting around just mourning
i hate myself
but thats just not important
dont waste your time
dont waste your time (x2)

falling apart
all over again
ive done this so many times
youd think that id learn from it

falling apart
all over again
ive done this so many times
youd think that id learn from it
you gave me
your heart
to love
and once again ive fucked around
and ive broken it

stupid so stupid so stupid
so stupid im so dumb

stupid so stupid so stupid
how could i even love?

take your time
im too busy in the morning
so dont waste your life
sitting around just mourning
i hate myself
but thats just not important
dont waste your time
dont waste your time (x2)

bleh

madi