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Stargazer

Modern Color - New Motion

Autumn

misery

i want to sleep for 1000 years

Sinking

sinking

kenopsia

life imitates life

Into You / Void In Blue

Do Not Enter (2023 Remaster)

Lyrics:
Passing through the neon lights
to see you glittering.
God is rich and you are nothing,
hands up in the school while you fade away

Keep your shame,
I won’t be so quiet.
it’s easy to forget,
will you get what you deserve?

Wasting truth, it’s just like you
your taste is lingering.
Curtains drawn and bombs wrapped up in
cloth you claim to love while the stars fall off.

Keep your shame,
I won’t be so quiet.
With so many ways to die,
where do you pray?
Keep your shame,
I won’t be so quiet.
it’s easy to forget,
will you get what you deserve?

Keep your shame,
I won’t be so quiet.
With so many ways to die,
where do you pray?
Keep your shame,
I won’t be so quiet.
it’s easy to forget,
will you get what you deserve?

Written by: Jordan Sigmund, Lyle Sallade
Produced and engineered by: Michael Fedczuk
Drums performed by: Ray Stevens
Mixed and mastered by: Charles Stevens

Shame

Lyrics:

Settle into your shame
Let it overflow and imbue you
I think you need to feel it a little more
And I am not what you need
You were only in love with my absence
And I would do it again for the feeling

But I can't escape you
And all I've got is a gut reaction
to something like your silhouette

We are on the mend
Slowly turning to ghosts in the corner
And I will do it again, I will bring you down
And I've forgotten to think
Mixed rational thought with emotion
And I will do it again, I will bring you down

But I can't escape you
And all I've got is a gut reaction
to something like your silhouette

And you can't
Take it away from me
I feel it close now
As you're leaving

I'll settle into my shame
Let it overflow and imbue me
I think I need to feel it a little more

But I can't escape you
And all I've got is a gut reaction
to something like your silhouette
And you can't
Take it away from me
I feel it close now
Got it from something like your silhouette

Music & Words by Jordan Sigmund
Music by Jake Brown & Lyle Sallade
Written & Performed by The Standby
Produced & Mixed by Gary Cioni at The Barbershop Studios

I Saw What You Did

Lyrics:

Crawling to your cross
Drawing out the hurt
You’ve got your high beams in my rearview
And you’re running me off the road

Hit me like you mean it
Softer than before
And it’s alright, it’s alright
I’m just getting in the way

Am I trying too hard?
When I don’t know what to think?
Soft endorphins, wash over me
And rinse the pain away

Hit me like you mean it
Softer than before
And it’s alright, it’s alright
I’m just getting in the way

Hit me like you mean it
Softer than before
And it’s alright, it’s alright
I’m just getting in the way

Music & Words by Jordan Sigmund
Music by Jake Brown & Lyle Sallade
Written & Performed by The Standby
Produced & Mixed by Gary Cioni at The Barbershop Studios

Drawing Out the Hurt

Lyrics:

Cut me open
Feel me crumble at your knife
I feel nothing all the time
But I want to scream
This is an ode to all my feelings
All my friends know 'cause it killed them

Yeah
Yeah
On and on and on and on
All this constant nausea eating my insides

And I'm hiding
From all my friends inside my head
I think I'll stay at home instead
And I want to scream
This is an ode to all my healing
A reminder that I'm sinking

Yeah
Yeah
On and on and on and on
All this constant nausea eating my insides

And if I never saw your face again
That'd be okay with me
I've got this anger deep inside of me
And I can't get no relief
And nothing feels worth keeping
It's just part of the disease
And I can't take
All your bullshit

And I know that you hate it
That I can't get it straight
And you know that I hate it
That I can't keep it straight

Yeah
Yeah
On and on and on and on
All this constant nausea eating my insides

Music & Words by Jordan Sigmund
Music by Jake Brown & Lyle Sallade
Written & Performed by The Standby
Produced & Mixed by Gary Cioni at The Barbershop Studios

Constant Nausea

Lyrics:

I'm falling out of time
With my own mind
I'm getting really good
At Pushing you away
Does it feel like I'm missing
Does it feel like I died
I know that you blame yourself
Couldn't get me to stay

And I wanna be far away from here
And I wanna be far away

Peeking out of my bed frame
Just to pass the time
I'm getting really good at
Pushing you away
You all look like a stranger
In a bleeding line
Crying out for Jesus
to help you stay alive

And I wanna be far away from here
And I wanna be far away
And I wanna be far away from here
And I wanna be far away

"'cause I said so"
Don't fight it
You don't have to
It feels like I'm dying

And I wanna be far away from here
And I wanna be far away
And I wanna be far away from here
And I wanna be far away

Music & Words by Jordan Sigmund
Music by Jake Brown & Lyle Sallade
Written & Performed by The Standby
Produced & Mixed by Gary Cioni at The Barbershop Studios

Hemlock

Lyrics:

Blood on my thumb
Iron in mouth
These selfish hands
Need to shut their fucking mouths
They'd let the sun
Keep him warm
In the snow outside
Behind my house

Sleepless mind
Empty eyes
Lay next to you
All goddamn night
You've got a hold on the strings
That tug my heart
Pull them hard
Pull me apart

And I'm sick with anxiety
Making peace with my head
And I'm sick with anxiety
Making peace with my head

And this time
You tell me, tell me I've already won
But I still feel like there's a fight going on
And I'm getting better while you're asleep
But there's still some thoughts that won't leave me alone
Maybe someday I'll be cured of this
But till then I'm seeing ghosts in the corners of the room
Maybe someday I'll be cured of this
But till then I'll still feel like I'm not good enough for you
I'm not good enough for you

Maybe someday I'll be cured of this
But till then I'm seeing ghosts in the corners of the room
Maybe someday I'll be cured of this
But till then I'll still feel like I'm not good enough for you
I'm not good enough for you
For you
For you
For you
For you

Music & Words by Jordan Sigmund
Music by Jake Brown & Lyle Sallade
Written & Performed by The Standby
Produced & Mixed by Gary Cioni at The Barbershop Studios

Wintersun

Lyrics:

Slowing down
My lungs are water
Follow your phantoms
As I join you in your sleepwalk dance
Let's take
Another breath
We held close
And I'm just tripping on your innocence

Ooo
Taking all my pride
Ooo
I'm not enough, don't take it

With my eyes closed
And the taste of smoke
I'm just slipping into nothingness
With my hands
Being cut off
I felt a lot of love
And I'm just tripping on your innocence

Ooo
Taking all my pride
Ooo
I'm not enough, don't take it

Ooo
Ooo
Ooo
Ooo

Ooo
Taking all my pride
Ooo
I'm not enough, don't take it

Ooo
Ooo

Music & Words by Jordan Sigmund
Music by Jake Brown & Lyle Sallade
Written & Performed by The Standby
Produced & Mixed by Gary Cioni at The Barbershop Studios

Sleepwalk Dance

Lyrics:

Break me down
And slip into my skin
And I claim your crown
And fade into your sin
And it worked
And it worked

Break me down
And hang me on your wall
And I'll sleep it out
I might just sell my bones
And it worked
And it worked

I'm the same as you now
And you break into my
Break into my soul
And you're proud
And you break into my
Break into my soul

Break me down
And breath into my skin
And I feel your doubt
You're weakest when you win
And it works

I'm the same as you now
And you break into my
Break into my soul
And you're proud
And you break into my
Break into my soul

I'm the same as you now
And you break into my
Break into my soul
And you're proud
And you break into my
Break into my
Same as you now
And you break into my
Break into my soul
And you're proud
And you break into my
Break into my soul

written and performed by the standby
drums performed by ray stevens
engineered and produced by michael fedczuk
mixed and mastered by charles stevens

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