i didnt even try

turning 18 sucks when everybodys in your way
my girlfriends such a slut but i dont like her anyway
i know that im fucked up but can you get out of my face
my lifes in such a rutt i wish i could just die today

and i wanna kill myself i wanna end my life forever
cus the way that things are looking we will never be together
and you will say you hate my friends and i will say that its whatever
cause im so obsessed with death and you just think that youre so clever

i hate myself

idc what she doin

prod sundots


runnin circles runnin circles
round and around for you
runnin circles runnin cricles
all round the town for you
i cant picture little things cause
my mind's incapabale
of the puny little things
you want me to say to you

i dont know what ur talkin bout
my brain is focus locked on other things
that require constant attention spans
of infinite sayings

and why dont you just chill?
its not like youve endured the pain
of a 10th of what i go thru
almost every single day 

running circles

prod. olive hoover (i stole this im sorry)

can i hold your hand

sick.

lyrics:
Do you know all the promises I made to you bae?
Do you know what I meant?
When I said"I'll be right here
And steer you clear if dangers near
From what you fear
I want to see you cheer"
But I can't be

I can't be what you need
I am stuck in my place
You want me out your face
I can't be what you need
I am stuck in my place
You want me out your face

Everyday I make promises that plaque her heart
Now go watch us fall apart

Do you know all the promises I made to you bae?
Do you know what I meant?
When I said"I'll be right here
And steer you clear if dangers near
From what you fear
I want to see you cheer"
But I can't be

I can't be what you need
I am stuck in my place
You want me out your face
I can't be what you need
I am stuck in my place
You want me out your face

(I can't be what you need)
(I can't be what you need)
(I can't be what you need)
Yet I still
(Just need you babe)

promises

a cover of wifiskeleton & aether's loserclub
https://open.spotify.com/album/77K5GrVTrG8XNcTvExsPaO?si=MpSIiC0bTJyVP2Nrw3z_1Q

Ah-ah, I just can't forget
That your friends think I'm a loser and shit
I hate it
How could I say I got no regrets
Can't admit that I would lose her and shit
She waited
For me to be awake,
she wants me well for my own sake
Rumors 'bout what I take
She's hoping that it's all just fake
But she knows that it's real that's the guy that made
All those promises and never stayed
I showed her good and then I proved her wrong, then write these stupid songs (then write these stupid songs)
She understood, that who she cared for is gone...
You did this to yourself cannot blame someone else
See the future a forest where you tie the belt
You did this to yourself blame everyone else
When you leave this world there's no one to wish you well

question my sanity

anxep