definitely my best vocals, i wish i could've screamed for the middle bit though.

i wonder if misery will end.
pushed to the verge, i wish i had the nerve.
at this point in time,
i think i’d rather be dead than ok.

misery will drone,
i’m all on my own.
again alone.

i can only think.
left to drown and sink.
my wrists itch.

i have too much time to think

how long did i have
before you stopped loving me?

for how long was i alone
before you left for the final time.

lovelorn, i’m forever torn, languishing.

serrated blade on my neck
because wrists are for girls,

lovelorn evermore.

lovelorn evermore

how was it gonna work
if you weren’t there?
so i was right to unloved,
and now despaired.

how did you expect me to
save what we had?
when for the past however long
you were trying to stop loving me.

no hope, can’t cope,

no hope, i cannot cope.
thank fuck that there is rope.

how was it gonna work if you weren't there?

everybody stares and watch
they want your head on a stick
your not doing much 
its not enough

I'm so addicted to you hope that your okay

so just tell me im i perfect for you 
my dumb habits always thinking about you
ima loser all i do think about you 
ima do it kill myself to
ima do it kill myself over you
yes ik ik that you love me
that you need me
can you see me
wondering if you think about me like how i do
ima do it agin ima do agin
ima kill myself 20 agin
yes ik that im such werido 
stalking well you go to sleep
yes ik want to date me
but can you handle me
i have  massage on the wall
started think about you before i got thses withdraws
and im sorry i have thes withdraws
do you think it okay if i shoot myself agin
do you think okay if i wanna die agin
do you think okay if i just kill myself agin
cause you tell my sercts and i think like dis again
you said dont worry i worry alot
i think im schizophrenic i think alot
i wont think
just wanna be happy 
need little happines 
in a hour before i die
do you think about me
tell me if you need me
do you acc love me
cause i love you alot
i dont want to think no more

ima kill myself

do you think about me like how i think about  u demo

Bruh omg you can hear the sickness in my THOAT FUCKK

lyrics:

My dreams been falling
out my hands for a year
my thought too scratchy 
and my head it hurts
from all of the tears

In the rain its cold you know
but I cant seem to let you go
drown my sorrow with a pole
the vampire will steal your thrown

I cant accept this fate
cant stand too see you in pain

(coughs because i smoke to much and im actually fucking dying rn >_<..)

cant stand it

☠︎︎ ⋆₊ ♱ "I think I'm sick because I'm crying in the rain", ☠︎︎ ⋆₊ ♱

things are finally looking up for me
so i don't know
why im drowning in my misery
all my life 
i thought things could change
but now it seems
i will always feel this way

it's always the same as
it's always been
it'll never end
i can't help the way i am
with zero friends 
it'll never end

if it doesn't get better what's the point
living a life i can't rejoice
always pissed off or annoyed
now my life is so destroyed
it's ok though
but it's really not
lost my mind and
i lost the plot 

it's always the same as
it's always been
it'll never end
i can't help the way i am
with zero friends 
it'll never end

it'll never end

it was fun while it lasted, goodbye.

It's too much, cant take it no more, it's just too much
It's hard to survive, when you want to die
Cant take it no more, it's just too much

too much

i wanna make a video called im quitting
cause everyone loves to see you fail
but im not quitting going straight to jail
im not quitting going straight to jail

probably call it i quit or im quitting
or something if you'll click it and be like
woah whats this dude doing whats happening
whats going on

i wanna make a video called im quitting
cause everyone loves to see you fail
but im not quitting going straight to jail

im not quitting going straight to jail

im quitting (ditch effort)

@thisismyreality

this
Your an evil human 
But you can't help it 
Anymore
Don't wanna see you fall apart
Your so stupid
Your so stupid

love cupid
i think your stupid
your not that smart
didnt know you
take it this fucking far
i wanna kill you 
i wanna capture you 
i wanna see you bleed 
i wanna hurt you
you said u fcking hate me
like its my fault
i started doing some drugs
i got some withdraws
ik you hate me
like its my fault
or im i just on withdraws
do i mean nothing to you x6

why are you so evil ft  thisismyreality

you make me blush for real
stupid jerk* i love you for real
i have to go meow
i hope you know how
to reach me if you ever need a
i love you with all of my heart
i love you with all of mine
i would heart your message but his name is in vain
im sorry to say sorry im so far from saint

will i die before i know your touch
will i get to kiss you like oh so much
well i have some issues that i wont blow up
but at the end of the day well i hope its still us

how was it gonna work if you weren't there?

brumal reveries