produced by heylog

lyrics:
swear i could throw up if i keep thinking of you
you disgust me and i guess u wanted to prove
that ur shameful you gave it all up for him
just some pleasure to receive from a little bitch
i need to let it go
but it haunts me to my deepest core

surround me in this darkness whom i spare
there is plenty more for you so join me in here
i need to let u know
that u disgust me
and i can't look at u no more
get myself to do things but i never wanna do them
once i go outside i'm proud i got myself to do it
you disappoint me to the point i never wanna see you
your motions say it all from what you n him have been through

now ur shameful you gave it all up for him
oh just a finger to receive between your lips

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pleasure

original song
https://soundcloud.com/heylog/everythings-gonna-be-okay-i-promise?in=user-899306210/sets/heylog

lyrics:
laying in my arms u look so cute under the stars
your father comes outside and sees us laying in the yard
focus on the coral sky and threading both our hearts
n every time the sun sets i see u from afar
notice how i ask u things it shows i truly care
don't know what u feel i am completely unaware
well after loving you i realized no one can compare
you're the only thing i want but life's just never fair
but everything's gonna be okay, i promise
but all the things in life feel like they're falling
but i'll be fine, i'll make it through but when is it over
i spent a couple years with u and now i want no one

the evening carries little wind that travels through ur hair
u move it off ur face and put it back behind ur ear
and u caught my expression but i couldn't help but stare
the civil things like that well babe it makes it hard to bare
i'm praying for u, hoping all ur dreams come true
and i wish everything goes right for you
but i don't care if u want the same for me too
just know you're important to me, am i too?

well everything's gonna be okay, i promise
but why do all the things in life look like they're falling
but don't u worry, i'll be fine but when is it over
we spent a couple years together, now i want no one

heylog- everything's gonna be okay, i promise (slowed)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
when i burn in fire
you gave a hand
i'll try not to let go
she understands
nothing is more beautiful
than your demand
i thank u for being
so delicate

i'll decide ur demeanor to me
no ambition it was never easy
on the highway he finally came clean
how the hell could you do that to me
i thought u were my bestfriend
cus i know that they don't cut ur back
text and i won't answer, get on read
don't play w my emotions i'm so delicate
so delicate

when i burn in fire 
u gave a hand
but i might just let go
and she understands
nothing is more beautiful
than your demand
i hope i treated you
better than him

walking outside notice autumnal leaves
yellow and red and a few orangish trees
the air is fresh when i'm jogging thru this subdivision
my legs hurt.. take breath heavily
run by three deer on my right
they look at me like i'm threatening their life
the parents are guarding their fawn
sometimes i wish family could be us

autumn

All Platforms - https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/vil13/existentialist-feat-heylog-2
Featuring @heylog
Produced + Mastered by @noraevelyne
Written, recorded, and mixed by @vilsynth @heylog

(Lyrics)
You hit my car today, I'm locked in pain, it's part of your game now
I spent my childish days incarcerated to watch what the fame bout
If there's a night light in my room, want you to turn it on
She's indecisive of my doom, I see her loaded gun
She already won
I just have to pick a side, and let her know which way to cross

I know what you know, oh-oh
I know what you know, I know what you know
I know what you know, oh-oh

I feel the blood pouring out my side
I need your touch, hold me till I die
Drain the IV from my eye
They're tryna poke more needles in my skin, I don't wanna cry

Coat my skin entirely
Fold my ends, and tie me
Hold my hand and cry to sleep
It only ends when Im deceased
It's not the other way
I could get you out my life, and see some better days
But I don't want that on my record (x2)

(@heylog)
I don't think you know how much you really meant
I take in account and confess my sins
Put a bullet on my name and on a list
Cause I know, know you can't get a grip
You were made to have a role but you don't play your part
You'll start to realize it don't work when dealing different cards
And it brought me to the fact we live in different hearts
I'm tryna see the best in you but this is hard
If there's a light inside my room please turn it on
And if I see you on tv i'll turn it off
How can I speak without having to cough
And I had to get it off my chest because

(@vilsynth and @heylog)
You hit my car today, I'm locked in pain, it's part of your game now
I spent my childish days incarcerated to watch what the fame bout
If there's a night light in my room, want you to turn it on
She's indecisive of my doom, I see her loaded gun
She already won
I just have to pick a side, and let her know which way to cross

Spotify + Apple Music

Existentialist (ft. heylog) [nora evelyne]

Prod ERXN & heylog

every photo, im not recognised
its always black and white, with some grain inside
you would think that i was tryna hide
im really not i just hate what i see

you wouldnt like it no doubt
ill force my hand over your mouth
youre half the size of me now
bruise on your knees start to sprout

look to my left, im in a forest where im tryna find 
a piece of you that just keeps falling down beside my side
i ran right through the forest path we did a thousand times
im scared that I wont make it back I might of lost my mind 
might of broke down for a minute but its cool 
image distorted in my vision when you call 
i know its just anxiety but if its more 

ima need a Prozac for this 
if you never loved me that's shit 
keep me out of line like im wearing high viz 
keep me outside like im never not in 
if you need me il die il tell you im in 
see me outside come around real quick 
baby I know the way to try and get your hate out 
click it back and put it to my face now

man i wish that she was close
hanging out, youre on the phone
think that i just found a home
hopefully we'll always grow
11 days until i board my flight
i just gotta know if youre worth my time
moving on to better things
she found me, shes in love w me
she always wants to say my name
yeah all she does is say my name
and i love her honesty
you really put my mind at ease
she wants to call me everyday
just so she can say my name

Spotify

BRUISE w/ hiraeth & heylog

pixies feat. heylog (prod. holly)

walls feat. heylog (prod. holly)

this track was produced by @nevrfall

lyrics:
i dont think this is my time
place my feet i feel alright
missing all your face again
15 pounds help sleep at night

life ur body, dont feel ashamed
i still feel u miles away
i still feel lonely when im with you
all these people around and i miss you
i dont think this feelings right
caught your stare as we locking eyes
i dont know who these people are
bandages gotta hide my scars

𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶?
𝘰𝘩. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸...
𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨

I BARELY KNOW WHO THESE PEOPLE ARE
I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO THESE WOMEN ARE
I BARELY KNOW WHO THIS BITCH IS
BABY JUST HOLD ME ITS GETTING DARK
WHERE I AM 2 HOURS DIFFERENCE
NOW WERE APART EVERYTHING IS DIFFERENT
NOW WERE AFAR EVERYTHING FEELS DISTANT
IN 4 YEARS
will we still be kissing?

i dont think this is my time
place my feet i feel alright
missing all your face again
15 pounds help sleep at night

miles away (p. nevrfall)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
deeply in fate
u could heal my pain
before we dont break
ill love u till the end
dear anjed
i need to say something
id fall in love again
i wish u the best

deeply in fate
u could heal my pain
before we done break
ill love u to the end
hey anjed
this is important
ill love  once again
ill be here to the end

u recalling what u said?
you was talking behind my back
i deleted everything
i cleared out all the messages
he was like a brother
i hate him for doing that
deep down it still hurts
but ill b over it
dear anjed i lost
dont know if i can get u back
now since weve matured
maybe try again
i can take us places
am i overthinking
ur in another book
while im flippin through these pages
hey anjed im sorry
i got to get this off my chest
we been together twice so we have learned from our past
its like ur a stranger
i get to know u once again
could never function right she got me short im losing breath
dear anjed this is me
giving u my heart
theres nothing to be afraid of ill keep in my arms
i havent gone to sleep
cause im thinking of u in the dark
join me in this journey i believe three times a charm

deeply in fate
u could heal my pain
before we done break
ill love u to the end
hey anjed
this is important
ill love  once again
ill be here to the end

dear anjed i want
u
like really bad
hope this isnt dumb
i hope that youll be glad
hey anjed hello
u
it got me sad
years have gone by
patience really met
here we are again..

dear anjed

produced by heylog
main guitar played by SADisfying

lyrics:
if i cant love
will i end up
lone and forgot
or spend it with someone
i cant fall in love
my hearts dead probably numb
i hope it wont be long
to heal cus its been months
if i cant love
will she leave us?
alone here in the dust
ill never get enough
my time is up
i cant think with all the fuss
these camels takin my lungs
i think of u when im buzzed

i wish youd stay home permanently
i cant sleep alone if ur in my dreams
i cant let u go this cant be happening
but ur bad for me
but ur bad for me
i still love u even if u hate me
i still want u even if u despite me
i still care for u even if u dont care for me
u were good to me
u were great for me

i never understood 
how u could put up with me
cause i barely showed love 
im still surprised u didnt leave me
now as i look back
i shouldve cherished what i had with you
call me "heyregret" 
thats how i feel with everything
i havent touched food all day
too busy making music 
she asked me if im aokay
"i listen to ur lyrics"
i dont know how to love
i show zero emotion
only in my songs
my tears could flood the ocean

if i cant love
will i end up
lone and forgot
or spend it with someone
i cant fall in love
my hearts dead probably numb
i hope it wont be long
to heal cus its been months
if i cant love
will she leave us?
alone here in the dust
ill never get enough
my time is up
i cant think with all the fuss
these camels taking my lungs
i think of u when im buzzed

heylog- everything's gonna be okay, i promise (slowed)

t7ae