heylog slowed

maya (ryo + st jimmy)

original song 
https://soundcloud.com/heylog/eleven
heylog

lyrics:
so how long has it been since i saw you
it was right after summer when i was leaving ur place
and i knew right then and there i won't be okay
wipe the tears from our eyes, everything will be okay
do u believe in love cause i'm having a hard time
believing myself, let's drink to that and raise my
cup and make a toast to us lonely people
at least we know we'll forever be peaceful and so i been
counting months it's almost eleven
since we've talked and showed u affection
i'll never have anyone to connect with
like we had or the feeling of commit
maybe this time i'll go up to heaven
getting weaker by the day, pain just pressing
thinking what to do with my life, it's depressing
thinking i'll always be alone, i expect it

on my arm, you look with dissapointment
i knew it was wrong, trust me won't do it again
u made me feel alive, i thank u for that
now i got a heart that has no light in it

heylog eleven (slowed)

original 
https://soundcloud.com/heylog/pleasure

lyrics:
swear i could throw up if i keep thinking of you
you disgust me and i guess u wanted to prove
that ur shameful you gave it all up for him
just some pleasure to receive from a little bitch
i need to let it go
but it haunts me to my deepest core

surround me in this darkness whom i spare
there is plenty more for you so join me in here
i need to let u know
that u disgust me
and i can't look at u no more
get myself to do things but i never wanna do them
once i go outside i'm proud i got myself to do it
you disappoint me to the point i never wanna see you
your motions say it all from what you n him have been through

now ur shameful you gave it all up for him
oh just a finger to receive between your lips

heylog - pleasure (slowed)

original song 
https://soundcloud.com/heylog/us-2

Heylog - Us (slowed DownDaycore)

original song
https://soundcloud.com/heylog/this-is-where-i-belong-1

Heylog - This Is Where I Belong (slowed)

original song
https://soundcloud.com/heylog/i-think-i-made-a-friend-2

heylog - I Think I Made A Friend - (Slowed)

original song 
https://soundcloud.com/heylog/lavender


lyrics:
as usual i manage to breakdown
don't bother me i enjoy no sound
can't talk to ppl and i know i should
the nerves i build up come out me like a flood
i expect a better me to finally come my way
but the hope i'm losing is drifting away
i forgot that u were mine and that u exist
and that's a good thing
i'm making progress
i hold a whole heart
i gotta use it wise
i cancel all my plans
cus i changed my mind
she smell like lavender
and i think i'm in love
wait hold on a min
can we take a pause
i needa overthink
when i talk to you
it's not on purpose
now u know the truth
i told u everything
n all my secrets
and now it feels wrong
and i know i'm screwed
i look in your eyes it's like looking in an abyss
thanks for your time i learned a lot from it
i'm different now, done with u, you know what i quit
i'm leaving now, don't care to be part of this
YOU SAID SHE WAS A WHORE
WELL MAYBE UR THE HOE
ABSCONDING EVERY GIRL
IS THIS WHERE I GROW
COULDN'T ASK FOR MORE
I'LL BREAK EVERY BONE
NOW DUDES CARE FOR ME
BUT I ONLY GOT 1 BRO

𝘭𝘰𝘨𝘢𝘯
𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘶𝘱

𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨

heylog - lavender (Slowed  Reverb)

This a different kind of song
The flp got corrupted so imma have to release this one

Better (siem spark)

take the bait [zuuloh]

prod. trustt

[tell me all]

"just cut me out
i'll tell you how i feel
can you just pretend
that my voice is real?
take a look at yourself
what do you see?
if its not what you want
then you're just like me"

tell me

I
I don't see what they see
(I don't no I don't)
You hold his hand like a dream
Uuuohhh
Why do you cry
So much when you're with me?
Cause I don't see

What they see
This feels like
The first time I saw her
In the spotlight
Cry me a river
If it's alright
You'll be alright
Can't let it go
(I can't let it)

Dance with me
Tell me all the things you didn't say to me
I can only tell you how it's meant to be
We could do it all if we tried
(If we tried)

Why do you cry?
Why does it hurt?
Thousand oceans away
Only a plane in the sky
You know that it hurts me
So won't you say why?
Why why why

Distance it's nothing I'm afraid of
There's nothing I could say right here
Why's he so important
I don't think that you know
(Know know)
I can't wake up
I walked past you two again

I threw up
Supposed to be me right there
Is he all that you care about?
Is there more that you're finding out?

Watch the strawberry sky fall out
I know some things I don't say out loud
Polaroids hang in my room
And they're all about you

Dance with me
Tell me all the things you didn't say to me
I can only tell you how it's meant to be
We could do it all if we tried
(If we tried)

Why do you cry?
Why does it hurt?
Thousand oceans away
Only a plane in the sky
You know that it hurts me
So won't you say why?
Why why why

Spotlight (Plugp)

production, vocals, and cover art by yonklolz.

single 2 of 3 from "HOUSE TOUR"

"Mediator" released on all platforms december 4th, stream here:
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/yonklolz/mediator

lyrics:

[i am here to make you feel better everything will be ok stay strong what can i do to help be safe are you ok how are you doing today are you doing anything later do you want to hang out sometime are you lonely how do you feel about the world right now what do you think of your friends do they support you what about your family do you need anything i am free later if you want to talk are things going ok how can i resolve this do you want to chat what are you feeling right now i don’t think they meant to say that about you i understand how you are feeling and i resonate with you i promise everything will be ok you don’t have to worry i will handle it all]

and then i was a year older
and then it became two
and then another five went by
i wouldn’t be a kid
i wouldn’t be a teen
so I spent it on on the screen
reading all my happy birthday pings
from people that never met me
oh no, i’m waiting for the day to be all over again
counted up all i can
breathing in all the oxygen
but i still try to be comforted

here in my house, the walls are shorter
than i remember them, i’m sure
you’re helping yourself
to me, to more
a mediator, i’m here for warmth 

and then i was a year older
you were counting up the days
you couldn’t wait till i was 18
stalking me like prey
it wouldn’t be the first time
i’d be left all alone
you figured out everything about me
and tried to make me yours
oh no, i’m waiting for the day to be all over again
counted up all i can
breathing in all the oxygen
but i still try to be comforted

i wish someone would talk to me
the way that i speak to friends in need
you’re helping yourself
to more, to me
a mediator, i live to see
here in my house, the walls are shorter
than i remember them, i’m sure
you’re helping yourself
to me, to more
a mediator, i’m here for warmth

[i am here to make you feel better]

HOUSE TOUR

Stream

Mediator

Listen on Spotify!

Solo Queue (Prod. w/ Kazba)

Exactly Who You Could Be

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heylog - lavender (Slowed Reverb)

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