The fifth track of my sophomore album, Hiraeth.

I wrote most of Hiraeth as an electronic album with heavy metalcore and post-hardcore influences, but By "razor-thin" Margins was one of the few primarily metalcore & phc songs I wrote. I feel like I'm just repeating myself in every description, but this was a really difficult song to finish. However, compared to some of the others I'm still not sure about, this is the most confident I've felt about a song in quite some time. It was originally released through a defunct record label and was prematurely deleted due to some inside drama, but I am so proud to release it with extra love & care in the way I always intended.

[Verse]

It seems the ones I love,
are growing, moving towards a better place,
yet here I stay (x2)

[Interlude]

In times of self-reflection, I can't help but pinpoint the times I've failed to meet my own expectations. 
Even the smallest of goals are a challenge, it seems as if the act of finding possibilities of success is where my problem lays.
But despite every error I've made, and every person I've hurt, it's up to me and me alone to move forward.

The pain of trying to fit,
myself into the person I want to be,
is only matched by the relief that flows through my veins,
when I realize:

[Breakdown]

It's my life
It's my life

[Verse]

It seems the ones I love,
are growing, moving towards a better place,
yet here I stay

[Chorus]

I found it when I looked through, my heart and knew I took too,
long well it seems that, I guess we'll never know (x2)
(My paws, around your, face and, you're cold)

It's my life (x4)

[Interlude]

The pain of trying to fit,
myself into the person I want to be,
is only matched by the relief that flows through my veins,
when I realize:

[Breakdown]

It's my life (x5)

[Chorus]

I found it when I looked through, my heart and knew I took too,
long well it seems that, I guess we'll never know

By "razor-thin" Margins

The sixth track of my sophomore album, Hiraeth.

One of the biggest things I've been getting over during the process of writing this album was portraying emotion. I've only in the past few songs felt really comfortable writing things outside of depressed or euphoric, and writing an angry song was definitely on the bucket list!! I'm really happy with how this one came out, and I hope y'all jam to it as much as I do :)

[Chorus]

Just because you have the illusion of,
safety does not mean you're safe to run
Prying eyes and nods all behind closed doors
I think today you may seem to find

Another sense of danger behind the lies
You're gonna gonna gonna not be alright
It seems so obvious 
And I find it obvious

[Verse 1]

I don't think you know how I detest you
While you stare outside of your fucking test tube
You are not safe
You are not safe

Bitch you know you are soft
Yeah you know your aim is off, ayy
You never leave your room
Sucks you fell off so soon
Take it from me
I'm your head rent free
This is my year, bitch, get out the way
I gotta say, I'm gettin wins for the gays,
Yeah fuck you dude not today

[Bridge]

Another day, another time, another way to say goodbye (12x)

I always thought
The most beautiful time of day
The sun melts into the river
Now (x2)

[Chorus]

Just because you have the illusion of,
safety does not mean you're safe to run
Prying eyes and nods all behind closed doors
I think today you may seem to find

Another sense of danger behind the lies
You're gonna gonna gonna not be alright
It seems so obvious 
And I find it obvious

[Verse]

Everybody wanna be a rebel
'til they take a hit
And get so disheveled
Nah I take a hit and I get up
I'm not gotta fix my makeup

I do not care what you think
I wear my fursuit all mink
You write your shit off rhymezone
I'm thinkin different, no iPhone

[Bridge]

Another day, another time, another way to say goodbye (4x)

Illusion of Safety

The seventh track of my sophomore album, Hiraeth.

I wrote I Think You're Bleeding about all of the cool people I've met and never had the chance to be friends with before we parted ways. I have a bad habit of aggrandizing these moments into horrible lost opportunities, and scrutinizing every word I said as a failure to connect. This tends to come with me creating a false image of these people in my head, and projecting either a sadness or apathy onto them. Recently, I've been learning to let go of that, realizing the world moves fast as hell and expecting to find the time to keep in touch with every kind stranger is a bit ridiculous. With this, I've been figuratively killing off the false images I have of these people, and becoming able to fondly think about the few hours I spent with them. This song is about letting go of that angst of friends that never were. Enjoy!

[Verse 1]

You got this all wrong
You got this all wrong
This is a declaration
To everyone in my mind who
disappeared after the day I met them

The air is trapped in the moment you said you would see me again
But you never would

And don't you say
You know you're a figment of my mind that's true

[Bridge]

I know every time that I know every time that
Frozen skyline today one time
I know every time that I know every time that
Frozen skyline today one time

[Chorus]

My attire's seen the season
Now tonight I think you're bleeding friend, my friend
My attire's seen the season
Now tonight I think you're bleeding friend, my friend

[Verse 1]

You got this all wrong
You got this all wrong
This is a declaration
To everyone in my mind who
disappeared after the day I met them

The air is trapped in the moment you said you would see me again
But you never would

[Verse 2]

This is my declaration
I fucking wrote and staged it
Was six or seven days in
Thought maybe I'm fucking crazy
Thought maybe it's fucking hazy
I never even knew you
It shouldn't even matter
So why do I see right through you

Floating through you
What could you mean?
This ain't for you
What could you mean?
Floating through you
What could you mean?
This ain't for you
What could you mean?

[Bridge]

Frozen skyline today one time
Frozen skyline today one time

[Verse 2]

This is my declaration
I fucking wrote and staged it
Was six or seven days in
Thought maybe I'm fucking crazy
Thought maybe it's fucking hazy
I never even knew you
It shouldn't even matter
So why do I see right through you

Floating through you
What could you mean?
This ain't for you
What could you mean?
Floating through you
What could you mean?
This ain't for you
What could you mean?

[Bridge]

I know every time that I know every time that
Frozen skyline today one time
I know every time that I know every time that
Frozen skyline today one time

[Chorus]

My attire's seen the season
Now tonight I think you're bleeding friend, my friend
My attire's seen the season
Now tonight I think you're bleeding friend, my friend

[Breakdown]

And I sincerely hope you the best life.. 
But it sure is fun to scream about it!

If I see you again
I hope to give a hug

I Think You're Bleeding

Inspired by Mirror's Edge and Øfdream. Out now (for free!) on Impulse Unit!

Cover art by: noisivy (https://twitter.com/n0isivy)

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Mirror øf Dreams (OUT NOW ON IMPULSE UNIT)

The eighth track of my sophomore album, Hiraeth.

Wow! Only one more left and the albums out. This one is sort of a center piece of the record for me, and really encapsulates everything I was feeling while writing it. The word Hiraeth is Welsh in origin, and has a few specific meanings. The one that resonates with me in particular is as follows: (n.) homesickness for a home to which you cannot return, a home which maybe never was; the nostalgia, the yearning, the grief for the lost places of your past. Last year, I had really negative falling outs with a few close friends, which led to homes I felt at place in being destroyed. I struggled so intensely with this, and this track is a deconstruction of everything running through my head at the time. I hope you enjoy!


Intro:

The sun, oh it's burning
It's ripping through
Us all tonight
Immaterial, it's not all right here

Verse 1:

You wanted it all and you had it
Your 15 minutes go straight into static

You flew too close to the sun tonight
I can see your hiraeth a mile away
Is all of this just a joke to you
You'd never know what it meant until it's gone too soon

I can see your soul, you're just a broken mess
What if I told you your life was just a fuckin' test
For people more observant to follow your step
I know you know the rest, oh you know the rest

Verse 2:

I thought this was the part I'd think about my life
I guess when I'm here, I'm just obsessed with the strife
It just infects my mind, I guess it never leaves
It's in the back of my head, whatever I achieve

The afterimage of everything I made for you
It's time to burn it out, I guess I know the truth
It doesn't hurt any less, but at least I know
My hiraeth of us, it  isn't just for show

Bridge:

You go away
and I know
I won't feel
Like this forever

Chorus:

Your miserable façade won't last much longer
This is just a cloud in skies of many more 

You and I saw
You and I saw
You and I saw
My empire fall before our eyes

EDIT1: slightly adjusted vocals

Hiraeth

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Original air-date: 04-20-2023

EP. 47
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Episode 47 • Guest Mix : Ashton Simeon B2B ident

The second track of my sophomore album, Hiraeth.

Most of the album is on the topic of my friends, the loss of those friends, and the places we existed together, but this one is completely about myself and my difficulty with growth! I hope you enjoy and get some serotonin xoxo!

[Chorus]

And I don't know where you can find me
I'm still stuck in here
And I don't know where you can find me
I can't find the air

[Verse]

People fall apart in the movies
People fall apart in the movies
People fall apart in the movies
People fall apart in the movies

[Chorus]

And I don't know where you can find me
I'm still stuck in here
And I don't know where you can find me
I can't find the air

[Breakdown]

Extreme fear of the failure to find myself
Relying on anthropomorphism to hide from my anxieties of existing in the world
An unease at accepting the words to describe my being
Stuck in the state of transformation between what is and what was
A complete disconnect from my idea of self and physical manifestation
Difficulty completing my goals past the given expectations
All the concepts and phrases I can apply to myself, nothing will remain when my realizations realign my being 

[Verse]

People fall apart in the movies
People fall apart in the movies
People fall apart in the movies
People fall apart in the movies
People fall apart in the movies

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Royal Ocean

The third track of my sophomore album, Hiraeth.

This one was brutal to finish, honestly. There were a few points where I considered cutting it or even scrapping the album completely because figuring out how to achieve my vision was SO brutal, but now that it's finished I'm so fucking glad I worked through it because I completely love this song.

[Chorus]

Oh tell me
I'm not the one that's one that's hurting you
Please tell me
I'm not the one that's one that's hurting you (x2)

[Bridge]

Doo doo doododod odoooddo

I say doo a lot

[Chorus]

Oh tell me
I'm not the one that's one that's hurting you
Please tell me
I'm not the one that's one that's hurting you (x2)

[Breakdown]

My eyes close as the screen fades to black
Fingers slide against fragmented glass
I thought you would know you can't
Walk past a pain like this

A Hole Exactly Four Inches Deep Containing The Locket My Mother Wore

THE FIRST SINGLE OF MY ALBUM. I HOPE YOU LIKE IT

THANK YOU @nef4ke for lending me your amazing voice for this song aaawwadijawidjawjidawjidawd

megabyte dream (Feat. YAN)

@day21music

demos and things i gave up on

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