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Calm and Steady tracks series no. 473

created on 2024/09/08

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in the summer of 2021 i released my 4th ep, titled "MOM".
this album and its release was dedicated to my beautiful momma Terry Lynne, who passed away from cancer in the summer of 2020.

i did a long form & special release which began on her birthday, July 3rd and concluded 5 days later (one day for each track) now that those who were a part of the release have enjoyed it's exclusivity for over half a year, i am finally ready to share with the rest of the world. thank you so much for listening.

Rest in Peace <3 Terry Lynne Grosshans (July 3 1963 - July 5th 2020)

MOM ep

Dreams

duck

***Music & lyrics: Ramone

I used to dream all day 
Hiding myself from the flames of the burning sun
In a forest I discovered not so long ago
Of which no one knew
And I found pleasure in its complexity,
Lost in solitude.

Being so close to death in our sleep
In shades of red, silver and dark green

Don't get me wrong, I know what it means, even though we're all sinners
But who wants to live forever?
Sometimes you get me, sometimes you don't
Saying I'm like the changing colours of nature at dawn

A sky made out of trees in shades of violent blue
Where I buried all my memories and enjoyed the view

"Lips and lashes, will I ever find my way again?"
There's no kingdom in that sky, 
No one waits for you even when you die

"Falling for someone who was not, somebody tired of dreaming", and now I know that.


Ramone - In Shades Of Red, Silver And Dark Green

From a sonnet written by Edna St. Vincent Millay 1892-1950.  (Originally published as “Sonnet VI” in 1917’s Renascence and Other Poems)

Thanks for recital from LibriVox.org read by Linda Leu and to Grace for Piano.

This door you might not open, and you did;
So enter now, and see for what slight thing
You are betrayed... 

Here is no treasure hid,
No cauldron,
no clear crystal mirroring the sought-for truth,
no heads of women slain for greed like yours,
no writhings of distress, but only what you see... 

Look yet again—
An empty room, cobwebbed and comfortless.
Yet this alone out of my life I kept unto myself, lest any know me quite;

And you did so profane me when you crept
unto the threshold of this room to-night

That I must never more behold your face.
This now is yours. I seek another place.

Bluebeard

loopy

Rezo Reflect Pv

Chat Sauvage

-Sinny: piano, drums, assorted percussion (castanets, congas, drum sticks, finger cymbals, flexatone, gong, güiro, handclaps, maracas, slapstick, sleigh bells, talking drum, tambourine), found sounds (comb, leather ottoman, pasta box), processed acme siren; Logic Pro programming  (accordion, percussion, panpipe, organ, synth, and sitar patches), voices

-Luke Giunta: bass guitar, Edge guitar, harmonics

-Adam Becker: acoustic guitars, liquid guitars, dirt guitars, doodle guitars, slice guitars, prairie guitars

-Austin Harning: violin

Kaleidoscope (Marmalade cover)

T-Dominoes Fall

FIRST AND FOREMOST, THIS IS A DEDICATION TUNE TO MY DEAR FRIEND BELIAL!!  WE HAVE BEEN FRIENDS NOW FOR A VERY LONG TIME AND I WANTED TO LET HIM KNOW HOW MUCH HE HAS INSPIRED ME OVER THE YEARS! HIS FRIENDSHIP AND MUSICAL MASTERPIECES JUST FUCKING RULE!!  
I HAVE BEEN ABSENT QUITE FRANKLY BC I SAID FUCK MUSIC AND HAD NO INTEREST IN MAKING IT AT ALL...I HAVE WORKED ON THIS TUNE OVER THE COURSE OF MONTHS...IT IS AN HOMAGE TO YOU BUDDY, MUCH LOVE, ROOTS!!!
I LOOK VERY MUCH FORWARD TO CATCHING UP ON EVERYONES BEAUTIFUL WORKS VERY SOON!!!!!!!

FORNICATING IN SOUND (A BELIAL PELEGRIM DEDICATION)

Album My Strange Night Stories 
nowyyorg 2024

The Cold Void Between Our Stars (2015 - 2024)

(Free WAV Download available here under '••• More'; and eventually as part of my Foul Weather Friends album)

Greetings to the music community. I’m glad you stopped by. Today, I have the privilege of sharing another collaboration (#8 in fact) with our ever inspiring friend, Carlos Vivanco (https://soundcloud.com/carlosvivanco-1, https://carlosvivanco1.bandcamp.com). I always get stunning results, working with this fellow. :)

But first, the haiku that inspired the title:

O snail,
climb Mount Fuji,
but slowly, slowly
- Kobayashi Issa

I literally discovered ‘O snail’ as Carlos was sending me his guitar elements. The timing was too coincidental (thus the title).

As you may well imagine, the haiku of the Snail climbing Mount Fuji implies patience, perseverance, and remembering to enjoy the journey. But we never understand the trials of the snail; only his speed limitations. I feel like it’s good to face some truths about ourselves that might be interfering with our journey; and hearing someone else share their challenges has often helped me not feel so overwhelmed by mine.

For example, I have a strangely persistent ‘low self-esteem’ issue that has been with me for as long as I can remember. There are numerous childhood experiences keeping that thinking alive. But if I’m being completely honest with myself, they are all just part of my story… and the majority of them are not even happening to me any more. Yet despite 55 year old Justin’s accomplishments, that dark little fellow shows up from time to time, to… I don’t know… put me back in my place? Or something?

And here’s the annoying thing. There is an abundance of evidence indicating I’m a good person, living a worthwhile life, doing good things. I’m a highly logical person; and the math on this is pretty solid. This should be a breeze to overcome.

Surprisingly, it’s not. 

So clearly, there are certain perspectives that simply defy logic. And I suspect many of us carry similar thoughts and feelings deep inside; those annoying little clingers-on that defy reason, and fight to keep us down. That part of us that always wanted to be accepted by and fit into something that never really matched our shape to begin with. 

This is ultimately about us realizing that we are ridiculously amazing beings. Higher minded Justin truly believes every one of us is fundamentally perfect (and perfectly capable), because we are here right now… living this. I believe we are all in a very advanced class (or at the very least, approaching finals on a very rigorous curriculum), and we wouldn’t be here if we hadn’t met the prerequisites. We stand here right now (although I'm sitting as I type), with purpose and opportunity coming at us full steam. It’s going to be an amazing, sometimes horrifying, sometimes beautiful beyond words experience. And we all get to do it together. Wild ride, right?

The bottom line is… it’s time we gave ourselves a break, and loved and accepted ourselves… as is. That is so key to the rest of it working out for us, and it’s truly worth prioritizing. 

Also, what if we try our hardest to honor and respect each other’s paths. Every path is sacred… even if some seem harder to understand. And they all combine to make up this story, which would not be so poignant (or easy to learn from) if not for the extreme light and extreme dark elements giving us such wide angle perspective.

Carlos and I hope you enjoy ‘Climbing Mount Fuji With My Snail.” :)

F.W. Friends

Climbing Mount Fuji With My Snail | Carlos Vivanco & GrevusAnjl

First of some new tunes I have been working on - been a long period of just making ideas and experimenting. Hope you like i t:)

There is more than one vibration

6emeJam[viteufMix]

||| Lost in Translation |||
From the album White Noise 
+ Releases 15 October 2025 on all major streaming platforms +
An experimental soundtrack, combining dark ambience and noise with amped up synth bass and downtempo beats...


Available for download here 💿
https://scratchkelly.bandcamp.com/track/lost-in-translation

Watch the video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HGOb4uzAv90

White Noise

Lost In Translation

Download

Winter

Winter °°Free DL°°

Genocide, June 2025:
Israel is only the executioner, every nation which has armed that country in the past year is an accessory to that genocide, an accomplice, a facilitator.  We cannot talk about war crimes because when you target unarmed civilians, mostly women and children, we are talking about a massacre, like terrorists do, not a war. The people who orchestrated that massacre, in the US, the most duplicitous, followed by those of the UK, Germany, France, and probably a few lesser ones should be tried for crimes against humanity just as well as Netanyahu and his cabinet, because it has been going on for two years, generously reported by media of all kinds, so the enablers knew exactly how the arms were to be used, as a tool for revenge, domination, and humiliation of the Palestinian people.  The conflict has ceased to be about the defense of anything for months.

The parties responsible have made a mockery of decency, morals, fairness, proportion, or justice, not to mention empathy.  Of what little there was, these concepts will be a lot longer to come back than they were to be struck down.  

Is it 1984 already?!?!
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I have not been able to recover access to my other account [https://soundcloud.com/ha-kekong] for a couple of years.  I have tried a few times to get back into it but SoundCloud doesn't trust me.  Same phone number, same email addresses, and they still claim that they can't verify my identity.  I created that account about three years ago as a substitute to my regular account which SoundCloud temporarily closed.  They closed it as part of some upgrade procedure in their system, the result of a bug that affected many accounts, about two years ago.  Since SC did not inform its users I didn't know if that was permanent or not, so I created that other account which I can't access.  Don't be mad if I have not replied to your message in the past two years, that's because I never got them ; ) ... You can always reach me here though.
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This one here (957729823) is for regular folks.

I love you, both.

...

You can't see it because of the angle with which I took the shot, aiming down, but beyond those blocks is the sea.  To the left is the Mediterranean, to the right is the Atlantic Ocean.  No it's not Gibraltar, but a little bit further West. ... Actually I checked recently and it is further North more than West, I thought I was facing South when in fact I probably was facing the Atlantic ocean, which is why I suppose the waves were of a decent size where we were.
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My face and the bike are a courtesy of Joël Vaudreuil
[https://vimeo.com/user8897093]  ... Merci Joe!
I then went ahead and butchered his work with a borrowed helmet.
... Sorry Joe. =(
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I'm trying to promote what I think is good music, so if you want to help out a bit I'd rather you [like] or [repost] my *playlists* rather than my field recordings, if you don't mind, unless you are a die hard fan of those things. Thank you ; )

I speak French, so if you send me a private message, and that you are a francophone, please write in French, thank you.  ... I mean, you don't absolutely have to, but I would prefer it. 

All my field recordings (except for when I record a person) are public, freely downloadable by anyone who is able to click on the button.  I encourage anyone interested to use them in any way whatsoever, on purpose or accidentally. No need for permissions or credits or any other kind  of administrative maneuvers.
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Anarchists give me hope.

I'm a big fan of EFF.  Love ya EFF.  (no connection with the above line)
... and of course Richard Stallman and Linux and all the others.  Bless yous.

Now don't be lazy, go find out what it is this "EFF" that I'm talking about.  I'll give you a hint: it has to do with computers.

You have a nice day now.  Hugs & Kisses.

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Ha Kékong