聖地中的百合花

Bye (original)

Illenium - Fractures (feat. Nevve)
Got addicted to this one~
Sorry for the poor picking skills of my guitar.

Fractures (cover)

This song is a remarkable one to me. That day, someone encouraged me a lot and taught me lots of things about life.  She asked me that if i really want to teach, i have to put down lots of <me> and stick to one place. It wasn’t easy to me. I am not the kind of person who persevere to the end. So...When i drove my scooter home that night, it rained heavy and i got lost for quite a bit time. I thought a lot at that moment. And when i finally made up my mind, i found my way home then. 

Long story ^^
Enjoy!

大雨 －Pouring rain (original)

Jayden Appleby (Chillinit remix)

1941 in Babyn Jar(Ukraine near Kiev), in probably the largest single massacre in the history of mankind, almost 34,000 Jews were murdered by the Nazis in cooperation with the German Wehrmacht by shooting and "piling them up" in the "Women's Gorge” (in Ukrainian "Babyn Jar"). 

Most of the murdered Jews were completely exterminated. Their bodies were burned, their belongings stolen.

With my song "Babyn Jar" I want to make a small contribution to this massacre never being forgotten and everything humanly possible being done so that such an event never repeats in the future.

And since this massacre leaves one only in speechless mourning for the souls, which are often raped, then murdered and wiped out, there are no lyrics in this song apart from a lament choir this time.

Babyn Jar

Again and again I have to painfully observe that women who want to live their own potentials, their autonomy, their creativity or other strengths, are discriminated against in a concealed or sometimes blatant way. In spite of the important feminist-emancipatory movements, especially in the last 50 years, in many areas of life the classical division of roles - men make the rational, women the emotional labor - still exists. Women who want to free themselves from these rigid role attributions are no longer burned at the stake, as they were in the Middle Age (and some women into the late 19th century!). However, they are often “removed” verbally or physically in other, more perfidious ways. 
This song is a blazing plea for a really profound change in social conditions, which not only offer a few exceptions, but basically women the possibility to find their own autonomous strength.     
And it is also a song for my wife, who is a very strong woman and who is repeatedly attacked for her courage, clarity, inventiveness and assertiveness. 
And it is my deep musical bow to Hypatia of Alexandria, Hildegard von Bingen, Émilie du Châtelet, Mary Wollstonecraft, Simone Weil, Harriet Taylor Mill, Hannah Arendt, Simone de Beauvoir, Donna Haraway, Judith Butler and other great thinkers for achieving the goal of "equality and dignity for all people".


Lyrics in English:

Strong Women

So often burned
Banished to islands
Gladly misjudged as poisonous snakes
Still not recognized today

Are very wise and self-confident
Full of self-will and joie de vivre
Are the weak man's constant frustration

If they ever want to go upstairs
The repression gets under way
Embarrass, ostracize, paralyze them, till they leave

Hey, strong women come out
Put out the men's straw fires
Yes, I love you all

The Middle Age is still there
Seems so distant, but is so close
Subtle strong women are still in danger of death

I may be a man, but I'm also a woman
Strong women know that very well
The lie of "man" and "woman" is something they've long seen through

Often have the big ideas
But the men become luminaries
The "Adams" leave them in kitchen handcuffs

Hey, strong women come out
Put out the men's straw fires
Yes, I love you all.

Outro:

Hey, I love you all...
Please come out...

Deutscher Originaltext:

Starke Frauen

So oft verbrannt
Auf Inseln verbannt
Gerne als Giftschlangen verkannt
Bis heute noch nicht anerkannt

Sind sehr klug und selbstbewußt
Voller Eigenwillen und Lebenslust
Sind des schwachen Mannes Dauerfrust

Wenn Sie mal nach oben wollen
Kommt die Repression ins Rollen
Beschämen, verfemen, lähmen, bis sie gehen

Hey, starke Frauen kommt heraus
Macht die Männer-Strohfeuer aus
Ja, ich lieb` Euch alle

Das Mittelalter ist noch da
Scheint so fern, doch ist ganz nah
Subtil sind starke Frauen noch immer in Lebensgefahr

Bin zwar ein Mann, doch zugleich ne` Frau
Starke Frauen wissen das ganz genau
Die Lüge von “Mann” und “Frau” ham`se` längst durchschaut

Haben oft die großen Ideen
Doch die Männer werden zu Koryphäen
Die “Adams” lassen sie in Küchen-Handschellen stehen

Hey, starke Frauen kommt heraus
Macht die Männer-Strohfeuer aus
Ja, ich lieb` Euch alle

Outro:

Ich lieb` Euch alle…
Bitte kommt heraus

Starke Frauen (Strong Women)

Starke Frauen (Strong Women) (Engl. Lyrics In The Intro)

More and more people are complaining about sleep disorders. Perhaps it is because the world is becoming more and more complex and confusing; that continuous support and security in loving relationships or in safe places is becoming increasingly rare. 
This lullaby is an attempt to create a trance-like, devotional atmosphere, which is a prerequisite for slipping into a deep, restful sleep. In all steps - from composing to mixing - I have always imagined holding a fearful, troubled child in my arms and carefully lulling it until it falls asleep again.
And it is a now almost universally accepted knowledge of sleep psychology that deep, restful sleep is based on trusting inner bonding: An inner loving parent accompanies the inner child so empathetically that it can devote itself completely to a pleasant sleep.
For me, French is the language that is best suited to lead someone who lies awake at night to sleep (again) with appropriate tender words. 

Lyrics in English:

If you can't sleep at night

If you can't sleep at night 
Just listen to that song

Lean gently against a wall 
and wait until your eyelids

Gain weight 
Lead you back to sleep

Imagine me lying beside you
You snuggle up to me

When nightmares come to you 
Then hum that song softly

I will accompany you on the steps 
Until it happens to you

That sleep carries you
The Soul Storm is calming down again

We go to the dormitory together 
Just blindly understand each other there

Each other there 
Each other there
Each other there

Lyrics in French:

Si tu ne peux pas dormir la nuit

Si tu ne peux pas dormir la nuit 
Juste écouter cette chanson.

Appuie-toi doucement sur un mur 
Et attend après que tes paupières

deviennent de plus en plus lourdes
te ramènent au sommeil

Imagine, je suis allongé à côté de toi
Tu te blottis dans mes bras

Quand les cauchemars te hantent 
Puis fredonnez calmement cette chanson

Je t'accompagne sur les marches 
Jusqu'à que ça t'arrive

Le sommeil te porte
La tempête des âmes s'apaisera à nouveau

Nous allons ensemble dans la chambre à coucher 
il y a une compréhension aveugle entre nous deux

Entre nous deux
Entre nous deux
Entre nous deux

Si tu ne peux pas dormir la nuit (If you can`t sleep at night)

Si Tu Ne Peux Pas Dormir La Nuit (If You Can`t Sleep At Night) (Engl. Lyrics In Intro)

Any of us old enough, remember the exact moment when the World Trade Centre was struck by passenger planes which changed our history forever.
Rebecca Lazinger was 23 and celebrating her first year anniversary of work at Morgan Stanley in Tower 2.

She had just arrived to the lobby when the second plane hit. With the building shaking and crashing down around her Becky had no idea what happened.

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9-11 Survivor Rebecca Lazinger

For me sovereignty means: to stand back without taking off. Having an overview, a vision, a prudence and at the same time remaining in a deep connection with what I am currently looking at;
means for me: to float, a kind of flying, like becoming an eagle and at the same moment a centipede, who feels with every touch the earth that carries me;
means for me: to know my own possibilities and limits well, like a tightrope walker balancing the antinomies of life;
means for me: to become silent, to be peacefully still, to act and express myself by simply being there....and so it comes that this song gets along without words.   
While recording this song I imagined myself sitting on a mountain; completely alone and totally connected to what surrounds me. 
I hope that some of the sovereignty, as I understand it, comes across in this purely instrumental track.

Einleitung in deutscher Sprache:

Souveränität heißt für mich: Abstand nehmen, ohne abzuheben. Einen Überblick, eine Weitsicht, eine Umsichtigkeit haben und zugleich in einer tiefen Verbundenheit mit dem bleiben, was ich gerade betrachte;
heißt für mich: schweben, eine Art fliegen, wie zu einem Adler werden und im selben Moment ein Tausendfüßler sein, der mit jeder Berührung die Erde spürt, die mich trägt;
heißt für mich: Die eigenen Möglichkeiten und Grenzen gut kennen, wie ein Seiltänzer die Antinomien des Lebens austarieren;
heißt für mich: still werden, friedvoll schweigen, durch einfaches dasein wirken und sich ausdrücken.....und so kommt es, daß dieser Song mal ganz ohne Worte auskommt.   
Bei der Aufnahme dieses Songs habe ich mir vorgestellt, auf einem Berg zu sitzen; völlig alleine und völlig verbunden mit dem, was mich umgibt. 
Ich hoffe, daß von der Souveränität, wie ich sie verstehe, ein wenig in diesem reinen Instrumental-Track rüberkommt.

Souvereignty

Sovereignty

It is a good 20 years ago that the diagnosis "testicular cancer" broke into my life like a thunderbolt. For a long time I have been cured of it. Nevertheless the mental and physical scars remain; and the shock, that lingers in my body memory forever over the horrified cry of the young, compassionate doctor when she discovered the tumor in the ultrasound. Time heals many wounds but by no means all. But the time of 20 years gives me enough distance to find words and sounds for what happened in and with me in the first three days after the cancer diagnosis.  

Lyrics in English:

Could that have been it?

Just came from the ultrasound
Inside of me a dull thud 
Everything different

Wanted to have children 
Must now bow to fate:
Testicular cancer

Standing` totally beside me
I am like death, no feeling

Could that have been it?
I've only lived half a life
Wanted to give so much more

Why me? What sense?
Is there a reason?
That I am afflicted with cancer

Who threw this curse on me?

Just want to be alone
Dig myself in in the dark
Only want to sleep

A part of me screams: "Free!"
The agony of life is over 
I may die now

I'm so confused
I don't know what's going to happen to me

Could that have been it?
I've only lived half a life
Wanted to give so much more

Why me? What sense?
Is there a reason?
That I am afflicted with cancer

Who threw this curse on me?


Deutscher Originaltext:

Kanns´denn das schon gewesen sein?

Komm` grad` vom Ultraschall,
In mir ein dumpfer Knall 
Alles anders

Wollt` doch  noch Kinder zeugen 
Muß mich jetzt dem Schicksal beugen:
Hodenkrebs

Steh` total neben mir
Bin wie tod, kein Gespür

Kanns` denn das schon gewesen sein
Hab` nur halb gelebt
Wollt` noch soviel geben

Warum ich? Welcher Sinn?
Gibt´s nen Grund?
Das ich vom Krebs befallen bin

Wer warf mir diesen Fluch nur hin?

Will nur alleine sein,
Grab` mich im Dunkeln ein
Will nur schlafen

Ein Teil in mir schreit: „Frei!“
Die Lebensqual vorbei 
Ich darf jetzt sterben

Ich bin so verwirrt
Weiß nicht was aus mir wird

Kanns` denn das schon gewesen sein
Hab` nur halb gelebt
Wollt` noch soviel geben

Warum ich? Welcher Sinn?
Gibt´s nen Grund?
Das ich vom Krebs befallen bin

Wer warf mir diesen Fluch nur hin?

Kann`s denn das schon gewesen sein?

Kann`s Denn Das Schon Gewesen Sein? (Could That Have Been It?)

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