The Shadow Of Heaven

So Long (God Is Dead)

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PARTYNEXTDOOR - East Liberty (Demo)

The lead single (GRWTH.) was written in Manchester UK when Charles decided he “just needed to get away and collect his thoughts”. 

Befriending locals in the northern UK in bars and venues alike, Charles found himself in an empty pub one night jotting down his thoughts and came out (Here We Are). A culmination of his latest in self discovery and realizing his ethos that has been instilled in from the villages and family that raised him.


 "GRWTH. came about as I started focusing more on my health this past year. Being a full-time independent artist brings a lot of stress, and with that stress come unhealthy coping mechanisms—late nights, long hours, junk food, and distractions. GRWTH. was my way of embracing the idea that the only way out is through. It meant facing the discomfort of addressing things I had either pushed aside or wasn’t even aware of. That’s what I mean when I say “healing looks different to me”. We all have some idea of how things are supposed to unfold, but when we really try to address them, we realize it’s a lot more challenging—and more interconnected with every aspect of our lives—than we thought. The line 'slow motion as I walk through the ocean of my past mistakes' speaks to the deep introspection I had to do, diving into some of the choices I’d made and really trying to understand why I made them. It was a painful realization, and I feared I might never be able to break those habits; which is where the bridge stems from when I say that “i'm afraid of my flaws and i'm afraid I’ll stay lost”. In the end, it all culminates in a kind of emotional tornado—a whirlwind of everything I’ve go through. And even though it can be overwhelming at times, the one thing I’ve learned through this process is that trying to be better is all we can do. And that’s a never-ending goal throughout life."

Lyrics

Growth.
Healing looks different to me/
Especially in catastrophe/
It's like i'm on a raft at sea/
Maximum capacity/

Still I try/
Still I try/
Still I try/
Still I try/

Slow motion as I walk through the ocean of past mistakes/
I crack a smile cause I gotta stay in style even if its fake/
Sometimes I feel like i’ve taken all I can take/
Sometimes I feel like my mind might break/

Still I try/
Still I try/
Still I try/
Still I try/

Sometimes i'm afraid of my flaws/ 
And sometimes i'm scared I'll stay lost/
Sometimes i'm afraid of my flaws/ 
And sometimes i'm scared I'll stay lost/

Still I try/
Still I try/
Still I try/
Still I try/

Still I try/
Still I try/
Still I try/
Still I try/

GRWTH.

02. That Stuff'll Kill Ya

This is the end of an era long 
Where all familiar things lingered on 
And I held on to what had to go for long enough 
This is the end of an era long 

And with the end of an era gone 
And unfamiliar feelings beyond 
I know my goal is some way off but I'll carry on
Forgetting what held me back now I know
That none of it would get me far

Bring me to the light 
Unfreeze my soul 
Let me feel alive
Unseize control

Let a new horizon form
Let me leave behind what has been done 
Now's the time for me to face what I have ignored

All this time I've beat myself down
Reminiscing of a time before
People and the places I found 
That'll never come around for more

'Cause I won't progress 
If I don't learn the lesson I've been taught for long enough
All this time I've beat myself down
Reminiscing of a time before

It's how the end of an era goes 
When you can't tend to what never grows 
But I'll find hope somewhere far from all the things I lost
And see that what I've looked back at in sadness
Wasn't even worth the cost

'Cause In my long forgotten dreams
All the ones I love never leave 
We're all there in a clear lagoon 
Chugging drinks every afternoon

I woke up in sweat
And felt so much regret 
About the things we should've done
But I know it's just the end of an era long

Bring me to the light 
Unfreeze my soul 
Let me feel alive
Unseize control

Let a new horizon form
Let me leave behind what has been done 
Now's the time for me to face what I have ignored
This is the end of an era long

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I wrote this track about coming to the end of a long period of being unable to move forward due to holding onto things in the past. It is about finally accepting that certain stories in life have their endings and understanding there is no use in holding on to what was not meant to continue, such as old dreams, old friendships or places that used to be home.

End of an Era

(If you are a great artist
You have to come to the point
Where going over it again and again
Is a dance)
Moving forward is an illusion (forward, forward)
Moving backwards is an illusion (backwards, backwards, backwards)
Moving sideways is an illusion (sideways, sideways, sideways)
Losing time is an illusion
But I'll stay in the game I guess I guess I'll
Make a change I guess I will
Give everything I guess I guess I 
Know I've got nothing at all
Play the game I guess I guess I will 
Might as well try I guess
But I don't know no I don't know
But I don't know no I don't know
Yeah (yeah)
I wanna stay
I wanna stay like maybe
I wanna stay
I'm willing to play 
I'm willing to play like maybe
(maybe, maybe)
Yuh
Maybe
Maybe maybe
yuh
But how can I know?
How can I know?
How can I know?
Yuh (ooh)
How can I know?
Woah oh oh
Woah oh oh oh
Woah oh oh
Woah oh oh oh oh oh oh
Woah oh oh oh oh oh oh

Moving forward is an illusion (forward, forward)
Moving backwards is an illusion (backwards, backwards, backwards)
Moving sideways is an illusion (sideways, sideways, sideways)
Losing time is an illusion
But I'll stay in the game I guess I guess I'll
Make a change I guess I will
Give everything I guess I guess I 
Know I've got nothing at all
Play the game I guess I guess I will 
Might as well try I guess
But I don't know no I don't know
But I don't know no I don't know
(Yeah)
(Yeah)
(Maybe maybe maybe)
(Maybe)

Maybe the fact I'm here
Is proof enough to stay
Proof enough to stay
I think that I'll stay
I'll stay right here

I Don't Know

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YOUDONTLOVEME (PROD. NICK MIRA)

Written by - Raury 
Engineered by escobar
Produced by Dwn2Earth 
OOOs- Raury
Recorded @ Bravo ocean studios

I Don't Know

Solomon Ward