lain. songs :3

Prod: grayskies 
Performed by: lain (@ blindbylain)

[Verse 1]
I traced your name in the fog on my window
Whispers of you in the wind when it’s cold
You said “forever” like you meant it, didn’t you?
Now I’m talkin’ to a ghost I never knew

The streetlights flicker like my hope at night
I still see you in the wrong and the right
And I try, I try
But every star feels like a lie

[Chorus]
So can you hold me just one last time?
Lie to me and say we’ll be fine
I’ll pretend that you’re still mine
Just one more night under borrowed skies

[Verse 2]
I still keep your jacket by the door
It smells like you, or maybe something more
I replay the silence on the phone
Hoping your voice finds its way home

These shadows know me way too well
I sleep beside the version of you I built myself
It’s hell, but it’s heaven too
If it means I still get to dream of you

[Chorus]
So can you hold me just one last time?
Lie to me and say we’ll be fine
I’ll pretend that you’re still mine
Just one more night under borrowed skies

[Outro]
One last time, just one last lie
One more chance to feel alive
Even if you were never mine—
I’d still die one last time

one last time

soul.

You talk like sugar, but you taste like rot
I should've known better, but you fuckin' caught
Me slippin'—knife to my throat, tongue on your lies
Now I'm pukin' up love with blood in my eyes

You smile like you care, but I know that grin
Same face you made when you reeled me in
Go ahead, say "it's my fault" one more time
I'll swallow that shit like a bottle of wine

You make me sick, like stomach bile
Like hands 'round my neck with a goddamn smile
You're a drug that hits then kills me slow
But I keep comin' back, yeah, I fuckin' know

Spit in my face, I still say "please"
Slam the door, I'm beggin' on knees
Can't even hate you right, I'm too far gone
Told my friends I'm clean, but I'm fuckin' wrong

You're poison, baby, in a pretty dress
I eat it up just to feel like less
I'd burn this house just to smell your scent
Die one more time just to feel content

You make me sick, and I love that pain
Like throwin' up thoughts I can't explain
If hell had a voice, it'd sound like yours
And I'd crawl back in just to hear one more

Choke me out with your goodbye kiss
I carved your name in my fuckin' wrists
You're the wound I pick when I'm bored as hell
You're my heaven wrapped in a cell

you make me sick

soul.

I don't want your comfort, I don't wanna be fixed
I've been chewing on glass just to feel like l exist
Another helpless night, another breakdown scene
Puke on my shirt, blood in the sink
Don't ask me shit, I ain't got replies
I'd rather choke on pills than fake a smile
My brain's a bomb with no off switch
I rot in silence while you call me a bitch

I wish to be gone, not buried, not missed
Just dust in the air with a middle-finger twist
No sweet words, no "hope you're okay"
Just shut the fuck up and get outta my way

I overdosed while recording this

soul.

Don't patch me up, don't say I'll be fine
I've been fakin' smiles like it's part of the grind
I bite my tongue 'til it leaks regret Still taste your name in every fuckin' cigarette
You pray for me? Just save your breath
I'm too far gone I flirt with death Scratches down my arms like a symphony
But every note screams, "Just let me be"

Let me bleed, don't hold me tight I was born in the dark, not made for light
Don't call it drama, this pain is real
Don't tell me to heal what I don't wanna feel

They say, "it gets better," yeah? Eat shit
I've been stuck in the same hell every fuckin' minute
My room's a morgue with the curtains closed
A graveyard of texts I'll never expose

I laugh when I'm hurt, that's my cue
To pretend I'm okay while I'm breaking in two
Go play hero, go save someone else
I built this cage, I made this hell

I don't want peace, I want release Let me rot in my own goddamn piece
Of mind, of soul, of shredded skin
Don't let the light in—I won't let it win

I want to be mesmerizing to you

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