Chloe Slater

chloe

chloe unreleased

KENDAL CALLING 25’

I don't need you
she loved me twice as hard
but I still want you
sometimes
half a heartbreak
for a love that wasn't mine
I watched her try
to fix you

and I miss you driving too fast
can I come back again next week?
promise I won't cry this time
you said you'd have to ask

and I don't miss it
being a kid
cause I spent thirteen years 
trying to figure out what I did
and why had to leave
but she breathes again
oh she breathes
without you

you never took me to the sea
I bet you'll bring your new family
and walk barefoot through the sand
I hope you step on glass

I don't need you 
you've scarred me really
but I love you
anyway

glass- bathroom demo

elevator with no sides
fully functioning but not quite right
is gravity a comfort when it holds your body
too tight
always trying not to think about it
too hard to fit 
anything other than you into my brain
are you leaving?
i’ve stopped breathing
say what i want for a change 

no 
the jokes not funny now i know your plan
thought i knew you til i saw her hands
the doors wide open and you’re not running
no
call a taxi i don’t need you now
hindsight warned me this was always your plan
the doors wide open and you’re still seducing the doorman

oh i’m constantly on the precipice of a cold that never hits home
cause i spend all my time alone
wondering if you’re alone 
tell me are you home?

always trying not to think about it
too hard to fit 
anything other than you into my brain
are you leaving?
i’ve stopped breathing
say what i want for a change 

no 
the jokes not funny now i know your plan
thought i knew you til i saw her hands
the doors wide open and you’re not running
no
call a taxi i don’t need you now
hindsight warned me this was always your plan
the doors wide open and you’re still seducing the doorman

think about it
it’s too hard to fit
anything
anything other than you into my brain
think about it
it’s too hard to fit
anything
other than you

chorus

doorman- bathroom demo

rich and famous- bathroom demo

he can sleep anytime
other than the night
and I don't have the right to care
but I do

he drinks far too much 
can't touch the drugs
its never enough lately

don't know why I feel safe with you

its just sleep
I can't keep my cool around you
can't find it in me to want to 
tastes like peach
and cigarettes 
you're one of those regrets I only
feel with my head
but I don't need you, no

it's casual til it's competitive 
do I bore you 
does this get repetitive?
I wonder if it crosses your mind
how do I tell you that im there for you
even when you're depressed 
without sounding obesssed
honey you know I've tried

I don't wanna freak you out

I can't sleep
I can't keep my cool around you
can't find it in me to want to 
tastes like peach
and cigarettes 
you're one of those regrets I only
feel with my head
but I don't need you, no

sleep

I grew up in the waiting room 
for the next life
I pretend that im okay to stay
but if I could I'd be on the next flight

an ode to where
I cut my teeth
take me back down to the sea
and wash the dirt
that's clung to me

I always felt like a city girl
trapped in the green green fields
watching them come down
and spend a fortune on 99 ice cream

an ode to where I cut my teeth
take me back down to the sea
and wash the dirt
that's clung to me

and irony not what it seems
now im missing what I dreamed 
id never see again

the sea- bathroom demo

will she kiss the marks I made
on your neck
by mistake
in a darkened room

or do you do it with the lights on?

I don't know how I feel about you
its good to try things
that are new
and you're so open
it gave me hope but
now im lost

I don't know if you were telling the truth
or trying to get me in the mood
is this what you always do?

we're just friends I guess
you're going to think of me less
tomorrow
you wouldn't do it when you're sober

I don't know if you were telling the truth
or trying to get me in the mood
is this what you always do?
I don't know what's on your mind
are you just being kind
cause you feel like you have to?

but do you do it with the lights on

with the lights on- bathroom demo

hiccup
I blinked and you were here
I can't control my colour
does my makeup cover the fear?

meet me in the hallway
I doubt we'll be missed
and don't mind my friends
they always act like this

I heard that you like a singer
that looks like me
do you really want my body?
is your heart full of charity

im not a lost cause
I know what you think don't
press pause
I don't want to blink 
I don't want to miss your eyes tonight

cause I just wanna be your lover baby
don't be shy if you love me
let me know
and ill make it easy
I don't wanna wait for another summer
so if you're leaving 
won't you let me know
and I'll make it easy

hiccup
I blinked and you were here
I can't control my colour
does my makeup cover the fear?

why can't I muster up
a goodbye kiss?
don't mind my nerves
I always act like this

chorus

it’s like an organised heartbreak
her arms around your chest
enjoy the upgrade 
my brain needs a rest
from the broken land
that you inhabit 
you go back to sleeping around
maybe i’ll try it 
out

it’s like i’m bleeding out

you’re so hot and cold
but i keep the tap running
the bliss and the burn 
and the shivering feeling 
choked til i cry
don’t wanna ruin your high
i know i do it every evening 

we filter our words 
and yet they’re never pure 
baby don’t ask me what 
we’re doing this for
i’m choked til i cry 
don’t wanna ruin your high
I know i do it every evening

i love this city but
i’ve built an association 
i feel like crap and the stacks of concrete 
are wearing me thin
just tell me you miss me

i feel stuck
you’re the quicksand
kind of beautiful man and
i’m giving up
fighting off this sinking feeling 
almost out of love 
my egos bruised 
i know that you 
won’t pick it up

Chorus

it’s like an organised heartbreak
her arms wrapped around your chest
enjoy the upgrade 
my heart needs a rest
it’s like an organised heartbreak 
so what do you suggest 
don’t you know i loved you
i love you

the tap

you paid fifteen on the door
you insist you don’t want more than to listen
perhaps you don’t know what you’re paying for
because your eyes go dull when i let it slip

if im in love why should you care
i thought the only reason you were there
is cause you saw it on a poster
looked it up and listened closer
and liked my voice 
but you just thought i
looked like a good time

you’re not paying my bills in pound coins
don’t act like a saint cause it’s your choice

these boys
with eyes bigger than their bellies
think they can swallow me whole
before they’ve even met me
and lord i apologise 
if im being too suggestive 
the fault is all mine 
that’s why i’m trying to protect it

every writer is the hero of their own story
you keep spouting poetic crap to impress me
waste my time
get in line

boys

i want to feel needed
like i did in december 
you take your problems elsewhere
probably tell them to her
don’t wanna sound conceited
i just liked the way it hurt
to rest my shoulders 
under such heavy words

because everyone leaves
this town is like an ocean these days
and i can barely breathe
my safety net is tearing at the seams
and i hope you won’t drift away
i hope you won’t be out of reach

everyone loves your new friends
i’m a recluse
you use jealousy and envy
as an excuse
but you don’t want to share my space
it makes you feel alone
i’m not sure i can do this on my own 

because everyone leaves
this town is like an ocean these days
and i can barely breathe
my safety net is tearing at the seams
and i hope you won’t drift away
i hope you won’t be out of reach

losing friends

Worry

Burning House

Letter To Myself

Letter To Myself (feat. Frank Turner)

24 hours

Lyrics:

He's got that lifestyle
Pass the key
Down it zulu warrior
Spilt the G

He's got his contacts
In the monarchy
Makes a killing
From his passed down property ugh

Head boy
Play toy
For the blue ties
Ugh you're just another blonde hair blue eyes
Called your ex girlfriend a bitch and she cut ties
Told your college friends she's only ever proved you right
Wet words
You curse
Every leftie
I wonder what they taught you in your ppe degree
You swear that you'll be on the right side of history
I wonder how you ever sleep do you get guilty?

He's got that lifestyle
Pass the key
Down it zulu warrior
Spilt the G

He's got his contacts
In the monarchy
Makes a killing
From his passed down property ugh

Red hands
Bad plans
For the planet
You're such a stereotype and i can't stand it
It's all a money making scheme and you're a bandit
Of the upper middle class and it's cabinet

Welfares
All there
When you're minted
Access to healthcare in this country gets restricted
You don't need doctors that are government assisted
I'd never catch you in a jumper off of vinted

He's got that lifestyle
Pass the key
Down it zulu warrior
Spilt the G

He's got his contacts
In the monarchy
Makes a killing
From his passed down property ugh

He's got that lifestyle
Pass the key
Down it zulu warrior
Spilt the G

He's got his contacts
In the monarchy
Makes a killing
From his passed down property ugh

Nothing shines on this island
Nothing shines on this island
Nothing shines on this island
Nothing shines on this island

lmk

Chloe Slater