kinda wanna die but i guess this music helps <3

KILLMENOW

The Upload

$OULESS

sorry it's been so long.

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/5BTIuoLO20tBe9DBVooLqN
apple: https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/numb-single/id1252086345

I'm different now
Pill poppin' got me feelin visceral
Melancholy girl tell me where you're from
Why the fuck should I smile I'm barely on

(Ooh get me higher)
Do this 'till you're fucking numb.
(Like damn betchu riding)
Do this 'till you're fucking gone.
(Ooh then I'm riding)
Do this 'till you're fucking numb.
(Like damn let me ride out)
Do this 'till you're fucking gone.

Do this 'till you're fucking on with me.
Leave it behind it's all gone 
If you really wanna let it go
Let it.
You wanna feel something and that's fine.
You gon' let him swallow up your pride?
You can come with me and just ride
We can do this till the night end
Cigarettes and pills burn your eyes
You can take off your disguises
He ain't worth the tears that you cry
All you wanna do is get high
That's okay, lets get high.

(Ooh get me higher)
Do this 'till you're fucking numb.
(Like damn betchu riding)
Do this 'till you're fucking gone.
(Ooh then I'm riding)
Do this 'till you're fucking numb.
(Like damn let me ride out)
Do this 'till you're fucking gone.

Same kick with a new bass
Same bitch with a new face
Same dish with a new plate
Cookie cutter that's the new way
New friends think they knew me
Old friends act a new way
I've been getting it the hard way
They gon' find out the hard way
When she call me baby hit her with the plan b, and that's plan a
Car straight from Japan, hands free but ignore when she call me
I can't depend on nobody and everything that I've been doing it's all me.
Who the fuck gonna stall me.
Who the fuck gonna stop me.

I've been numb.
I've been on.

Apple Music

numb [prod. by aftertheparty]

produced by: trill skeleton @trill-skeleton

cover art by: SirC https://twitter.com/TrapSirC

lyrics:

set me down
lay me down
on the ground
facing down

set me down
lay me down
on the ground
facing down

new year where the fuck is my head at
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that

5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

im all like "show me where my friends at"
shes all like baby we should go now
you can leave girl i could get a ride down
grab a train yonge and bloor going southbound

gimme time while im finding where my phone at
whats the time 2 oclock and its pitch black
she say the time is time to go grab my backpack
new year where the fuck is my head at

come around
while im down
breaking down
on the floor

stick around
close the door
i been feeling
fucking bored

what the fuck
did i do
when you took
out my name

from ur phone
back in june
and said were thru
said were thru

new year where the fuck is my head at
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that

5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

im all like "show me where my friends at"
shes all like baby we should go now
you can leave girl i could get a ride down
grab a train yonge and bloor going southbound

gimme time while im finding where my phone at
whats the time 2 oclock and its pitch black
she say the time is time to go grab my backpack
new year where the fuck is my head at

wtf im crying (prod. trill skeleton)

produced by @beatzera

cover art found at https://vskyevaz.tumblr.com/

lyrics:

i been tryna switch up my lyrics
and fixing my mixing sometimes u cant even hear it
im hit with a blessing sometimes i cant even see it
i smoke so much potent i swear i practically breath it
i should take it easy
i choose not to
coat the blunt with keef u see me dip it like some fondue
i could sing a song and tell u everything is possible
but i dont want to
im not even fucking done yet
how im spose to say that when i aint even blow up yet
it didnt fucking happen so u couldnt say it does yet
u say tomorrows sunny but u cant even see the sun yet
fuck im kindov upset
i see how we acting and i think we better off dead
fuck it ill go first just put the bullet up in my head
i could clear my thoughts with just a little bit of meds
or i could clear it all and take a lesson from the lead

everything i make is fucking shit
i mean how cool can multiple voices really get
every single drop is always just what u except
9tails making music just for crying in ur bed

bitch im making fucking music bout the thoughts inside my head
tired of my problems u should drop a track instead
i make all my shit for me im barely getting bread
get the fuck out of my messages with all the disrepect

u know i really dont deserve it
as for all the lyrics bitch i hope u fucking learn this
and i dont need the fame and fuck the tours this aint purpose
this aint  no small loan of one million bitch i earned this

i hope u heard this
i fucking earned this

ill try to explain (prod. beatz era)

a completely non-profit project

all youtube beats were free and used prior to being sold, if now sold.

mixed/mastered by 9TAILS & SCOTTYSPLASH

scottysplash: @scottysplash


production

idealism: @idealismus

25: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCms7nTRhJWPcwFtd4AYWzXg/featured

hateful: @hatefulbeats

nayz: @nayztheone

ʎpoqou: @anobodyreally

franky m: www.youtube.com/channel/UCUOfYgWexGPJnjqglHwKK9w

sarcastic sounds: @the-sarcastic-ashole

killedmyself: @killedmyself

killrichy: @killrichy

hidden oasis: www.youtube.com/channel/UCZ7zq6C2EqpEk4WekOHb2hQ

brokebwoy: @brokeassniiigga

ready set go (prod. hateful)

here is a demo i wrote and finished recently, i hope you enjoy it

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCtxX98k7-KOvcRfJUbd-JPw canal do cara que fez o vídeo vai lá e ajuda ele.

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCtxX98k7-KOvcRfJUbd-JPw channel of the guy who made the video goes there and helps him.

Ego - An Original Song

FUNERAL

prod. capsctrl x malloy x lukeXI x Eddie B x Valious x p4ra x Shrpnss

rip valentine

Love Letter ft zenny

seeing double (devil) IG @HARDLYLUVD

i know cant escape it

prod. @taxpurposes
the responsible punk dad
guitar beats are back bitches

spotify

no bad days (prod. taxpurposes)

lyrics:

onyx
rocky
onyx
navy
lavish
cabo
someone
save me
white
pills
white
whip
lowered
lower
step in you cant
see me

skull
on me
asta
yami
shoot
swish
nike
scotty
nike
louis
fabric
gucci
tommy
on him
big guns
in the lobby
shells
needles
broken
bodies
owls
kisses
all up on my upper body
snowy
summers
she gon practice taboo hobbies
deeper
darker
girl i just love the stories
skin
plasma
ancient
mantra
skewed
moral
propaganda
heavy
heart
i put too much points in mana
save
data
east side of grenada
since the last seed i swear ive known
careful where u try and build your home
shrubbery and branch shoot out of my bones
since he went rogue i swear hes grown 

onyx
rocky
onyx
navy
lavish
cabo
someone
save me
white
pills
white
whip
lowered
lower
step in you cant
see me

onyx
rocky
onyx
navy
lavish
cabo
someone
save me
white
pills
white
whip
lowered
lower
step in you cant
see me

onyx (youngkimj x rxney)

bruh i say "got good gas smellin like asscrack" in this wtf was i on also why has noone acknowledged it?? is this world even real?? something to think abt

breathe easy (with sorrow bringer)

she doesn't wanna miss me (but she does)

better dead (sadboiev)

co prod @ prodbytheswitch

put that beretta to my head
i'm tryna empty the clip
i've been facin every wood
but i can't face what i did

i've been drinkin every night
i don't care what i sip
the more i think about her touch
the more i drink till i'm sick

and i don't, really know what you call that
i keep wishing on the stars for you to call back
and i don't, really know if you care now
girl you're fine, do your thing, let your hair down

she knows i'll always love her
she knows i'll always try
but every time she kisses him
i get better at sayin goodbye

and i don't wanna lose you
but i don't wanna live
i put everything i had inside the heart you gave to him!

put that beretta to my head
i'm tryna empty the clip
i've been facin every wood
but i can't face what i did

i've been drinkin every night
i don't care what i sip
the more i think about her touch
the more i drink till i'm sick

and i don't, really know what you call that
i keep wishing on the stars for you to call back
and i don't, really know if you care now
girl you're fine, do your thing, let your hair down (x2)

clip!

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