been sitting on this one for like two years now. i hope y'all enjoy it. thank you for all the love & support. i can't even begin to tell you how much i appreciate it. <3

lyrics
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i wish i had friends
i wish i had anyone to save me
but i ain’t like them
i’m just a nightmare in the making
i pray that this ends
that the baphomet will take me
away from loose ends
cause i’m not to be forsaken 
maybe it’s a part of me
the anxiety
but the funny thing
is it’s all i can see
& it lies to me
fucking blinding me
when i honestly just

feel like i’m on drugs
even though i don’t even take em
it’s fuckin’ me up
ride these highs to feel complacent
it’s like i’m on drugs
i hide sometimes so i feel safe from
the pain in my gut
yeah it’s fucking me up
feels like i’m on drugs

i should dive in
swim to the surface when i’m stable
let’s skip the pretend
cause this life is not a fable
this story don’t end
till i’m hooked to all these cables
& start to see red
as they lie me on the table
maybe it’s the start of things
something i can’t see
it’s beyond a dream
an advisory
& it lies to me
fucking blinding me
when i honestly just

feel like i’m on drugs
even though i don’t even take em
it’s fuckin’ me up
ride these highs to feel complacent
it’s like i’m on drugs
i hide sometimes so i feel safe from
the pain in my gut
it’s fucking me up
feels like i’m on drugs

somebody wake me
cause life is a daydream
& i’m wasting time with you
so many faces
yeah i’m losing patience
& i’m stuck on loving you

feels like i’m on drugs (x4)

all i can see (prod. nick furlong x tony livadas)

Somebody 2 Hold (skellington)

Out October 31st

Stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/yokaidreams/with-friends-like-these-feat-weepings

Follow My Twitter; twitter.com/DreamsYokai

Follow Weepings: https://soundcloud.com/xweepings

Produced by The Goat Sorrow Bringer: https://www.beatstars.com/sorrowbringer/feed

Lyrics:

//Yokai Dreams\\

I don't stop
Only go
Yeah it's all I ever know
Pick a thorn 
From a rose
Jab it straight between my toes
You can find me off the coast
Face down with the water up my nose
When I jump off of the boat
I wonder if I'll float
Outside in the cold
I could take you through the snow
But the look upon my face 
Gon leave you looking fucking froze
Every evening on the weekend
You could swear I turn a ghost
With the way I glow
When I go no show
When the music stops
And the dead men know

All of you sinners are soon gonna realize
You wasted your lives when you meet your demise
You are the enemy I am a victor
And I'm fairly certain that you won't survive
Screaming of commoners soon come to pass
At the moment The Champion arrives
Empty your hands, enter your caskets. You will be buried alive.
Don't care much for the passing life so I guess I'll take it slow
Lately it's so hard to breathe when they got me by the throat
Nights in peace spend the nights like these alone within my home
No enemies with friends like these
My skin is turning cold

It's not safe after night out
Better get home before the streetlights go out
Day comes and we die out
In the meantime I'll lie down
It's not safe after night out
Better get home before the streetlights go out
Day comes and we die out
In the meantime I'll lie down

///Weepings\\\

Lurk in the background
Yes I flick the fuckin light and blow the ash out
No I'm never feelin right til I black out
Faded in the moonlight the days drag out tapped out
Yes I'm on a mission demons infiltrate my vision
Spider spin its web just to have it fall down
Will you get back up or will you just stay down?
I got spirits in my glass get me out this small town

Skeletons that I keep locked in my closet
They won't see the light of day
Problems unsolved it's just hard to keep moving
I'm flooring the gas
Ripped out the breaks of this car I might crash
Fallin deeper
Pressure rising and I'm growin weaker
Look at the path growin steeper
Pale as a ghost as I'm takin a toke
Vision growin bleaker

I see faces on the walls in my bedroom
Yes it's way too late I think I oughta go to bed soon
4am 5am 6am damn
I'm still layin here I ain't got no damn plans

With Friends Like These w/ Weepings (Prod. Sorrow Bringer)

prod me

sick & haven't been able to record much of anything for some time now, but i wanted to get something out both for myself, and possibly you;
been sitting on this one for a while
hope you enjoy.
take care

hey, i'll trade you for your sorrows
i've grown used to feeling that
and if we're talking 'bout tomorrows
i've grown used to losing them too

the voices i read with my ears, tend to bleed
choking up every piece of the letters i speak
wasn't always afraid of the pictures i paint
guess the brush needs a wash, mutilate, then repeat

hate when i reach out again
people speculate my head
you're not me, you're not my friend
frequently, wish i was..

thoughts reflected through my brain
too bad they can't do the same
shattered past and future pains
guide me home through rough terrain

i'm ugly with words
keep it blunt, little passive
hoping that i'll make it up with some actions
feel so trash, bounce back like elastic
i'm doing that for the sake of my casket
hurting myself in a hope i'll be gone
suck how the ones that we trust do you wrong
playing along
it's not even fair i can bare all the tears that i've once undergone

this life makes me sick; can't trade it
i've been pushing through the lame shit
stay averted; bad relations
let my room for hate stay vacant
pour it all on my own psyche
ain't no one 'round here feel like me
it's not a nice thing
never sight-see inside my mind
i'm mostly agonizing

i told them it'd be okay
it sure as hell don't feel that way
your limitations never stay
you're pulling pins to thought grenades

it's all the same
cast a wave and send me to a sunken grave
only then i'll know my place

woke up in a sweat so cold
in a room pale white, and a heart full of woe
passed out 'round noon, now i'm ten on my toes
from the sun's red hue, passed through what imposed
any chafe on my brain by the stains from the mulch
what kind of weight doesn't make you implode?
phasing a gate into heaven's abode
but that ain't a place i ain't think imma know

i haven't changed my sheets in like a week or two
(get outta bed)
summer's passed, and suddenly, our meanings too
(it's all that i have)

my eyes stayed tied into my mind
to undermine it's barbed wires

i'm trying to be what i need
choosing escape over delicacies
they weren't a choice i would seek
nothing was ever created for me

(4x)
i'm trying to be what i need

mulch

SEXI

the homie @guccihighwaters

lyrics

(gucci)
I build static
I go crazy
Can't put it out if it doesn't sound amazing
and life's too fast baby hold me till it's over
tell me that you love me maybe once when you're sober
Don't wanna die as a memory
I can't leave without my legacy
Leave love letters lying on my tombstone
death is only physical I'd like to have a new home

Anxiety make my body go numb now
I sleep early withdraw on the comedown 
when I was younger it left me in hunger
but now I'm older 
desire to be under x2

(softheart)
you dont even care like you used to 
you aint even there like you used to be
hard like the usual 
you just give me stares like you're used to me

anxious probably up late
tryna hide my face
tryna bring it back
i was thinking that
life is always moving so fast
before you knew it had passed
doing better still bad

i guess im just scared it wont come
true so i dont think it
i swear its so lonely when its snowing
in new england
thought you called me it was just a 
dream was just a figment
of back when you would hold me 
like the only thing you need is
me 
is me 
is me
hate me you hate me so bad
its over hard to stay sober 
as i get older just grow colder
weed make it okay so i stay stoned
just like a boulder

chorus

anxiety (feat. guccihighwaters)

music video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IC7Ak_JNOWA
hosted by sad chill </3

@prodreaper

i cant feel a fucking thing
keep my eyes up to the rain
death is callin out my name
it's not too late to call again
the sky starts fallin on my face
but i'll always pull up to the same old place
marijuana rolled up, hit a gram to the face
said it's never been so good to fucking feel so dead

it could never be the same
put the double barreled to my brain
next to my 40 oz and pack of cigs
i'll paint a picture with the parts that remain

what would you do
if we could go back and maybe change some things?
if only you knew
that i'd do it all again just to get to where i'm at
sometimes ur eyes turn blue
and sunshines look fine without
or anybody that i knew
yeah, weeks go by where i don't think about you

Follow me <3

sometimes ur eyes turn blue (prod. reaper) </3 music video in description </3

shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/bornhero for the amazing beat <3

lyrics:
where i belong 
i do not know
stuck in my room
crying at home
watching the parties from my distant phone
everyone always just leaves me alone
i do not know
how to fit in
smoking me out
ripping a spliff  
everyone loves me when i go and dip
everyone loves me when i go and dip

everyone leaves me on read
everyone leaves me for dead
stuck in my bed once again
writing the same lines in pen
everyone leaves me on read
everyone leaves me for dead
stuck in my bed once again
writing the same lines in pen
i'm stuck here 
writing simple songs
hope to take the pain away
when my eyes turn to gray
i know 
that my secrets buried deep below the bong
will release
every thought i'm feeling making me do wrong

where i belong
i will not know
every weekend i'm feeling so low
no where to go 
staying at home
staring at walls scrolling twitter alone
hit up my phone
leave you on read
people around treating me like i'm dead
feel like a ghost
no one will post
sit in my bed think about you again   

no one invites me to parties
sit in a car acting sorry
girls playing me like atari
soon i'll blow up like i'm carti
no one invites me to parties
sit in a car acting sorry
girls playing me like atari
soon i'll blow up like i'm carti

i take control of the whip in my mind
driving me places that i can't define
exploring the road, taking my time
lie to my friends when i say i'm alright
where have i gone
i do not know 
hop in the car and i'm driving alone
phone is on silent not trusting these tones
i feel the weight all the way to my bone

where i belong 
i do not know
stuck in my room
crying at home
watching the parties from my distant phone
everyone always just leaves me alone
i take control of the whip 
going straight 90 i dip
exploring the vessel of me
tell me about what you see

where i belong (prod. born hero)

vocals in order of appearance
93feetofsmoke
fats'e
cøzybøy

produced by jay vee
coproduced by fats'e & 93

@youngburial
@93feetofsmoke
@cozyboycries

bleed for no reason w/ 93feetofsmoke, fats'e, & cøzybøy

Cover art by    @ peachy.rosie    (on instagram)

LYRICS

Making me sick
Lose my shit
Go party
I'm staying in
Once again
We're parting
Girl, do you sin 'cause I sin
I'm sorry
Losing my shit
Can we sit and restart it
You rip me up shawty
Do it no sorries
I show you love always
You give it back hardly
I want you so strongly
You want me back partly
One look and I'm concrete
That look that say "don't stop me"
...well I won't

All you want is just a break
Don't know why you feel this way
Did your heart stand still?
Won't you look at my face?
Can't you tell me what's his name?
I need someone I can blame
When I'm taking these pills
When I let myself fade

did your heart stand still?

she doesn't wanna miss me (but she does)

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