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@nevrfall
i love @heylog so much, he's an amazing person c:
lyrics:
(casperrr)
moving away as my body collapse
half a day and i already smoked half a pack
i smell the chemicals burning in my hand
i need to change this i need to take a stand
all of the promises u made they didn't worth nothing
while u ran ur mouth ur actions didn't prove anything
u still wanna tell me that i am lying
do u really wanna tell me that i am lying

AND THIS IS FUNNY CAUSE THE PROMISES ARE STUCK IN THE WALLS
U TREAT ME WRONG AND I STILL PICK U UP EVERYTIME U FALL
I GET DEPRESSED AND I SHUT MYSELF FROM WINTER TO FALL
I REALLY NEED HELP I CANT SEE WHATS REAL I JUST SEE fog
FOGGY MEMORIES IN MY BRAIN HELP ME REMEMBER
WHAT WAS THE THING THAT TRAUMATIZED ME LAST DECEMBER
CUZ I TOOK IT OUT OF MY HEAD
I KNOW I WISHED EVERYDAY FOR DEATH
I WAS GETTING SO MAD
I WAS GETTING SO FED UP

(heylog)
u made me mad, i called but u won't answer
don't speak to me like that where are your manners
it's hard when life just sucks, is it supposed to?
deteriorate non stop what am i s'posed to do
u hate on me now when i didn't do a thing
u love causing ruckus and it's concerning
but i kill the vibe is that why u hate me
i won't give u shit or anything

is it safe to say that i miss u
forgot what it's like to kiss u
i'm sorry u had to tell me what u been through
if u need me i'll be here for u
forgot what ur face looks like, it's been a day
leaving ur house but i can't drive away
arriving home and it don't feel the same
without u here, it feels so plain

promises w/heylog (nevrfall)

video here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tb8xCct8NZI
one song 2 end an amazing year with twinnem 
@midwxst
@billsburyjoeboi
mixed by slappy
lyrics
[pre-hook]
im not the same kid that i once was
when you met me
its a lot of offers on the plate right now
and its tempting
i can act like i never saw the texts that 
you sent me
or we could skip to the part when
you're in my room undressing

[hook]
baby just tell me what you wanna do 
we could slide back to the pad 
you can stop playing mad 
and your friend and you come thru
i was never mad in the first place
and im better than your ex on my worst day
ima be in LA on thursday
i said, baby just tell me what you wanna do
i aint never been for none of that he said she said shit
man just come thru
now theres way too much in my cup
and i cant stand up
but i couldnt give one less fuck

[verse: midwst]
a lot of things in front of me this shit's getting tempting
you saw where i was at and now you're seeking redemption
cause all of a sudden you fuck with me, up in my mentions
all this shit don't add up no it don't even make sense
you cut me deep, you left me there to sit and wait
blocked your number, blocked your texts
don't care what you are sending me
hoping that im stuck up in your head and in your memories
so that you can not forget my pain and all my misery

[hook]

come thru

come thru w/ midwxst (billsburyjoeboi)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
(hair)
i heard what u said but now i'm past it
getting tired of you talk ik u cappin
i'm p good at sitting back behind the action
i never even know, force of habit
gotta hold me back and my aggression
fists hurt from doing all this clenching
you think i'm pissed off, i'm just upset
i'm tryna see the light, wanna end this

hold what i have learned from u and leave everything else behind
wonder if she notices i'm distancing and tryna hide
burning all the passages and that includes both you and i
fighting on this field for u but i think you'd rather me die
face plant
in the soil
the water comes
to a boil
now it's hot
take my shirt off
got 8 bumps
between my torso
old ones keep in touch cause they see that i'm doing something right
think about how far i've come, it honestly got me surprised
u say we're the same but man that hurts cause i am not ur kind
more destruction, come prepared, the blood is real and well defined
missiles coming from the heavens, everybody runs with fear
think i'm deaf from all the bombs, i just hear ringing in my ears
the voices are embedded, i be battling for quite some years
don't know what they say, i just know they like to interfere
PACK MY BAGS OR CONTINUE FREEZING
I HATE MYSELF AND YOU'RE THE REASON
BUT I PROMISE I'M GETTING THERE
LESS HEAD PULLING, LOOSE STRANDS OF HAIR
SHE DETOX WITH A GLASS OF WATER
I MAKE SMART CHOICES, THAT'S WHY I'M WISER
I SMELL THE BOOZE COMING OUT ON YOUR BREATH
I GUESS YOU NEEDED TO TAKE SOMETHING OFF THE EDGE

i heard what u said but now i'm past it
getting tired of you talk ik u cappin
i'm p good at sitting back behind the action
i never even know, force of habit
gotta hold me back and my aggression
fists hurt from doing all this clenching 
you think i'm pissed off, i'm just upset
i'm tryna see the light, wanna end this

don't know why u up
like what do you want
i'm not here to judge
do u feel forced in love
i needed help as my skin tears
i would really like to know why u weren't there
whom i love, i'm in despair
can u hear my voice, are you here

spotify

hair

produced by heylog
enjoy

lyrics:
as usual i manage to breakdown
don't bother me i enjoy no sound
can't talk to ppl and i know i should
the nerves i build up come out me like a flood
i expect a better me to finally come my way
but the hope i'm losing is drifting away
i forgot that u were mine and that u exist
and that's a good thing
i'm making progress
i hold a whole heart
i gotta use it wise
i cancel all my plans
cus i changed my mind
she smell like lavender
and i think i'm in love
wait hold on a min
can we take a pause
i needa overthink
when i talk to you
it's not on purpose
now u know the truth
i told u everything
n all my secrets
and now it feels wrong
and i know i'm screwed
i look in your eyes it's like looking in an abyss
thanks for your time i learned a lot from it
i'm different now, done with u, you know what i quit
i'm leaving now, don't care to be part of this
YOU SAID SHE WAS A WHORE
WELL MAYBE UR THE HOE
ABSCONDING EVERY GIRL
IS THIS WHERE I GROW
COULDN'T ASK FOR MORE
I'LL BREAK EVERY BONE
NOW DUDES CARE FOR ME
BUT I ONLY GOT 1 BRO

𝘭𝘰𝘨𝘢𝘯
𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘶𝘱

𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨

lavender

cover of 'all he touched is dead' by corbin
reproduced by logan

-
go stay aside with hurt
in a place we went down through
faced lied to taste my ground
invaded our kind world
praise came with doubtfulness
which gave way sound of cruel word

don't hold me
too close now
you trust your weakness
don't hold me
too close now
i'll cut you down
down

all he touched is dead cover (corbin smidzik)

its getting dark and you aint answering your phone
like are you home?
you say i never cared about you 
but you're wrong
its not my fault

i think about her way too often 
late night recital at a party, i got nothing to do 
you act like im not just an option
and i dont fight it cause i know deep down i wish it was true-

fuck it, whats the right move?
two shots gets my mind loose
shes like omg you're just my type i wanna try you
she gon turn this on cause its the song she wants to die to

areyouhome? (elxnce + thislandis)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
swear i could throw up if i keep thinking of you
you disgust me and i guess u wanted to prove
that ur shameful you gave it all up for him
just some pleasure to receive from a little bitch
i need to let it go
but it haunts me to my deepest core

surround me in this darkness whom i spare
there is plenty more for you so join me in here
i need to let u know
that u disgust me
and i can't look at u no more
get myself to do things but i never wanna do them
once i go outside i'm proud i got myself to do it
you disappoint me to the point i never wanna see you
your motions say it all from what you n him have been through

now ur shameful you gave it all up for him
oh just a finger to receive between your lips

pleasure

cover of 'poland' by lil yachty produced by f1lthy
re-produced by logan

poland cover (lil yachty)

sin inside a dress (hallow + ryo)

made me to be (billsburyjoeboi)

prod by me

enjoy 40 seconds of vocals and beat for the remainder

•lyrics• 
<3

I love you and i don't know what to do
(what to do)
Mental health is fvcked and it hurts you too
(hurts you too)
I dont want to be the bad for you
I just wish for us to stay true 

Bite my nails out of stress
I'm worried that you will <ǝʌɐǝ˥>
Change up your mind and say that you hate me
I dont mean any harm but i can't help me 
but i can't help-

Reaching my hand out 
But im dragging me down
Muffled voices in my head
They are getting loud
Should i even be proud
Locked up in my room
Im too scared to go out
im too scared to go out

scared

i'm not gonna bother you ever again

@heylog

heylog - repeat (nevrfall remix)

sorry for the wait and thank you to everyone for being so patient with me <3

produced by chalyre𓍼

will i fall again
when all i am
surrounded by mountains know im no man
its all compounding in the words you said
im driving at night go as fast as i can
living in a lie
needed me to hide
dont run
leaving me behind
now im left of what you tore from

did you get all that you wanted
taking its toll and its broken
and it always comes around
but youre nowhere to be found

you could stop it
all this bleeding
stand where i stood
and youll see it
through your eyes
no im not human
waiting for my lifes conclusion

leave it all behind
take your own advice
dont make me say it twice
youre no longer mine

hearth

produced by @heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
theres a fire that sits outside
punish those with corrupted minds
theres a riot that wakes at night
yelling manipulating lies
theres evil bitches late at night
fragrant lips that could end my life
there she is waiting for my mind
i hand it over whisper it some lies

(uglysneaker)
its hard and when im writin all these letters
and voices showing me death saying its better
so i gotta death call its waiting for me
adios friends ill be gone before the morning
i pick apart and dissect these women like its a cadaver
i like to feed off flesh and never get better
so i gotta dip now cause my demons been waiting
goodbye my love ill be busy hanging with the beasts

(heylog)
theres a fire that sits outside
punish those with corrupted minds
theres a riot that wakes at night
yelling manipulating lies
theres evil bitches late at night
fragrant lips that could end my life
there she is waiting for my mind
i hand it over whisper it some lies

(uglysneaker)
its hard when i couldnt provide ur shelter
and my ego wishes death upon your daughter
so i gotta dip now cause the devil is coming
goodbye u fuck have fun hanging with the beasts
but karmas back i trip and eat the dirt
i solve my anger on a blade and it hurts
i watch it sting but she could feel the burn
u satisfied? u turn my life in for the worse

cadaver (ft. heylog)

happy birthday 2 me <3 
all love to hallow
@avit69
@1hallow
cover taken by @coleslau
on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/24Y6ZUvXsrLW9eIQUulaSn
[lyrics]
[verse]
she wish i was good at being something im not 
i waste all my time i think i wish it would stop 
she wake up at 10 and then she put on her makeup
and i still go to bed and hope that i never wake up
my ex just hit me up to tell me im still an asshole
im worried bout the future but im stuck on the past tho
im looking at my phone and i been talking for too long
and you thought that you knew me, you knew wrong.

[hook]
and i think its my insomnia
i could write a book on everything thats wrong with you
and i figured out that aint nobody solid uh
it started adding up i think that im the problem (x2)

[AViT]
can you, feel it
coursing through your veins just like its venom
toxic, posion, its keeping me alive but i feel dead inside
and everynight i stay up thinking how you fucked me up
and every toss and turn i do you haunt my every move
and i need you out my head
so i finally go to bed

[hook]

9MM

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