sad ipukebands mix

PJSAV X PUKEMASTER - “BENADRYL” [prod. love matt]

sedated(freestyle) - @ipukebands + @pjsav [prod.loseralerrt]

rip - ipukebands :(

Rain (Prod. Loseralerrt)

smoking out the window on a friday 
don't know where i'm at but it's a long way home
you don't really care about what i say
you just want somebody you can call your own
in my room i'm counting all the cobwebs 
i got pictures of you posted all across my wall
maybe one night i'll be standing in your hallway
evil voices in my head keep fucking up my thoughts

i'm no good for her, i know
and that's just so upsetting
and if i keep on hurting her
will i still go to heaven
i been thinking about suicide
yea it's true i said it
baby i got too much on my mind 
you just wouldn't get it
okay you sick of me
i'm sick of me 
i'm sick of you too
and of pretending like i'm cool with everything that you do
a thousand roaches crawl all over me i don't even move
i'm just a piece of flesh for them to eat when i'm in my tomb

i watch the leaves turn brown 
while i wait for you to come by my house 
your love is all that counts 
i accept my fate
dying on this couch
i watch the leaves turn brown 
while i wait for you to come by my house 
your love is all that counts 
i accept my fate
dying on this couch

smoking out the window on a friday 
don't know where i'm at but it's a long way home
you don't really care about what i say
you just want somebody you can call your own
in my room i'm counting all the cobwebs 
i got pictures of you posted all across my wall
maybe one night i'll be standing in your hallway
evil voices in my head keep fucking up my thoughts

i watch the leaves fall down
(fall down)
i watch the leaves fall down
(fall down)
i watch the leaves fall down
(fall down)
while i wait for you to come by my house
(house)

Friday (Prod. Loseralerrt)

Overthinking shit, laying in my room
Thunderstorm hear the rain the hit roof
I know all your friends hating on me too
I know that I act crazy, so do you
I been in my bag lately I been cool
Smoking hella gas staying out the loop 
All this shit I been through, I’m a soldier I’m a troop
But I got no one to vent to so I don’t know what to do
I can’t function on the daily I’m a mess 
I can’t tell if I’m retarded or depressed 
Doomscrolling for an hour got me wishing I was dead
It feels like such a fucking chore just getting out of bed 
Here you go again 
I don’t wanna talk, I don’t wanna text
I don’t know what’s wrong with me to even tell you
You’re not helping you’re just adding to my stress

I’m lashing out I’m getting mad at all my friends (damn)
It’s fucking stupid cuz without em I’m a dead man
RIP to Danny, RIP to dove too 
I would catch a fucking body just to hug you :(
You made me feel home 
And then you burned it down
I wish we could trade places
I’m so lost without you
I don’t wanna let you down
I just hope I make you proud
I felt alone until I saw a ghost in my house
And I knew that it was you, I had no doubt

(Most of my problems are always)
(Problems that I cause myself)

Overthinking shit, laying in my room
Thunderstorm hear the rain the hit roof
I know all your friends hating on me too
I know that I act crazy, so do you
I been in my bag lately I been cool
Smoking hella gas staying out the loop 
All this shit I been through, I’m a soldier I’m a troop
But I got no one to vent to so I don’t know what to do
I can’t function on the daily I’m a mess 
I can’t tell if I’m retarded or depressed 
Doomscrolling for an hour got me wishing I was dead
It feels like such a fucking chore just getting out of bed 
Here you go again 
I don’t wanna talk, I don’t wanna text
I don’t know what’s wrong with me to even tell you
You’re not helping you’re just adding to my stress