prod me

shoutout @kamzze for hopping on the song

(chbv)
i tell u my lies and ill never know it’s right
ur always by my side and ur never tryna hide
are u down for this ride? cuz if u are then so am i
we’re driving on the road and every time i feel alive
life has all these obstacles, ill die or have a stroke
im living my dreams and u aren’t here to give me hope
i dont need a therapist, i promise i dont cope
i can see you from a distance i feel so alone

running from a distance i can see it in ur eyes
i been working my ass off, ive been so preoccupied
i pretend that i dont see you cuz im living not to bribe
ill forget our entire past and move on with my life
blood is leaking through the floorboards, am i scared to die?
ill see you talking with him you know i dont mean to pry
i know a way out of this it’s never too late to try
im harboring these feelings and then you told me goodbye
WANNA WAKE UP NEXT TO U BUT I JUST HEARD GOODNIGHT
I DONT WANNA TALK AND IM NOT IN THE MOOD TO FIGHT
I KNOW YOU WERE MESSING WITH ME YOU WERENT ALWAYS MINE
I GUESS ONLY TIME WILL TELL BUT I DONT HAVE TIME TO CRY

(cherry)
i tell u my lies and i will never know its right
always by my side n u never tryna hide
r u down for this ride? cuz if you are then so am i
drivin on the road every time i feel so alive
ill die or have a stroke
ur not here for my hope
i promise i dont cope
here i feel alone (so alone)

forget all my times i spend with u
i dont give a shit cuz i hate you!
omg i hate that new song
i dont wanna love but its so hard
hold me its all the pain in my heart
but you know me i could never go n fix it 
and the old me could tell u that i really cared
all that rlly fuckin up my new hair
all black fit in the middle of juLY

HOODIE ON MY BACK AND I TOLD U I WOULD DIE
FROM THIS FUCKIN HEAT BUT IT DOESNT MAKE A DIFFERENCE
SITTIN AT THE WATER AND MY LEGS STARTED TO TWITCH AND
AND I DONT FEEL SAFE AROUND U ANYMORE
IF EVERYONE AT THIS PARTY TURNED INTO AN ANIMAL 
U WOULD STAY THE FUCKIN SAME
STAY THE FUCK AWAY
YOU SHOULD TELL UR FRIENDS  THAT YOU JUST FORGOT MY NAME

harbor w/ cherry

are you alone right now?

produced by sorrowbringer
____________________________
lyrics:

bright lights
dilate my eyes.
take a lil somethin'
hear the static subside.
as you ask
how i've been,
and i say
that i'm fine,
start to think
to myself
are these thoughts
even mine?

it's feelin' crowded in here,
i'm in a room all by myself.
have to do what they say,
they say they'll leave when i help.
it's not the eyes on the walls,
it's their faces that haunt me.
cuz her skins like her voice
in my head. hear it softly.

closer.
need a little closure.
cuz who's to say 
what's waiting in that dark room?
hear it when i pass by.
cryin' out, askin' me to get 
closer.
i wish someone would save me,
or tell me that it's over.

hear a voice (march...)
through the walls
sayin' somethings 
in the ceiling .
darling plz save me.
i can't shake this feeling.

bright lights
dilate my eyes.
take a lil more,
but nothin' happened this time.
as you ask
how i've been,
and i say
that i'm fine,
start to think
to myself
are these thoughts
even mine?

watch it all go black,
come to,
and realize
there's no end
in sight.
watch the walls cave in
one last time.
i've been up 
all night.

dilate (+sorrowbringer)

prod ilyl1ght

lyrics:
hows it feel to try and take the things i say and twist um
hows it feel to know i love you even though you hurt me 

hows it feel to know i give up
hows it feel to know you won 
promise me that you'll be ok 
promise you'll stay when i'm gone 
watch me remove everything 
watch me remove everyone 
watch me end my life 
i wonder if you'll change after i'm gone 
gone 



erase

lyrics:

why the fuck you telling me to calm down
right now im just trynna put a song out
hit me with an invite i might show up to the lake house
stalking all my pages man it feels just like a stake out
i been skipping sleep but every night been feeling great now
i still barely eat but theres a lot on top my plate now

why does everybody wanna fuck with us
i dont wanna talk no more
im done
i been on my own for the last 6 months
been 2 weeks since i felt sun
been 2 months since i saw someone

you know i stay on my own now
and i live my life on my own time
like i never think of my old self
i dont reminesce our past times

why the fuck you telling me to calm down
right now im just trynna put a song out
hit me with an invite i might show up to the lake house
stalking all my pages man it feels just like a stake out
i been skipping sleep but every night been feeling great now
i still barely eat but theres a lot on top my plate now

esoteric (prod. web + wraithontheporch)

lyrics:

girl tell me where you wanna go
i promise i could take you there and more than you could know
the messages you send they never pop up on my phone
the atmosphere has changed since last time you entered my home 

i know that you never cared
i called your phone 6 times you were never there
sending you a text feels like saying prayer
if you really wanna fight we could take it there


live a long life
stay a long time
tried to see the vision but its just not clear
live a long life
80+ years
tried to see the vision but its just not clear

80+ years
thats a long time
i dont really know if i could stay here
live a long life
stay a long time
i dont wanna stay in my house all year

live a long life
stay a long time
tried to see the vision but its just not clear
live a long life
80+ years
tried to see the vision but its just not clear

girl tell me where you wanna go
i promise i could take you there and more than you could know
the messages you send they never pop up on my phone
the atmosphere has changed since last time you entered my home 

i know that you never cared
i called your phone 6 times you were never there
sending you a text feels like saying prayer
if you really wanna fight we could take it there




we could go anywhere you want (prod. tinyforest)

There’s no one here but you
But I need someone I can talk to
And you know that your picture is see through
One more call
I didn’t lie when I said you seen it all
Big body when I pull up to the scene
Aw, you enter my brain in a way I ain’t seen before
and I ain’t got no clarity
You speak to me in a way so sweet
I could give you all of my love
Just let me know if I’m holding too tight
I’ve seen you drinking all of my blood
I know that you expect me to clean it up
Don’t wait two hours, you know it’s a long drive
I’ve seen his pictures don’t compare him to me
Seeing silhouettes on the wall when I wake from my dream

Dream,
woahh
Slowfall
I’ve seen stuff in my room
making off in the night

Your nightmare is not what I wanted
When you ask me I say that I’m cool
Always so cynical
Always feel lost in the room
Put on my jacket, out the door I go, cause all I do is run

There’s no one here but you
But I need someone I can talk to
And you know that your picture is see through
One more call
I didn’t lie when I said you seen it all
Big body when I pull up to the scene
Aw, you enter my brain in a way I ain’t seen before
and I ain’t got no clarity
You speak to me in a way so sweet
I could give you all of my love
Just let me know if I’m holding too tight
I’ve seen you drinking all of my blood
I know that you expect me to clean it up
Don’t wait two hours, you know it’s a long drive
I’ve seen his pictures don’t compare him to me
Seeing silhouettes on the wall when I wake from my dream

I’ve seen everything
Don’t try to get it past me
I’ve seen everything
Sorting cables, we’ve lost our connection
We’re out of touch
Who do you connect with
All alone, tell me am I someone that you can accept

There’s no one here but you
But I need someone I can talk to
And you know that your picture is see through
One more call
I didn’t lie when I said you seen it all
Big body when I pull up to the scene
Aw, you enter my brain in a way I ain’t seen before
and I ain’t got no clarity
You speak to me in a way so sweet
I could give you all of my love
Just let me know if I’m holding too tight
I’ve seen you drinking all of my blood
I know that you expect me to clean it up
Don’t wait two hours, you know it’s a long drive
I’ve seen his pictures don’t compare him to me
Seeing silhouettes on the wall when I wake from my dream

one more call w/ kaiso. (prod. cl6udy x jolst)

Vails x Mackk - not so special
Prod. By Mackk
Vocals from vails 
Lyrics below:

You think of me special, but I ain’t shit
Got a lotta issues I can’t fix
Heart been cracked, yeah it’s got no stitch
Every time you love me, it just don’t stick

I been running from myself again
Tryna fake a smile, play pretend
You see gold where there’s rust and pain
You hold on tight, but I just can’t stay the same

Yeah yeah I break down when the world gets loud
Yeah yeah Smile on my face but I’m not proud
Yeah yeah I’m just a ghost in a fragile shell
Yeah yeah Been through heaven, but I stayed in hell

I been runnin’ from the pain I feel inside,
Smile on my face but it’s all a disguise,
Bottle it up, yeah, I keep it in tight,
Pray for the day that I’ll finally feel right

You see hope where I see my flaws,
I see cracks where you see no walls,
I keep falling no hands to hold,
Heart too numb, it’s already cold

It’s already cold it’s already cold
And now I’m freezing, now you’re leaving
Now I’m grieving baby why you leaving me 

You think of me special, but I ain’t shit
Got a lotta issues I can’t fix
Heart been cracked, yeah it’s got no stitch
Every time you love me, it just don’t stick

I been running from myself again
Tryna fake a smile, play pretend
You see gold where there’s rust and pain
You hold on tight, but I just can’t stay the same

#rap #melodic #vails

Not so special

Pope

lyrics

if you stay imma stay down
she saw my ribs like im a greyhound
i felt sparks during the makeout
this shit wouldnt be here if i could take it out
dont drink too much im not in a rush
i drink too much and i feel too much
yea i woke up inside a carousel
you knew nothing bout the way i felt
life could be great if i could just get out
blowing o's with this kush its tempting me to lay down
im seeing weird shit off this purple im inside a clay house
now i got fans that i dont know feel like the boss man now
yea i miss you so much but its not the reason that im calling
i swear im in too deep my soul feel dirty even when its polished
you dont even have to see me for the shit i dont acknowledge
she said are you good and i said baby girl im solid
1800  fueled pulled up with my bros look like the army
i can tell you never proof read cause you write like fucking charlie
i swear this 3.5 just gave me wings like im a harpie
ill always be your ken if you will always be my barbie

i swear i used to love the way you stick to me like pollen
everytime you’d talk to me now i feel like weve
fallen
fallen in way deeper than i ever thought wed be
i jist feel like sleepin everytime you talk to me
oh my god make it stop
i could tell you what had went wrong
but you would lie to me and tell me its enough
i could tell you what i want you would tell me its a bluff
I swear its so overwhelming that i fell out of love
i fell outta touch when u told me that its over
im not the one
but i had went had sober for like a month
just to get thrown on the road outta luck
and i been in a rut i admit but that dont mean that you should always throw a fit
take a pic look at my fit
i swear that they think its legit
lemme take other sip
i wish that you wouldn’t trip
all these thoughts i wish i did
but i dont act on what i talk about
like every time you talk to me i feel i wanna block it out
and every single part of me dont wanna see me walk around
but thats all that they talk about
so i been tryna fix it all
i never miss my adderal
but it makes me feel horrible
but atleaast its been tolerable
and i aint been dishonorable
i hate all of these obstacles but i think ill het thru em all