Kettie (cabernett)

prod. ilyl1ght

lyrics:
dont nobody got my back but i got yours 
start to wonder then i ask what im here for 

i was walking blind but i see
every moment waiting for you 
i got nothing waiting for you on the side 
bring me back from the dead 
let me go 
never let me go
go go 
never let me go
never let me go

you drive me so 
crazy 

love how you make me 
doubt 

can’t get enough
why do i want more than i have?
can’t get enough
why do i gain more then i ask?
can’t get enough
why do i want more than i have?
can’t get enough

will i make it far?
will i make it far?
you really make this hard 
really make this hard 

i gotta let you go 
you really make me doubt 
caught between your lies 
you really got me mesmerized 

you drive me so 
crazy 

love how you make me 
doubt

doubt

There’s no one here but you
But I need someone I can talk to
And you know that your picture is see through
One more call
I didn’t lie when I said you seen it all
Big body when I pull up to the scene
Aw, you enter my brain in a way I ain’t seen before
and I ain’t got no clarity
You speak to me in a way so sweet
I could give you all of my love
Just let me know if I’m holding too tight
I’ve seen you drinking all of my blood
I know that you expect me to clean it up
Don’t wait two hours, you know it’s a long drive
I’ve seen his pictures don’t compare him to me
Seeing silhouettes on the wall when I wake from my dream

Dream,
woahh
Slowfall
I’ve seen stuff in my room
making off in the night

Your nightmare is not what I wanted
When you ask me I say that I’m cool
Always so cynical
Always feel lost in the room
Put on my jacket, out the door I go, cause all I do is run

There’s no one here but you
But I need someone I can talk to
And you know that your picture is see through
One more call
I didn’t lie when I said you seen it all
Big body when I pull up to the scene
Aw, you enter my brain in a way I ain’t seen before
and I ain’t got no clarity
You speak to me in a way so sweet
I could give you all of my love
Just let me know if I’m holding too tight
I’ve seen you drinking all of my blood
I know that you expect me to clean it up
Don’t wait two hours, you know it’s a long drive
I’ve seen his pictures don’t compare him to me
Seeing silhouettes on the wall when I wake from my dream

I’ve seen everything
Don’t try to get it past me
I’ve seen everything
Sorting cables, we’ve lost our connection
We’re out of touch
Who do you connect with
All alone, tell me am I someone that you can accept

There’s no one here but you
But I need someone I can talk to
And you know that your picture is see through
One more call
I didn’t lie when I said you seen it all
Big body when I pull up to the scene
Aw, you enter my brain in a way I ain’t seen before
and I ain’t got no clarity
You speak to me in a way so sweet
I could give you all of my love
Just let me know if I’m holding too tight
I’ve seen you drinking all of my blood
I know that you expect me to clean it up
Don’t wait two hours, you know it’s a long drive
I’ve seen his pictures don’t compare him to me
Seeing silhouettes on the wall when I wake from my dream

one more call w/ kaiso. (prod. cl6udy x jolst)

gravel road 
driving home
every pothole in wisconsin
people grow
i dont know
if we have much in common, anymore

iv been one with the silence
only you can fill my void
promise that im trying
promise this was not my choice

cuz all that i know is defeat
white flags, running back to places iv seen
i know this damn movie by scene and Frame
and characters names
turn it off

its been hard to be honest
i hate whay iv done
left at the bottom
im one with the mud
was never the fondest 
of showing you love
but ill still deposit
your rent every month

half of these problems 
i did it just to make you mad
if im not an option
dont say you will take me back

phone screen just faded black
i couodnt call
board up my windows im sick of your cold
youre passive aggresivly gaining control
remember that halloween
i made you my home

babe its not you it was me
self inflicted wound where i bleed
you had all that i need
if these walls could feel tension theyd scream

a movie i’ve memorized [jacob vallen]

you told me everything you said that you would
im teyin not to trip but its hard
i wish i aint did what ive done
got a futuristic feelin that i been plain
if i did what you had wanted then id feel pain
Tryin not to stress over the picture frame
and if i did it then its been fillin me with hella shame
lately i been sitting thinkin that its all a game
maybe you would take me seriously if i changed
but what im choosin in my life make me feel insane
maybe id better off jus switching lanes
contradiction when you claimin and u tell me that
you been skippin time with everything you like
its bad
and i been wonderin why its feelin bland
but its because you ruin every single plan
i dont even understand whats in my head
sometiems i feel okay but right now im feeling dead
I can’t understand how these feelings blend
with these silly words right now im seeing over text
oh my god make it make sense you know i hate to defend
i cant take offense if i dont care what you said
let me just pretend like i know whats coming next

smoking gas in the hotel
baby can you call me you can break me out my cell
pull me out of hell
and if im being honest im not feeling myself
im dizzy sipping hypnotic tryna make the best out of the worst days
but im still making you love songs so you cant complain
and im still smoking like i used to i think my voice changed
i know my souls quality went down but ill still love you always
i know im sitting right here in front of you but im far away
and i know i look unpleasant
the stars are out tonight ill wrap this blunt like a present
im scared that when im 21 theyll be no further progression
if i can make it out tonight ill take this sign as a lesson
its like i think this shit a game
high off of pride and i get drunk off of shame
im the only one to blame
still notahero same name
making money on the web like im spiderman
smoking mary jane
we get high like super man youll always be my lois lane
know when im down could always call my brother J
but how come when im down i always go right to the drink
i hope they dont make the shrine before i reignite the flame

spidermane (p. under the maple tree)

Where we began - w/ babieyummo

I drink too much when I’m feeling empty 
I do too much is this weight is heavy
And on my psyche, there’s too much envy
There’s too much hate, I think I’m going crazy

So what if it just ends in a blur and I don’t find enough words to fix this curse 
it’s done
My time on this earth? 
I think I had my fun
I had my fix. 
I think it’s time I’m done.
Been falling going too fast
I’m in a car with no brakes. 
It’s hard to relax.
I don’t wanna relapse everything is too fast
Tell me why
I can’t stay behind

Fuck

I drink too much when I’m feeling empty 
I do too much is this weight is heavy
And on my psyche, there’s too much envy
There’s too much hate, I think I’m going crazy

I do too much 
I tell you I don’t miss love
One more sniff my nose gives up
I don’t wanna feel this love
Fuck, I think I’m giving up
I could never get enough
Had my fix now I’m done
I don’t think this is the love you said it was