losing myself

prod @requiem-for-you

@revivle
(ru sorry for yourself?
we have nothing 2 lose
im hoping that youll hear me
that im the one you choose)

we're moving way too fast
i cant catch my breath
oh, i knew how this would end
we just can't be friends

and i rather b alone
than not be with you
cus im holding on 2 sumthing
im not tryna lose 

feel the wind in my hair 
we stand 
i see u staring back at me 
but u wont even talk to me 
talk to me ru there? 

ru sorry for yourself?
we have nothing to lose
im hoping that youll hear me
that im the one you choose 

we're moving way too fast
i cant catch my breath
oh, i knew how this would end
we just can't be friends

and i rather b alone
than not be with you
cus im holding on 2 sumthing
im not tryna lose

we just cant be friends

produced by me
drawing by me 

dont be so brave, ive tried it all its the same
am i so stupid, determined
you try to pick at my brain, cant let you know me the same
the scratch on my arms start hurting

it all feels the same, the years the seasons all fade
the weathers never been tame, ill keep going
my minds never blank, my past my problems all stay
if i can push it away, am i growing?

dont be so dumb, its only real if you make it
i havent cried in so long, am i real or am i faking?
playing stupid for everyone, this manipulation
so if i take off my skin, would it be me who you're facing?

dont be so stubborn its just not what u want
and dont try to make it work
you should know that its not worth

don't be so dumb

prod jav guru

i have our pictures on the wall
from when u cared abt me still
and i guess what rises must fall
swear this love is for the thrill
but i swear nothing else matters
when im with you it feels real
im beaten, hurt, and battered
but i guess thats apart of the deal

you hate my guts well i love you more
cant waste my time on a stupid whore
your in my face, your in my way
i cant replace u no i cant afford it

hate when im around your friends
they’re always laughing at me
hate when i sit alone
everyones staring at me
putting on a smile for pictures
they know im not happy
hate when i talk to you
tired of always acting

i have our pictures on the wall
from when u cared abt me still
and i guess what rises must fall
swear this love is for the thrill
but i swear nothing else matters
when im with you it feels real
im beaten, hurt, and battered
but i guess thats apart of the deal

what rises must fall

lemon