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healing unit

as the words sank in i felt my soul draining away, slipping

came crashing thru ur boundaries
confused friendship with tug of war

as much as i tried
i dont think ive treated you right

so let me be the one
to build up a wall
its fine if we catch up again
once in a while

i never had the kindest eyes
a little souvenier of some terrible years

cant get rid of the worried looks
that keep staring back at me 
through every mirror that sees me

back+forth

penetanguishene

tear

demos in the pizza parlor

afield

In the evening of 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐡 𝟐𝟑, 𝟏𝟗𝟗𝟓, this piece was born of my joy at the chance to audition for 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐋𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐩𝐨𝐨𝐥 𝐈𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐭𝐮𝐭𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐏𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐀𝐫𝐭𝐬 (𝐋𝐈𝐏𝐀). I recorded it on 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐡 𝟐𝟔, and when I played it back the next morning, the slightly dramatic feel went well with the early strands of sunlight peeking over the rooftops. I did two mixes: This one, which has always been my definitive cut, and one with percussion.

I was taking a work course at 𝐆𝐫𝐨𝐫𝐮𝐝𝐝𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐧 𝐒𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐥 at the time and mentioned what I was doing, so someone suggested I play it to an 𝐄𝐧𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐦𝐚𝐧 teaching there who knew something about music. Some educated feedback sounded good in theory, but his only response was to criticize the way each third begins in the key of 𝐃 (a 𝐃𝐬𝐮𝐬𝟗 chord) and, according to him, resolves in the key of 𝐅 (clearly a most egregious act). Near as I can tell, though, it resolves in the key of 𝐆. And the final tag goes out on a 𝐃 major chord, so I feel I couldn't have violated 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 many musical tenets.

Be that as it may, he was right about my not scrupulously following proper compositional structure. I was pulling whatever I could access from within myself and my surroundings to make something I liked listening to. I never found out whether he liked or hated what I'd done; he only seemed to care that I had incorrectly assembled it. I was a bit disappointed that he had no artistic insights for me, but that's one way, I suppose, of reinforcing my desire (and need) to do it my way.

"Morning Light" is one of two recordings (out of five total) I got to play for the 𝐋𝐈𝐏𝐀 people on 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐡 𝟑𝟎.

𝘗𝘳𝘰𝘥𝘶𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘕𝘰𝘵𝘦: These sessions were my last not to feature reverb equipment. I had no way of sprucing things up before the audition, but when I later put this version on tape, I ran it through my 𝐀𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐬 𝐐𝐮𝐚𝐝𝐫𝐚𝐕𝐞𝐫𝐛 for some added colour and vibrancy. This new remaster has been optimized to the best of my ability in the 𝐀𝐮𝐝𝐚𝐜𝐢𝐭𝐲® 𝐂𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐬-𝐏𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐦 𝐒𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐄𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐨𝐫.

𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐄𝐃
March 26, 1995

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