vcl1

live in your head
ever catatonic
why'd you twist your promise
isn't that demonic
tell me one thing
it was electronic
we are destined to fall again
isn't that ironic

spineless (prod. vocal1)

ETHEREALCHUD

@murrumur @zumtru @hekatestation
art by murrumur

herbalist (hekatestation)

prod. vocal1

why can't you tell me what you see?
how will i know if you won't tell me what i need?
i couldn't stomach all the shit that you would eat
i wanna stare until my eyes begin to bleed

(fuck, fuck..)

over here
built up 
just what i need
on the xylazine
isn't it weird
that when you're
right in front of me
i can never fucking breathe
i see now
what you always thought of me
i see your anatomy
but we're free now
lock away that side of me
then i rinse it and repeat

xylazine
black eyes white heart
break down fine art
pause it, restart

xylazine
black eyes white heart
too far apart
to feel what i feel

over here
built up 
just what i need
on the xylazine
isn't it weird
that when you're
right in front of me
i can never fucking breathe
i see now
what you always thought of me
i see your anatomy
but we're free now
lock away that side of me
then i rinse it and repeat

(why can't you tell me what you see?)
(how will i know if you won't tell me what i need?)
(i couldn't stomach all the shit that you would eat)
(i wanna stare until my eyes begin to bleed...)

why can't you tell me what you see?
how will i know if you won't tell me what i need?
i couldn't stomach all the shit that you would eat
i wanna stare until my eyes begin to bleed
fuck, fuck !!

(xylazine)
fuck
(xylazine..)
fuck...

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xylazine (vcl1)

@hekatestation

i took my face off, of course im a loser (loser)
put you on a wall, yeah put you on a poster
i dont wanna fuck wit u if u think im a poser
i would do like anything just to hold u closer

saw a sign and i thought that it was ethereal
i didnt hear from you at all it was hysterical
took an acid tab, fuck it i met gabriel
no i wont shake ur hand that shit bacterial

if you wanted to
(thats why i wanted you)

it's gonna be okay
it's gonna be okay
its gonna be alright
so do not be afraid
(do not be afraid)
(do not be afraid)
hit up gabriel
he said do not be afraid
gabriel my homie he said we all getting paid
gabriel my homie he said we all getting paid
do not be afraid
do not be afraid

and so what if i got monsters in my closet
yeah, i got an 8ball of coke and then i lost it
if ur looking for me might be hiding in ur closet

had like 10 grams of nep and then i tossed it
i dont wanna snort that shit no more, that shit is caustic
yeah i gave a girl a shirt to clean with but i washed it

if you wanted to
(thats why i wanted you)

i took my face off, of course im a loser (loser)
put you on a wall, yeah put you on a poster
i dont wanna fuck wit u if u think im a poser
i would do like anything just to hold u closer

saw a sign and i thought that it was ethereal
i didnt hear from you at all it was hysterical
took an acid tab, fuck it i met gabriel
no i wont shake ur hand that shit bacterial

if you wanted to
(thats why i wanted you)

my shit sound so good i put that on the stereo
i miss hanging with my homies doing hella blow
got a ring above my head, it's got this nice glow
if u hit me up on ig need some nice clothes

gabriel (@hekate)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OD5nW6jkbIM

dj vocal1

do i get to see you when i'm dead?
burning holes right through my head
hit the crystal, beam a fed
oh bitch i'm risen, call me undead

mephedrone 
burn a hole in my brain
don't know what the fuck i'm taking
but i'll take it anyway
dilating my shit
blood stain on my fit
might be tweaking just a bit
research chemical spit

serotonin 
on my lonesome
serotonin 
on my lonesome

(the mess of wires in my brain)
(think that i'm insane)

do i get to see you when i'm dead?
burning holes right through my head
hit the crystal, beam a fed
oh bitch i'm risen, call me undead

dilating my shit
blood stain on my fit
might be tweaking just a bit
research chemical spit

4-MMC *MUSIC VIDEO*

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-ʚ♡ɞ you hide those eyes? ʚ♡ɞ-

@8ngelonline
prod+mix by vocal

armor got another love letter
had to crush up a rock, now i feel better
watch me ruin another chance for us to be together
hit me up anytime, just hit me up whenever

i'd talk to you
but im so intoxicated
come over soon
do you know how long i've waited
i'd talk to you
but im so intoxicated
come over soon
do you know how long i've waited

why do you tell what me i'm supposed to do
don't know a thing, don't speak to me you fool
i do what i want cause to me it's all a game
give me one sec and you'll understand the pain
getting closer every day
reap what you sow
going at my own pace
know what you think i should do
even though i don't care
i want you to think that i do

armor got another love letter
had to crush up a rock, now i feel better
watch me ruin another chance for us to be together
hit me up anytime, just hit me up whenever

i'd talk to you
but im so intoxicated
come over soon
do you know how long i've waited
i'd talk to you
but im so intoxicated
come over soon
do you know how long i've waited

come over soon (w/ 8ngelonline)

@8ngelonline
prod vocal

one pick, two pick
girl i needed this
oh yeah, i'm feeling it
oh yeah, i'm feeling this
star-struck, innocence
let's take another hit
let's take another hit
let's take another hit

star-struck, innocence
fuck yeah, i'm feeling it
is this what real love is?
i'm not repeating it
fake words, dissonance
it's time to reel it in,
i'm feeling really sick
i need another pill

god damn
i'm sure with change
we'd live a good life

hot, dead and damp
just like a cave
your life inside my mind

[8ngelonline]
fried my brain 
but I keep on doing more 
It’s the rush I crave 
see the blood watch it pour 
заткнись сука блядь stupid whore 
nothing ever happens 
like it should anymore 
I think I’m cursed 
I make myself upset 
only time I’m happy when I’m counting up the checks 
yes I had to block you and move onto the next 
no time to stop or I’ll die like the rest 

god damn
i'm sure with change
we'd live a good life

hot, dead and damp
just like a cave
your life inside my mind

nothing ever happens (w/ 8ngelonline)

@hanapaw

girl, looking at you makes my heart beat faster
creases on my shoes, it's a damn disaster
tell me why i'm alive, i'm alive, i'm alive
can you bring a light to my life?
tell me why i'm alive, i'm alive, i'm alive
can you bring a light to my life?

[hana]
your eyes shine so bright
when the molly hits u act so kind
can you bring some life to me 
i really need that
but i guess you won’t call back

i’m sipping potions in ice tea
my xanax so nicely
oh god did it hit, i’m fucked up
got too many pills in my cup :(

tell me why i'm alive, i'm alive, i'm alive
can you bring a light to my life?
tell me why i'm alive, i'm alive, i'm alive
can you bring a light to my life?