Lyrics:

hey old friend
how did you know
how did you know that i'm still in my home
how did you know
how did you know that i feel so alone
im still writing songs
im tryna move on 
but i cannot get over all of the pain
it feels like an ember burned in my head
apologies since ive not left my bed
im on the floor and i needed help
too many drugs inside of myself
i just needed to get out of the way
needed to finally get her out my brain
maybe if i try to overdose something will change
maybe somethings gonna change
i dont really know where i should go
where should i go from here

hey still

hey old friend
i wanna know
i wanna know why the hell you let go
i wanna know
i wanna know where the fuck i should go 
cause there's nothing left for me here
nothing left except my one thousand fears
they're piling they're piling 
there's more every day
i do not know what the fuck i should say
i'm going insane 
cause all of the pain is rotting in me
it's killing me
wish someone was here
someone could take all my tears
im still not feeling okay
i got some bullets put them in my face
cause im so depressed
my head is a mess
and i need to get out 
i just need to stop
i need to get out 
i just need to stop

hey still
i remember

hey old friend
so where do i go
where do i go 
im losing control 
there's nothing left inside of me
i feel so empty 
i cant even try
no i cannot hide anymore
i cannot feel anymore
she left me sobbing 
crying on the floor
i wanted her
she dont love me no more no
now she is gone
and she's moving on
im tryna move on 
i found someone else 
she could the one
im so terrified
cause i got PTSD
she's coming thru and it's killing me
every night in my memories
i wish that she could see everything she did to me
everything she did to me

hey still
i remember

hey old friend
it's 30 below
i feel the ice and i start to turn cold
my heart's turning black 
maybe its cause of the ice in my veins
i know i will change
for now im the same
dont tell me you love me
to leave me again
i do not want any fake fucking friends
so i'll chase the money go get dividends

HEY OLD FRIEND (CapsCtrl)

lyrics by v0ice
beat prod. by Jolst

verse:
i just stack my money up
you sick of me don’t give a fuck
last thing i could care about is trying when i’m fucking up
first thing that i worry bout is me when i’m waking up
need to take my time but i’m still tripping off what’s in my cup
i don’t wanna die but honestly wish i could disappear 
cause my heart been frozen over it’s cold and empty filled w fear
who am i and what do i want i’ll just try next year
honestly i’d just be better if i shed my tears

chorus:
all this time
i’ve been thinking bout
how i’m not fine
i wish i could go back in time
cause there’s a lot of shit 
i want to fix
i know i can’t tho

verse:
picturesque 
the feelings that you’ve built don’t mean a thing to me
how can say all that shit you’ve really never acted on it
say you love me means as much as dirt if ask me
how you gonna fall apart and still expect me fix things
i don’t even wanna fix myself that just means nothing
in reality i’m like a broken toy upon the shelf 
try and tried to kill myself but you won’t let me go away
i guess i’ll just haunt you til u hate me
i won’t fade away

chorus:
all this time
i’ve been thinking bout
how i’m not fine
i wish i could go back in time
cause there’s a lot of shit 
i want to fix
i know i can’t tho

verse:
i just stack my money up
you sick of me don’t give a fuck
last thing i could care about is trying when i’m fucking up
first thing that i worry bout is me when i’m waking up
need to take my time but i’m still tripping off what’s in my cup
i don’t wanna die but honestly wish i could disappear 
cause my heart been frozen over it’s cold and empty filled w fear
who am i and what do i want i’ll just try next year
honestly i’d just be better if i shed my tears

ALL THIS TIME (Jolst)

lyrics by v0ice
beat prod. cxrter and cloud

intro
whispers on the wind 
telling secrets we should keep 
i don’t wanna feel i don’t wanna think
mom said that i’m hateful
she hates the way i am
i wish i could go back and try it all again

hook
i prefer a text but you always wanna call me
blowing up my phone but i’m feeling like a zombie 
draining all the energy and colors from around me
feels like the worst day ever
in favorite your zip up sweater

verse
i know i’m getting worse i can’t communicate with anyone
i cannot reply to the texts that are on my phone 
paranoia hitting me i’m locked inside my home
i hate the way they wanna talk just please leave me alone
but i feel so fucking bad 
cause they loved me on their own
this is like my karmic debt im reaping what i sowed
all the words they’ve said to me to get back what they’re owed
momma said i’m said turning bad i’m way too spiteful

i am way too tired to be feeling like this
put me on the pyre then you better light that shit
somehow you’re talking you’re barely making sense
i don’t even answer cause i’m clearly speechless

hook
i prefer a text but you always wanna call me
blowing up my phone but i’m feeling like a zombie 
draining all the energy and colors from around me
feels like the worst day ever
in favorite your zip up sweater

verse
if i could take the time to heal 
i wouldn’t be here
write another song to make you feel like a shit
i don’t even care if you don’t think it’s a hit
gotta watch my back cause i know that people switch
lately i’m the outcast like the block that couldn’t fit
you call me a liar and say that you’re a bitch
i just wanted love but you never could commit
maybe im the wrong one in every single way

cause i cannot escape from overthinking bout my day
staring at the ceiling trying hard to be okay
scars on my heart that will never go away
hopefully the memories will start to slowly fade

hook
i prefer a text but always wanna call me
blowing up my phone but i’m feeling like a zombie 
draining all the energy and colors from around me
feels like the worst day ever
in favorite your zip up sweater

WHISPERS IN THE WIND (cxrter x cloud)

lyrics by v0ice
beat prod. scottysplash

hook
take it back now
like the words i said are so regrettable 
laugh at that now
i could lie to you it won’t make it better but
how about now
would you take me back if i apologized to you
how about now 
how about now 

verse
told you that i could die for you
if you’d wait for me so patiently 
i could take these tears away
but that would leave you empty
better to feel those emotions 
than to drown them out in these oceans
i am not the guy that you think i am
i’m still stepping out in these work pants

22 don’t know who i am
but she pull me in just like quicksand 
falling into her loving arms
make me quick to run 
i dont wanna leave
swim in smoke i just want relief
from tar monster that’s inside of me
i messed it up i need a repeat
im gonna fuck it up when she need me

she get mad when she see me
and i hate to do this publicly 
but she make it way too easy
like begging me for these silk sheets

words turn into liquor all these lies they taste like hennessy
honestly i miss the way she hold me down like ecstasy 

hook
take it back now
like the words you said are so regrettable 
laugh at that now
i could lie to you it won’t make it better but
how about now
would you take me back if i apologized to you
how about now
how about now
x2

verse
i need you to wait for me
i’m coming together so slowly
and you came around when i need you 
i can’t hide my feelings like i’m see-thru
diamond in the rough 
say we’ve had enough
knife right to the gut
but we need the love
see me here from the nosebleeds
no chain on you, made you so free
go ahead love them fully
i don’t need you completely 
but i need you to complete me
til i’m someone else entirely

see my face but don’t know who i am
i’m just another like on your instagram 
follow me just see me breathe
fall for me just see me leave
i’m a fickle man, watch me fall for you
just a call away til i disappear 
here for you if you’re here for me
but it’s your fault if you depend on me

HOW BOUT NOW?  (scottysplash)

happy song demo

i tried interlude
beat prod. by farber 
lyrics by v0ice
performed by v0ice


i could separate from you and try to heal
the problems in my head that i never deal with
keep me up at night like i can’t be real with

anyone i used to
i wish i could fix things 
i fell out love but i fell right into place
took you off my socials i don’t wanna see your face
somehow if you hear this hope you know you’ve been erased

in the same city, hate it how we left things
now i see your face when i’m walking on the street
try to stay away because i’m scared that we could meet

you said that i’m pitiful i’m small and i’m weak
cause i don’t wanna stay when you treat me like i’m trash
i don’t wanna think about it, really hate the past
another year gone kinda sad how fast 
i say i tried cause i know you never did 
finally stepped away i’m gonna leave it as it is
im gonna leave it as it is
you make me feel so fucking selfish

blame it on me like i’m the problem 
you say i’m toxic and i’ll never solve it
you mad as hell that i left without you
take it out on everyone who comes around you
oh the stars i wanna see 
when i die push me out to sea
and let my body float away
i’m better now that i have walked away
you used me to help yourself
treat me like a tool to help kill yourself

now we’re dead inside 
who can we blame
me or you it’s all the same 
funny how time passes but you never change
talk about me to all your friends
what’s it really come to in the end
it’s not worth a lie 
and i will not pretend

I TRIED INTERLUDE x farber

track 5 from PRELUDE TO MY FALL; DEATH IS ALWAYS AN OPTION, I GUESS

recorded in april 2023

i lost the lyrics for this somewhere, probably misnamed the song in my notes :/ 

sorry

DEATH IS ALWAYS AN OPTION, I GUESS x kaadota

prod by wissery

lyrics by v0ice

based of a dream i had once, it hurt me to my soul

the final track from PRELUDE TO MY FALL

BOTTOM OF THE GRAVE x wissery

i’m not a violent dog; i don’t know why i bite

my mother said i’m like my father but i never got to see
i just find it kind of strange how they’re talking down to me
like how you copy all my work but you still do it worse than me
finding good friends tends to be anomaly 
that’s why i leave it up god, i pray he takes care of me
i have never felt the pressure, you could never change me
type shit in the chat you could never phase me
what you know about friends turning into enemies 
i seen it happen one too many times it’s always sad to see
i been betrayed one too many times it’s hard to love em back
til i check for the deposit and the money coming back
every year i take a break i just come right back for more
i ain’t recorded in a month thats why my throat is feeling sore
i ain’t drop shit in a year that’s why my fans are getting bored
too busy staying busy so i don’t write anymore

i don’t feel like you feel me enough 
i don’t feel like you hear me enough
i don’t feel like i’m trying enough
i don’t feel like a stranger to love

i’d love to hear the way you talk when you know im not around
hostile on the beat, i had to make my mom proud
albums in the vault that’d i’d be pushing out for nun
old shit that i felt in ‘23 im feeling numb 
wanna put the music out but i been feeling hella dumb 
never felt like icarus until i flew next to the sun 
my girl beautiful as ever i could never get enough
i wanna drown inside her eyes
i know i melt at the touch
my quality of life has improved by a bunch
every moment spent with her is a moment having fun
im not a violent dog i don’t know why i bite
if you push me in a corner, best believe im gonna fight
my whole life started changing when i tried giving a fuck
change the room, take the leap, take a chance, fall in love
breathing isn’t really living
glad i learned it in a month 
it’s enough to show up 
when they finally show you love

im not a violent dog; i dont know why i bite freestyle (prod. hosty4444)

love ya

300 miles a day
on top of a train 
i guess i’m heading west
so many bad things 
happened all in day
i guess i tried my best

family and friends 

they’ll never understand 

what do i have left

it’s better off unsaid

pack my bags

i hope i’m never coming back

300 miles a day
on top a train 
i guess i’m heading west
so many bad things 
happened all in day
i guess i tried my best

heading west (neverforever)

love ya

when i saw your face i almost lost it
you haven’t really changed since we were 17
remember all of my little daydreams
adding up to basically nothing 
back then you meant the world to me
fast forward guess i don’t mean a thing
i talked to you, you didn’t give me shit
so i talked to god he didn’t help me
when i think about it i get nosebleeds
seeing you there in his front seat
the first time i opened up snapchat
he was my best friend but we lost that
cried over you and he was there for that
he still turned around and stabbed me in my back
but a broken heart that never learned to heal
can only ever turn the pain back on you
took me five years to acknowledge that
you did that with no regrets
and you apologized like a thousand times
that don’t mean a thing that’s just hot air

when you text me you get green bubbles cause i blocked you like a week ago
i don’t give a fuck i’m gonna let you go
so when you call me my number don’t exist
and i would wish you well right to your face
but that’s a lie i only wish you hell
i hope your car dies when you need it most
i hope your dog dies
i hope your marriage fails 
i hope everything you need to go well, just goes bad in the worst way
i hope your siblings fail out of college
and they never leave that shitty town
what comes around just goes around 
it just never fails to make my head spin
its a cycle that im stuck in 
glad to use it as a weapon

when i saw your face, i almost lost it (neverforever)

love ya

i can’t live without you
we’re one in the same 
we can’t change
fucked up 
always thinking bout the pain
always gotta drown under some rain
honestly i know i can’t wait
for my chance to come and take his place
someday all this shit is gonna change
sorry doll i gotta runaway
the only thing i fear is feeling shame
i can’t be pristine i’m chasing fame
i know they’ll remember his face
face

oh well i guess she’s outta touch
too many miles 
and not enough love 
waking up only to find regret inside a cup
there’s gotta be a line where you say “finally had enough”

and it’s my fault 
for tryna make you out to be
something we both know 
you could never be
that’s right
guess we’re gonna die in peace tonight

stay up and see nightmares completed
when i’m dreaming of monsters defeated
all i can see is this chain of memories  
you so painfully placed onto me

i can’t live without you
we’re one in the same 
we can’t change
fucked up 
always thinking bout the pain
always gotta drown under some rain
honestly i know i can’t wait
for my chance to come and take his place
someday all this shit is gonna change
sorry doll i gotta runaway
the only thing i fear is feeling shame
i can’t be pristine i’m chasing fame
i know they’ll remember his face
face

ars arcanum 3/requiem for a nobody (dakota)

love ya

slick as hell
hopping on my phone 
you got some shit to say
air it out
i don’t give a fuck cause i am here hoe
two phones like baby keem
live my life just like a dream
i guess they’ll say anything 
as long as it discredits me
half way in the grave 
but i still pop out when they call my name
stepping on the gas im bout to put some belt to ass
you was too high in yo class 
baby boy you barely passed
should’ve learned not to fuck w me
now you gotta deal with me 
bar for bar i’m hurting you like kendrick did to drake
it’s getting personal 
i guess that’s just what happens to the snakes
i’m not a child of wolves but i’ll still pop out 
whenever they need me to
fuck around and find out what i’m about to do if you piss me off
bitch you know where i stay 
if you got problems handle that
you a joke i can tell you laughing when you wanna cry
put that aside
living life like larry but you aint calling shots
you just a bot
embarrassing 
you ain’t even make a song to call me out
so i’ll call your bluff 
acting tough on twitter 
like i won’t come there and smack you down 
i ain’t fucking scared of you 

i wish you would come here and walk me down
always talking about some glocks 
but i ain’t see em when you came around

step into the function with my family tie
just shaft and i 
it’s too legit
i ain’t got a issue with the hooligans
it’s foolishness
took your bitch to new ho king 
i guess she getting fried now
i’m not international boy
no i ain’t got a passport 
got pglang to drip me out 
i ain’t pushing elements 
i guess that means they’ll count me out

child of wolves (lonely boy)

love ya

i really wanna be on the music scene
but you don’t want me succeed
you wanna my take my life
or at least make me bleed
either i really way i really love the pain

somehow it all gets better 
at the drop of a hat
they won’t tell me why
the times are changing
the people are hating
and still i’m the one to blame

you’re the cigarette taste in the back of my throat 
and i do not wanna let you go
i just wanna know why i’m the way i am 
why won’t anyone tell me why

i don’t really think it matters
the blood stains are all the same
when the fires go out and truth is found
you’re the only one i wanna forget

star crossed path leads the way tonight
i’m lost and i can’t find my way back
every time i reminisce on what i’ve done
all i can really feel is regret

you make me wanna peel my skin off
in the best way
exposing all my muscles and flesh
we shouldn’t play the blame game 
cause you’re gonna lose 
i’m the victim and you’re insane

you’re the cigarette taste in the back of my throat 
and i do not wanna let you go
i just wanna know why i’m the way i am 
why won’t anyone tell me why

i don’t really think it matters
the blood stains are all the same
when the fires go out and truth is found
you’re the only one i wanna forget

burn it all down
burn it all down
burn it all down
burn it all down 
burn it all down
burn it all down 
burn it all down
burn it all down

i doan’t really think it matters
the blood stains are all the same
when the fires go out and truth is found
you’re the only one i wanna forget

immediate after effects of the explosion (taha beats)

love ya

guess i fucked up once again
where are all my friends 
i don’t wanna pretend
that we were anything 
i guess it was nothing
so disgusting
used to shine i’m rusting 
that’s what i get for rushing
moldy spores inside my lungs 
copper in my veins
i wish i could feel the same 
without the novocaine
cold as ice i feel the rime
im running out time
secrets we’re discussing
you just tend to crush me
memories of the dark nights
that i can’t forget on my lonely nights
when i sleep in, i get headaches
hear the echoes of your laughter 
4 hours of sleep barely equals a dream
when i wake up i’ve been sweating 
i can’t let you go even if i tried 
so i gave up like a thousand times
my eyes burn from i see 
when i close my eyes inside the dream 
why does it seem so easy for you
when im dying slow in my bedroom

guess i fucked up once again
where are all my friends 
i don’t wanna pretend
that we were anything 
i guess it was nothing
so disgusting
used to shine i’m rusting 
that’s what i get for rushing
moldy spores inside my lungs 
copper in my veins
i wish i could feel the same 
without the novocaine

I guess it was nothing (michael harrison)

love ya

300 miles a day
 on top of a train
i’m  never coming back

thanks for everything you said it didn’t help me out all
in the end you blame it on me like it’s all my fault 
no emotions in my heart no i’m steady turning cold 
remember waiting for you outside standing bloody in the snow 

i never said i’d write a song for you
too bad i let you go
every time you brought me problems 
made me wish i found my peace
i’m on the frontlines of this war 
no i don’t think im coming home
need to escape from my skin 
cause i’ve always been within 

(why won’t you let me go, why won’t you let me go away tonight)

and maybe you relate to this
but i wish you didn’t 
everything would just be easier if i could walk away
i knew home wasn’t a home when i left you that way

(left you that way)

300 miles a day
on top of a train
i’m never coming back

(i’m never coming back)

so many bad things 
happened all in a day
why would i backtrack

(i’ll never backtrack on that)

i don’t wanna fight but i don’t that i can stay
problems that you make inside your head inside your brain
make believe that you know how to take away the pain

heading west 2 (neverforever)

struggler
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