🎶 Vaelrix – Promise (Lyrics, Cleaned)  Verse 1 This heir of cancer infecting what I write— A necromancer, my words are parasites. It’s so revolting, I’m going through withdrawal, Listening to scolding, it raised my cortisol.

These words obnoxious, but numb like lead again, Wicked subconscious submerged in sonic grime. I am the toxins that live in Tylenol, The psilocybin—I had to write it all.

It’s a tragedy of apathy, and a mind that wanders lost. You echo inside a Jekyll and Hyde. How much did the Holocaust evaporate? It hazed when I realized I was all alone.  The roads to your heart were broken apart, And replaced by cobblestone.

or not I stop, I’m seeing beyond this. I tell you I promise—the dopamine rush. It opens me up, I’m not likely to stop this. Not likely to stop this.   ---  Chorus I shouldn’t have made that promise. I just didn’t think I would be so attracted to this. And I didn’t know it would become my reason to live.

Can’t abandon the people I chose to keep— They’re my companions, been around like a rotary. I don’t remember what it’s like to not obsess. All I have are letters and a pressure that’s in my chest.  If I don’t release it, then I flood from the inside out. There’s so many voices, I need to speak them before they sprout. An invasive species that spreads these corrupted weeds, This poison ivy disseminates through the species.

My promise—I can’t keep it,
Like the secret of suicide.
Get blue and I cycle,
Used to be used like the biggest drive.

Unstable prophet, a meme chord with the highest heat.
I have to rock it—if I didn’t, I would invite a scheme.

It’s a tragedy of apathy, and a mind that wanders lost.
You echo inside a Jekyll and Hyde.
How much did the Holocaust evaporate?
It hazed when I realized I was all alone.

The roads to your heart were broken apart,
And replaced by cobblestone.
Whether or not I stop, I’m seeing beyond this.
I tell you I promise—the dopamine rush.
It opens me up, I’m not likely to stop this.
Not likely to stop this.

I shouldn’t have made that promise.
I just didn’t think I would be so attracted to this.
And I didn’t know it would become my reason to live.

I love you.
I couldn’t do it.
I tried.
I’m sorry.

Good music always needs a melancholic undertone to be enjoyable for me, which is the basic idea and origin of most of my music. Anything else I want to say is part of the music.

Listen and enjoy.

chooseLIFE

Smooth grooves meet electric chemistry in “Lost in You”, a seductive and energetic standout from Pop Pulse Vol. 1. Fusing pop, R&B, funk, and soul, this anthem delivers a midnight pulse reminiscent of Justin Timberlake and Bruno Mars at their finest.

With neon-lit synths, groovy basslines, and an irresistible hook, “Lost in You” captures that fleeting, fevered moment when two people become completely entangled on the dancefloor—and in each other. Every verse builds with sensual rhythm, and the epic chorus drops like a spark in a powder room.

A vibrant ride through attraction and rhythm, this track is your new go-to for nights that don’t end at midnight.

📀 Stream “Lost in You” now on SoundCloud as part of Pop Pulse Vol. 1.

Lost in You

[Verse]
First line lit me like a fire in the dark
A big bright spark that carved its way deep in my heart
Each breath since feels like I'm just chasing a ghost, I'm just chasing a ghost. 
Hold on tight it's off we go
Hold on tight, it's off we go,
yeah it's off we go.

[Chorus]
I'm just Chasing the high, through the night, can't ever catch it and im
Trading my dreams in the flickering light
no other line hits the same
No other line, takes me as high. 
Chasing tail in a losing game, one set up that I just cant win. No I cant ever win. 

[Verse 2]
I ride the edge where the comedowns fade
Searching for the thrill, that next high 
Every peak feels like a lie that i always believe, 
I can't recreate the first time, I could fly

[Chorus]
I'm just Chasing the high, through the night, can't ever catch it and im
Trading my dreams in the flickering light
no other line hits me the same
No other lines takes me as high. 
Chasing tail in a losing game
Just chasing a ghost 

[Bridge]
The clock spins fast but my heart stays slow
I follow the trail but it won't let me go
The first line whispered
"This is all you'll need"
Now I’m chasing its ghost
Forever it leads
Down the rabbit hole, deeper and deeper we go, down the rabbit hole.

[Chorus]
Chasing the high into the night till the
Comedown hits my eyes start to close, 
What goes up,  ohh it must come down

Wishing it was that first line again 

But no other line hits the way it does 
When it's very first buzz
What goes up, must come down
Chasing ghosts 
Yeah I'm just chasing ghosts 



Chasing Ghosts

“Promise” is a cinematic dark ballad blending haunting orchestral and blues textures with fragile male vocals. Mournful piano, swelling strings, ghostly electric guitar, and subtle percussion carry confessional lyrics about addiction, obsession, and broken promises. This song feels like a funeral lament, capturing the tragedy of making a promise you cannot keep. For listeners drawn to deeply emotional, gothic, and brutally honest music. Let “Promise” pull you into its sorrow. Listen, share, and feel every word.

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
This head of cancer
Infecting what I write
a necromancer 
my words are parasites
it's so revolting
I'm going through withdrawal
listen to scolding
it raised my cortisol 

these words obnoxious
but numb like lidocaine 
wicked subconscious 
submerged in Sonic rain
I am the toxins
that lives in Tylenol
this pscilocybin 
I had to write it all...

[prechorus]
it's the tragedy of an apathy, and a mind that wanders lost..
you echo inside, a jeckle and hyde, how much did the hollow cost?
evaporated hatred, when I realized I was all alone
the roads to your heart were broken apart then replaced by cobblestone...

[Chorus]
whether or not, I stop
I'm seeing beyond this
I tell you, I promise
the dopamine rush
it opens me up
I'm not likely to stop this
not likely to stop this
I shouldn't have made that promise.

[postchorus]
I just didn't think,
I would be so attracted to this
and I didn't know
it would become my reason to live 

[Verse 2]
I can't abandon,
the people I chose to keep
they're my companions
been around like a rotary
I don't remember
what it's like to not obsess
all I have are letters
and a pressure that's in my chest.

if I don't release it?
Then I flood from the inside out
there's so many voices
I need to speak them before they sprout
an invasive species
that will spread these corrupted weeds
this poison Ivy
disseminates through the speech as seeds

[bridge]
my promise, I can't keep it 
like a secret of suicide 
get blue when I recycle
refuse to reuse like the bin is dry 
unstable prophet
a meme coin with a high esteem
I have to rocket
if i didn't I wouldn't write a scheme

prechorus]
it's the tragedy of an apathy, and a mind that wanders lost..
you echo inside, a jeckle and hyde, how much did the hollow cost?
evaporated hatred, when I realized I was all alone
the roads to your heart were broken apart then replaced by cobblestone...

[Chorus]
whether or not, I stop
I'm seeing beyond this
I tell you, I promise
the dopamine rush
it opens me up
I'm not likely to stop this
not likely to stop this
I shouldn't have made that promise.

[postchorus]
I just didn't think,
I would be so attracted to this
and I didn't know
it would become my reason to live 

[Outro]
I love you 
I couldn't do it.
I tried. 
I'm sorry.


Promise

🔻 Song Insight
“Past-Life” is a raw emotional reckoning wrapped in alt-rock and rap-rock grit. It captures the psychological aftermath of a toxic love—the kind that doesn't just leave you, but embeds itself in your nervous system like a ghost with a key to your triggers. The song moves like a confession in reverse: distorted guitar swells mirror inner chaos, while sharp rap verses detail a mind unraveling under betrayal and abandonment. Each chorus is a collapsed heartbeat—a scream into the silence left behind. It’s a sonic filmstrip of pain, stitched with the thread of self-resurrection.

Lyrically, it speaks to survivors of emotional abuse, those who’ve been gaslit, left behind, and made to question their own worth. The metaphor of a sweater unraveling into a noose is not just poetic—it's personal. "Past-Life" isn’t just about what happened. It’s about what you carry long after, when love has turned into a prison you still can’t fully escape.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro – Rap flow, lo-fi beat under vocals]
vinyl crackle
deep inhale
Pulled from the back seat, cold hands shake
Didn’t let go, didn’t know it was fake
Promises gone like fog in the night
Left again—gotta relive the fight

[Verse 1 – Rap continues, heavy guitar stabs]
List full of ghosts that I can’t resist
Why I can’t tell when the lie gets kissed
Saw it in your eyes—I froze, dismissed
You took my past, made it your hitlist

[Pre-Chorus – Shift to sung, tension builds]
Pulled from hell, you enlisted
Seeing truth you thought unseen
Scars a record, scorn a war
Pain torn and trapped in walls

[Chorus – Soaring and melodic]
You left me as I fell — burning I yelled
My world collapsed, no looking back
I’m the one who knows what you lack
And I still hear your silence
Like a knife in the track

[Refrain – Echo effect possible]
Call me desperate—it’s true
My fault for ever loving you

[Verse 2 – Back to sung, emotional tension]
Can’t say I’m ready—it’s been years
I can’t trust, it’s just built-in fear
I know I’m worth more than this
I give my heart a history—it fits

[Pre-Chorus – Softer, more internal]
Lungs hit and bleed, no air
Feeling parts of me now not clear
The pain I used to feel—yeah, it's real
And it owns me still

[Chorus – Return to full energy]
You left me as I fell — burning I yelled
My world collapsed, no looking back
I’m the one who knows what you lack
And I still hear your silence
Like a knife in the track

[Bridge – Distorted, delayed vocals]
Energy seeps from my pores
Falling down across the floors
I see chaos in my midst
Echoes of a life I don’t miss

A truth that gets stuck and pulls
This sweater I wear — it unwinds
As it loops it binds
A noose killing me in time

[Breakdown – Stripped vocals, wide reverb]
My voice... rip-torn from this world
Closed—I’m trying to let this go
Splintered but needing a spine
These growing pains stop in time

[Chorus – Final repeat, vocals stacked]
You left me as I fell — burning I yelled
My world collapsed, no looking back
I’m the one who knows what you lack
And I still hear your silence
Like a knife in the track

[Outro – Slow fade, heartbeat & feedback]
Can’t explain what shouldn’t be said
A past life lived, a version of hell
You’ll never see what I had to feel
My own worst prison...
These bars I still keep sealed

heartbeat fades
guitar feedback lingers



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past-life

Love like Honey or Syrup to Maple to Mud up to your knees... vulnerable and exposed but that is exactly where love exists and if you allow - it will flourish in you.

✨️☆♡ Love Yourself before anyone else ♡☆✨️

Honey

Full throttle

LOVE LIKE A ZOMBIE
LOVE LIKE A ZOMBIE

THRILL OF THE CHASE
following me around like you can't get enough
looking at me like you wanna eat me
Yeah, bite me, bite me harder
rip out my brain

"shit I like a zombie"

Drag me under
Get me in your crypt
tear me up


LOVE LIKE A ZOMBIE
LOVE LIKE A ZOMBIE

eat my face when we're in public babe
(taste it)
Add a bit of hot sauce
My heart's beating so loud
I know you like that sound
get me, chase me, don't waste me
You know you wanna

Love like a zombie
Drag me underground
And tear me up, up, up
Love like a zombie
Drag me underground
And tear me up

LOVE ME LIKE A Z O M B I E

LOVE ME LIKE A Z O M B I E

LOVE ME LIKE A Z O M B I E

DO GOOD BUT BETTER

LOVE LIKE A ZOMBIE

Love Like a Zombie

“Grave Walk” is a gritty and powerful anthem of survival, resilience, and self-mastery. 
The lyrics paint a raw portrait of someone forged in darkness, raised by silence, marked by scars, and hardened by betrayal. 
With no illusions left, the narrator walks alone through a world of shadows, owning their pain and turning it into power.

The verses describe a life without mercy or shortcuts, only cold truths, fallen angels, and inner fire. 
The pre-chorus and chorus contrast the weight of silent strength with the chaos of the outside world, asserting that true power doesn’t scream, it burns quietly with intent.

In the bridge, the narrator doesn’t run from the storm but embraces it, refusing to wear borrowed identities or wave any flag. 
The outro seals the message: this isn’t a story of seeking recognition, it’s about leaving behind a trail of truth in a world that often chooses shame.

Dark, poetic, and unrelenting, “Grave Walk” is a battle cry for anyone who’s endured, and emerged unbroken.

This was my first try to do some dark hiphop that include personal experiences... 
Hope you like it.

Grave Walk


Laughing at the Riverside is a nostalgic indie rock ballad that captures the emotional texture of a summer evening reunion among old friends. Set by the riverbank at dusk, the song explores themes of memory, time, and quiet connection. Through poetic verses and a melancholic male baritone voice, the lyrics reflect on shared stories, lost moments, and the bittersweet beauty of aging friendships. The chorus, anchored by the line “Laughing at the Riverside,” evokes a sense of timeless joy and emotional release. Instrumental sections—ranging from ambient intros to orchestral crescendos—mirror the emotional arc of the night, making the song feel cinematic and deeply personal.

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🎵 Laughing at the Riverside
Lyrics by Martin Oliver Beinersdorf

[Intro – Twilight Pulse (0:00–0:45)  
Soft piano arpeggios in low register.  
Muted bass pulses gently.  
Ambient pads with tremolo shimmer.  
Delay-washed electric guitar textures.  
No drums yet, slow emotional build.  
Mood: dusky summer evening, anticipation, warmth.]

Verse 1  
We parked the cars by the willow bend  
Sun bleeding out like a quiet friend  
You brought the cheap wine, I brought the old jokes  
Someone lit a fire, someone almost choked  

The river moved like it knew our names  
Skipping stones, trading old mistakes  
You said, “Remember that night in June?”  
I said, “I barely remember you”  

Pre-Chorus  
But the laughter came easy, like it used to  
And the silence felt softer than truth  

Chorus  
Laughing at the Riverside  
Where the past comes back but never bites  
We were ghosts in denim and light  
Laughing at the Riverside  
Like nothing ever changed  
Like everything was right  

[Instrumental Bridge – Echoes in the Current (2:10–2:40)  
Drums enter with off-kilter rhythm (5/4).  
Muted trumpet and trombone add melancholic accents.  
Dissonant guitar chords slowly resolve.  
Synth sweeps mimic water movement.  
Mood: flickering memories, emotional tension.]

Verse 2  
You played that song from senior year  
It cracked like vinyl, but we all cheered  
The moon hung low like a borrowed time  
And someone cried without a sign  

We talked of jobs, of kids, of loss  
Of how we all got a little lost  
But no one judged, and no one lied  
We just let the river decide  

Chorus  
Laughing at the Riverside  
Where the past comes back but never bites  
We were ghosts in denim and light  
Laughing at the Riverside  
Like nothing ever changed  
Like everything was right  

[Instrumental Interlude – Denim Ghosts (3:30–4:10)  
Strings (violin, cello) play a nostalgic theme.  
Piano repeats intro motif, higher and fragile.  
Slide guitar adds emotional texture.  
No drums, ambient bass carries the mood.  
Mood: time suspended, quiet reflection.]

Bridge  
The fire burned down to a whisper  
And I wished I’d said more to her  
But maybe that’s the point of nights like these  
You feel too much, and speak too little  

[Build-Up – Firelight Crescendo (4:40–5:10)  
Drums return with driving rhythm.  
Brass and strings swell into crescendo.  
Open guitar chords with tremolo.  
Warm synth pad underneath.  
Mood: emotional climax, shared joy and sorrow.]

Final Chorus  
Laughing at the Riverside  
Where the echoes feel like lullabies  
We were young, we were terrified  
Laughing at the Riverside  
Like nothing ever changed  
Like everything was right  

[Outro – Riverside Fade (5:40–6:20)  
Sparse piano notes like water drops.  
Reverse guitar effects echo memories.  
Slow bass pulse like a heartbeat.  
Field recording: river sounds, distant laughter, crickets.  
Mood: closure, memory lingering, peace.]

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© Lyrics and concept by Martin Oliver Beinersdorf. All rights reserved.

Laughing at the Riverside

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Vaelrix is a genre-bending lyricist whose work blurs the line between rap, poetry, and cinematic storytelling. With thousands of songs written and a catalog shaped by trauma, transformation, and spiritual unrest, every track is a raw confession wrapped in layered metaphors. Drawing influence from anime, philosophy, theology, and the darkest corners of the mind, Vaelrix delivers complex rhyme schemes and emotionally charged narratives that cut deep and linger. This isn't just music—it's survival through sound. Welcome to the archive of a soul set on fire.


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