#songwriter #woman #lost #searching #acoustic #womansongwriter 

Lyrics:
Where is my heart
Taking me now
Across an empty desert
Into an abandoned house
Endless rooms
Empty halls
cries of joy
sobs of pain

Where is my heart
Taking me now? (Taking me now!)

Lost in a dream…
I wish I was.
But instead…
I am trapped in this cage.
They called it life.
I call it imposed.
I wish I could leave 
But where would I go?
(Where would I go?)

Where is my soul
Leading me now?
Across a vacant highway
Into an empty hole
Dark recesses 
Endless space 
Screams of fear
Gasps of life

Where is my soul
Leading me now? (Leaving me now?)

Lost in a dream
I wish I was
But instead
I am trapped in this cage (trapped)
They call it life
I call it imposed 
I wish I could leave 
But where would I go?
(Where do I go?)

Where is my body
Pressing me now?
Against another human
Changing me again, again 
Formless mind
Empty soul
Voiceless pleas
End of life

Where is my body
Pressing me now? (Changing me now?)

Lost in a dream
I wish I was
But instead
I am trapped in this cage
They call it life
I call it imposed 
I wish I could leave 
But where would I go?
Where would I go
Where would I go?

but where would i go?

Chopin - Prelude No. 20 in C Minor - Piano

"A Smile That Lies" is more than just a song – it’s a glimpse into what depression feels like. Behind the smile there’s a weight, an emptiness that words often fail to capture. This track was written to raise awareness and to give a voice to those silent struggles, blending raw emotion with haunting melodies.
If you know someone who suffers... be there for them. Aks for professional help.
If you find yourself in this song? Please consider asking family or friends for help. Or even professionals. There are hotlines in almost every country.

And please consider donating to institutions that help people with depressions in your country!
One of many examples in Germany is:
https://www.deutsche-depressionshilfe.de/unterstuetzen-sie-uns/spenden
THANK YOU!

Lyrics, concept & creativity by me – music produced with AI (Suno).


[Intro]

[Verse 1]  
I run in circles, trapped inside my head,  
rewind the same regrets until I’m spent.  
The clock moves on but I stay in my bed,  
every second feels like punishment.  

[Pre-Chorus]  
I want to rise, I want to change,  
but I’m paralyzed, locked in this cage.  
The days collapse, they slip away,  
while I just fade in slow decay.  

[Chorus]  
I’m a flawless actor, with a smile that lies,  
laughing for the crowd while my spirit dies.  
You see the colors painted on my face,  
but inside it’s empty—only endless space.  

[Verse 2]  
Thoughts like spirals, spinning without end,  
a thousand miles and never one real step.  
It’s heavier than any race I’ve ran,  
just breathing leaves me out of breath.  

[Pre-Chorus]  
I want to move, I want to care,  
but my hands hang useless in the air.  
The hours bleed, they disappear,  
I vanish quietly year by year.  

[Chorus]  
I’m a flawless actor, with a smile that lies,  
laughing for the crowd while my spirit dies.  
You see the sunlight shining in my eyes,  
but inside it’s darkness, where the silence cries.  

[Bridge]  
Can you see the mask I wear?  
Can you hear the hollow stare?  
I play the part, the world believes…  
but behind the curtain, I can’t breathe.  

[Final Chorus]  
I’m a flawless actor, with a smile that lies,  
laughing for the crowd while my spirit dies.  
You see the laughter, but it’s just disguise—  
inside I’m drowning, nothing left alive.  

[Outro]

A Smile That Lies

Secret Shadows

Breathe again

Dissapeared

When we first started writing songs together we thought we’d keep it simple but found the allure of a full band sound too tempting to ignore. This song, about the destructive patterns we get locked into, is us fulfilling that original intention - just acoustic guitar, violin and vocals. The riff that underpins the song could have gone another way….that’ll be the next release.

Sugar Trail

This is How we rise

“The Vessel” by KAT is not a song about withdrawal — it’s about return.

A return to the inner stillness that doesn’t need to justify, perform, or prove.
It is the sound of standing quietly in one’s own light — of being the vessel, not the explanation.

Soft ambient textures and warm vocals hold space for silence itself —
each tone a heartbeat, each pause a breath of presence.

This is where expression becomes essence.
Where the voice stops explaining — and starts being.

* updated HD remaster — clearer, deeper sound

This Vessel

[Verse 1]
Yeah…
Late nights, red eyes, demons on repeat,
Mirror talk cold, said I’m tired of me.
Used to drown in my guilt, now I’m breathing it in,
Turned every sin to a lesson within.
Scars on my mind like tattoos I earned,
Pain’s a teacher, every wound confirmed.
Dark thoughts still whisper, but I whisper louder,
No crown on my head — just dirt and power.

[Pre-Chorus – Drop Build]
I don’t chase peace, I make it bleed,
Every loss I stack, that’s weight I need.
Fuel from hate, yeah, it’s all I feed,
No excuses left — it’s time to lead.

[Chorus – Heavy Bass Drop]
DO BETTER. MOVE STRONGER.
FEEL NOTHING — JUST WORK HARDER.
Every scar, my silent prayer,
I’m not weak — I’m self-repair.
DO BETTER. MOVE STRONGER.
FEEL NOTHING — JUST WORK HARDER.
No more pity, no more fear,
I’m the storm that brought me here.

[Verse 2]
Used to curse my reflection, now I stare and rebuild,
Rage in my veins, but it’s calm, distilled.
I’m the ghost of the man I refused to stay,
Burned that version — now I lead the blaze.
Sweat drips holy — pain’s my preacher,
Every rep I take makes hell weaker.
They told me stop, I said, never,
My hate’s my hammer — I’m forging better.

[Bridge – Ambient Break, Gospel Sample Faintly Under Beat]
(low voice, echoing, distant)
No love. No friends. No fear.
Just me… and my mission here.
Hate tried to own me, but I own pain,
I’m not my hurt — I’m what remains.

[Final Drop – Rage & Redemption]
(Beat explodes, distorted 808s, echoing ad-libs: “Do better… move stronger…”)
I looked in the mirror — told that face, “You better change.”
Now I bleed ambition through every chain.
From broken bones to born again,
I’m not who I was — I’m who I became.

DO BETTER. MOVE STRONGER.
FEEL NOTHING — JUST WORK HARDER.
Pain made me — that’s forever,
This time, I’m built for better.

DO BETTER MOVE STRONGER

[Verse 1]
I walked through the noise you left behind,
Every word still lingers’ in my mind.
Your memories fades where I used to smile.
So I found my peace under open skies.

[Pre-Chorus]
Every tear was a seed in disguise,
Now the flowers bloom where my pain resides.

[Chorus]
(Mi amor)
Mi amor,  let it pour,
Washed my heart till it hurt no more.
Alone, but I don’t feel the same,
Freedom’s just another name
Mi amor(Mi amor)

[Verse 2]
The night revealed secrets I used to hide,
Now I dance with ghosts that once made me cry.
The thunder sings a melody so clear,
Every drop reminds me I have nothing to fear.

[Pre-Chorus]
Every scar became a map of my fight,
Guiding me softly into the light.

[Chorus]
Mi amor, 
You let it pour,(mi amor)
Washed my heart till it hurt no more.
Alone, but I don’t feel the same,
Freedom’s just another name
Ohh Mi amor.(Mi amor)

[Bridge]
Storms may come, but I won’t break,
I’ve learned to love the ache.
Clouds may cry, but so do I,
And in their tears, I learn to fly.
(Fly whoa oh Fly...)

[Chorus / Outro]
(Mi amor )
Mi amor, oh let it pour,
Washed my heart till it hurt no more.
Alone, but I don’t feel the same,
Freedom’s just another name
Mi amor…

Mi Amor

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DO BETTER MOVE STRONGER

VAI