Songs I wrote/recorded for February Album Writing Month 2021

fawm 2021

This is a draft for FAWM 2021! :)

Here's a mini song I thought might be a fun start to FAWM!

Lyrics:
The funeral director took a puff on his cigarette,
and told me, "son, call me back when you're dead."

My neighbor, the plumber, picked a frog up off the ground
he dropped it in the toilet and he watched it spin round

and the funeral director took a puff on his cigarette,
and told me, "son, call me back when you're dead"

the funeral director

Why are you so close to me?
why are you so close to me
your smoke rings fucking choking me 
so why ya gotta live so close to me

you've cursed the names of certain streets
I curse the place we used to meet
I'll say fuck my sentimentality
and fuck my car for the places it takes me

Why are you so close to me?
why are you so close to me
your smoke rings fucking choking me 
so why ya gotta live so close to me

I've tried to take back our soundtrack as my own
this album's mine, I've claimed it as my home
so fuck my sentimentality
and fuck obsessing over all the stupid memories

(why are you so close to me)x2

Why are you so close to me?
why are you so close to me
your smoke rings fucking choking me 
so why ya gotta live so close to me
Why are you so close to me?
why are you so close to me
your smoke rings fucking choking me 
so why ya gotta live so close to me

Why Are You So Close To Me

And so I sat, 
driving home deep into night
when the sidewalk briefly glowed beneath a softly flashing light
My vision smudged by deep regret,
it was a quarter past two
and I saw somebody in the dark,
and for a moment it was you

I saw a biker and I cried out your name
as I passed him and watched his light falling away
in my rearview
god i wish it was you
in my rearview

and so I sit,
burning gas in the parking lot
of the old ammunition plant
slash wildlife viewing spot
the park closed hours ago, but not a soul around to mind
god i miss you
god i wish i could just leave it all behind

(guitar/melodica solo)

i saw a biker and i cried out your name
as i passed him and watched his light falling away
in my rearview
god i wish it was you
in my rearview

i saw a biker and i cried out your name
as i passed him and watched his light falling away
in my rearview
god i wish it was you
in my rearview

The Biker draft

I'm a big man
muddy hands
taxidermy madlad

I'm a makeup 
choked up
pansy little punk

I'm a 5 foot
blonde root
mathematic fanboy

puppetmaker
heartbreaker
really easy drunk

and I guess that's pretty cool
and i guess that's pretty cool
(pretty cool, pretty cool, pretty cool cool cool cool cool)

I'm a dropzone
second home
summer walking on my own

wanderlust
fairy dust
wishywashy kid

I'm a lonely
gen Z
liberal-hating-leftist

i'm a commie
zombie
gender fender bender little shit

and I guess that's pretty cool
and I guess that's pretty cool
(pretty cool, pretty cool, pretty cool cool cool cool cool)

I'm a nervous
person
but I got a lot of stuff to do 

I'm a godless
morbid
corvid loving guy

I'm gentle
I love people
Have a habit of withholding judgement

but if you hurt my friends I won't let that shit fly

and I guess that's pretty cool
and I guess that's pretty cool
(pretty cool, pretty cool, pretty cool cool cool cool cool)

Taxidermy Madlad

Ship's shot down and sinking fast
taste each breath, it might be your last
waters rising, the fastest i've seen
we're in an accidental submarine

We're all going down together, it seems
in our accidental submarine
by happenstance or some kind of machine
we've built an accidental submarine

I pledge allegiance
to the flag
of the united states of america
and to the rivets holding this tin can
one nation under water

We're all going down together, it seems
in our accidental submarine
by happenstance or some kind of machine
we've built an accidental submarine

(break filled by me singing scat in a slick manner)

We're all going down together, it seems
in our accidental submarine
by happenstance or some kind of machine
we've built an accidental submarine

indivisible, baby
Indivisible, Baby
INDIVISIBLE, BABY
we're all going down together

We're all going down together, it seems
in our accidental submarine
by happenstance or some kind of machine
we've built an accidental submarine

We're all going down, we're all going down
we're all going down together it seems
by happenstance or some kind of machine
we've built an accidental submarine

Accidental Submarine

I'm over it, 
or at least I can provide you with a list of things 
i think about 
that are kinda not related to you (ooh)
I'm over it, 
or at least I can provide you with a list of things 
i think about 
that are kinda not related to you

Over the summer i started reading all the manga i could find at half price books
found this ridiculous series called X-Day and i had to take a look
the premise is these kids wanna blow up their school while no one's inside
you'd think that'd be exciting but it's actually just
page after page of them sitting around saying, 
"i don't understand chemistry"
"how do i build a bomb"

I'm over it, 
or at least I can provide you with a list of things 
i think about 
that are kinda not related to you (ooh)
I'm over it, 
or at least I can provide you with a list of things 
i think about 
that are kinda not related to you

um hey, here's another thing that i think about
uhh, i started collecting CDs!
yeah, pretty cool i know
i have like thirty now, or maybe forty
i carry them around everywhere in my backpack
i should really get a travel case
cuz i keep cracking the plastic boxes
it's not that big a deal, i'll probably figure it out
eventually

I'm over it, 
or at least I can provide you with a list of things 
i think about 
that are kinda not related to you (woah)
I'm over it, 
or at least I can provide you with a list of things 
i think about 
that are kinda not related to you

The only problem is i think that you would kind of like that manga, X-Day
i really wish i didn't think that but i guess i do (woah)
the other problem is that half my albums came from you
but it's fine cuz 
they're mine now
and i like them 
and also i have some new ones i discovered that you've probably never even heard of

sometimes i wonder if my thoughts will ever go normal again
then again, were they ever really normal before?
hey, that's a good question, were they normal before?
what the hell did i even think about before?
uh, taxidermy, probably, and maybe school
no wait! I didn't do well in school cuz i was always distracted
what was i distracted by?
was it just youtube?
was i just sitting around
pissing away all my time?

I'm over it, 
or at least I can provide you with a list of things 
i think about 
that are kinda not related to you (ooh)
I'm over it, 
or at least I can provide you with a list of things 
i think about 
that are kinda not related to you

im over it (or at least...)

having third thoughts, third thoughts
what have i done?
I'm losing my mind 
at a score of seven to none

having third thoughts, 
did i make a mistake?
I'll re-read the play-by-play
and lie alone, afraid, awake

(alone, afraid, awake)x2

Before any actions can escape my skull
I scrape them, grate them,
gut, berate them,
peel back the hull
and yet it's not enough

I got third thoughts, third thoughts
what have i done?
I'm losing my mind 
at a score of seven to none

having third thoughts, 
did i make a mistake?
I'll re-read the play-by-play
and lie alone, afraid, awake

(alone, afraid, awake)x several

I guess you can say it's all been said and done
and yet i fret
obsessed, upset
lying on the floor, stunned
oh god,
it's not enough

Having third thoughts, third thoughts
what have i done?
I'm losing my mind 
at a score of seven to none

I got third thoughts, 
did i make a mistake?
I'll re-read the play-by-play
and lie alone, afraid, awake

HELP ME!

Temporary Rulers of the Cactus Patch

Third Thoughts

Pedestrian Bridge

I Can Feel August Again

Silver Sailor Lies (skirmish)

Red Doorknob

left in the dark (skirmish)

I Ordered A Wig

Goodbye Jane (live audio)

Hi, I'm Salem! I'm 21, and I like writing songs as well as hoarding and learning instruments.

fawm 2021

Salem Heideman