this deserves to be on the main account <3

ty for listening <3
prod. i'm geist x deadfish x hiraeth
mixed/mastered by deadfish

@imgeist
@hiraethsry
@imnotenvy
@yokaidreams
@sleepywater
@deadfishpoland

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2MEwCgdk51OeRKs5vdbJZJ 
also up on itunes and apple music!

// lyrics
// imgeist
oh, hold on wait, tell me did i let you down
can i breathe a little swear that i won’t make a sound
and everybody’s out for blood that’s why i hate this town
and everybody’s out for me that’s why i’ll go ghost now

oh, hold on wait, tell me I’m the monster now
when you’re the one who went and filled my head with doubt
i gave up everything just to be the one left out
i tossed you my heart, you stomped it on the ground

// hiraeth
put your hands all on my body now i'm leaving
i don’t wanna hurt you bitch, i'm falling for a reason
give another reason, leave without a meaning
tell me that you love me, tell me that you miss him

i could run away and still nobody wanna know now
funny i meant everything until he wanna come round
leave it at the door and get your shit just on the way out
text him that you want him cause he knows you're on the way now

// notenvy
and i cant even look at myself dont feel the same i'm
trapped inside my own little hell you pin the blame you
took my heart it snapped and i fell you'll never say why
i've been steady feeling unwell what has this come to?
and i've been dying tryna get you outta my head
and i keep fucking crying over things you said
dont tell me that we'll ever have a chance again
cause i can't deal with trauma take my life instead

// imgeist
oh, hold on wait, tell me did i let you down
can i breathe a little swear that i won’t make a sound
and everybody’s out for blood that’s why i hate this town
and everybody’s out for me that’s why i’ll go ghost now !!!!!!!!

oh, hold on wait, tell me I’m the monster now???!
when you’re the one who went and filled my head with doubt???!
i gave up everything just to be the one left out???!
i tossed you my heart, you stomped it on the ground

// yokai dreams
you always jumped at a chance to slice up my ego
power your libido
take your time, suck the life out of everywhere that we go
emotional mosquito
she's undead never had a care
for the affairs of the living
take your heart and she grinning
as the clock strikes 10
honest men will head to bed
but she just started causing pain by the minute

// sleepwater
torment anxiety
what is inside of me
i'm broken, i'm destined to die
a loner, a puppet in disguise
soil is dirty, i'm drowning reserve me
i need you don't burn me, i'm liquid lurking

// deadfish
and i've tried to move on
yea i’ve tried to forget
but you just
seem to never wanna leave my head
so
i can never fucking see you again
you know that
i really need it to feel again

stop fucking calling and wasting my time
said that you’ll fix that, we know thats a lie
now that i’m gone you regret what you've done
when you are crying i’ll hide in my home

could you stop fucking up my entire life
telling everyone that i was just another guy
never said what you did, i’d never tell a soul
cause i'm better than this and i'm better than u

Spotify

out for blood! w/ hiraeth, notenvy, yokai dreams, sleepwater, deadfish

shoutout @prod-oc for doing the bass for me <3 
thanks for listening <3 first solo song in forever 

// chorus
i don’t want to let go
but the feeling in my chest says no
and when the colors in my eyes won’t show
i hope you’ll see I’m better as bones

// verse
i don’t want to talk about it
cause every day is a blur in my head
when i look at you you’re perfect
but don’t look at me i’m worthless
and i don’t even try to hide it
you can see on it on the surface
everyone will say i’m heartless
i just wish that they could see

that it hurts for me to breathe
and it hurts for me to feel
and it hurts for me to walk on this earth everyday
and i can’t keep on pretending
keep lying
there’s no meaning
when my life comes to an end
i swear i’ll be okay

spotify

bones

<3
released via: https://soundcloud.com/universalchill

featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/hiraethsry

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

discord.gg/hsUwdAJknJ

lyrics:

There is something that’s inside of me
Screaming at me, tryna go to sleep
Dancing demons under eyelids
Can’t be rational when I’ve been

Awake for a couple of days
You don’t understand my struggles
Don’t pretend that you’re me
You’ve been buying a new necklace
When there’s a noose on my neck
Writing down all of my problems
Like they will go away

There is lots that I’m not proud of
I admit that I have messed up
Something’s causing all this pain
Must’ve slipped up in the past

Please don’t try to cheer me up
Don’t lie to me, I hate that
I’m aware of all my faults
And I’m trying to fix that

And I can’t stop it
Pills been pretty numbing
Been out of my mind
Excuse all my shortcomings

I swear to god it
Ruins all my friendships
I have tried everything now
Somehow I fuck it up, wow

They told me that I’ll end up insane
I think that
To say that it’s a little too late
And I just
Can’t bear the thought of not seeing the day
Where I will feel okay
Buried 6 feet with the pain

I don’t wanna lose you again
I been alone in my bed
Ive had a few dreams about you
But theyre all in my head

Scratching marks on my chest
Engrave ur name in my flesh 
So I can’t forget if I tried to
Ur gonna leave me for dead

I keep fucking up the timing 
U don’t wanna listen
U got feelings of denial
Another pot to piss in
feel like I should start to fight more
I don’t need to be religious baby
U know what I stand for
Ashes burn my eyes sore

anxious I can’t breathe
Im getting nauseous turn the lights out
Please don’t ever speak to me
Don’t act like got time now
Im fighting with myself
Im out of luck is this my karma
I can barely talk im scared of speaking when i call her

6 feet with the pain

6 feet with the pain (feat. hiraeth)

people always talk like they know me 
no one sees the knife inside my heart as i slowly die 
feelings come alive and they’re burning  
i had all the patience in the world but now i don’t try 
it’s a waste of time 
everyone walks out my life 
i say goodbye 
you’ve heard that line 
but i remember every night 
 
hey 
i’m afraid love 
lately it’s more than i just can’t wake up 
stay? 
cause i need you 
but you don’t feel the same and it’s so see through 
 
(oh i just want to go home) 

try to act like i’m tough 
cant even stomach the thought of my blood 
i want to paint walls red when i’m in love 
i want to paint walls red 
i want to paint walls red oh 
try to act like enough 
can’t even stomach the thought of you now  
i want to paint walls red when i’m in love 
i want to paint walls red 
i want to paint walls red oh...

i want to paint walls red [drma x michael harrison]

self prod :)

LYRICS

Tell me just a little bit
What's been on ur mind?
I been getting sick of it
Mechanically I cry
I don't wanna stick with this
Shit don't wanna lie
So don't tell me all these you wanna tell me all the time

How you gon live with me
You got that ecstacy
Like never sleep 21 I never sleep
It can be the moment that you talking to my soul
And you try to make me fall in fucking love again

CALL OUT MY LIFE
YOU WANNA BREAK IT RIGHT NOW
ALL THE LIES I WANNA FEEL IT RIGHT NOW
OPEN UR EYES U WANNA SEE ME REACT

Taking off a little bit
I know all the problems that you have
I don't even wanna see it crash
I just wanna love u till ur last
Breaking down a lot and then I dash
But the problem of this root is all ur lies
I don't even know if I can try
Everything you say it makes me
Curl in a ball and it makes me wanna die
How you gon live if you gon die
I don't even know if I can cry
Every single time you make me
Wish I was never even right

CALL OUT MY LIFE
YOU WANNA BREAK IT RIGHT NOW
ALL THE LIES I WANNA FEEL IT RIGHT NOW
OPEN UR EYES U WANNA SEE ME REACT

Always had a problem with us
And I don't really get the feelings looking back with my lust
Im crawling up towards the ceiling in the night when im up
Im looking back at all my demons in this timeline I fucked
I know its not fair for me
Demented bitch she stole all of my memories
Found a brand new heart to stand right as her centerpiece
How the fuck can this shit not be make believe
Can't be make believe

Watch what you gon take from me cuz I know how it ends
My noose not gon break for me cuz I know how it ends
Take my love respectfully or Il blow off your head
Manic I don't make believe I make believe instead
(hahahaha)

CALL OUT MY LIFE
YOU WANNA BREAK IT RIGHT NOW
ALL THE LIES I WANNA FEEL IT RIGHT NOW
OPEN UR EYES U WANNA SEE ME REACT

OPEN UR EYES

how am i still alive after all this bullshit
take me down from the ceiling
im holding onto something
i dont have nothing
why dont you ask me how i feel or how i care
running out of time its running bare

my loves not good at all
just be patient when you call
lll sleep forevermore
youd only wake me when youre bored
im drowning through the floor
you only save me when your alone

say that you hate me i wont break
sitting in agony, dont change
say that you love me, its too late
cant even look at my face

how could you do that to somebody who loves you
go and lie 
and say you dont even mean to
i didnt wanna
no i dont wanna leave
you know i wanna
know i wanna believe you

who do you think i am ? 
you where never just friends its all adding up
told me i should watch myself
well maybe you should wash his fragrance off

how did we get so far
just to runaway 
like we never moved at all
tell me where it all went wrong
stop the pain by lining your stomach with alcohol

how could you do that to somebody who loves you
go and lie 
and say you dont even mean to
i didnt wanna
no i dont wanna leave
you know i wanna
know i wanna believe you

forevermore

You should kill me, kill me, kill me
Not the real me, real me, real me
I don’t see him
Breathing, breathing
You don’t need him, need him, need him oh
And I always think about you when im sitting in the dark
Swear I feel your breath putting pressure on my arm
But what the fuck do I know
Im sat here waiting for some truth to be told

Better, know you could be wetter
Pussy so bad he pulled a weapon
My love I don’t know what you’re selling
Too bad im bought in descension

Oh god I don’t know what to get
Two minds im not losing again
What the fuck you think you’re doing in bed
I look away and now you’re fucking again

bought in descension 

This must be the end of everything that I know
Her nails are cutting marks into the back of my throat
No matter how much I clean it won’t go
Fuck you never call me your bro

You don’t give a fuck, you don’t give a fuck
I thought you had a question
Am I not good enough?
Given up now, given up
I let my guard down
Ive had enough

youre moving backwards 
give me some time, 
gimme me some space to relax love
You don’t want that
Feeling pressure around my neck love
im going fast
Imma turn my car right 
just to call it a crash
I can see you going down 
but you didnt ask
You don’t wanna try 
bitch you never have
Ruining a life that you never had
let him knock you up just to get me back
Fucking tapped

Descension

sorry mix is so rough for now 

// lyrics 
guess i took a break from the red 
oh no  
now it’s all on my hair 
match my skin and bones 
i don’t got what it takes 
so you go back home 
and find somebody else 
cause i’m never wrong 

say something 
if you can give me comfort 
but i already tainted 
my house with the memories 
kissed you held tight 
and watched you slumber 
say something 
but please do not lie to me 

please do not lie to me 

i’m so sorry 
i get so silent 
the words are getting stuck 
but ik they wouldn’t make a difference   
hearts dropped to my stomach 
so aim the knife lower darling 
but i’ll say that i love you 
and i hope you know i mean it 

I CANT TAKE THIS MAN 
SHIT JUST NEVER ENDS 
SAY YOU FUCKING CARE 
BUT YOU NEVER SHOW IT TO ME 
BLOODS ALL ON MY HANDS 
AND ITS ALWAYS MINE 
DONT LOOK ME IN THE FACE 
CAUSE YOURE NOT MY MUSE BABY

change your name [prodsecre x heyrick]

i shouldn’t write a song
but idk where else that i could say it
move along but
every time i do its like a phase
and am i wrong?
cause i can never tell
when i’m to blame
so move along
cause idk how else to cope with pain

you wear and tear
go ahead and rip me love
but i’ll still stop and stare
cause i know that you’re hurting too
but this shit’s just unfair
say how much you miss me
but you really do not care
cause i broke down in front of you
and he’s still fucking there

on the bad nights
did you lose sight
of me
you move like
it’s never you & i
darling
i hate life
but i’ll keep on fighting
cause i got lots of ghosts
and i would hate to see them starving

i would hate to see them starving..

i hold my heart in my hands
but you’re still feeling the tension?
walk all over it again
it’s fine i won’t even mention…
spit all over my face
then ask me why i’m regressing
baby could you ever change
cause i don’t get that impression

guess i'm to blame [prodsecre x prophecy x veilonme x kre8ore]

i dont wanna stay here 
i dont wanna play here
feel like im out of my brain
stand clear
feel like im just gonna die
right here

i see how you love
and you see i cant trust
and you say "i dont know"
if its you cant fold 


[I'm geist]
i’m just gonna die right here 
oh the paranoia’s rotting all my head i 
fear 
but you ripped apart my trust 
to say that i don’t care?
well i’m gone my dear
so don’t you look my way away again 

so don’t you look my way away again 
and just fuck off of my friends

(its clear)
 you thought i can't help you none
i know what she wants
and i know what she got
take my life, for fun

i dont wanna stay here 
i dont wanna play here
feel like im out of my brain
stand clear
feel like im just gonna die
right here

Prod.iissaa

thank you @imgeist

i want to paint walls red [drma x michael harrison]

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