You know for throwaway stuff, it's pretty dang good. Some of it is official worthy imo

produced by hiraeth

remember to wash the socks u came in

And its so obvious
How can you not see me
See me
If I ran away would you need me ?
Played your last messages on repeat
This the last time that you’ll see me

So let me down
Pull me out
Of this hole im in
Baby would you cave it in 
What is happening
I can’t believe I shat again :p!!
Blood is everywhere
Im crawling out of bed again

Fuck with me for the last time 
This the last night
Fights getting outta hand now
But its alright
Fuck living ima die now 
Its about time
Thoughts sheltering my mind out
From the outside

Trying to run from the past
Tell me how hard does it get now
Living to die in a bed
No in-between to forget now
Call me when all of it ends
Im putting a gun to my he’d now

Fuck with me for the last time 
This the last night
Fights getting outta hand now
But its alright
Fuck living ima die now 
Its about time
Thoughts sheltering my mind out
From the outside

Fuck with me for the last time 
This the last night
Fights getting outta hand now
But its alright
Fuck living ima die now 
Its about time
Thoughts sheltering my mind out
From the outside

newmaker

went for something different.
made this with the intention to expand my creativity as an artist
and the hopes to understand myself more as a person.
hope you enjoy :')
prod. @branwenmusic & @rvrhiv 🖤
cover art done by @akanenosketch

~~lyrics~~
(i got these daggers in my spine)
(they come right at me from the skies)
(just tell me why, why)

knowing that you’re safe
could you save me from this bad dream
know it’s kinda late
girl i’m sorry that i’m asking
glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat  
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end
do you understand?

go into a rage 
when i see you in my sight
everyone the same 
and i always wonder why
tell me what it takes
just for you to stay mine

swear i’m fucking sick
everyone’s a prick 
running fucking swift
don’t ever stop, won’t ever quit
eh i was a mistake
in this world; why do i stay?
no, seriously.
THIS SHIT SUCKS!!!

hush…

glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within

i’m rotting from within!
i should probably go
there's blood under the snow 
infinity below
i hear the echoes of bellows

aren’t you just happy for me
i wanna be someone else
stuck inside a catacomb
it’s like my own personal hell 
just give me the signal 
and i’ll try to book it outta here
it’s not that i’m terrified
this is just how i look my dear 

i got these daggers in my spine
they started raining from the sky
i didn’t make it home in time
within your arms is where i lie

i rot, everything’s stupid 
i want you, but i’m useless
time’s not real, we are lucid 
i’m just, gonna lose it all


glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end 
do you understand?…

infinity below [prod. branwen x rvrhiv]

follow my girlfriend @novagarden

TRECH:
in my suicide note i wrote
that if any motherfuckers want smoke
id choke 
i stay fucked up
i’m so hung up
on the fact i ain’t shit
but a fuck up
all my friends have overdosed
even though i ain’t there yet, bitch i’m close
in the meantime
i’ll stay locked in my room 
away from sunshine

take cover in a substance
i hate the taste
down it like its nothin’
how many hits can i lick before i tap out?
how many
drinks can i sip before i black out?
imma test my limit for the last time
please stay with me on the hotline
i’ll call u back when i feel alright
but tomorrow never comes
a life is finite

NOVA:
i can’t stop takin’ hella pills
but im not addicted 
i just do it for the thrill
acid tabs sitting on my tongue
but don’t worry ‘bout a thing
i just do it for fun
glassed eyes in the mirror
lookin’ at myself
thinkin’ ‘bout why the fuck i do this to my health
paranoia got me grabbin’ shrooms off my shelf
try to stop me
i cant let you bitch
so go to hell

TRECH:
i feel nothin’
to feel somethin’
but im a fucking slave to the chemicals
ive been 
straight huffin’
i wake up in panic attacks from my dreams so
take my mind away
my eyes fell down the drain
these tear drops act as rain
try to flush away rinse away my pain

shards of glass

SPOTIFY

shards of glass (feat. nova garden)

enjoy; haven't done something like this in a while
prod. @isitmalloy & @sorrow_bringer <3

got tripwire hooks where i'm standing
they taunt me cause i'm too outlandish
i'll scorch their skin like a god damn dragon
they ask me "autie, how the fuck do you manage"

told me i reap what i sow
i ain't do shit; i'm on the go
so many people i don't even know
wishing me well; i just wanna compose
write me a eulogy, be sure to show
all that i overcame way down the road
you wouldn't believe it 
coming from the mouth of the one 
who's already been disposed

it's like i'm not here
and i can't take it
i'll set off a flare on my tongue
till i'm breaking
and she don't hit up my line, but i get it
we're one in the same
i love isolation
i'm living in a masquerade 
my mind had mutated from it's radiation
i know me best when it hits dusk
but then i'm falling off by dawn
this patience forsaken me; heartless and gone
so i stay prolongued
well, more-so i'm stunned
this madness that was casted
i honestly love.

got tripwire hooks where i'm standing
they taunt me cause i'm too outlandish
i'll scorch their skin like a god damn dragon
they ask me "autie, how the fuck do you manage"

hate in my veins
i do not self-proclaim
bit the metal in my mouth
i'm pouring red right outta my face
empty tank, but i'm up
i'm exhausted and i rank
for every fodder, it's our father 
that'll grant you heavy rain

it's too calm
for such an uneventful evening
my stomach's in the corner teething
scold me as my breath's depleting

i guess that you ain't understand the first time
i ain't gonna run it back, there's way too many landmines
i'm numbing to nostalgia
that's the only thing that's kept me in a safe space
I'M SICK OF FEELING STUCK INSIDE THE SAME PLACE

got tripwire hooks where i'm standing
they taunt me cause i'm too outlandish
i'll scorch their skin like a god damn dragon
they ask me "autie, how the fuck do you manage"

this is not where i belong
there's piranhas in the pond
pawn-
pawn-
pawn-paw-paw-p-p-p-

fuck
i need a challenger
i'm up so early, i'm my own manager
even if my name is someone's you haven't heard
they'd still wanna 
rip me out of the fucking earth
these scissors and wine are combining
shut the fuck up
let me get back to dining
the taste of acceptance is oh so refreshing
when mixed in with vengeance
old habits are tempting

they ask me, "autie, how the the fuck do you manage?.."

pawn [prod. malloy x sorrow bringer]

prod. @trytoseeghosts & @sinxi

@imgeist
@trytoseeghosts
@yokaidreams
@tnvr555
@hiraethsry
@sinxi

// imgeist
oh
souls lost
watch them pray on their knees
cause i don’t fuck with anybody who’s not worshipping me
saw her soul cross
what a devious treat
so go and grab the bodies they’re all filled with disease

oh trick or treat love
can you see what i see?
street lights flickering green?
jack-o-lanterns they scream
oh trick or treat love
like how you always fooled me
now all the ghosts that you see
they’ll haunt you till defeat

terrified, oh are you?
scared of all the karma left to come
face the consequences
you can’t hide from all the sins you’ve done

*new ghost detected*

// trytoseeghosts
always stay protected while your in an armor
never wanna deal with all my trauma
i don’t really wanna talk to you that’s karma
feeling, dead inside my head
i know that i lost a lot of friends but
i know they never got my bloody back
and i prefer to live with spirit and passion
i think i saw ghosts
and i can’t stop by now
i think that im haunted in my own damn house
my minds fucked
and my hearts a split
the only thing i am is just a fucked up kid

// yokai dreams
i was up a little late last night
saw a few things i should never see
now the second that i close my eyes
i can feel them staring back at me
please do not be alarmed
it's only me within the dark

from under the grave i am setting myself free
i do not think you can help me
i am not what you call healthy
carry disease
could call it the mark of the beast

// tnvr
you're praying for me,
but i'm watching you bleed on the floor
there's blood in the sink,
so don't you dare walk out that door
he's playing for keeps, the devil in me
tryna take my soul away
won't let me sleep, i'm wide awake
won't make it to heavens gate

so tear my eyes out from the inside
i'm not alive, i can't fall asleep
tear my eyes out from the inside
tear my eyes out from the inside

// hiraeth
please just let me go, i really want him to bleed
cutting marks along his chest, i’ll throw the bitch in the sea
and you think it’s all okay, i hope you catch a disease
leave him buried in the ground, along with dirt and the leafs
i hope you care about someone until they fuck you and leave
i hope that every tear you shed scratches your face and you bleed
and no one even comes to help cause you just left them with ease
as soon as someone new comes in you’re always down on ur knees

// sinxi
lend ur soul to me
i’ve got a couple minutes
you tell me that i’m mean
when i explained my reasons
hit ‘em where it hurts cos i like the feeling
didn’t mean to try i just kept you clingin

‘oh my god what the fuck, what’d u do to me?’
it’s almost like i can’t control the things i see
creatures on my skin that i can’t believe
baby oh u didn’t u made them just for me?

DISEASE w/ trytoseeghosts, yokai dreams, tnvr, hiraeth & sinxi

thank you <3 @tnvr555 @b_murph

// i'm geist 
most days i regret i didn’t stay
but it’s all just part of life
and there’s not much more that i can say
but i love you and goodbye

(check 123)

but i don’t care what’s your new damn name
change your @ but it’s all the same
get a checkmark, go chase the fame
but don’t act like you fucking care

oh trust me love that i know
you’re so unhappy
it shows
it’s not your character love
fuck your friends and your drugs

don’t ever try to come around here
but god i miss your face...
don’t ever say you loved me
i can’t take

paint my picture red with the memories
i wish that our love wasn’t everything
i consume the pain like a remedy
sad to see you go, but it’s best for me

paint my picture red with the memories
i wish that our love wasn’t everything :/
i consume the pain like a remedy
sad to see you go, but it’s best for me...

// b murph 
sad to see you go, but it’s for the best
i’ve got this lingering emptiness that never leaves my chest
so i don’t need you to keep piling on
by flaunting all the good shit in your life
and you know that i still love you
but i can’t stay here no more
and there’s nothing left here for me to do
so i’m running out that door

and i’m just gonna keep on running
never gonna stop
even when i meet the edge
and i bet that you think that it’s funny
when i’m gone
yeah i hear you laughing with all your friends
it’s been getting too hard to pick myself up
when i just get another reason to fall
and i know that you love me,
i see it in your flaws
that you hide from everyone but me,
i see it all, yeah

spotify

sad to see u go w/ b murph [tnvr]

You should kill me, kill me, kill me
Not the real me, real me, real me
I don’t see him
Breathing, breathing
You don’t need him, need him, need him oh
And I always think about you when im sitting in the dark
Swear I feel your breath putting pressure on my arm
But what the fuck do I know
Im sat here waiting for some truth to be told

Better, know you could be wetter
Pussy so bad he pulled a weapon
My love I don’t know what you’re selling
Too bad im bought in descension

Oh god I don’t know what to get
Two minds im not losing again
What the fuck you think you’re doing in bed
I look away and now you’re fucking again

bought in descension 

This must be the end of everything that I know
Her nails are cutting marks into the back of my throat
No matter how much I clean it won’t go
Fuck you never call me your bro

You don’t give a fuck, you don’t give a fuck
I thought you had a question
Am I not good enough?
Given up now, given up
I let my guard down
Ive had enough

youre moving backwards 
give me some time, 
gimme me some space to relax love
You don’t want that
Feeling pressure around my neck love
im going fast
Imma turn my car right 
just to call it a crash
I can see you going down 
but you didnt ask
You don’t wanna try 
bitch you never have
Ruining a life that you never had
let him knock you up just to get me back
Fucking tapped

Descension

standing by the bedside
baby you know you’re picture perfect
lights off moving so slow as you undress
i’ll take time but promise i’m back before the sunset
you’re gone i should’ve known that i was worthless

why is everybody spiteful
like where’d the love go?
suddenly you hate me like i meant nothing despite all…
pushing every corner like i’m not walking on tight ropes
i know the truth is that you’d never care if i fall :/

go on
hold on
seems i made it home but it all seems
so wrong
so wrong…
there’s blood all on the floor leaking down from the walls :(
i just hate that you would never call
tell me that you care but don’t try at all
okay baby posing like a doll
i’ll clean all the blood of off the walls

i don’t serenade
i spit blood out my mouth
or all the thoughts will poison me :/
i love when it builds
and feels like i’m a walking tragedy
i romanticize the pain like it’s not fucking killing me :P
swear its fucking agony

say it’s a dream
wake me up i’ve had enough
cause i feel nothing
my
emotions
have
shut
the
fuck
up.

i'm home but the walls are bleeding [prodsecre]

i dont wanna stay here 
i dont wanna play here
feel like im out of my brain
stand clear
feel like im just gonna die
right here

i see how you love
and you see i cant trust
and you say "i dont know"
if its you cant fold 


[I'm geist]
i’m just gonna die right here 
oh the paranoia’s rotting all my head i 
fear 
but you ripped apart my trust 
to say that i don’t care?
well i’m gone my dear
so don’t you look my way away again 

so don’t you look my way away again 
and just fuck off of my friends

(its clear)
 you thought i can't help you none
i know what she wants
and i know what she got
take my life, for fun

i dont wanna stay here 
i dont wanna play here
feel like im out of my brain
stand clear
feel like im just gonna die
right here

Prod.iissaa

thank you @imgeist

i'm home but the walls are bleeding [prodsecre]

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