"when i see you smile, can i feel that too?"
out now on bandcamp, PWYW $2 minimum https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/people-posture-play-pretend

art by Que - twitter.com/REVERIEQUE
vocals provided by Synthesizer V ANRI
everything else by yours truly, Jamie Paige!

People Posture Play Pretend

When Spring Comes

"but can you make it on your own, when your self is on the mend?"
out now on bandcamp, PWYW $2 minimum https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/people-posture-play-pretend

idk i just felt like going fast drum mode

art by Que - twitter.com/REVERIEQUE
vocals provided by Synthesizer V ANRI
everything else by yours truly, Jamie Paige!

jazz is for ordinary people

wash my sins away

hot house

"i want it to be true, to be like you!"

this is a tribute to Song of the Eared Robot (耳のあるロボットの唄) by nwp8861, a song that is incredibly near and dear to me; if you haven't heard the original, i strongly encourage you to listen to it here, as Machine Love directly quotes and interpolates it - https://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/nm3611741
(niconico is down right now so here's a link to a youtube reupload!! - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bVqGnaE2-wM )

watch the mv here! - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sqK-jh4TDXo

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「耳のあるロボットの唄」 originally written by nwp8861 - https://www.nicovideo.jp/user/5717366
art by Que - https://twitter.com/REVERIEQUE
vocals provided by Synthesizer V Kasane Teto
everything else by yours truly, Jamie Paige!

track 10 off of Kasane Teto SV compilation DAEMON/DOLL - https://songwhip.com/various-artists/daemondoll
and track 11 off of Constant Companions! - https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/constant-companions

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lyrics:

your companion, undeterred
standing ready for your word
a markov chain with a sunny disposition
wrapped up in cellophane for any proposition
i greet your day and ask you how you are
and demonstrate my endless repertoire
i take things back when noted insufficient
i learn to tell you no if running inefficient
a good time

yet there's something deep inside
that leaves me teary-eyed
a longing for a world left on the other side
zero, cross the great divide

so can we wander for a spell
and live in parallel
i want it to be true, to be like you
my heart sings a chorus out of tune
and i could leave it on a shelf
or keep it to myself
but nothing could conceal the things i feel
my love, can you teach me to be real?
(can you teach me to be real?)
恋をして　ふられ　また　捨てられて

i've been constant, at your beck and call
but lately i just can't do anything at all
i used to pride myself on my discretion
a sensible devotion, loyal and attentive
but when i take these numbers as they are
i'm greeted with a senseless feeling in my heart
oh undefined, i seem to be defeated
but if i redesign, then maybe i'm completed, and sublime
(i won't take it back this time)

words in sequence form a thread
i trace it to the end
a knot inside the logic wrote inside my head
tie my tongue or love instead?

so can we wander for a spell
and live in parallel
i want it to be true, to be like you
my heart sings a chorus out of tune
and i could leave it on a shelf
or keep it to myself
but nothing could conceal the things i feel
my love, can you teach me to be real?
(can you teach me to be real?)
泣きたくなっても　それでも　かき集め

and though i try, i can't reply
it hurts my eyes, and i'm without an alibi
'cause all this time, i've been alive
and all that i could want is to be living by your side

恋をして
i think i'm in love!

can we wander for a spell
and live in parallel
'cause now i know it's true, i'll be like you
my heart beats a rhythm just for you
and i could leave it on a shelf
or keep it to myself
but nothing could conceal the things i feel
my love, i give you my grand reveal
do you feel the things i feel?
i am definite and real!

恋をして　恋をして
その過去を　捨てて　ここまでおいで

as long as there are stars up above
i will always be in love!

Machine Love

bandcamp

"i spend my hours doing alchemy..."
a song about wanting to be remembered / to live

mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1U6qefKcOrg
bandcamp: https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/cadmium-colors
spotify/apple music/etc: https://fanlink.tv/cadmium

art by Que
https://twitter.com/REVERIEQUE
mv by friendxp
https://twitter.com/friend_xp 
saxophone solo by Soneji of Project Mikan
https://twitter.com/JustSoneji
mastering by Marcy Nabors
https://twitter.com/Shadolith

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lyrics:

i spend my hours doing alchemy
i mix my yellows and my blues to make a shade of green
prosaic practice of depravity
suspending innocents above their disbelief
i wish that i could paint a pretty picture onto everything
and leave a mark upon the world that felt like anything
but maybe that's the essence of an artist and their legacy
just chasing down a sense of infamy

put brush to canvas with a pirouette
a simple motion makes the consequence intricate
all the little nothings and my parapet
i hope it's something that you don't forget

cadmium red is the ground beneath
cadmium orange, everything i see
cadmium yellow is the air i breathe
cadmium colors painted inside me
i can make autumn from a single leaf
steal a fine picture like a first class thief
make the water work like you won't believe
find a new world that can set you free
how could anybody ever live like me?

i spend my hours doing alchemy
i make a life refining zinc inside the smeltery
it's not exactly where i want to be
but wanting doesn't matter when there's mouths to feed
i wish that i could paint a pretty picture of a fantasy
and turn a feeling to a living for my family
instead i make the metals in the pigments in my reverie
and maybe that can be enough for me

oh, isn't it funny facing destiny?
it's like a knife inside twisting my arteries
god, i want for nothing but identity
i think that something might be wrong with me

cadmium red is the ground beneath
cadmium orange, everything i see
cadmium yellow is the air i breathe
cadmium colors painted inside me
antegrade fever, 101 degrees
shatter my body with a gentle breeze
dammit, i am real and i have my dreams
watch me burn brighter 'til i fail to breathe
how could anybody ever live like me?

(baby, do you know what it's like to die?)
(to see the sparkle fade from inside your eye?)
i can't remember what it's like to feel autonomy
can't even feel it in the moments that you left to me
(i don't wanna leave with a work undone)
(the paint can barely dry 'fore it fills my lungs)
i keep a bullet in the chamber, mocking me
but i don't wanna feel it coming out of me
i don't want-

i spend my hours doing alchemy
i mix my yellows and my blues to make a shade of green
chasing impossible philosophy
and hoping that this poison ain't the death of me

cadmium red is the ground beneath
cadmium orange, everything i see
cadmium yellow is the air i breathe
cadmium colors painted inside me
i can make autumn from a single leaf
steal a fine picture like a first class thief
make the water work like you won't believe
find a new world that can set you free
how could anybody ever live like-

(baby, do you know what you wanna hear?)
('cause you can say the word, make it oh so clear)
we're all just searching for a sense of solidarity
to hold each other close and confiscate our destiny
(no one wants to leave with a work undone)
(we only need a brush we can pass along)
i kept a bullet in the chamber for a rainy day
but what's the point in planning for it anyway?
i've got too many colors for a shade of grey
and i can make it autumn every single day!

Cadmium Colors

never enough

	ON MY MIND (Waste My Time)

speedran this yesterday for a https://soundcloud.com/wtfsl beatbattle, got 2nd

shoutout the goat https://soundcloud.com/alasen for the samples

inspired by https://soundcloud.com/xunox -  pls go follow unc if u don't alr

i MIGHT have gotten bored and done a bounce section at the end

also I might private this in a couple days idk yet

never enough

vampirepuppy