Featuring @murrumur
Co-Prod Schizoscriptures 
(check her out here)https://scsc.bandcamp.com/

~☆~Lyrics~★~


I see how you look at me 

Like something dead bringing disease 

An awful stare I hardly breathe 

To be repaired indefinitely 


You always notice when I'm near 

Your eyes tinged with hints of fear 

Or maybe it's disgust 

Being human's way too much 


I'd rather be a blob of flesh 

A contraption built for death 

I'll be the monster that you see 

Everything you don't want me to be 


Covering my eyes when I'm outside 

Cold ice cold stares penetrating every angle 

I can't take it 

I can feel your  

Words 

They're just words  

They're just words  

They're just words  

They're just noise  

They're just spiralling out into wars 


I was never wanted there and so i disappeared 

They could kill me if they wanted but for now they just stare 


Like a nail inside my skull 

An image pierced through the steel hull 

They string me up by the wrong name 

Can't feel the pulsing in my veins 

I only feel the stares 

I wish I didn't care 


Failing to remember any day, any week, any month phasing out, falling down under blur 

Feels like it's implanted in my head so to speak pacing round and round in circles while I'm eaten by the birds 


Buried off the backroads 

Overexposed 

What's the color of my hex code? 

What's the color of my hex code? 


I wish I was a frog 

I don't wanna care about you 


I'd rather be a fairy than an alien 

Winged like an avian, glowing like a gradient 

Ditch another alias and find a new ingredient 

Lilith full of lithium and seroquel just let her in 

And it works like clockwork 

Sew together patchwork 

Pulling teeth from the sleepers 

I promise it could always get worse 

Can you tell me when it's over? 

Can you tell me when it's over?

Frogs (feat. Murrumur)

LIL UGLY MANE - VPN

wash my hair
drown my face
winter comes with no disgrace
and my only hope is that i wake
my only hope is that i wake alone
now im gone, i dont know
when winter comes
so i get up late and wash my face
summer comes with no disgrace
and my only hope is that i live
my only hope is that i live again
with my friends, ill never end
i wont decay, ill live my way

sun doesn't shine nearly half as bright
and i wake in the morning every night
and my dreams aren't the same as i describe

sun doesn't shine nearly half as bright
and i wake in the morning every night
and my dreams aren't the same as i describe

barely barely, so what's the point of living
do you still love me deeply? then what's the point of dying
if you're just gonna save me, you know I love you baby
you know I love you baby and nothing can take that from you

wash my hair
drown my face
winter comes with no disgrace
and my only hope is that i wake
my only hope is that i wake alone
now im gone, i dont know
when winter comes
so i get up late and wash my face
summer comes with no disgrace
and my only hope is that i live
my only hope is that i live again
with my friends, ill never end
i wont decay, ill live my way

im not allowed to be talking right now
since you've been out ive been down, and that's been bothering me
you've been the best type of friends i could ever have
and these words don't make much sense 
but that's been bothering me

am i alive or is this a delusion of the mind?
it's so hard to find sometimes, its so hard to think sometimes

safe piano

Fly to night, tonight (feat. Hatsune Miku) · Camellia

Fly to night, tonight

℗ 2014 かめりあ / CFM inc. / CFM inc.

Released on: 2014-07-09

Fly to night, tonight (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Produced by me

Intro Sample: DJ Paul & Juicy J Ft. Kingpin Skinny Pimp - Everything Is Business (1993)

Dollhaven 2024, nothing else, nothing less

lyrics:
I'll take a stand for once,
Grit my teeth while I'm holding my tongue.
Feelings out of place,
New clique for another day.
Say I'm special, don't lie to me,
Look me up, there's so many just like me.
I've been trying to make you like me,
But you're looking just like me.

Stand down, hold it down,
Grit my teeth, I'll keep holding my frown.
It's a cold place,
Go away, look at me, I'll look the other way.

Let me down, let you drown,
Hold onto me, there's a hole in the ground.
I'm gonna stay in place,
In the same place.

Take a stand for once,
What am I feeling, I'll just hold my tongue.
Gonna stay in place, new clique for another day.
Say I'm special, don't like me,
You say I'm special, don't like me.
I'll kill them all, kill them all,
Likely, there's so many people,
It's so unlikely.

hold my tongue

angel hospital (sewing up their skin)

I know you're frustrated
And you know i can't take this
Live prey just fated
Torn apart at the skin

Will it resonate
And reflect in your head when my voice starts to break
Watch me suffocate
Never mind what I said, just prepare to amputate it
Dug a shallow grave for the sleepwalker that you sent to sea
Slip and score their clay
They were always awake, you don't know anything, no
We kissed with an absent face
Deep water I'm disengaged
Every day's the same
Fuck your help I don't care you're well meaning
I'll blindly wait
While the bluest flames set my church ablaze
You'll have to carry that weight
Sedatives aside all your words are serrated

And i know you're frustrated
And you know i can't take this
Live prey just fated
Torn apart at the skin

Did I always mean just to end up this way
Just to be a machine
While my wires bleed
Prostrate to God, yeah I know I'm unclean
Never heard you sing
Your cadence is warm but my ears fell deaf
And you'll hold your breath
Secrets you'll compress to yourself to the end

lamb

prod. vcl1

so, who is the new 
and improved distraction
you ruin every piece of 
heart in your refraction

because you're bored
and i'm sick of your inaction
you know it's bad when 
i dread every interaction

there is nothing left for us
maybe i just said too much
you know i don't feel enough
maybe you were too in love
maybe love's just not for us
oxidize and turn to rust
you don't care
so return to dust
you fall for me twice
and lied for once

(without me, without me)
(nothing left, without me)
(without me, without me)

so, who is the one
who stole a kiss
from under me
because when i'm 
done with that boy 
he'll be an amputee
and it's a sign that
if you go without me...
(without me)

there is nothing left for us
maybe i just said too much
you know i don't feel enough
maybe you were too in love
maybe love's just not for us
oxidize and turn to rust
you don't care
so return to dust
you fall for me twice
and lied for once

nothing left

@bpiv @murrumur
art by murrumur

you laid in bed, i cut my hair
i held you like a cross and kept you as a prayer
i traced your palms, you're sleeping fast
that we'd abscond to somewhere as if gentle smiles last

i cut your hair behind the curtains
vivid segments of your circuits
digitizing my intentions
dead ends haunt the emulation
never makes a single difference
softest skin and hits of acid
vivisected renovation
caught your eyes behind the curtains
open them and let some light in
you're translucent, dissipating
open up and let some life in
open up and let some life in
open up and let some life in
open up and let some life in
open up and let some life in

i'm in your dreams
you're never in my dreams
in wonder why that is
i'm in your dreams
but my presence is decreasing you'll see
i'm made of bleach and false promises
your visions must be so sweet
when you expend your time to simulated me
i'm incomplete, nothing compared to simulated me
but i can burn, i'm forced to breathe
i guess i yearn, i guess i bleed, that's the difference
i'm alive yet i'm deceased
that's how we're not so different

murrumur - rest invert (bp iv)

(prod. vgf x vocal1)
mv https://youtu.be/R2EHox4v_l4

lyrics

when im reloading the clip
maybe you could take a hint
you just wanna take my money
and you'll run away with him

legal chemical equipped
you can feel it fucking drip
you think you could be a poet?
maybe you should write a hymn

you were one long blip
maybe you could take a hint
girl you're cuter than a bunny
but like, too in love with him

legal chemical equipped
you can hear it by the drip
he said he wrote you a poem
maybe you should ride with him

nothing left

vocal1

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