A few tracks that let me release some depressing thoughts I've had stuck in my brain. These last 2 years have been rough but I'm trying my best. Thank you for listening. <3

Existing

Producer: P4RA x 5head
Mastering by bvsementt
Art by bvsementt

Lyrics:

what did you say
what did you mean
nothing without you feels complete
lost on my own
lost out at sea
floating away, floating away x4

fuck you
for making me love you
you left me hangin
and crying in my room x2

what did you say
what did you mean
nothing without you feels complete
lost on my own
lost out at sea
floating away, floating away x4

nothing to prove
hung up on you
what did you say
what did you say
alone again
until my grave
floating away 
floating away

Drift Away II (prod. by P4RA x 5head)

Mastered by bvsementt
Produced by @sorrow_bringer

Off of the "Existing EP"

Made To Suffer

Lyrics:

lately ive been feeling different kind of fuckin ways
like i dont really wanna say the awful things thats in my brain
cause i dont really trust a fuckin soul
they only want their fuckin notes
just so they can stab me in the back 
its real repeatable 

and i dont really wanna do it
i dont really wanna live a life thats only clueless
cause i dont really care about the things that ive been doin
but i just had to write this fucking song to show you how im doin

you said , im all i need (all i need)
but you are , my only thing (my only thing)
i cannot live without you here
but i'd like to make it clear
im holding on, im holding on

once upon a time i remember when i was happy
i didnt need the drugs, i didnt need to relapse see
but that was long ago, and time it cannot go back see
but your love it will be cherished, no matter where im at b

now i wrote this song for you

just to show you how im doin

(just to show you how im doing)

you said , im all i need (all i need)
but you are , my only thing (my only thing)
i cannot live without you here
but i'd like to make it clear
im holding on, im holding on

Holding On (prod. by Sorrow Bringer)

Producer: @sorrow_bringer
Mixed/Mastered: bvsementt
Art: bvsementt

Lyrics: 
sick of living life, been stuck inside this awful cell
sneakin thoughts inside, in case they ask me if im well
have to go outside so i don't fucking kill myself
nothing left to rot, the sunlight did it all itself

most of me is fuckin numb i cant control it
coke and weed inside of me, im feelin sober
crash the whip into a stream, its finally over
7 dreams, and 7 needs, thats 7 broken

inside 
i am afraid (am afraid)
but outside
i mask the pain (masked the pain)

i want to feel alive
everything hurts inside
want to feel alive
i dont think i will survive

sick of just living this life and im sick of just feeling like i wanna bail
whats gonna stop me from pickin shit up, and then leavin with no one to tell
trapped by the darkness, and loved by the heartless, i feel like im livin in hell
nothing can save me, im already crazy but baby im wishin you well

out of control and they already know it
i dont want to show it, but i have it posted
a poem with feelings the feelings of death
im screaming in anger, i feel nothing left
youll see what i mean, when i show what i speak
a vision of terror, the vision of me 
buried beneath all the things that i beat
im sorry, im sorry, im finally free

i want to feel alive
everything hurts inside
want to feel alive
i dont think i will survive
want to feel alive
but i think it is my time

Existing

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