ChillSad

Some dreams aren't real
No matter how much you feel
You've got to let him go
You know you'll never know

There will never be another
There's no chance to recover
He's always in your head
You're as good as dead

Remember when you thought
dreams could come true
Never trust anyone
He never even loved you

Never Loved You

@velvetqueen @teenpregnancy

sample: head in the ceiling by Title Fight 

lyrics: 

(scum)
I feel like i'm sinking deeper into the sea
you stare from afar so tell me what you see
when you're looking at me 
i'm only special in your eyes
thank you a lot but you don't see the other side
you don't know the real me
the real me 

(velvetears)
Believe me
When you're sleeping
I see you dreaming
While I'm in my head fuckin screaming
And I want you to know me
I wanna show you things 
That no ones ever known bout me
There's a lot I'm hiding 
But you're the one that I wanna confide in


in your eyes w/ VELVETEARS (prod. T e e n p r e g n a n c y .)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/oilcolor

[lyrics]
I can’t fucking think of any words to say
& I can’t fucking think of any reason I should stay

Can you give one to me
Before I up and leave
Can you make me believe
This wasn’t for nothing

You took whatever you could find
You didn’t even look behind
Keep saying sorry, fuck your lies
I see evil in your perfect eyes

So tell me,

Was I everything you dreamed of 
When you dreamed that I was the one
Was it all worth it, you fucking nightmare
Now that you realize I’m really gone 

Was I everything you dreamed of 
When you dreamed of fallen in love
I don’t deserve this, you fucking nightmare
I hope it kills you to know I’m the one 

Now that you realize I’m really gone 

I hope you fucking die alone

I wanna die alone

Was I everything you dreamed of
When you dreamed that I was the one
Was it all worth it, you fucking nightmare
Now that you realize the one is gone 

I hope you die alone

I hope you cry to this song
I hope you cry to this song…

Cry To This (prod. oilcolor)

<3 prod. https://soundcloud.com/vector_kid
fan art by https://twitter.com/kleocchi

[lyrics]
Yeah I’m feeling good but what does that even mean
I’m still scared I know that death is waiting for me
I don’t feel prepared, I got family praying for me
Cause it’s been too long that I’ve been on the brink of insanity
I cannot see
The person in the mirror has never been me

But my blood turns the dust into roses
My blood turns the dust into roses

I’m chasing all these dreams they run from me
& I can’t keep up but I’m fucking trying
I feel like all I’ve ever had is me
& I feel like I still don’t fuckin know me

Dust to Roses (prod. vector_kid)

**Official Music Video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u09M92nyve4&feature=push-u-sub&attr_tag=E8nlLBMIusEJoXfW-6

prod: @greaf

SCREAMING INSIDE (prod. greaf)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/oilcolor

[lyrics]

I wanna go back
Back to the old me
But she doesn't exist 
She already told me

I wanna go back
To when I was just a kid
On city buses in the back
With every reason to live

I wanna go back
Back to when I cared
Back to when I could stare in the mirror
Without crying

I just wanna go back
Back to when little things meant so much more
Back when my daddy would run through the door
Back to when I didn't hate so much that I can't sleep anymore

I wanna go back
Chasing ice cream trucks with my sister
Aint been in touch since I fucked up, damn I miss her

I wanna go back

I Wanna Go Back (prod. oilcolor)

@lilhappylilsad @teenpregnancy

lil happy lil sad:

imma break down soon
in the same old room
that i always do
i feel so alone 

make some beats and smoke
pray i make it soon
pray they buy my shit
cause im so damn broke

girl im so damn cold
i might freeze to death
rollin up some dope
smoking trees for stress

fuck the life i had
i dont want it back
fuck the friends i had
they just made me sad

now its me and her
bout to fuck the world
we dont need no help
we came up from dirt

i still hate myself
thats a side of me
wanna kill myself
and ive tried im weak

mom would drive me in
everytime i did
i would ask to leave
and theyd give me pills

that shit on repeat
every other week
they would numb me down
till i couldnt speak

teen pregnancy:

lay me down
i dont wanna die
i cant sleep alone
need u here tonight

you were everything
you were my god damn life
now its all fucked up
and i wont sleep tonight

i was snorting pills
you were up all night
i swear i couldnt feel
i was so damn high

liquor in my blood
you were all i want
i gave you everything
i feel so unloved

you finally got exactly what you want
you were off getting fucked and i was so fucked up
fuck the wedding ring fuck this life i lead
got me feeling numb doing bumps off keys

i dont wanna live
tried to kill myself
girl ill numb you too
take your life as well

i wanna watch you bleed
she gets numb for me
lets kill ourselves
so i can sleep

lil numb w/ Teen Pregnancy (prod. lilhappylilsad)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/ginsengxx
mix/mast. https://soundcloud.com/youngburial
art by https://www.instagram.com/collabcarts/

[lyrics]
Sometimes I crave the dirt
Sometimes I wanna feel low
Sometimes I crave the hurt
Sometimes I wanna let go

Cause on sunny days 
All I see is the rain 
I know that this warmth cannot last
And these doctors wanna put a name 
To my feelings, to my brain
Before they’ve ever lived my past 

What are you asking 
If you’re not asking yourself
What am I doing right now
Who am I doing it for 
Do you wake up happy 
Or do you wake up wondering 
Who’s pulling strings on all your moves 
Cause they just don't feel like you

Seems like the whole worlds been programmed against me
I’m feeling so empty 
I’m thinking these drinks can fill me up and I’m wrong again 
Singing these songs again
Lost in my mind 
The end is near I can feel it 
I believe in delirious thoughts being the clearest
I know you're hurting too 
Can we just accept the truth
That we're not here for any good reason
Just remind me to breathe in
I'll remind you to breathe in

What are you asking 
If you’re not asking yourself
What am I doing right now
Who am I doing it for 
Do you wake up happy 
Or do you wake up wondering 
Who’s pulling strings on all your moves 
Cause they just don't feel like you

Crave The Dirt (prod. gin$eng)

prod. @blacklunged

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
not goin out like i dont make anymore plans
sitting in my room, staring at the ceiling fan
wait, whos your mans?
guess i forgot to ask that
you haunt my dreams, i can see you in my flashbacks
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

im unnatentive to these bitches like i go to class
reach for the holster, load it up, and then i cock back
up to my dome, running frantic like my last lap
fill the spaces with distractions
cuz you know im bouta snap
like the led on my pencil when i try and write
i smoke a blunt, then im sleepin for the whole night
i didnt answer cuz im busy talkin to the knife
throwin shade like we forgot about the sun light
sometimes its hard to fight back
wake up around noon
stuck in bed while i smoke the sack
black fingernails creeping down to your body
always fucking up like its way more than a hobby
fiendin for some love, so ill take what i can get
nothings ev-er enough, death would be the safest bet
got ashes on my clothes cuz everything about me’s gross
you said i always did the least but bitch i always do the most

people fade away like ghosts, i guess its for the better
loving at what cost? feel closer with the reaper
when i see her its like all time stops
cuz im asleep while the fucking rain drops

smoking packs while im alone
i write these songs and hate myself
this alcohol straight to my dome
and i dont pace myself
fuck a chaser
all i chase are these illusions 
happiness, a fallacy
ive come to the conclusion

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

Follow me <3

while the rain drops (prod. blacklunged)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/oilcolor

[lyrics]
I'll meet you on the roof we met on
The same one that we never leapt from
The same one with that ledge we slept on
Snorting dust til the sun crept up 

I'll meet you in our bedroom 
Overlooking grass we tripped on every day 
With that old drawer where we kept our secrets tucked away
I keep reaching for my phone to tell you all about my day
I can't wrap my heart around the words that you will never say 

You made me promise 
That I wouldn't die without you
You made me promise 
That I wouldn't cry about you

You told me I should sing instead of cry
I made my first song that fuckin night 
You loved the parts of me everyone else hates 
You told me those were the parts that made me me 

And you made me promise 
That I wouldn't die without you
You made me promise 
That I wouldn't cry about you

But where is your promise
Why did you cry about me
Where is your promise
Why did you die without me

You Promised Me (prod. Oilcolor)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/taylor

[lyrics]
I been doing better babe believe me
Take my hand and say you’ll never leave me
Open your eyes I want you to see me
When we love each other there’s a meaning 

Turn the lights down
Baby lay down
Let’s talk about
When we were younger
Reasons I’ve found
In bottles I’ve downed
Fuck it was easier 
When we were younger
When we were younger
When we were younger
When we were younger

I been doing better babe believe me
Take my hand and say you’ll never leave me
Open your eyes I want you to see me
When we love each other there’s a meaning 

When we love each other there’s a meaning I’ve found
That I’ve searched for for years digging through solid ground 
I used to dream of suicide and the day I would end this 
Before you came along I didn’t know I’d get through this
I used to crush up pills my nose was bloody with stress
But baby now you make my demons talk to me less
What can I say 
You make the pain go away 

Turn the lights down
Baby lay down
Lets talk about
When we were younger
Reasons I’ve found
In bottles I’ve downed
Fuck it was easier 
When we were younger
When we were younger
When we were younger
When we were younger

When We Were Younger (prod. taylor morgan)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ynw3ixqOPz4&t=13s

prod. https://soundcloud.com/wtchcrft2

[lyrics]
I think I just flexed up off my sadness like I knew I would  
My hearts broke so all I care about is if my money’s good
Don’t got time for feelings cause I don’t be feeling ways I should
All year long it’s bank account full poppin champagne kinda mood

I got fuckin good friends standing by my side
We don’t fuck w pills no more just bump Gab3 in the ride
We makin money but everything we do legal now
I just called my mama up and told her this year she’ll be proud

I think I just flexed up off my sadness like I knew I would  
My hearts broke so all I care about is if my money’s good
Don’t got time for feelings cause I don’t be feeling ways I should
All year long it’s bank account full poppin champagne kinda mood

Flexed Up (prod. Wtchcrft)[video in bio]

an angels smiles what you sell
drag me slowly down to hell
misery is all i see
i can feel you here with me
cross my heart and hope you die
repeat the phrase until its time
born into this world to rot
all things come to be loved and lost

i wont be what you want me to be
feels like everyone just wants something from me

is it true what they say
just like night turns to day
you wake up to the sound
of your kids at your grave

say goodbye
say goodnight
make sure you sleep tight
knowing well this the last time youll see the sunlight

i did it all for you
i did this all for you

cross my heart n hope u die </3

sample- roaring tides (clannad)
prod. by @visions718

UNIVERSITY OF DEATH NEXT

lyrics

remember when you liked me
I remember highschool
Now I think you hate me
but one day it was all cool
You was such a real one
sad to see you leave me
I was startin to feel sumn
baby girl believe me
Now you wonder why I don't pick up the phone
you've broken way too many hearts to know
That this takes time
and lately I've been feeling strange inside

I feel emotion, when i'm smokin
makes me wanna relive all the moments
You should know this, girl you should know this
it's a party girl I need someone to go with
it's been too long since you came through
i'm just chillin here smokin I got nothing to do
Just come to our spot you know I ain't judging you
you forgive me and then I forgive you

The pieces are all there
so how do you still think I don't care
This isn't a problem we should bear
and at this rate we won't get anywhere
I can get much better at this I swear
but you're not the type of girl I'd share
I need you to myself let me stroke your hair
or if it's over i'll dissolve into thin air

You Promised Me (prod. Oilcolor)

VELVETEARS

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