Lyrics:

I won’t fall
Willingly drown
I don’t want
To miss you now

I don’t want to miss you
And I don’t wanna speak again
You can’t just end it, walk out
And then begin to pretend
That everything is fine
Or that we’re just friends
You left me for another guy,
That’s it, the story ends
So I might start it up
Say I’ve had enough
Of this of that of everything
And go out and blow up
Maybe I’ll be motivated
To show you what you lost
I gave you my life
And you took it and tossed
All my affection away
Fell out of the fray
We could have fixed it
Just tell me what I did okay
But no, we were wrong
Yeah, I’ve listened to that song
On effing repeat for ages
Like the sound of a gong
Every time you laughed
There were two times I shed tears
But I never mentioned that
To any friends or peers
So to come out about that now
Shows that I’m facing my fears
I loved you so much
What a waste of two years

I won’t fall
Willingly drown

I’m not scared of a relationship,
I just stopped thinking love is real
Heartbroken so many goddamn times
I’ll never be able to heal
But honestly, don’t wanna
I’d rather learn from my mistakes
I loved you with my everything
And you played a bunch of games
Played with my feelings, my mind
And a bunch of other things
Stop playing with my heart
And pulling on its strings
Make a goddamn decision
Do you really want me?

I won’t fall
Willingly drown

Cause I won’t settle for friends,
Then I’ll never move on
I can’t forget times in the car
Or when you were in my arms
God I just wanna hold you
We never got much time
You were always so busy
And you didn’t love me enough to make
Time for me, but you made some for your friends
And to think it was over, I guess the bs never ends
I don’t wanna miss you
But I don’t wanna forget
Please come back to me
I promise we can start again

I won’t fall
Willingly drown

i wrote these love songs for you, then you left

idontwannamissyou.

*thank you to @lxstboymusic for adding a verse to this song! make sure to check out his music

lyrics -‌ ‌written‌ ‌by‌ ‌@backyardbeetle and @lxstboymusic
produced‌ ‌by -‌ @jxsiebeats
follow jxsie beats on youtube - https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCsiFvGaBzTTkQYPLEa4Kp3A

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lyrics:
[backyard beetle]
get your head in the game before you fall 
i dont know you 
i dont know you at all
running past all the flames of the meteors
yeah are we safe
yeah im not sure 

are we safe yeah 
im not sure 
just take me 
by my word
i wont let anything happen to you 
oh no
i wouldn't lie to you 
oh no

[lxst boy]
im here to catch you whenever you fall
protecting your castle, defending your walls
the truth is ugly, but you gotta trust me
we'll make it through and cure the concussion
uh, i wanna run for you, give you my all
if you need a friend, know that im here to talk
im all in, need to know if youre not
im getting sick of always feeling nauseous

words in my throat, try to speak
feel the rain coming but im really feeling weak
sit at my desk and record with no sleep
i just wanna know that youre safe in the sheets

(cant hear my conscience
how do i stop this?
i am just talking
i am just talking
how do i stop this?
cant hear my conscience
always feeling nauseous)

[backyard beetle]
get your head in the game before you fall 
i dont know you 
i dont know you at all
running past all the flames of the meteors
yeah are we safe
yeah im not sure 

are we safe yeah 
im not sure 
just take me 
by my word
i wont let anything happen to you 
oh no
i wouldn't lie to you 
oh no

backyard beetle and lxst boy - 2021

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backyard beetle - before you fall w/ lxst boy (prod. jxsie beats)

Lyrics:

- handwritten letters -
'Member when we'd run through those fields, and
Had broken hearts but they healed? I,
Thought it would last forever, but,
I guess that we're not together, so,
I'll carry on and pretend that
What we had never ended.
I know that all of it's fake, but,
Thoughts of you, I always hate.

Seeing all these flashbacks,
I just want the past back.
But if I can't find it,
I'll have to pack my knapsack.
Ay, tryna hit the road,
I've got so far to go.
I know it's been two months
Since the last time we spoke.
I know that when I left,
I left things in a mess.
Try to wash out the stains,
That I can't forget.
Thought this would be better
With us not together.
Now I see I was wrong,
So lets fight this weather.

(Yeah,)
(Yeah-ah.)
(Ay, so let's fight this weather)
(Yeah,)
(Ay, eh.)
(Now we're together)

- Lxst Boy -
yeah, tryna fight this weather
but you kept all of my sweatshirts
getting rained on,
clouds getting heavy never better
said to myself that I'd forget her
but I'm handwriting these letters
you will never read
I wish we were still together
you're one I won't forget
counting down until sunset
and I'll never get a rest
you were my only friend
stuck in these flashbacks
just want the past back
I wanna talk
without getting laughed at
don't wanna try
cuz you'll just attack back
I wanna run away
packing my backpack

- handwritten letters -
Seeing all these flashbacks,
I just want the past back.
But if I can't find it,
I'll have to pack my knapsack.
Ay, tryna hit the road,
I've got so far to go.
I know it's been two months
Since the last time we spoke.
I know that when I left,
I left things in a mess.
Try to wash out the stains,
That I can't forget.
Thought this would be better
With us not together.
Now I see I was wrong,
So lets fight this weather.

flashbacks (feat. Lxst Boy) [prod. jxsie beats]

*thank you to @lxstboymusic for adding a verse to this song! make sure to check out his music

lyrics -‌ ‌written‌ ‌by‌ ‌@backyardbeetle and @lxstboymusic
produced‌ ‌by -‌ @jxsiebeats
follow jxsie beats on youtube - www.youtube.com/channel/UCsiFvGaBzTTkQYPLEa4Kp3A

follow me:
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bandlab - www.bandlab.com/backyardbeetle
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lyrics:
i can feel the bones in my chest 
crumble under the weight
when i say that i got no stress 
you can see me lying through my face
yeah i got this in the bag but i dont though
putting all my feelings all up in my songs bro
i dont even got a check i dont need one though 
all you people are crazy oh

yeah its cold
i dont even know
i cant even feel like the snot in my nose
trippin through this path like you dont even know 
i aint been the same snice i been through the snow
yeah you wanna go back in time 
you cannot fix that 
yeah you know that i will never change 
i know you hate that

[lxst boy]
i know you hate when i get sad
locked in my room, write these tracks
i'll never feel the same
pressured, crushed under this weight

yeah
weight is getting heavy
overflowing and i'm sinking
gotta build myself a levy
to hold the tears back
and my fears back
and im miserable
and i feel that
i'll never feel ok
and i will never change, uh

i can feel the bones in my chest 
crumble under the weight
when i say that i got no stress 
you can see me lying through my face
yeah i got this in the bag but i dont though
putting all my feelings all up in my songs bro
i dont even got a check i dont need one though 
all you people are crazy oh

i can feel the bones in my chest 
crumble under the weight
when i say that i got no stress 
you can see me lying through my face
yeah i got this in the bag but i dont though
putting all my feelings all up in my songs bro
i dont even got a check i dont need one though 
all you people are crazy oh

- backyard beetle and lxst boy 2021

backyard beetle - stress w/ lxst boy (prod. jxsie beats)

Lyrics:

(Hey pretty girl
I'm calling to let you know
That I'll be staring at the skies tonight
With you)

Well now really when we go back into falling in love
And say, “it's crazy”
Falling, you see?
We don't say "rising into love"
There is in it, the idea of “the fall”
And it is goes back as a matter of fact
To extremely fundamental things
That there is always a curious tie at some point
Between the fall, and the creation.

I’m sorry, but it’s about that time where I let you know
I can’t keep going on living with this pain, need to let it go
Which I hate that I have to say this, but it’s getting to where I know
That if I don’t deal with all of this now, I won’t ever let you go
I’ll stay jealous of the people that you group yourself around
Knowing that in the noise of your life I will never make a sound
So I'll focus on the good, I’ve got an album and a date 
And a dance that’s coming up, and I’m not afraid of hate
When it comes to all my music or every word I ever wrote
I know that I’m the safety for someone who’s in the same boat
As me, who feel all the same feelings I conceal
The words that I write down on pages knowing damn well I’ll never heal
From all the stress or all the pain, all the anxiety in my brain
The depression I maintain because I always try to refrain
From breaking down, scream out loud, contain yourself, my man
I’m scared right now, I’m lost, not found, now, why do I feel so damned?

I’m calling to let you know
That I gave up on you so long ago..
And it breaks my heart (x2)

Break it, and break it, every word you say just breaks me down
It used to kill me that you weren't mine, now I never want you around
I’m beginning to realize all the lies you threw in my face
And placed in my way so that way I’d never win the race
You say you’re sorry you’re the toxic one, I already had known
Was that supposed to bring consolation, so I could let my phone
Finally rest upon the bed where I never place my head?
Cause both you and God know that only nightmares plague my head instead
Of dreams that will unfold, of the life I wish I could have had
But you left so I gave up on them, and forget it now I’m glad
To finally have you away, forget when we’d spend all day
I’ll remember nothing but the bad so I have content to drop today
Finish up some final songs and I'll finalize all of my drafts
So you can take all those apologies and shove them up your ass
I don’t wanna the one to tell you but I’m done looking above
I gave up on you, all that’s left is to say goodbye, love

Taking this ghastly risk is the condition of there being life
But this is the most powerful thing that can be done, surrender
See, and love is an act of surrender to another person
Total abandonment
I give myself to you..

igaveuponyou.

It’s a love song and how in you’re head they’re yours. Then you come to the realization that they aren’t yours so, you list reason why you’re better then who they really chose.

It wasn’t real

not ur friend (feat. kobayami) [prod. heydium]

lyrics -‌ ‌written‌ ‌by‌ ‌@backyardbeetle
produced‌ ‌by -‌ @jxsiebeats
follow jxsie beats on youtube - www.youtube.com/channel/UCsiFvGaBzTTkQYPLEa4Kp3A

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lyrics:
these people talking crazy i dont even want to fight
ive been on this road like every single night man im tired
im about to burn my pride and just pass me the lighter

i dont even know if you are a fighter 
can you take a hit like me your a crier
i dont even know if you are a fighter 
can you take a hit like me your a crier

i got no time for like any of you people anymore
dont need the negativity you see i pushed it out that door
i dont even know like what you waiting for
just take the chance cause you only get one life 
only get one life
you only get one life
you only get one life
you only get one life

- backyard beetle 2022

idontwannamissyou.

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