this was made 6 months ago 

//
I'm gonna drown myself this summer
It'll be fun when they find out
At least I know if I die, then I won't ever need your help

Why do you hate me? I can't tell
I'll see you in hell
I'll figure it out, I'll figure it out
I'll figure it out

I notice shit about some people that I keep for myself
And I'm repetitive, my patterns always repeat themselves
But, I still find myself surprised when someone figures me out
I'm in the bottom, they don't know it, I can't say I need help (Your help)

Do you hate me? I can't tell
I'll see you in hell, yeah (Fuck)
We'll figure it out, we'll figure it out
We'll figure it out

When I get sad, I get so upset
I wish that I could leave shit in the past
When I get mad, I get too mad
It's really easy to make me depressed
I can't believe that I felt like the best
I just found out that I'm just like the rest
You say you love me, I gave you a test
Bitch, you can't love me because I'm a mess
Because I'm a mess
'Cause I'm a mess
Because I'm a mess, because I'm a mess
Because I'm a mess

twikipedia mess cover

STOP LISTENING TO THIS PLEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASE

akira reference
prod. me

lyrics:
yeah my money long
my bih knows
stacking up my bread yeah criminal
i cant break bread
with no fake friends
broke that girl's heart yeah make ammends
smoking loudpack
dont know where im at
think im finna log out like its vr chat
you'll say anything just to make me mad
had to let her go but it doesnt make me sad

he talking all that shit like a boomer
tryna 1v1 me bitch ill stomp you like a goomba
talking all that shit like u normal
bitch that shit is outdated i think its fucking boring
i think that its boring
that shit doesnt matter anymore im going bowling
call of duty montage, bitch im no-scoping
clothes like blotnik bitch im fucking coppin'
running to the bank gon be screaming like

yeah my money long
my bih knows
stacking up my bread yeah criminal
i cant break bread
with no fake friends
broke that girl's heart yeah make ammends
smoking loudpack
dont know where im at
think im finna log out like its vr chat
you'll say anything just to make me mad
had to let her go but it doesnt make me sad

money long 💸

sample is 'a fallen angel' by shinigami

lyrics:
break my teeth chewing oxy
lose my temper, break the proxy
never knew the world was this toxic
now i know, they all wanna dox me

i dont know the reason they hate me
i just wanna make my songs so theyll love me
drive my lungs insane with a hookah (jk)
i know they all wanna blind me yeah
and its so fucking hard
to live my life this way
when they all break my heart
i dont think im okay

its so fucking dumb, i dont like you at all
they all just think im dumb, put myself in the wrong
they all just want me gone
they're all pretty stupid, oh nono thats bad am i just a cupid?
i dont live for that shit

shinigami

prod. sardonyx
this took 10 years off my lifespan
amv: https://youtu.be/ewJMGdfpflg?si=IGp5sSW1e4qb4TYa :)

⭐ SPOTIFY LINK ⭐ https://open.spotify.com/album/3455YK6g1BNYPdJtSScvzT?si=8n5fAl8xRKWVcF1j8EwEtg

lyrics!!!!!!!
//
i wanna share this feeling with u
nowadays everybody got their hearts out, mines out for you
and i swear that its the last time id upset u
cannot get enough
bb we live in a lovely story
wishin i was someone better
i just heard a sound could u hide inside my sweater?
got u plushies from the arcade
wait ur leaving way too soon just stay

in this world where our hearts r locked
got u flowers when i see u after so long
hold my hand ill bring u along
hoping that dis shit will last forever
since were so far away ill write letters its alright
i might not be the best but atleast i give it all my lyfe

my lifes sweet as honey
yeah, and i swear that its as sweet as her
as long as im wit u i cant die!!
sumtimes im not made for this but i always try
flowers in my way, i can never look back at those days
when i rlly hurt u im so dum
swear that ill be better, put it on my mom

stay 🍭 (⭐ON SPOTIFY⭐)

prod. sardonyx
sped up version for those sugarheads
amv: https://youtu.be/ewJMGdfpflg?si=IGp5sSW1e4qb4TYa :)

⭐ SPOTIFY LINK ⭐ https://open.spotify.com/album/3455YK6g1BNYPdJtSScvzT?si=8n5fAl8xRKWVcF1j8EwEtg

lyrics!!!!!!!
//
i wanna share this feeling with u
nowadays everybody got their hearts out, mines out for you
and i swear that its the last time id upset u
cannot get enough
bb we live in a lovely story
wishin i was someone better
i just heard a sound could u hide inside my sweater?
got u plushies from the arcade
wait ur leaving way too soon just stay

in this world where our hearts r locked
got u flowers when i see u after so long
hold my hand ill bring u along
hoping that dis shit will last forever
since were so far away ill write letters its alright
i might not be the best but atleast i give it all my lyfe

my lifes sweet as honey
yeah, and i swear that its as sweet as her
as long as im wit u i cant die!!
sumtimes im not made for this but i always try
flowers in my way, i can never look back at those days
when i rlly hurt u im so dum
swear that ill be better, put it on my mom

stay?! 🍭 (⭐ON SPOTIFY⭐)

prod. percnt
disstrack on pedos and stupid ppl

//
yeah, do my best its not enough
shoutout oxygen gang when they brought me up
fuck lolicons, join lolicops
if her ages on the clock then you better get tf out
i, sometimes feel that im worthless
rewind to august when shit was fucked up
dont need no bitches, need self respect
she took it the wrong way im not her aspect

w-well fuck that shit ive been better since september
shes the only person that i barely even remember
g-gold chains on my wrist yeah
i just hit a lick, sold a brick got a feature
bitch couldnt find love had to hit a 60

ure wasting ur parents time
learn to respect it aint even that hard
t-trust issues might aswell lock out my heart
always better since the day that i died
i might just do it again cause this world just sucks

aspect 🔄

prod. kuriyai
hooray :D

lyrics
//
my heartbeat stops whenever ure around
if you talk to me, i wont let you down
give me some attention and ill want more
and i know that i messed up when i hurt you
when pulling turns to pushing ima let it blast
would you hold my hand ima let it last
when its snowing baby let me hold you
drop a text when ure sleeping cause i miss u

stepped inside this room, i didnt see you
b-baby you know how i feel im too see-through
always so pretty walking around the city
y-yeah, yeah i did it for somebody
hold up let me pause you got stories
these days feel different like a fairy tale
yeah, when the lights out ill still send u mails

w-whatll i do, i dont know
one, two, three, make it big then ill let you know
b-bring you roses at the door
four, five, six, and you know i wont let you go
and i sensed it all, to get you
i never had a thought about the bad things
all my worries just wash down the river
never ever get enough, ill deliver

yeaaaah all my problems down the river
hold my hand ill bring u around the world
dont care what they say, i wanna love u
yeah, yeah i did it for somebody
hold up let me pause you got stories
these days feel different like a fairy tale
yeah, when the lights out ill still send u mails

river 💜

prod. etomi (me)
s/o https://soundcloud.com/xannndera
absolutely carried me lol

@vexieee
i stayed by myself you can never let me down
throw my wishes in the wishing well i cannot hear a sound
and i know, its something you can blame me for
my heart is as cold as winter yeah u know ill let it snow
yeah my money long
but i really hate this song
i dont know
tell that boy he way too slow
on my own
i cant do this shit all alone
im a lost soul
feels good to be home

@xandera
didnt mean to hurt u like that
my head is foggy, cant get enough
my heart is frozen, cant get shit right
cant control that, i dont wanna hurt u like that

dont hit up my phone
i wanna be alone
laying in my bed
girl i cannot make a call
i was thinking that u love me
i dont need u no
no more!
baby i dont wanna take it all

@vexieee
i dont wanna talk, i just wanna be alone
left me so much pain i can feel it to the bone
but i let go
never felt like myself in the get-go
ive been playing myself i can never let it go
memories are lost
now your heart has been locked
to this day i still hate you
you make me feel blue
whats the point of trying
when the outcome is crying
i swear its the last time
that id choose to love you

Wishing Well +Xandera

prod. etomi (me)

is it something i cant tell?
eyes red i cant even yell
i just lost it, oh my god
sniper scope right on the dot
i cant think straight im insane
bad bitch, get out of my way
i dont wanna talk, so long
and ill scream until im gone

fuck
this shit never lasting
fake friends down but im still standing
ive been better on my own
but still i hate being alone

stab me, twist it i dont care
why the fuck is this world unfair
too many promises i swear
but still my messages go left
im counting up the stars i missed
do you ever feel like shit?
i have no meaning to exist
im better off on my own

Gone

prod. laser gun
we never built that spongebob house 💀

ive been on the road, its the last time
b-b-back in my old days when i was in my prime
how it do? i dont know
1 2 3 and im hosting a show
all my friends disappeared
ive been better on my own, do you feel the same way?
im crying can you see my tears?
i can stay on my own
no longer
fucking leave myself alone

i said i hated you ill say it again
life or death this is not a game
baby hold my hand, walk into the fairy land
fucked up now i gotta start again
hold my soul, burn it to the ground
i aint flexing i just wanna chill
i wont let u down
in the underground im counting shit that i fucked up
leave em in the past

Etomi Freestyle

prod. kuriyai
original by saturn
first original 2024 song soon

lyrics:
Drugs in my email
If you wanna talk, I'm a meter away
I can tell you suck when I see your face
Slurring all my words, 'cause this drink was laced
Falling out, I can't catch up
How you act off the cameras?
Waste all of my time
I'm tired of living life like this
Shoot me in my grave when I'm laid out and I'm dead
Twenty-seven shots in my sunken head
How can you love something if it doesn't get you bread?
Keep an act, I've been playing pretend
One chance and I missed it
Don't need pity, lately, I've been needing kisses
If you want a happy ending, gotta script it
Never really felt like I'm gifted at all
Put my chips on the table
Thirty shit, bitch, I'm never stable
Said I won't be shit, now I'm enabled
I'ma turn your story to a fable
Frozen igloo, 'cause I'm icy
Bet she feel it in her gut, that shit spicy
Done with talking, done wit' asking nicely
Stumble off the edge, I need an IV

brrr cover

prod. squadfish
this was made in less than 1 day

lyrics:
think i lost connection
someday its some mention
girl ure my obsession
i dont wanna lose the connection
b-but im grinning
when ure beside me
till now never knew i was winning
oh again, again and again
let me hold you
n-no more pain, girl i love you
so sad in my room without you
baby ure all i have, dont wanna doubt you

fates tied with the faces of the moon
supreme on my neck and some blue tunes
im comfy and im chilling in my bed next to you
(one kiss in my life is all i needed)

obsession💘

prod. nightiger
i feel ????? now

lyrics:
put a bullet in his kneecaps
i dont care if ure sad
shut the fuck up
wish youd just disappear
lost so many bands make some more reappear
they took me for granted
well thats just their loss
cause ill always be better
now get out and keep it locked
i may be chill but my patience is fucking running
keep it going imma leave him fucking bleeding

q-quit speaking cuz nobodys fucking listening
yeah im better and you know it and ill always be
im an outcast though im someone that ull never be
just a random in my story what a pity

bullets go and turn him to a full time dancer
why you worried bout a bitch when you cant even get her?
thought i was bad enough
man ure worse fuck your love
and you think ure cool you can piss off 
p90 and a deagle in my backpack
causing too much drama think i need to fucking snap back
ima fucking poison you and see you fucking coping
ure fucking wasted like what are you smoking?

i fall apart
theres no sense in losing my heart
fuck you and ppl that you hang with
all of you fucking suck and you know it

dont need no discussion
ill take your head off
b-better take precaution
ill send you straight to hell

red dead
now fucking step back
fucking disgusting, put your mans on hashtags

wasted ♾️

welcome back
prod. jichu & neohn

cold winter nights in japan
counting bands with the gang
its so calming
can you hold me?
make a wish, jirachi and mew
now ure just someone that i used to know
cold winter nights
feeling better
look at the moonlight
take my sweater
hurt you now im trying to make some ammends
cause so far so long, ill see you again

i-i say fuck that shit
fuck that shit that i dont find fun no more
im on a trip with jit
im in a strip mine counting up my flaws
i dont give a shit
hate it when you left me on my own
and im strapped to chains
ive been taking pills that shit dont work

my mentality's been worse
youve been twisting up my words
ive been better on my own
i dont need your help, bitch
w-why the fuck does it matter?
fuck your letters, see you later
sometimes i would wish i never met her

Japan 🌸 (Speedup)

go listen to the original entry four by jaydes hes cool
i sleep now

lyrics:

Maybe she likes me
Maybe she's toying with me
Falling in love is a tricky one for me
Might trust you but I don't wanna get fucked up
You heard all my secrets
I like your responses
Though I wanna see this
The pressure feels awful
Text you and delete it
It's been rainy outside
Gave you my jacket in case you needed it
She won't hear this

entry four flip

prod. irisv
i wanna remake this soon

now i look back in the mirror where im standing
i got too much on my mind i cant stand it
i start to see my true self
your roses still in the corner of my doorstep

am I just way too much?
I just wanna feel your touch
might be too drained sometimes
you'll heal me all the time
I know I'm not the best
but know I'll try my best
and when I hurt you bad
suddenly life feels so sad

but I'm done with the past
in Japan, wanderlust
where you know where I'm at
under trees in the park
in the park x3

so pretty in the light
here to care not for some lust
I don't know what to do
when you're not here by my side
oh baby can you hear
my heart is chiming
Romeo and Juliet happy everlasting

(intersection)

when you feel like you've lost
and you're scared in the dark
in the dark
in the dark
think of me when its hard
I'll be there in your heart
in your heart
in your heart

all I gotta do is look inside you
look inside you x2

all the time 🩷

#Kyoku2024
((Self prod.))

𝐏𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐑𝐚𝐧𝐤: 23rd
𝐒𝐩𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐤: https://open.spotify.com/track/7daItUnsoVQs5jF9yl8G7S?si=e21a550572bc4b57
𝐓𝐞𝐚𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐞: https://soundcloud.com/nolsic, https://www.youtube.com/@Noldalag
𝐎𝐬𝐮! 𝐦𝐚𝐩: https://osu.ppy.sh/beatmapsets/2242376#osu/4766162

This has been real fun to make
Enjoy <3

𝐋𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐬

Walk around the city,
So bright
Flying in the night sky with me,
Alright
Oh I wanna hug you,
Please girl
Driving around the city in a fantasy world

9k's on my kicks
Oh I wish for one more kiss
Your love is everything I need
Want you for myself and myself only

Girl I miss you
Nothing on my mind except for you
Its like that all the time
I swear that its okay and ill be fine
Nowadays this kind of love is hard to find
Saber Seiko on my wrist
I'll find the treasure
Romeo and Juliet happy ever after
Fatebound never ever shattered
Girl you blossom like a flower

Cold eyes,
Wash your tears it'll be alright
Oh ill be fine
I'll be Shouto you'll be Sawako
Kaguya: Love is War
But it doesn't feel like one at all
I've been stuck all my life
But you pushed me back to where I was

Dressed in Balenciaga
Took my feelings out for you
You're so precious all the time
Let me love you every time
I'll play my guitar, you'll sing your heart out
Tokyo cities never been this bright, yeah
Please girl,
Driving around the city in a fantasy world

Blossom 🌸【Kyoku 2024】(⭐ON SPOTIFY⭐)

prod. mizu

lolwut

lyrics:
i told myself i dont belong here
i swear my thoughts is all i hear
problems holding on
and i got no idea whats going on
do this for fun
i need my gun
couldn't hear what they said
i dont wanna trust the words they fucking said

well its too fucking bad
fuck all that bullshit its time to chase a bag
i dont care what they say
fuck your friends theyre all just fucking fags
i dont give a fucking shit
lifes so sad all i want is to fucking die
but i cant die here
i gotta go back soon
under a bloon moon

i dont know if i got it all
i dont wanna move in case i fuck it up
hunnid thousand messages on my phone
just shut the fuck up
i might aswell just jump off

i dont know what the fuck is going on
yip and yap what are you on about?
i dont know what you're on about
hit a goddamn milly on a fucking cloud

and maybe i was wrong
just fed up with this song
but i can promise you ill never take the drugs yeah

blood moon 🩸

prod. 10shi

endless line <3
NOL APPROVED ✅

lyrics:

you're not good for me
i try my best but you still hurt me
double tatted Balenciaga bag on me
i dont wanna try if its gon always hurt me
i wanna stay, but i cant take it no more
yeah i cant answer your calls
im bleeding from my eyeballs
and im having withdrawals
my bodys shaking uncaused
shawty says she wanna ball
but she ghosts me like shoko

say you love me i just wanna hear it
stuck inside the crossroads my mind is altered
cut my veins yeah cover me in red
if i saw your messages that doesn't mean they're read

do you really need me to say it again?
always try, but you hurt me in the end
i dont trust nobody i dont even trust my friends
if you think you're different then you better think again

and im trying to go back to how it used to be
you suck at loving me back, it feels so weird to me
but i hope that you know that you move beautifully
i feel so bad, its what you did to me

you're not good for me
i try my best but you still hurt me
double tatted Balenciaga bag on me
i dont wanna try if its gon always hurt me
i wanna stay, but i cant take it no more
yeah i cant answer your calls
im bleeding from my eyeballs
and im having withdrawals
my bodys shaking uncaused
shawty says she wanna ball
but she ghosts me like shoko

not good for me

prod. by me
my proudest project so far

HEAVILY inspired by https://soundcloud.com/blxty, https://soundcloud.com/owtiss and https://soundcloud.com/arid (i love their stuff sm)

ORIGINAL SONG = https://soundcloud.com/arid/scars (so fire)

lyrics //

yea i left my heart open needa lock it
left behind guess i was the target
tryna get to u but im not far yet
i dont think u see my scars yet
i dont wanna stay
only feel the pain
i feel locked in my brain
i dont need u girl i just needa find my way

l-lost inside my brain
i feel, i feel dead inside
all the letters the i spelt
turned into letters that i burned
we're so far apart
i wont ever cry
you were always my lifeline
and ill die in your arms

scars 🗡️ (COVER)

i like this beat :)

inspired heavily by: https://soundcloud.com/owtiss!!

lyrics>>>

(go, go, go)
x3

yeah ive been lying a lot
i dont wanna see you, ive been crying a lot
you just wanna leave and its all my fault
think i need some help cause im feeling so lost

ive been feeling so lost
i cant think at all
i dont wanna see you anymore
and this worlds so small
in my hands
locked up in my brain, dont wanna start again

an apology? i dont really want it
do you love me? i dont fucking get it

i think ive had just 'bout enough
you wanna sit there and break my trust
fuck off, i dont wanna be like you
my hands are bloody
act like your vision is blurry
i know you see right through me
act like you dont know me

i live in a lie
wanna die
dont look at me in my eyes if i cry

lost (yashio)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/ilyluvic
cracked producer go check him out <3

⭐ SPOTIFY LINK ⭐ https://open.spotify.com/track/3DhE56wT6CBi31aM5MMR1L?si=de3cbf815d6c44b9

lyrics>>>

(adlibs intro)

i dont wanna go,
let me out
left me on my own,
bleeding from my eyes now

hold me close
ive been feeling sad
dont let me down

sitting here all alone
i wanna die, i wanna die
i wanna cry
you just wanna lie 
overdose on pills
think i need some help
you should burn in hell

i think that im dying,
suffocating
wanna jump off,
off a building
knife to my guts
take my life
tearing me apart until i cant wake up

sitting here all alone
i wanna die, i wanna die
i wanna cry
you just wanna lie
nightmares in my head
i feel so bad
please wake up

wake up +luvic (⭐ON SPOTIFY⭐)

⭐ SPOTIFY LINK ⭐ https://open.spotify.com/album/6av0mmWHQsBxGAzzE3jxxH?si=VsFtFh4eQ8KMqXAD5qpyig

Something entirely different, I like the way it turned out :)

Garden of Promises 🌼 (⭐ON SPOTIFY⭐)

<3

planning on changing artist name idk when tho :p

@lunacystar

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