rn [branwen]

reminiscing [xtasane + lithe]

been having a rough time so i made this, hope u enjoy <3
-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-
Main Artist: xipz
Produced by: xipz
Mixed by: xipz
Mastered by: xipz
Cover Art by: xipz
-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-
LYRICS:

sayin that she miss me, baby i aint comin home
sleepin in my car, trynna hide from the cold
left my home town, i left everyone that i knew
hope they understand it was what i had to do

oooooohhhhh
what i had to doooooooooo
its what i had to do

am i livin a lie, or am i livin a dream
do i love my life, well thats what it seems
i hate myself, thats the reality
hurtin everyone, everyone is a casualty 

stuck in my chaos, im playing the victim
told so many lies i dont what the truth is
im not a good person, im not a good human
hate my fucking mind, why not just shoot it?

hope she doesnt hate me for leaving her all alone
i been on my own so i know how it feels
maybe in another universe weve done well
but im not a profit so who really knows

baby i love you but i dont think im good for anyone that ive ever met
i go thru a mania for a week n when i snap out of it i look at the mess i made

maybe in another universe (i dont have to look at the mess ive made)

Nonprofit, shoutout white shinobi 

Lyrics:
Girl it’s on video 
Where were you going?
Where were you going?
Baby you owe me 
Girl it’s on video 
Where were you going?
Where were you going ?
Girl you control me 

I’ll say yes to the pills in the morning 
I’ll say no to the girl that adores me 
Why can’t I feel anything important?
I just can’t accord it 
Everything is boring 

Everything is boring 
Till it’s lost or forgotten 
This hell that I’m held in
In my chest I have a lot held in 
Prisoner of Helgen 
Passionate like I’m Mackned 
Eager yet for the heaven

Helgen (prod.white shinobi)

You’re just another problem in my head
Laying half across my bed 
Whilst I’m trying to forget the truth 
wish I could erase all this mess 
clean up everything that’s said 
But there isn’t much else that I could do 

So why won’t u leave?
I’m already struggling 
Why can’t u see?
Did that man leave you blind?
Was it the ecstasy 
Or can’t u remeber ? Ur just sitting with me
Like nothing ever happend, 

don’t lie and say u missed me 
cus I know those words don’t a mean a thing 
U promised to kiss me
But you’re lips have met anothers since 

I promised to love you  no matter the day 
But the promise I kept is just fading away cus 
These memories grey, and my body will fray from the moment u cheat made another man’s day
But now where does this leave us, cus u can’t remeber, but he was my friend and he told me you’d slither 
Right into his covers and fucked on him crazy, he told me the truth, tho he was a bit hazy 
He said he was sorry and hope we forget it 
But I made it known that u both will regret it
She thinks that I’m stupid and clueless, and have no idea of the shit that went on

I promise I’m hurting, much pain is inserting, this vengeance inside is residing its boiling
 But when I get you back, and I swerve from the tracks, then I hope u can feel how I have all along

You’re just another problem in my head
Laying half across my bed 
Whilst I’m trying to forget the truth 
wish I could erase all this mess 
clean up everything that’s said 
But there isn’t much else that I could do 

You’re just another problem in my head
Laying half across my bed 
Whilst I’m trying to forget the truth 
wish I could erase all this mess 
clean up everything that’s said 
But there isn’t much else that I could do

#emotrap #emorap #emo #lilpeep #trap #music #rap #hiphop #soundcloud #rapper #goth #producer #beats #soundcloudrapper #emorapper #sad #sadtrap #gbc #sadrap #gothboiclique #alternative #juicewrld #trapmusic #newmusic #liltracy #trapbeats #typebeat #bhfyp #punk #darktrap

1. nothinghappend.

a.lot.on.me. (prod. gally)

EZ2H8 (prod. Ghostly1)

what1neeeds (slptlk)

Guess we all gotta learn somehow 
Time can stop, but it never slows down 
Oh, I need to learn to grow inside 

I learned as a naïve child 
the world is cruel, but it still grows flowers 
Oh, I needed to grow inside

And I know, I know, I know
I'm not there yet, I still have so much to learn 
and so much time left 

I'll fall and slip and lose my grip 
I'll break my heart to pieces 
it's hard for me to swallow 
I'm not who I wanted years ago 
I'm way ahead and still far behind 
I'm not where I want to be, but I'll get there soon
I promise you

I know if I hold on longer
everything might get much harder, but I need to know what it's like to be okay 
For more than a minute,
Not covered in mistakes,
Not drowning in silence,
Reliving all the pain,
Stop feeling so selfish,
For setting boundaries that I need 

I know, I know, I know, I'm not there yet 
I still have so much to learn and so much time left 

I know, I know, I'm not there yet

I'll fall and slip and lose my grip 
I'll break my heart to pieces 
It's hard for me to swallow 
I'm not who I wanted years ago 
I'm way ahead and still far behind 
I'm not where I want to be, but I'll get there soon
I promise you

Take a deep breath in
Close your eyes 
Dear younger me, you'll be alright
Dear older me, tell me if I'm right (Am I alright)

I'll fall and slip and lose my grip 
I'll break my heart to pieces 
It's hard for me to swallow 
I'm not who I wanted years ago 
I'm way ahead and still far behind 
I'm not where I want to be, but I'll get there soon
I promise you

I Promise You (Prod. Matthew May)

Lyrics: 

I'm not used to holding on to people or anyone 
I'm not used to giving up my pride 
There was a time when I got too close to someone 
Then it all went in flames that night 

Oh, I could make an excuse 
Convince myself not to be around you 
So many things that I could say to ruin any and every chance great 

So many places and things 
I want to feel free 
Maybe I can do that with you (with you) 
And part of me thinks I am being crazy 
Tell me if you feel that way, too

Please tell me if you do 
Please tell me 
Please tell me 
Please tell me if you do 

I was scared of getting close to you 
Cause heartbreak is what I’m used to 
I was just hoping for something new 
I wanna feel something true 

Please tell me if you feel how I do 
Please tell me if you feel how I do 

So many places and things 
I want to feel free 
Maybe I can do that with you (with you) 
And part of me thinks I am being crazy 
Tell me if you feel that way, too

Please tell me if you do 
Please tell me 
Please tell me 
Please tell me if you do 

(tell me if you do) 

I wanna go somewhere with you 
Please tell me if you wanna go too

So many places and things 
I want to feel free 
Maybe I can do that with you (with you) 
And part of me thinks I am being crazy 
Tell me if you feel that way, too

a.lot.on.me. (prod. gally)

vexle