These songs are a deeply personal and emotional exploration of regret, longing, and the weight of past choices. They delve into the pain of nostalgia, the ache of lost opportunities, and the struggle to find solace in a present haunted by memories of what could have been. Through poignant lyrics and haunting melodies, the songs convey a sense of yearning for a different path, a desire to turn back time and make things right, but ultimately, they acknowledge the irreversibility of the past and the need to find a way to move forward, scarred but stronger.

My songs of Regret

This is a collection of powerful songs that confront the shadows of mental health. This thought-provoking playlist delves into the complexities of depression, suicidal thoughts, loneliness, and emotional turmoil.

Featuring haunting melodies and raw, honest lyrics, these songs provide a cathartic outlet for those struggling with inner demons. From the desperation of "Last Resort" to the haunting vulnerability of "Help" and the intense emotional release of "Kill the Noise", each track sheds light on the darkness that often accompanies mental health struggles.

Purpose: To provide a voice for those struggling, foster empathy and understanding, and encourage open conversations about mental health.

Resources: If you're struggling with mental health issues, please reach out to:

- National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-TALK)
- Crisis Text Line (text HOME to 741741)
- Your local mental health resources


*Warning:* This collection addresses sensitive topics; listener discretion is advised.

Sad/Depression/Suicide 😢😭

My Dark/Edgy songs

Inspired by a once-good friend's passion for punk music, I dove headfirst into the genre and discovered a shared spirit of rebellion and social commentary. This playlist is my interpretation of punk's energetic and unapologetic vibe, tackling themes of resistance, freedom, and self-expression. 

The playlist kicks off with 15 of my punk-infused originals, which I wrote especially for that friend, including the first song "Boots and Braces" for which we wrote the lyrics together. Those songs will be followed by some of my already existing songs that resonate with her punk sensibilities. My goal is to create a playlist that not only has songs that she loves but that honors the punk tradition and also speaks to everyone else who loves punk music. Also, for anyone who's ever felt like challenging the status quo. 

Join us on this sonic rebellion, and let's raise our voices together! 



My Punk songs

Love is complicated, and so is this playlist. This Valentine's Day, indulge in the ups AND downs of romance with my curated selection of sultry, heartfelt, and playful tracks. From the shadows of heartbreak to the thrill of desire and from laughter to tears, this playlist explores the many faces of love. This playlist features 40 songs, some created, especially for Valentine's Day, plus some of my favorite relationship tracks that I thought would be good for Valentine's Day as well. There's something here for every mood and every moment of love's wild ride. So put on your rose-tinted headphones and join me on this sonic journey through the highs and lows of love.

My Valentine's Day songs!

Every one of these songs has over 1,000 plays — but they fall just under my top 100. This is the second wave of fan favorites: strong performers that keep climbing and growing with every listen.

My REAL Top 101 to 200 Tracks

Get ready to immerse yourself in a powerful and emotional ballad that explores the themes of regret, redemption, and the longing for a second chance. This very personal heartfelt song takes you on a journey of self-reflection, as I confront my past mistakes and the choices that led me down a darker path. 

With poignant lyrics and a soaring chorus, this song is a raw and honest expression of the human experience, acknowledging the pain of past regrets and the desire to make things right. Despite the longing to turn back time, this song ultimately finds hope in the present and the promise of a brighter future.


LYRICS:

Verse 1:
In the mirror, a reflection stares
A life of what-ifs, and regrets that linger there
If I could go back, I'd make it right
Graduate high school, shine with all my light
Chorus:
But life took a turn, down a darker road
I got lost in the haze, of a deadly mode
I'd take it back, if I could turn the tide
But the past is gone, and I'm left to hide

Verse 2:
I'd never have touched, the poison that stole
My hopes and dreams, my heart and soul
I'd have found my way, through the darkest night
And never have faced, the devil's cruel light

Chorus:
But life took a turn, down a darker road
I got lost in the haze, of a deadly mode
I'd take it back, if I could turn the tide
But the past is gone, and I'm left to hide

Bridge:
And the shot that rang, in the silent night
A desperate cry, for a fleeting light
If I could go back, I'd take it away
And find my strength, in a brighter day

Chorus:
But life took a turn, down a darker road
I got lost in the haze, of a deadly mode
I'd take it back, if I could turn the tide
But the past is gone, and I'm left to hide

Outro:
If I could go back, I'd make it right
But for now, I'll hold on to the light
And hope that someday, I'll find my way
To a brand new dawn, and a brighter day.

If I Could Go Back

Immerse yourself in the hauntingly beautiful soul-stirring ballad that delves into the depths of heartbreak, regret, and longing. This emotional journey weaves together fragile memories, shattered dreams, and the lingering pain of what could never be.

With poignant lyrics and soaring melodies, this song captures the bittersweet essence of lost love and the struggle to move on. The haunting vocals and ethereal instrumentation evoke a sense of yearning, as if trapped in a loop of unending melancholy.

Yet, amidst the sorrow, a glimmer of hope emerges – the promise of resilience and the determination to mend. Let the echoes of this heartfelt song resonate with your own experiences, and find solace in the knowledge that you're not alone in the darkness.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
In the silence, echoes of who we used to be,
Faded photographs, haunting reminders set me free.
Chasing shadows, memories dance like ghosts at night,
But every step I take just dims the fading light.

Letting go feels like drowning in the sea.

[Chorus]
These shattered dreams won't be pieced together whole,
Memories linger, they linger in my soul.
Fading echoes of what never could be,
Caught in a loop of unending melancholy.

[Verse 2]
Regrets like anchors weigh me down in this storm,
The whispers of the past that never keep me warm.
Time slips away like sand through my trembling hands,
Leaving only traces of forgotten lands.

Heartbreak engraves itself, carving deep lines.

[Chorus]
These shattered dreams won't be pieced together whole,
Memories linger, they linger in my soul.
Fading echoes of what never could be,
Caught in a loop of unending melancholy.

[Outro]
Through the pain, I'll find my way to mend.
But the echoes of regret will never end.

Shattered Dreams

This song is a heartfelt and uplifting anthem about the importance of seeking help and support when struggling. The lyrics address someone who is trying to carry their burdens alone, hiding behind a facade of strength and self-sufficiency. The song encourages this person to open up, ask for help, and let others in, emphasizing that unity and collaboration can lead to greater strength and success.

The song's message is one of empathy, compassion, and community, urging listeners to recognize that seeking help is a sign of courage, not weakness. The melody is soaring and anthemic, with a simple but powerful chorus that drives home the song's central theme.

The tone is supportive, encouraging, and non-judgmental, making the song a powerful tool for promoting mental health awareness, self-care, and the importance of human connection.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
In the shadows where you stand alone,
With your fortress built from stubborn stone,
You carry burdens, heavy on your back,
But inside you know, you're starting to crack.

Reach out a hand, it’s not a crime,

[Chorus]
So come on, friend, let me in,
You don’t have to do this all on your own,
A little help can lead to great wins,
In unity, our strength is fully grown.

[Verse 2]
Every wall you built, so tall and tight,
Keeps the warmth away, and dims your light,
Just take a breath, let go of the fight,
It’s strength to ask, it’s okay to feel light.

Together we rise, it’s true power,

[Chorus]
So come on, friend, let me in,
You don’t have to do this all on your own,
A little help can lead to great wins,
In unity, our strength is fully grown.

[Outro]
So when you’re down, remember this call,
Asking for help, it’s not weakness at all.

Ask for the Strength

Step into the realm of dark seduction with this haunting, atmospheric track. "Dark Delight" weaves a spell of forbidden desire, tantalizing danger, and intoxicating passion. Hypnotic vocals, driving beats, and eerie melodies conjure an irresistible world of shadows, secrets, and sweet surrender.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1:]
Midnight eyes, they gleam with fire
I'm the one you covet, your darkest desire
Whispers in the night, I'll take control
You'll do as I say, lose your soul

[Chorus:]
I'm the queen of shadows, king of pain
I'll drive you mad, make you love the game
I'm the thrill you crave, the danger zone
Where the darkness calls, I'll make you my own

[Verse 2:]
Red lips smile, I'll take the fall
You'll chase the high, I'll give you it all
Secrets kept, desires revealed
In the darkness, we'll conceal

[Chorus:]
I'm the queen of shadows, king of pain
I'll drive you mad, make you love the game
I'm the thrill you crave, the danger zone
Where the darkness calls, I'll make you my own

[Verse 2:]
Red lips smile, I'll take the fall
You'll chase the high, I'll give you it all
Secrets kept, desires revealed
In the darkness, we'll conceal

[Bridge:]
We'll dance with demons, play with fire
Our love's a sin, our hearts desire
No rules apply, no limits set
In this dark delight, we'll forget

[Chorus:]X2
I'm the queen of shadows, king of pain
I'll drive you mad, make you love the game
I'm the thrill you crave, the danger zone
Where the darkness calls, I'll make you my own

Dark Delight (Version 1)

This empowering anthem is all about resilience, self-acceptance, and liberation. The song's narrative arc follows a journey from feeling broken and marginalized to rising above adversity and embracing one's true self.

The verses describe the struggle to fit in, facing criticism and pressure to conform, but refusing to surrender. The chorus bursts forth with a declaration of freedom, embracing individuality, and shedding the shadows of doubt.

The bridge emphasizes unity, acknowledging shared imperfections and struggles, but urges listeners to rise above, break free, and find strength in vulnerability.

Throughout, the lyrics pulsate with determination, pride, and a celebration of scars as badges of resilience. The outro affirms the triumph, standing tall and loud, unapologetically proud.

Musically, expect soaring vocals, uplifting melodies, and an energetic beat that mirrors the song's unstoppable spirit. This anthem is sure to inspire listeners to embrace their uniqueness and join the chorus of self-empowerment.


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LYRICS:

[Verse 1:]
I've been broken, battered and worn
Tried to fit in, but never belonged
They said I'm too much, too loud, too bold
But I won't apologize, I'm taking control

[Chorus:]
I'm unbroken, untamed, and free
I'm rising up, that's just me
I won't let the shadows define
I'm shining bright, I'm feeling alive

[Verse 2:]
I've been told to quiet down, to hide
To conform, to fit inside
But I won't surrender, I won't give in
My voice is loud, my heart is winning

[Chorus:]
I'm unbroken, untamed, and free
I'm rising up, that's just me
I won't let the shadows define
I'm shining bright, I'm feeling alive

[Bridge:]
We're all imperfect, we're all the same
We're fighting battles, we're bearing the pain
But we can rise above, we can break the chains
And find our strength, our beauty, our shame

[Chorus:]
We're unbroken, untamed, and free
We're rising up, that's just me
We won't let the shadows define
We're shining bright, we're feeling alive

[Outro:]
I'm unbroken, and I won't hide
My scars are shining, they're my pride
I'm standing tall, I'm standing loud
I'm unbroken, and I'm proud.

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Unbroken

"Lonely and Scared" is a haunting, introspective ballad probing the shadows of painful relationships. With poignant lyrics and soothing vocals, it confronts the darkness of recurring heartache, questioning destiny and self-worth. The song's narrative delves into the anguish of emotional and physical scars, echoing the longing for answers: "Why does love come with a price?" and "Do I even deserve?" It's a relatable, soul-stirring exploration of vulnerability, resonating with those weary of love's trials, wondering if happiness is within reach.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
I feel the echoes of a love that's long gone,
A heart that’s been shattered, just trying to hold on.
From scars on my skin to wounds deep inside,
Every chance that I take, I just seem to collide.
Got me questioning life, all that I’ve known 

[Chorus]
Why does love come with a price that I pay?
When will the darkness just fade into day?
I’m seeking the light, but it ends in a blur,
Lonely and scared, do I even deserve? 

[Verse 2]
Each face is a mirror, reflecting my fears,
I’m trapped in this cycle, lost count of the years.
Still haunted by moments of trust that I've lent,
Wondering if love was a path I was meant.
Maybe it’s fate, or maybe it’s me?

[Chorus]
Why does love come with a price that I pay?
When will the darkness just fade into day?
I’m seeking the light, but it ends in a blur,
Lonely and scared, do I even deserve? 

[Outro]
Twenty years later, I’m still on my own.
Love's just a ghost that I've never known.

Lonely and Scared

"Burnin' Me" is a sultry, rock anthem that captures the all-consuming passion and pain of a tumultuous relationship. With soulful vocals and fiery instrumentation, this song explores the paradoxical thrill of desire and heartache.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
(Uh oh uh oh ah uh oh)
(Uh oh uh oh ah uh oh)
You take my soul, got me under control
(Uh oh uh oh ah uh oh)
Squeeze it tight, feel the fire ignite
(Uh oh uh oh ah)
Oh, you play with my mind, all through the night
And I'm lost, in this burning light 

[Chorus]
Oh, it burns me, like a wildfire
Consuming me, heart and desire
Hurts so bad, but feels so right
Burnin' me, through the night
(Uh oh uh oh ah uh oh) 

[Verse 2]
You take my soul, got me under control
But I'll take the pain, 'cause I adore
The way you love me, like a flame
Melting my heart, with every shame 

[Chorus]
Oh, it burns me, like a wildfire
Consuming me, heart and desire
Hurts so bad, but feels so right
Burnin' me, through the night
(Uh oh uh oh ah uh oh) 

[Bridge]
Don't stop, don't slow down
Take me higher, to the burning ground
Where love and pain collide 

[Chorus]
Oh, it burns me, like a wildfire
Consuming me, heart and desire
Hurts so bad, but feels so right
Burnin' me, through the night
(Uh oh uh oh ah uh oh) 

[Outro]
Burnin' me, like a flame
(Uh oh uh oh ah uh oh)
Forever yours, in this burning game.

Burnin' Me

"Vines of Doubt" is a poignant, emotional journey through the shadows of self-doubt and fear. Haunting melodies, introspective lyrics, and soaring vocals capture the struggle to overcome.


LYRICS:

[Verse1:]
I'm lost in the shadows, where fear takes its toll
A prisoner of doubt, where darkness makes me whole
I question my worth, and the choices I've made
A never-ending cycle, of self-doubt and shame

[Chorus:]
Vines of doubt, they creep inside my mind
A silent assassin, that I've learned to hide
The weight of my fears, is crushing me down
Vines of doubt, are they my greatest enemy, or my crown?

[Verse 2:]
The silence is deafening, as the world rushes by
A cacophony of chaos, that I try to deny
The vines keep snapping, as new doubts arise
A constant reminder, of my deepest, darkest lies

[Chorus:]
Vines of doubt, they creep inside my mind
A silent assassin, that I've learned to hide
The weight of my fears, is crushing me down
Vines of doubt, are they my greatest enemy, or my crown?

[Bridge:]
Maybe I'll find my way, through the darkness and the pain
Maybe I'll learn to love, and let go of the shame
But till then, I'll sit here, in this endless fight
And wonder, which path to take, through the dark of night

[Chorus:]
Vines of doubt, they creep inside my mind
A silent assassin, that I've learned to hide
The weight of my fears, is crushing me down
Vines of doubt, are they my greatest enemy, or my crown?

[Outro:]
Do I push, do I pull, or do I sit and hide?
Do I leap, do I crawl, or do I step aside?
The vines keep whispering, "you're not enough"
But I'll rise up, and shine, and shatter the doubt.

Vines of Doubt

This song is my passionate protest anthem, voicing my pain and frustration at feeling betrayed by my country's choices. I'm expressing my disillusionment with the system and longing for change. The lyrics reflect my beliefs and values, urging listeners to rise up and demand justice in the face of oppression. 

The song's message is universal, echoing the sentiments of iconic protest songs like "Strange Fruit" by Billie Holiday and "Blowin' in the Wind" by Bob Dylan. These classics have inspired generations to stand against injustice, and my song continues this tradition. 

In my lyrics, I question how decent hearts could stray so far from empathy and righteousness. I condemn the harm inflicted by flawed leadership and the concealment of conscience. My song is a call to action, demanding accountability and integrity from those in power. 

Through my music, I aim to inspire others to join me in seeking justice, equality, and truth. 

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LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
A nation betrayed, by votes so blind
A criminal in power, justice left behind
The people have spoken, but at what cost?
Integrity lost, as shame is tossed 

[Chorus]
Rise up, voice your pain
America, how could you sustain?
A leader so flawed, with crimes untold
Justice demanded, but votes grew cold 

[Verse 2]
Decent hearts, where did you stray?
Voting for evil, every step of the way
What happened to empathy and right?
Did lies and hate become your guiding light? 

[Chorus]
Rise up, voice your pain
America, how could you sustain?
A leader so flawed, with crimes untold
Justice demanded, but votes grew cold 

[Bridge]
Some say they didn't believe the allegations
Others claim his policies mattered more than his personal life
But can't you see, this man's a threat?
To justice, equality, and all that's just and right? 

[Verse 3]
The damage is done, the harm is real
A nation divided, hearts that conceal
Their conscience asleep, as wrongs unfold
Accountability, lost in the cold 

[Chorus]
Rise up, voice your pain
America, how could you sustain?
A leader so flawed, with crimes untold
Justice demanded, but votes grew cold 

[Outro]
What's wrong with you people, can't you see?
A criminal in the White House, a threat to you and me
How can decent people vote for shame?
Have we lost our moral compass, our hearts to blame?


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Criminal in the White House

This is another song inspired by Lynn Carey Saylor, one of my favorite singer/songwriters, and her poignant song "I Wasn't A Friend." 
https://on.soundcloud.com/VfBvk
I draw constant inspiration from her amazing works, and I hope she won't mind! Although I doubt she'll ever hear my songs, her influence on me is undeniable, and I appreciate the creative spark her music and her tweets ignite. 

"The Weight of That Night" is a haunting ballad that tackles the devastating consequences of letting a friend drive drunk. This powerful song weaves a tragic tale of regret, guilt, and longing, recounting the fateful night when silence proved deadly. With poignant lyrics and soaring vocals, it explores the anguish of "what ifs" and the weight of unanswered questions, serving as a stark reminder of the irreversible harm caused by one moment's hesitation. This heartfelt warning urges listeners to speak up and take action, honoring the memory of loved ones lost.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1:]
We laughed and joked, as the night wore on
Never thinking, the consequences would be so wrong
You got behind the wheel, I didn't say a word
Now the silence screams, and I'm forever scarred 

[Chorus:]
Oh, the guilt I bear, the weight I hold
For letting you drive, into the cold
I should've spoken up, I should've been bold
Now you're gone, and I'm left to unfold 

[Verse 2:]
We swerved off course, on that fatal ride
I see the crash, in my mind's eye
Your smile fades fast, as the lights go low
My screams echo, in the darkness that grows 

[Chorus:]
Oh, the guilt I bear, the weight I hold
For letting you drive, into the cold
I should've spoken up, I should've been bold
Now you're gone, and I'm left to unfold 

[Bridge:]
What ifs haunt me, through the endless night
A thousand regrets, a single, fatal sight
One decision, one moment's hesitation
Could've changed the course, of that deadly destination 

[Chorus:]
Oh, the guilt I bear, the weight I hold
For letting you drive, into the cold
I should've spoken up, I should've been bold
Now you're gone, and I'm left to unfold 

[Outro:]
Your memory stays, a constant pain
A reminder of the price I couldn't contain
I'll carry this weight, for all my days
A lesson learned, in the most tragic way.


The Weight Of That Night

This song is a haunting and emotional portrayal of the trauma and pain of child abuse. With lyrics born from personal experience, the song conveys the dark, isolated world of a child suffering in silence. The music is a powerful and evocative blend of gothic rock and symphonic elements, echoing the style of Evanescence. The song's message is one of desperation, hope, and resilience, urging listeners to acknowledge the suffering of innocent children and to shine a light on the darkness of abuse.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
Childhood in shadows dark and cold
Eyes that scream stories never told
Silent echoes bouncing off the walls
Broken dreams from hard
Harsh falls

[Verse 2]
Tiny hands bruised from battles lost
Heart in pieces cold as frost
Trust shattered on the ground
Screams loud but no one hears a sound

[Chorus]
Who will save the broken soul
Fight the darkness swallow it whole
Raise the torch against the night
Shine a light on the child's flight

[Verse 3]
Tears fall like acid rain
Heart hollow numbed from pain
Little voices silenced quick
Grown-ups with games so sick

[Verse 4]
Hope buried deep inside
Wish for wings to spread and glide
Will the morning sun bring light
End this everlasting night

[Chorus]
Who will save the broken soul
Fight the darkness swallow it whole
Raise the torch against the night
Shine a light on the child's flight

Raise the Torch

This song is a haunting and intense exploration of the devastating consequences of betrayal, deception, and heartbreak, weaving a dark narrative of shattered love, broken trust, and the crippling pain of being lied to by the one you love. With eerie imagery and emotional intensity, the song delves into the anguish of discovering a lover's deceit, the suffocating weight of faithless whispers, and the desperate struggle to escape the void of a broken heart.

LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
Whispers in the dark again
Lies dripping from your grin
Broken mirrors show your sin
Shattered love where do I begin

[Verse 2]
Footsteps in a haunted hall
Echoes of a lover’s fall
Truths I never heard at all
Heartbeats turn to ghostly calls

[Chorus]
You’re a traitor of shadows and dreams
Silent screams tearing at the seams
Faithless whispers rip me apart
Falling into the void of your heart

[Verse 3]
Empty words in a hollow night
Promises turn into fright
Cold deceit no hope in sight
Lost in the never-ending fight

[Bridge]
Candles flicker ghosts arise
Drowning in a sea of lies
Faded dawns and poison skies
Seeing through your dead disguise

[Chorus]
You’re a traitor of shadows and dreams
Silent screams tearing at the seams
Faithless whispers rip me apart
Falling into the void of your heart


Traitor of Shadows

Get ready to ignite the night with this high-energy, rebellious anthem! "Boots and Braces" is a call to arms, embracing the spirit of youthful defiance and nonconformity. Written by Erin Leary and Vicky Adair, this explosive track is all about taking control, breaking free from the system, and living life on one's own terms. With its driving rhythms, fist-pumping choruses, and unapologetic lyrics, "Boots and Braces" is the perfect soundtrack for anyone ready to challenge the status quo and join the rebellion!


LYRICS:

[Verse 1:]
I'm hitting the streets, got a bottle in my hand
Ain't no stoppin' me, got a rebel's plan
I'm runnin' wild, got my crew by my side
We're takin' over, gonna light up the night

[Chorus:]
Boots and braces, oi oi oi!
We're takin' the streets, gonna make some noise
Fuck the system, we're gonna break the mold
Boots and braces, oi oi oi!

[Verse 2:]
We're blowin' up mailboxes, smashin' up the town
Gettin' into fights, never backin' down
Bats in hand, we're takin' on the night
Nothin' can stop us, we're feelin' alive

[Chorus:]
Boots and braces, oi oi oi!
We're takin' the streets, gonna make some noise
Fuck the system, we're gonna break the mold
Boots and braces, oi oi oi!

[Bridge:]
Moshpit's callin', we're divin' in
Blood and sweat, we're gonna give in
Fists are flyin', bodies are crashin'
We're livin' for the moment, no time for trashin'

[Chorus:]
Boots and braces, oi oi oi!
We're takin' the streets, gonna make some noise
Fuck the system, we're gonna break the mold
Boots and braces, oi oi oi!

[Outro:]
So come along, let's raise some hell
We'll take the night, and we'll never sell
Our rebellion, our way of life
Boots and braces, oi oi oi, we'll thrive!

Boots and Braces

This powerful protest punk song is a rallying cry against oppression, censorship, and the suppression of truth. The lyrics speak to the struggle of having one's voice silenced, and the determination to rise up and fight for the right to be heard. With themes of resistance, freedom, and the power of collective voice, this anthem is a call to action, urging listeners to join the fight against those who seek to control the narrative and silence dissenting voices.

LYRICS:

[Verse 1:]
I've got a voice, but you won't let me speak
You're choking my words, with your oppressive shriek
You're hiding the truth, behind a wall of lies
But I won't be quiet, I'll rise up and I'll deny

[Chorus:]
You can't silence my screams
I'll fight for my right to be heard, it's my dream
You can't shut my mouth
I'll keep on shouting, till the truth comes out

[Verse 2:]
You're controlling the narrative, with an iron fist
You're suppressing the facts, and manipulating the twist
You're trying to divide us, with your propaganda games
But we won't be fooled, we'll rise up and we'll claim

[Chorus:]
You can't silence my screams
I'll fight for my right to be heard, it's my dream
You can't shut my mouth
I'll keep on shouting, till the truth comes out

[Bridge:]
We're the voices of the silenced, the oppressed and the worn
We're the ones who'll rise up, and tear down the walls that are born
We'll fight for our freedom, for the right to express
We'll never be silenced, we'll always protest

[Chorus:]
You can't silence my screams
I'll fight for my right to be heard, it's my dream
You can't shut my mouth
I'll keep on shouting, till the truth comes out

[Outro:]
So listen up, you oppressors, you censors and you fools
We'll never be silenced, we'll always rule
Our voices will be heard, our words will never die
We'll fight for our freedom, until the day we die.

Silenced Screams

This song is a high-energy, emotionally charged punk anthem that tackles the infuriating and heartbreaking reality of navigating the broken mental health system in the US. With raw intensity and urgency, the lyrics express the frustration and desperation of feeling ignored, silenced, and failed by a system that's supposed to provide help and support. But despite the darkness and anger, the song also carries a message of resilience, hope, and defiance, urging listeners to rise up, speak out, and demand change.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
Trapped in the cycle, of pain and despair
Can't get a lifeline, when you're barely getting by there
The system's broken, it's designed to fail
Leaving us to suffer, with no escape

[Chorus]
We're screaming for help, but nobody's listening
We're drowning in darkness, with no lifeline glistening
We're fighting for survival, in a system that's cold
But we won't be silenced, our voices will be told

[Verse 2]
Red tape and bureaucracy, a never-ending fight
Just to get some treatment, just to get some light
The rich get the help, while the poor get the blame
It's a cruel joke, and we're the ones who are insane

[Chorus]
We're screaming for help, but nobody's listening
We're drowning in darkness, with no lifeline glistening
We're fighting for survival, in a system that's cold
But we won't be silenced, our voices will be told

[Bridge]
We'll rise up, we'll resist, we'll take back control
We'll fight for our rights, for a system that's whole
We'll stand together, united as one
We'll make our voices heard, until the system is undone

[Chorus]
We're screaming for help, but nobody's listening
We're drowning in darkness, with no lifeline glistening
We're fighting for survival, in a system that's cold
But we won't be silenced, our voices will be told

[Outro]
So let's scream, let's shout, let's make some noise
Let's take back our lives, let's take back our voice
We'll rise above, we'll shine a light
We'll make it through the darkness, and we'll ignite.

We won't Be Silenced

We Won't Be Silenced

This punk song is a powerful and uplifting anthem about finding hope and resilience in the darkest of places. It's about navigating through the struggles and hardships of life and emerging stronger and more determined. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a journey from despair to redemption, with a message that hope is always alive, even in the most desperate of circumstances. The song is a testament to the human spirit's ability to persevere, rise above adversity, and transform pain into growth.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
Dark alley whispers scream
Broken dreams in the night
Hope lurks in the shadows
Fight through blinding light

[Verse 2]
In the trash and grime
Hear the beating heart
Struggle through the muck
It's a brand-new start

[Chorus]
Hope ain't dead yet
In the gutter's breath
Rise from dirt and sweat
Defy the chains of death

[Verse 3]
Streetlights flicker faint
Candles in the storm
From the wreckage rise
A new self is born

[Verse 4]
Bruises tell the tale
Pain we never show
But beneath the scars
We're destined to grow

[Chorus]
Hope ain't dead yet
In the gutter's breath
Rise from dirt and sweat
Defy the chains of death

Hope in the Gutter

This song is a playful, tongue-in-cheek ode to embracing the single life on Valentine's Day. With witty lyrics and a catchy melody, it's a fun, upbeat anthem that celebrates self-love, solo adventures, and the joy of indulging in sweet treats, good movies, and personal pampering – all without the need for romantic love.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
Got a box of heart-shaped treats
Tastes sweet but my heart beats
Crushing on my couch tonight
Kissing chocolate that's not right

[Chorus]
Love stinks like old gym socks
But I adore this candy box
Cupid missed his aim so bad
So I munch and yeah I'm glad

[Verse 2]
Movie marathon self-care
Romance flicks a solo affair
Got PJs on and some wine
Single life is mighty fine

[Chorus]
Love stinks like old gym socks
But I adore this candy box
Cupid missed his aim so bad
So I munch and yeah I'm glad

[Bridge]
Valentine you're just a stupid myth
I'd rather binge watch my favorite flicks
Real love maybe you're a ghost
Pass the snacks let's make a toast

[Verse 3]
Gave myself some roses too
Laugh alone but it's still cool
On a date with my pet hawk
No need for any small talk

[Outro]
Now the night is winding down
The candy's gone, the movie's drowned
I'll toss the roses, recycle the wine
But I'll savor the solo love that's mine

[Bridge]
Valentine you're just a stupid myth
I'd rather binge watch my favorite flicks
Real love maybe you're a ghost
Pass the snacks let's make a toast

[Verse 3]
Gave myself some roses too
Laugh alone but it's still cool
On a date with my pet hawk
No need for any small talk

[Outro]
Now the night is winding down
The candy's gone, the movie's drowned
I'll toss the roses, recycle the wine
But I'll savor the solo love that's mine

Love Stinks but I like the Candy

This song is an electrifying anthem that captures the thrill and excitement of a whirlwind romance. With its pulsating beat and intoxicating lyrics, it's a wild ride of passion, energy, and desire, where two hearts collide in a burst of neon-lit excitement, and the night becomes their playground. Written specifically for Valentine's Day, this track embodies the spirit of love, lust, and adventure that comes with celebrating that special someone - or someone new. 

So turn up the volume, let loose, and dance into the wild night with the one who sets your heart on fire!


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Woke up to roses scattered on the ground
Lightning in my veins don't need to calm down
Cupid's dart hit hard like crashing sound
Feels like a rollercoaster all around 

[Verse 2]
High heels clicking on the city streets
Heartbeat synced with hypnotizing beats
Lips like sugar got me feeling sweet
Tonight's our stage, let's make the crowd leap 

[Chorus]
Hearts on fire burning neon bright
Tangled up under the flashing lights
This love's electric feels so right
Dance with me through the wild night 

[Verse 3]
Hand in hand, we're rebels in the smoke
Vodka shots and secret inside jokes
Chemistry in flames a burning stroke
Living on the edge ain't no hope broke 

[Bridge]
Whispered words like magic in my ear
Turn my dark to light my every fear
Like a beaming star, you always steer
Let's make this moment loud and clear 

[Chorus]
Hearts on fire burning neon bright
Tangled up under the flashing lights
This love's electric feels so right
Dance with me through the wild night

[Bridge]
Whispered words like magic in my ear
Turn my dark to light my every fear
Like a beaming star, you always steer
Let's make this moment loud and clear 

[Chorus]
Hearts on fire burning neon bright
Tangled up under the flashing lights
This love's electric feels so right
Dance with me through the wild night


Heart's Wild Ride

This song is a contemplative reflection on the passage of time and the human experience. It's a thoughtful exploration of love, loss, and the fleeting nature of life. As I look to the future, I find myself pondering the moments that shape us, and the love that remains a constant, even as everything else changes.

Photo by: Future Self Face Aging Changer app.  YIKES!! LOL


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
In the mirror's gaze, I see a stranger's face
A reflection worn, by time and endless space
The lines that crease my skin, tell stories of their own
Of laughter, tears, and love, that's been and gone

[Chorus]
I'm fading like the light, in the twilight of my years
A fleeting moment's beauty, lost in the passing tears
I'm chasing the shadows, of a life that's slipping away
Trying to hold on to the past, but it's fading every day

[Verse 2]
Memories haunt me, like a ghostly refrain
Echoes of a love, that's lost, yet remains
The fire that once burned, now a smoldering ember
A reminder of the passion, that's slowly surrendering

[Chorus]
I'm fading like the light, in the twilight of my years
A fleeting moment's beauty, lost in the passing tears
I'm chasing the shadows, of a life that's slipping away
Trying to hold on to the past, but it's fading every day

[Bridge]
Maybe in the darkness, I'll find a peaceful place
Where the weight of time, is lifted from my face
And though my body weakens, my heart remains the same
I'll hold on to love, and never let it fade

[Chorus]
I'm fading like the light, in the twilight of my years
A fleeting moment's beauty, lost in the passing tears
I'm chasing the shadows, of a life that's slipping away
Trying to hold on to the past, but it's fading every day

[Outro]
In the silence, I'll find my way
To a place where love, will forever stay
And though I'm fading, my heart will remain
A flame that burns, in the darkness, forever sustained.

Twilight Years

This song is a provocative, energetic and addictive electronic anthem that explores the themes of intimacy, using technological metaphors to describe a passionate and intense connection of overload, amplification, and release of a passionate and intense connection. With its driving beats and infectious hooks, the song builds a sense of tension and urgency, creating a sense of sonic sensuality, urging the listener to "blow their circuit" and "override" their limits. The lyrics are a frenetic mix of technological metaphors and rebellious attitude, creating a sense of sexual chaos and unbridled electronic energy.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
Blow your circuit
Override
Amplify it
Modified
Make them batteries slide
(Whoo!)
Take it
Amplify it
Mmm
These electronics fried

[Chorus]
Blow your circuit
Overload
Turn it up now
Make it known
Blow your signal
Overload it
T-t-take it up
Override

[Verse 2]
This system's loose
A hundred and five degrees
Mmm (Take it up)

[Bridge]
Signal
What's your signal? 
Effervescent
Blow your circuit
Amplified (Mmm)
Take it
Take it
Take it
Blow your circuit
Overload

[Chorus]
Blow your signal
Overload it
Take it
Take it
Take it
T-t-take it up
Override

[Bridge]
Signal
What's your signal? 
Effervescent
Blow your circuit
Amplified
Amplified

[Verse 3]
Let's blow
Overblow
Override
Override
Switch to override
You can tell we're high and fried
Make them batteries slide
You can tell we're high and fried
Mmm
Fry
Fry
(Ah)
Mmm
What you wastin' time for?



Electronic Sex

Step into a hauntingly beautiful and deeply personal sonic landscape, crafted especially for anyone who has ever felt the debilitating weight of chronic illness. This powerful and emotional ballad, reminiscent of the iconic style of Evanescence, delves into the darkest corners of the human experience, where the lines between physical and emotional pain are blurred. With poignant lyrics and soaring vocals, the song paints a vivid picture of the struggle to maintain one's sense of identity and self amidst the fragility and suffering that threatens to consume them. It's a raw, honest, and ultimately uplifting anthem for anyone who has ever felt lost, alone, or broken, and a testament to the enduring power of the human spirit.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
Shadows crawl beneath my skin
Burning fever from within
Pale reflections of my pain
Breaking down, losing my frame

[Chorus]
Sickness takes me, pulls me down
Drowning in this broken ground
Can't escape this hollow ache
My body starts to break

[Verse 2]
Whispers echo through my veins
Weakness trembles, breaks my chains
Fragile moments slip away
Fighting phantoms day by day

[Chorus]
Sickness takes me, pulls me down
Drowning in this broken ground
Can't escape this hollow ache
My body starts to break

[Bridge]
Who am I beneath this storm?
Fading from my normal form
Healing seems so far away
Will I find myself today?

[Verse 3]
Silent screams behind closed eyes
Body crumbling, spirit tries
Fragments of my former self
Scattered like forgotten wealth

[Chorus]
Sickness takes me, pulls me down
Drowning in this broken ground
Can't escape this hollow ache
My body starts to break

[Outro]
Fever's embrace...
Fever's embrace...

Fever's embrace...
Fever's embrace...

Thank you to the incredible @DJShAnkAri for remixing this track. ❤️ 
https://on.soundcloud.com/GYq88KLbH85Ny61nPj

Sickness Takes Me

This haunting melody delves into the depths of loneliness and despair that can accompany aging. The song paints a poignant picture of my birthday (February 18th), spent all alone, as I have spent my last ten birthdays. Through its melancholic verses and chorus, it captures the essence of feeling forgotten and invisible as time marches on relentlessly.

The lyrics explore themes of isolation, with silent phones and empty rooms serving as stark reminders of absent friends and family. The imagery of flickering candles symbolizes the fleeting nature of hope and vitality, mirroring the sense of fading away. 

The chorus, with its ironic "Happy birthday to me," underscores the contrast between societal expectations of celebration and the reality of solitude. The bridge delves deeper into existential questions, pondering the meaning of life as one grows older and feels increasingly disconnected from the world.

Throughout the song, there's a palpable sense of resignation and acceptance of one's fate, yet it also subtly hints at a desire for connection and understanding. The Evanescence-inspired style, known for its gothic undertones and emotional intensity, perfectly complements the raw, vulnerable emotions expressed in the lyrics.

This song serves as a poignant reflection on aging, loneliness, and the human need for connection, resonating with anyone who has ever felt overlooked or left behind by the passage of time.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1:]
Another year slips away
Shadows lengthen, hair turns gray
Another birthday, a milestone passed
Memories fade, nothing lasts

[Chorus:]
Happy birthday to me
In the dark, I can't see
Candles flicker, then they're gone
Just like hope, it won't be long

[Verse 2:]
Silent phone, empty room
No one calls to break the gloom
Friends and family, where are you?
Another day I'll muddle through

[Chorus:]
Happy birthday to me
In the dark, I can't see
Candles flicker, then they're gone
Just like hope, it won't be long

[Bridge:]
Time marches on, relentless, cold
I'm left behind as I grow old
Is this all there is to be?
A fading soul, no longer free

[Chorus:]
Happy birthday to me
In the dark, I can't see
Candles flicker, then they're gone
Just like hope, it won't be long

[Outro:]
Happy birthday to me
In the dark, I can't see
Candles flicker, then they're gone
Just like hope, it won't be long
Just like me, were do I belong?

Fading Candles

This song is a romantic and introspective ballad that explores the deep emotional connection between two people. With lyrics that touch on the idea of two souls colliding in the darkness, the song delves into the themes of love, longing, and the unbreakable bond between two hearts.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
In the silence, I feel your heartbeat
A rhythm that echoes, the pulse of our souls meet
Through the noise, I hear your whisper call
A siren's voice, that beckons me to fall

[Chorus]
Can you feel it too?
The connection that we hold true
In the darkness, we collide
Two hearts beating, side by side

[Verse 2]
Like a ghost, you haunt my every thought
A presence that lingers, long after we're caught
In the shadows, I see your eyes
A window to the soul, where our hearts realize

[Chorus]
Can you feel it too?
The connection that we hold true
In the darkness, we collide
Two hearts beating, side by side

[Bridge]
We're two lost souls, in a world untold
Finding our way, through the darkness we're told
But in each other's eyes, we see the light
A guiding star, that leads us through the night

[Chorus]
Can you feel it too?
The connection that we hold true
In the darkness, we collide
Two hearts beating, side by side

[Outro:]
In the silence, our hearts entwine
A bond that's strong, a love divine
Through the darkness, we'll find our way
Together, we'll face the dawn of day.

Can You Feel It Too

This song is an energetic and romantic anthem that captures the thrill and freedom of a night out with the one you love. With its infectious beat and vibrant lyrics, the song conveys the excitement of losing yourself in the moment, surrounded by the bright lights and pulsating energy of the city. It's a celebration of love, spontaneity, and the joy of living in the moment.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
The city lights flicker bright in the night
Dancing through the streets no clue of the time
Laughing 'til we cry hearts full of delight
This electric love it's our only crime

[Pre-Chorus]
We don't need a reason just a beat for our feet
Catch the rhythm baby feel that heavenly heat
Underneath the stars we make our own fate
Love's the only drug and we're never late

[Chorus]
Midnight fireworks ignite the sky
We're living in the moment just you and I
Pouring out our hearts into the neon glow
In this crazy night we lose control

[Verse 2]
Every song that plays it lifts us higher
Spinning round the floor only fuelin' the fire
Glimmering laughter wrapping us like a wire
In this vibrant glow I’m never getting tired

[Pre-Chorus]
We don’t need a reason just a beat for our feet
Catch the rhythm baby feel that heavenly heat
Underneath the stars we make our own fate
Love's the only drug and we’re never late

[Chorus]
Midnight fireworks ignite the sky
We're living in the moment just you and I
Pouring out our hearts into the neon glow
In this crazy night we lose control

[Bridge]
We'll take the leap, into the unknown
Our hearts beating fast, like a runaway tone
In this endless night, we'll find our way
Through the city's noise, to a brand new day

[Verse 3]
Neon dreams, they never fade
We'll chase the sunrise, in every shade
Our love's a flame, that burns so bright
In the city's darkness, we'll shine like a light

[Pre-Chorus]
We don’t need a reason just a beat for our feet
Catch the rhythm baby feel that heavenly heat
Underneath the stars we make our own fate
Love's the only drug and we’re never late

[Chorus]
Midnight fireworks ignite the sky
We're living in the moment just you and I
Pouring out our hearts into the neon glow
In this crazy night we lose control

[Outro]
Fading lights, the night's last sigh
We'll chase the sunrise, side by side
The music's over, but we'll remain
Lost in the moment, our love will sustain.

Midnight Fireworks

This song is a haunting and emotional exploration of the darker corners of the human experience. On its surface, it's a poignant portrayal of grief and loss, with lyrics that conjure images of a desperate search for a missing piece of one's soul. But as the song delves deeper, it reveals a more intimate and personal struggle - the fragmentation of one's own mind. 

With its soaring vocals and crushing instrumentation, this song is a sonic representation of the turmoil that can ravage the inner world. It's a cry for help, a desperate attempt to hold on to sanity as the darkness closes in. 

And yet, despite its bleak themes, the song remains strangely uplifting - a testament to the human spirit's capacity for resilience and survival. Ultimately, its meaning is left open to interpretation, inviting listeners to project their own experiences and emotions onto its haunting landscape.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
It's getting darker
Darker
Crawling under
Under
It's soaking through me
Through me
Straight into my head 

[Verse 2]
It calls my name
Whispers
But
No
That girl's not her
No agency
Soft murmurs
She might as well be dead 

[Chorus]
Covered in dirt and blood hazy
Trapped in anxiety plagued sea
In my chest, tic-ticking heart bleeds
Nevermore to be seen
Somebody help me 

[Verse 3]
Last time laid eyes sun 
was bright above the sky
And now
My bleeding eyes weep
As her visage strikes the air around her
It turns to dust
That girl isn't here
She's just in our head
And she... 

[Chorus]
Covered in dirt and blood hazy
Trapped in anxiety plagued sea
In my chest, tic-ticking heart bleeds
Nevermore to be seen
Somebody help me 

[Verse 4 X2]
She helped lost souls peering through
Layers of hell into you
And blinking eyes heaven sweet froze
The life from tissue
Now ice cold

Fracture

This song is a haunting and emotional journey into the depths of darkness, pain, and mental turmoil. It's a raw and honest portrayal of feeling trapped in a never-ending cycle of suffering, with fear, anxiety, and despair looming large. 

The lyrics convey a sense of desperation and hopelessness, as I'm drowning in my own emotions, unable to escape the shadows that haunt me. The song's atmospheric and introspective soundscapes perfectly capture the feeling of being lost and alone in a world that seems to be suffocating me. 

Throughout the song, the I grapple with the idea of losing myself to my inner demons, wondering if I'll ever find a way out of the darkness. The song's poignant and emotional delivery makes for a deeply relatable and cathartic listening experience.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Lost in the darkness, I'm searching for light
A never-ending nightmare, haunting my sight
Can't sleep, can't wake up, I'm drowning in pain
A prisoner of my mind, forever in chains 

[Chorus]
I'm going under, suffocating slow
A slave to these dreams, that I'll never let go
Is this the end of everything? Or just a new way to bleed?
Trapped in the fog, where shadows proceed 

[Verse 2:]
Fear is a poison, that infects my soul
A constant reminder, of the darkness I hold
I try to escape, but it pulls me back down
A never-ending cycle, of this endless frown 

[Chorus]
I'm going under, suffocating slow
A slave to these dreams, that I'll never let go
Is this the end of everything? Or just a new way to bleed?
Trapped in the fog, where shadows proceed 

[Bridge]
It's true, we're all a little insane
Fear is only in our minds, a toxic refrain
But what if I'm lost, and can't find my way?
Will I forever roam, in this endless gray? 

[Chorus:]
I'm going under, suffocating slow
A slave to these dreams, that I'll never let go
Is this the end of everything? Or just a new way to bleed?
Trapped in the fog, where shadows proceed 

[Outro]
I'm fading away, into the night
A whisper of hope, in this desperate fight
But the darkness whispers, "You'll never be free"
And I'm trapped, forever, in this misery.



I'm Going Under

Automatic For The People

Everybody Hurts

20/20

Last Resort (2020)

Better Without You

Songwriting has been a lifelong passion for me, dating back to elementary school when I first began crafting stories, poems, and eventually lyrics. As a former drummer in various bands, I always relied on others to bring my words to life musically. However, after a long hiatus from drumming, I decided to take the leap and learn to compose music to accompany my lyrics. Through classes and dedication, I've embarked on a new journey, breathing fresh life into old lyrics and penning new ones. You'll find a mix of older and newer works here. Especially for some of the lyrics. 

Music has been a part of me for as long as I can remember. One of my earliest memories is being completely entranced by 'The Little Drummer Boy' as a very young child. There was something about the rhythm and the melody that just captivated me. I must have played it a thousand times, wearing the record out, and from that moment on, I was hooked. I knew I wanted to be a drummer and to create that magic for others. 

But I was too young then, and of course, I couldn't afford a drum set just yet. So, I turned to writing as a way to express myself. As I mentioned above, I started with stories, then poems, and eventually, lyrics. I found that writing was not only a way to tap into my creativity, but also a way to process my emotions and experiences. 

As I grew older, my love for music only deepened. I realized that music has this incredible power to transport us to different times and places, to evoke emotions and memories that we thought were long forgotten. It's a universal language that can bring people together like nothing else can. 

For me, writing lyrics is a cathartic experience. It's a way for me to tap into my emotions, to process the world around me, and to create something that I hope will resonate with others. And when I hear my words come to life in a song, it's truly magical. It's a feeling that never gets old, and it's what keeps me coming back to music time and time again. 

I love many genres of music and artists of many genres. And if you listen to some of my songs, you will find that I like to make songs of different genres as well as mix different genres into each song. One of my all-time favorite bands is Evanescence, and I have made a lot of songs where I have tried my best to emulate that sound. 

Now, I have recently started experimenting with new sounds. I never heard of glitch beats before I took music classes, and now I'm fascinated with the sound, so I have been experimenting with glitch beats recently. 

I hope you enjoy some of my songs. And thanks so much to everyone who has been listening so far. I truly appreciate it. I welcome constructive feedback to help me grow as an artist, and I appreciate your support. ❤️

BTW if you follow me, I will ALWAYS follow back. If I like your music, I will follow you, but if you don't follow me back within a week or so I will probably unfollow. The same goes for when I see someone listening to my music, I WILL follow, however, if they don't follow me back within a week or so, I'll unfollow, because I'm at my limit of follows and I want to follow back everyone who follows me. Did not know that SoundCloud limits us to following only 2000. 😢

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VickStiX's Artist Manifesto
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I am the static between truth and noise.
A pulse that cracks the silence open.
When the world forgets its conscience,
I remind it — one beat, one lyric, one spark.

I don’t shout to divide; I sing to awaken.
I don’t chase fame; I chase clarity.
My art is not a weapon — it’s a flare in the dark.
A signal to every soul that still believes in better.

Let the trolls rage, let the cowards hide.
They can’t drown out a voice that’s tuned to truth.
I will paint their lies in sound and light
until justice has a melody again.

Because protest is not anger — it’s hope with a megaphone.
And I was born to be loud.

🎶 VickStiX — Truth. Rhythm. Revolution.










