Your Mix 2

“I live with OCD and I am on the ADHD spectrum, which is the inspiration behind this song. A deep dive into my favourite pop/punk albums from my youth inspired me to revisit this and make it into the song I always knew it could be. This is about anxiety and exposure treatment; how it is a challenge and that in time it will get better and will be OK. I hope you enjoy this anthem” 

feeling hope again. 

It’s burning up the tinder box
Weigh on my brain like broken rocks 
I want you to leave by the front door
Instead I’m letting you put your feet under the table
I’m having drinks with a monster 
And it’s never closing time 
The whispers in my brain transmit like the loudest din and the rumours are always lies 

I’m living moment to moment
It’s hard
It’s hard 
It’s hard
It’s hard
Letting you in
Not figuring you out
Brain volumes on 10 
I’m feeling hope again 

This trapeze I’m jumping off
Down to my feet and staying put
Keeping you here on my terms
Brains on fire my mind burns
Over there I put you out 
Down by the water into a cloud
Of smoke you go to live another day 
Now hold you dear, friend and enemy

© heart house and the new kindness. 2025

Written, performed, recorded, produced and mixed by heart house and the new kindness. 
Mastered by DOLBY

feeling hope again.

Sainsonic feat Synthesizer V Eri - Call Me

This song is about resilience and determination. It's about being broken, battered, and bruised, but refusing to let those experiences define me. I've been through the flames, but I'm still burning, still standing. The song is a declaration of strength, a refusal to be defeated or silenced. It's about rising above the pain and the noise, and finding a voice that's born from fire. I'm unbroken, I'm untamed, and I'm still standing, and that's a message I want to share with all of you.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
I've been to the edge, I've been to the floor
I've been broken, but I'm walking out the door
I've been lied to, I've been cheated
But I won't let it define me, no, I won't be defeated 

[Chorus]
I'm unbroken, I'm untamed
I'm a fire that's still burning
I've been through the flames, but I'm not the same
I'm unbroken, I'm still standing, still standing 

[Verse 2]
I've been to the darkness, I've been to the night
I've been searching for a light, a beacon in the fight
I've been trying to find my way, through the noise and the pain
But I won't let it break me, no, I won't be chained 

[Chorus]
I'm unbroken, I'm untamed
I'm a fire that's still burning
I've been through the flames, but I'm not the same
I'm unbroken, I'm still standing, still standing 

[Verse 3]
I’ve been called too much, been told to hush
Felt the world try to crush me with every push
But I scream louder, I rise higher
You can't drown a voice that's born from fire 

[Bridge]
So go ahead and write me off again
Say I'm too wild, too fierce, too much to mend
But every scar is just proof I lived
And every fall gave me more to give 

[Chorus]
I'm unbroken, I'm untamed
I'm a fire that's still burning
I've been through the flames, but I'm not the same
I'm unbroken, I'm still standing, still standing 

[Outro]
Still standing, still burning
Still fierce, still learning
I’m unbroken — yeah, I’m still standing

Still Standing

Taken from "The Goddess Pages" by Laurie Sue Brockway

For Those Who Want To Move On

The kings of violence

This song is a heartfelt and introspective ballad that explores the complexities of a deep, spiritual connection between two people who couldn't quite bridge the gap between their understanding of love. Inspired by ShAnkAri's story, the lyrics delve into the pain and longing that can come from loving someone who doesn't see or believe in the same way. It's a poignant reflection on the power of love to reshape our souls, even when it's not reciprocated in the way we hope. 

I'd like to thank the incredible @DJShAnkAri for sharing her story and inspiring this song, and for her input into this piece. Also for her amazing remix...
https://on.soundcloud.com/n4fyhhGxUPX5NHKhDj


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
I whispered in stardust, I prayed through the skies
You felt like a lifetime behind unseen eyes
I reached with my soul, no distance too far
But you never saw me—you just traced the stars

[Pre-Chorus]
I said I loved you, not loud but true
In silence, in symbols, in all I knew

[Chorus]
But you never believed me
Not once, not really
You thought I was dreaming
Or reading too deeply
Like my heart was a story
I made up to feel whole
But loving you rewrote my soul
And you never believed me

[Verse 2]
I studied your shadows, I learned every sign
In a language of longing, outside of time
You held the map, but looked away
Afraid of a path you didn’t create

[Pre-Chorus]
I sent you light in a world gone dim
You thought it was just the wind

[Chorus]
But you never believed me
Not once, not really
You thought I was dreaming
Or reading too deeply
Like my heart was a story
I made up to feel whole
But loving you rewrote my soul
And you never believed me

[Verse 3]
Is love a gesture, or is it a vow? 
Is it holding on, or letting go now? 
You wanted proof in a different form 
And I was the rain—you needed the storm

[Chorus]
We both said “I love you” 
But not in the same voice 
You meant protection 
I meant choice 
You meant fire 
I meant grace 
We loved in totally different space 
And that’s how even soulmates break— 
When meanings don’t translate

[Bridge]
Maybe you thought love must be proven
With bodies and years, not a soul that’s been chosen
But just because we never met
Doesn’t mean I could forget
You were the pulse beneath my breath

[Chorus]
Still you never believed me
Not once, not really
You thought I was dreaming
Or reading too deeply
Like my heart was a story
I made up to feel whole
But loving you rewrote my soul

[Chorus]
You never believed me
Not once, not truly
You stayed behind reason
While I loved you purely
Like a prayer with no ending
Like a vow with no sound
But you never turned around
You never believed me

[Outro]
And maybe you never will
But I loved you still

[Post-Outro] 
We all carry our own definition 
And none of us ask permission 
To love the way we understand 
Even if no one takes our hand... 

You Never Believed Me

This song is a raw and emotional love letter to my younger self, a message of hard-earned wisdom and vulnerable strength. I'm looking back on the struggles and mistakes I made, and I want to tell my younger self to stand strong, to not compromise who you are to fit someone else's idea of what's acceptable. The song is about embracing your true self, your worth, and your voice, and not letting the world dim your light. It's a message of empowerment, of self-love, and of rising above the expectations and judgments of others. I'm urging myself, and anyone who's listening, to be brave, to shine, and to be unapologetically who you are.

*Fun fact: Both the present-day and young Vicky in this painting are based on real photos of me!  You probably recognize the present me, but I thought you all might think it's cool to know that my 5-year-old self is also captured here as well. 👧😍


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Hey little wildflower, knees all scraped
You dream in thunder, but you're taught to wait
They’ll call you too loud, too much, too free
But don't let the world rewrite your story 

[Pre-Chorus]
I know you wanna run, I know you're scared to fall
But baby, trust your gut—don't listen when they call
You trouble just for shining like the sun 

[Chorus]
Don't be me, don't fold to please
Don’t kiss boys just to feel seen
Don’t hide your light to calm the room
Don’t chase love that makes you bruise 

If I could go back, I’d scream it loud
You’re enough, right now, without the crowd
So don’t be me—be who I couldn’t be 

[Verse 2]
You're gonna wear shame like it's a dress
Swallowing dreams you can't confess
But guilt was never meant for girls like you
You were born with fire, not to be subdued 

[Pre-Chorus]
I know you think it’s love when it hurts the most
But you don’t need to bleed just to feel close
You're worthy even when you walk alone 

[Chorus]
Don't be me, don't fold to please
Don’t kiss boys just to feel seen
Don’t hide your light to calm the room
Don’t chase love that makes you bruise 

If I could go back, I’d scream it loud
You’re enough, right now, without the crowd
So don’t be me—be who I couldn’t be 

[Verse 3]
You're gonna dance with all your fears
Fall apart for all the wrong careers
But keep your heart, don’t sell it cheap
And never trade your voice for sleep 

[Bridge]
Tattoo your truth on every scar
You’re not broken—just battle-marked
The world’s gonna try to shrink your flame
But baby, rise and burn the same 

[Chorus]
Don't be me, don't fold to please
Don’t kiss boys just to feel seen
Don’t hide your light to calm the room
Don’t chase love that makes you bruise 

If I could go back, I’d scream it loud
You’re enough, right now, without the crowd
So don’t be me—be who I couldn’t be 

[Chorus]
Don’t be me, don’t bend and break
Don’t give your magic for their sake
You’re already gold beneath the skin
Let the girl you are begin again 

[Outro]
So dance, little wildflower—dance and scream
Be the girl I lost in chasing dreams
Don’t be me
Don’t be me

Don’t Be Me

This song is a tongue-in-cheek, playful anthem about embracing individuality and confidence. It's a sarcastic response to those who might try to one-up or compare themselves to others, with a dash of humor and a healthy dose of swagger. I'm poking fun at the idea of "coolness" and the absurdity of trying to prove oneself, all while showcasing a carefree and cheeky attitude.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
I got a hole in my socks
But at least I rock
Better than you ever did
I've been a number of things
And seen some unbelievable things
That would make your head spin

[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause
Baby
I know
I've seen a UFO
I've been abducted before
And I can prove it to you
But
Baby
I won't
No
Baby
I don't
I don't have anything to show
Because I'm cooler than you

[Chorus]
Cooler than you
I'm cooler than you
I'm cooler than you
I'm cooler than you

[Verse 2]
My name is Chloe with a C-H
I will dance circles 'round you
With your J.D. and your B.A
If you want to be friends
I know a number of people
Who might let you be in the band

[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause
Baby
I know
I've seen a UFO
I've been abducted before
And I can prove it to you
But
Baby
I won't
No
Baby
I don't
I don't have anything to show
Because I'm cooler than you

[Chorus]
Cooler than you
I'm cooler than you
I'm cooler than you
I'm cooler than you


I'm Cooler Than You

In the Arms of Morpheus

When the sun wakes me I don’t feel any warmth
I don’t feel any joy in what the day will bring
Let me return to my slumber
I’ll try to ignore the alarms shrill ring

I want to fall into the arms of Morpheus
I want to lie in the embrace of my dreams
I need to escape my waking days 
They can pass in a haze
Until I am wrapped in the arms of Morpheus

I don’t want to see the light of day
I don’t want to hear the early bird sing
I don’t want to read what the papers say
My bed is king – the light my eyes sting

I want to fall into the arms of Morpheus
I want to lie in the embrace of my dreams
I need to escape my waking days 
They can pass in a haze
Until I am wrapped in the arms of Morpheus

The day it brings pain
The night brings relief
Do I have to go through it all again

The day brings back life cruel reality
It brings back all the mess and the waste
It brings it all back with true clarity
And shows my optimism has been misplaced

I want to fall into the arms of Morpheus
I want to lie in the embrace of my dreams
I need to escape my waking days 
They can pass in a haze
Until I am wrapped in the arms of Morpheus

The day it brings pain
The night brings relief
Do I have to go through it all again

The day it brings pain
The night brings relief
Can’t my dreams stay with me and remain


Thanks to my great friend (rediscovered)  Sandy - for providing the title and chorus - Tombe dans le bras de Morphee

In the Arms of Morpheus

They: Keep it light, keep it simple.

Me: Epic orchestral roar, utterly bombastic and grandiose! 👈🎵💥🔥👈

Rhapsodia Rubra

A song idea in Finnish language - a short demo - summer vibes but not really - Lyrics below: both FI / EN

Sound of rain - my tears for OZZY ... even though he said... No More Tears - RIP.

"Katson ulos, kaikki kaunista, sisälläni tyhjyys harmaana.
En tiedä mistä minne meen, meen sinne minne tie vieneen
On mulla vain hetki tää, ei muuta mitään ihmeempää...

Katson ulos, kaikki kaunista, sisälläni tyhjyys harmaana.
En tiedä mistä minne meen, meen sinne minne tie vieneen
On mulla vain hetki tää, ei muuta mitään ihmeempää..."

Translation of Lyrics

"I look outside, everything is beautiful, inside me only grey emptiness. I don't know where I'm going, I'm going where the road takes me. I only have this moment, nothing else to build on.

I look outside, everything is beautiful, inside me only grey emptiness. I don't know where I'm going, I'm going where the road takes me. I only have this moment, nothing else to build on"

vain hetki tää

vain hetki tää - only this moment ( electro-acoustic, bass and vocals ) short demo - Lyrics FI / EN

Jump Up (Prod.by H.Gee)

Despite the Pain

Fish Can't Walk

Please support the track if you like it:)

beat: credit prod. peril

upstage

A queer exodus anthem for the ages. “I’m Out. I’m Done. I’m Gone.” isn’t just a song — it’s a fucking statement. It’s the moment you pick your dignity off the floor, glitter still on your cheekbones, and strut straight out the firestorm like you own the pavement.  Built on neon beats, bruised pride, and a disco heart that refuses to die, this track is your final word. For anyone who's ever been pushed too far — this one’s for you. Turn it up. Walk away. And don’t fucking look back.

I'm Out, I'm Done, I'm Gone

I’m Out, I’m Done, I’m Gone - Gone Gone Gone  Mix

Heavy Punk Rock 'n' Roll band turns into Synthwave nowadays! Brand NEW album "Ultraviolet Cosmos" available NOW!
https://shockthealgorithm.bandcamp.com/album/ultraviolet-cosmos

Songwriting has been a lifelong passion for me, dating back to elementary school when I first began crafting stories, poems, and eventually lyrics. As a former drummer in various bands, I always relied on others to bring my words to life musically. However, after a long hiatus from drumming, I decided to take the leap and learn to compose music to accompany my lyrics. Through classes and dedication, I've embarked on a new journey, breathing fresh life into old lyrics and penning new ones. You'll find a mix of older and newer works here. Especially for some of the lyrics. 

Music has been a part of me for as long as I can remember. One of my earliest memories is being completely entranced by 'The Little Drummer Boy' as a very young child. There was something about the rhythm and the melody that just captivated me. I must have played it a thousand times, wearing the record out, and from that moment on, I was hooked. I knew I wanted to be a drummer and to create that magic for others. 

But I was too young then, and of course, I couldn't afford a drum set just yet. So, I turned to writing as a way to express myself. As I mentioned above, I started with stories, then poems, and eventually, lyrics. I found that writing was not only a way to tap into my creativity, but also a way to process my emotions and experiences. 

As I grew older, my love for music only deepened. I realized that music has this incredible power to transport us to different times and places, to evoke emotions and memories that we thought were long forgotten. It's a universal language that can bring people together like nothing else can. 

For me, writing lyrics is a cathartic experience. It's a way for me to tap into my emotions, to process the world around me, and to create something that I hope will resonate with others. And when I hear my words come to life in a song, it's truly magical. It's a feeling that never gets old, and it's what keeps me coming back to music time and time again. 

I love many genres of music and artists of many genres. And if you listen to some of my songs, you will find that I like to make songs of different genres as well as mix different genres into each song. One of my all-time favorite bands is Evanescence, and I have made a lot of songs where I have tried my best to emulate that sound. 

Now, I have recently started experimenting with new sounds. I never heard of glitch beats before I took music classes, and now I'm fascinated with the sound, so I have been experimenting with glitch beats recently. 

I hope you enjoy some of my songs. And thanks so much to everyone who has been listening so far. I truly appreciate it. I welcome constructive feedback to help me grow as an artist, and I appreciate your support. ❤️

BTW if you follow me, I will ALWAYS follow back. If I like your music, I will follow you, but if you don't follow me back within a week or so I will probably unfollow. The same goes for when I see someone listening to my music, I WILL follow, however, if they don't follow me back within a week or so, I'll unfollow, because I'd like to even out my follows versus followers numbers. I'm following way more than I'm being followed back. 😢 Hope that makes sense? 😘













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