@kinelle-man Thank you so very much. ❣️

"Especially since none of them listen to my songs now. Why not force them to after I'm gone? LOL" : eheheh same same, gonna craft a 3 hours dj mix to broadcast this day 😁😉 - amazing song, sis, gonna remix and play it in this very final set ! 🤭😉🤗😘😘

Beautiful dirge. Mournful yet enlightened. Delicate. … … … … My days ahead are far less than my days behind and I, too, comtempait my demise. For the ones I know who have left this world, my memories of them are treasures I'll keep until my day comes. I hope I am remembered by some.

Your Mix 2

Interpretación y arreglos : Jesús Flores.
Producción y Mazterizacion: Arturo Guevara G.
The Noise Infection Studio

Querido Amigo

Enough

Written by Mark.H.F and Heliopolis 5
Guitars by Mark.H.F.
Keyboards, arranging and mastering by Heliopolis 5

This song is a collaboration with my good friend Mark who supplied the files to his super guitar-based rock song Bad Orange. I have remixed his track, taking his guitar riffs and tried to make something which retains the rock feel of the original but is pretty different as well. We are both happy with the result. You can check out Mark’s original Bad Orange track by going to @mfishman71 ( as well as his other great guitar driven tracks, of course ).

Juiced

This song is a personal reflection on mortality and the legacy I hope to leave behind. I'm asking my loved ones to celebrate the life I lived, rather than mourning my passing. The lyrics are a bittersweet reflection on the memories I've made, the love I've shared, and the beauty of the world I'll leave behind. I'm encouraging those I love to hold onto the good times, to find strength and hope in the memories we made together, and to let my legacy be a light in the darkness. I want this song to be played at my funeral as a final message of love and hope to all my family and friends who attend my funeral.

*Side note: This song and 'Leave the Light' 
https://on.soundcloud.com/X4eA6djFjzUg1gtGxV were both born one night while watching a movie, and during a funeral scene, the song brought me to tears.  I thought how cool it would be to leave some final messages to my loved ones with my own songs. Especially since none of them listen to my songs now. Why not force them to after I'm gone? LOL


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
In the silence of my final night
I'll think of all the loved ones I'll leave behind
The memories of laughter, tears, and fights
Will echo through my mind, a bittersweet refrain 

[Chorus]
When my time comes, let the sun shine bright
Don't gather 'round to mourn the night
Celebrate the life that I lived with glee
And let the memories of me set your hearts free 

[Verse 2]
I'll miss the warmth of summer's gentle breeze
The smell of autumn leaves, the stars up in the trees
The way the world awakens, full of life and sound
All these things will fade, and I'll be lost, underground 

[Chorus]
When my time comes, let the sun shine bright
Don't gather 'round to mourn the night
Celebrate the life that I lived with glee
And let the memories of me set your hearts free 

[Bridge]
In the darkness, I'll find my way
To a place where love will never fade
But for you, my loved ones, I'll always stay
In the memories we made, in the love we shared each day 

[Verse 3]
I'll leave behind the fragments of my heart
The pieces of my soul, the love that we impart
Don't let my passing be a heavy weight
Just hold on to the good times, and let the memories create 

[Chorus]
When my time comes, let the sun shine bright
Don't gather 'round to mourn the night
Celebrate the life that I lived with glee
And let the memories of me set your hearts free 

[Outro]
When I'm gone, don't let me be forgot
Just live on, and let my memory be what
Gives you strength, gives you hope, gives you light
In the darkness of night.


When I'm Gone

This song is about resilience and determination. It's about being broken, battered, and bruised, but refusing to let those experiences define me. I've been through the flames, but I'm still burning, still standing. The song is a declaration of strength, a refusal to be defeated or silenced. It's about rising above the pain and the noise, and finding a voice that's born from fire. I'm unbroken, I'm untamed, and I'm still standing, and that's a message I want to share with all of you.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
I've been to the edge, I've been to the floor
I've been broken, but I'm walking out the door
I've been lied to, I've been cheated
But I won't let it define me, no, I won't be defeated 

[Chorus]
I'm unbroken, I'm untamed
I'm a fire that's still burning
I've been through the flames, but I'm not the same
I'm unbroken, I'm still standing, still standing 

[Verse 2]
I've been to the darkness, I've been to the night
I've been searching for a light, a beacon in the fight
I've been trying to find my way, through the noise and the pain
But I won't let it break me, no, I won't be chained 

[Chorus]
I'm unbroken, I'm untamed
I'm a fire that's still burning
I've been through the flames, but I'm not the same
I'm unbroken, I'm still standing, still standing 

[Verse 3]
I’ve been called too much, been told to hush
Felt the world try to crush me with every push
But I scream louder, I rise higher
You can't drown a voice that's born from fire 

[Bridge]
So go ahead and write me off again
Say I'm too wild, too fierce, too much to mend
But every scar is just proof I lived
And every fall gave me more to give 

[Chorus]
I'm unbroken, I'm untamed
I'm a fire that's still burning
I've been through the flames, but I'm not the same
I'm unbroken, I'm still standing, still standing 

[Outro]
Still standing, still burning
Still fierce, still learning
I’m unbroken — yeah, I’m still standing

Still Standing

Nice Problems

HUH MIX.mp3

Chills (2025) Remastered

Recorded in Modesto, Ca.   Featuring Vibraphone solo. Selmer Tenor Saxophone solo. Gibson 335 Electric Guitar solo. Fender Electric Bass. Roland Synthesizer Bass. Fender Rhodes Electric Piano Rhythm. Gibson L5 Electric Guitar Rhythm. Drums Acoustic Full drum kit set. Percussion Timbales, Cow Bell, Tree Chimes.

Ipanema

El Bonalita

The kings of violence

This song is a heartfelt and introspective ballad that explores the complexities of a deep, spiritual connection between two people who couldn't quite bridge the gap between their understanding of love. Inspired by ShAnkAri's story, the lyrics delve into the pain and longing that can come from loving someone who doesn't see or believe in the same way. It's a poignant reflection on the power of love to reshape our souls, even when it's not reciprocated in the way we hope. 

I'd like to thank the incredible @DJShAnkAri for sharing her story and inspiring this song, and for her input into this piece. Also for her amazing remix...
https://on.soundcloud.com/n4fyhhGxUPX5NHKhDj


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
I whispered in stardust, I prayed through the skies
You felt like a lifetime behind unseen eyes
I reached with my soul, no distance too far
But you never saw me—you just traced the stars

[Pre-Chorus]
I said I loved you, not loud but true
In silence, in symbols, in all I knew

[Chorus]
But you never believed me
Not once, not really
You thought I was dreaming
Or reading too deeply
Like my heart was a story
I made up to feel whole
But loving you rewrote my soul
And you never believed me

[Verse 2]
I studied your shadows, I learned every sign
In a language of longing, outside of time
You held the map, but looked away
Afraid of a path you didn’t create

[Pre-Chorus]
I sent you light in a world gone dim
You thought it was just the wind

[Chorus]
But you never believed me
Not once, not really
You thought I was dreaming
Or reading too deeply
Like my heart was a story
I made up to feel whole
But loving you rewrote my soul
And you never believed me

[Verse 3]
Is love a gesture, or is it a vow? 
Is it holding on, or letting go now? 
You wanted proof in a different form 
And I was the rain—you needed the storm

[Chorus]
We both said “I love you” 
But not in the same voice 
You meant protection 
I meant choice 
You meant fire 
I meant grace 
We loved in totally different space 
And that’s how even soulmates break— 
When meanings don’t translate

[Bridge]
Maybe you thought love must be proven
With bodies and years, not a soul that’s been chosen
But just because we never met
Doesn’t mean I could forget
You were the pulse beneath my breath

[Chorus]
Still you never believed me
Not once, not really
You thought I was dreaming
Or reading too deeply
Like my heart was a story
I made up to feel whole
But loving you rewrote my soul

[Chorus]
You never believed me
Not once, not truly
You stayed behind reason
While I loved you purely
Like a prayer with no ending
Like a vow with no sound
But you never turned around
You never believed me

[Outro]
And maybe you never will
But I loved you still

[Post-Outro] 
We all carry our own definition 
And none of us ask permission 
To love the way we understand 
Even if no one takes our hand... 

You Never Believed Me

This song is a raw and emotional love letter to my younger self, a message of hard-earned wisdom and vulnerable strength. I'm looking back on the struggles and mistakes I made, and I want to tell my younger self to stand strong, to not compromise who you are to fit someone else's idea of what's acceptable. The song is about embracing your true self, your worth, and your voice, and not letting the world dim your light. It's a message of empowerment, of self-love, and of rising above the expectations and judgments of others. I'm urging myself, and anyone who's listening, to be brave, to shine, and to be unapologetically who you are.

*Fun fact: Both the present-day and young Vicky in this painting are based on real photos of me!  You probably recognize the present me, but I thought you all might think it's cool to know that my 5-year-old self is also captured here as well. 👧😍


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Hey little wildflower, knees all scraped
You dream in thunder, but you're taught to wait
They’ll call you too loud, too much, too free
But don't let the world rewrite your story 

[Pre-Chorus]
I know you wanna run, I know you're scared to fall
But baby, trust your gut—don't listen when they call
You trouble just for shining like the sun 

[Chorus]
Don't be me, don't fold to please
Don’t kiss boys just to feel seen
Don’t hide your light to calm the room
Don’t chase love that makes you bruise 

If I could go back, I’d scream it loud
You’re enough, right now, without the crowd
So don’t be me—be who I couldn’t be 

[Verse 2]
You're gonna wear shame like it's a dress
Swallowing dreams you can't confess
But guilt was never meant for girls like you
You were born with fire, not to be subdued 

[Pre-Chorus]
I know you think it’s love when it hurts the most
But you don’t need to bleed just to feel close
You're worthy even when you walk alone 

[Chorus]
Don't be me, don't fold to please
Don’t kiss boys just to feel seen
Don’t hide your light to calm the room
Don’t chase love that makes you bruise 

If I could go back, I’d scream it loud
You’re enough, right now, without the crowd
So don’t be me—be who I couldn’t be 

[Verse 3]
You're gonna dance with all your fears
Fall apart for all the wrong careers
But keep your heart, don’t sell it cheap
And never trade your voice for sleep 

[Bridge]
Tattoo your truth on every scar
You’re not broken—just battle-marked
The world’s gonna try to shrink your flame
But baby, rise and burn the same 

[Chorus]
Don't be me, don't fold to please
Don’t kiss boys just to feel seen
Don’t hide your light to calm the room
Don’t chase love that makes you bruise 

If I could go back, I’d scream it loud
You’re enough, right now, without the crowd
So don’t be me—be who I couldn’t be 

[Chorus]
Don’t be me, don’t bend and break
Don’t give your magic for their sake
You’re already gold beneath the skin
Let the girl you are begin again 

[Outro]
So dance, little wildflower—dance and scream
Be the girl I lost in chasing dreams
Don’t be me
Don’t be me

Don’t Be Me

Sitting alone at night around a remote campfire in the Bieszczady Mountains, a fascinating area with free-roaming wolves and bears, you feel much more at ease when you can hear a group of horses grazing behind you and enjoy the peace and coolness of the night after a hot day spent carrying riders on long journeys over hills, fields, and meadows.

Horsepower

Fish Can't Walk

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beat: credit prod. peril

upstage

✨ Awakening isn’t just a song—it’s a moment.
A pulse that reminds us we’re human, alive, unbroken.
This beat is for every soul who refuses to be silenced,
For everyone rising into a new world with open eyes. 🌍🔥

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Awakening

Heavy Punk Rock 'n' Roll band turns into Synthwave nowadays! Brand NEW album "Ultraviolet Cosmos" available NOW!
https://shockthealgorithm.bandcamp.com/album/ultraviolet-cosmos

Songwriting has been a lifelong passion for me, dating back to elementary school when I first began crafting stories, poems, and eventually lyrics. As a former drummer in various bands, I always relied on others to bring my words to life musically. However, after a long hiatus from drumming, I decided to take the leap and learn to compose music to accompany my lyrics. Through classes and dedication, I've embarked on a new journey, breathing fresh life into old lyrics and penning new ones. You'll find a mix of older and newer works here. Especially for some of the lyrics. 

Music has been a part of me for as long as I can remember. One of my earliest memories is being completely entranced by 'The Little Drummer Boy' as a very young child. There was something about the rhythm and the melody that just captivated me. I must have played it a thousand times, wearing the record out, and from that moment on, I was hooked. I knew I wanted to be a drummer and to create that magic for others. 

But I was too young then, and of course, I couldn't afford a drum set just yet. So, I turned to writing as a way to express myself. As I mentioned above, I started with stories, then poems, and eventually, lyrics. I found that writing was not only a way to tap into my creativity, but also a way to process my emotions and experiences. 

As I grew older, my love for music only deepened. I realized that music has this incredible power to transport us to different times and places, to evoke emotions and memories that we thought were long forgotten. It's a universal language that can bring people together like nothing else can. 

For me, writing lyrics is a cathartic experience. It's a way for me to tap into my emotions, to process the world around me, and to create something that I hope will resonate with others. And when I hear my words come to life in a song, it's truly magical. It's a feeling that never gets old, and it's what keeps me coming back to music time and time again. 

I love many genres of music and artists of many genres. And if you listen to some of my songs, you will find that I like to make songs of different genres as well as mix different genres into each song. One of my all-time favorite bands is Evanescence, and I have made a lot of songs where I have tried my best to emulate that sound. 

Now, I have recently started experimenting with new sounds. I never heard of glitch beats before I took music classes, and now I'm fascinated with the sound, so I have been experimenting with glitch beats recently. 

I hope you enjoy some of my songs. And thanks so much to everyone who has been listening so far. I truly appreciate it. I welcome constructive feedback to help me grow as an artist, and I appreciate your support. ❤️

BTW if you follow me, I will ALWAYS follow back. If I like your music, I will follow you, but if you don't follow me back within a week or so I will probably unfollow. The same goes for when I see someone listening to my music, I WILL follow, however, if they don't follow me back within a week or so, I'll unfollow, because I'd like to even out my follows versus followers numbers. I'm following way more than I'm being followed back. 😢 Hope that makes sense? 😘













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