ugly (prod siemspark x xmichaelwarren)

prod: caves x irby
mix/master: Anxiety Attacks!
music.anxietyattacksmusic.com/suddenly

LYRICS:
I just wanna freeze my brain
I need some time alone
The stars fade into the sunrise

I wake up and then suddenly
I feel the weight on every part of me
Hey dad I hope you're proud of me
For tryna be what I was meant to be
The kid is alright
You know I made a few friends and now I hold tight
I had to learn it for myself how to move on
Once they're gone

Just wanna feel something like I did last night
I never doubt myself till I see the sun rise
I shouldn't think too much, but I do it sometimes
But I just play it off like it's nothing
Running in circles every night, I just wanna find my way

I wake up and then suddenly
I feel the weight on every part of me
Hey dad I hope you're proud of me
For tryna be what I was meant to be
The kid is alright
You know I made a few friends and now I hold tight
I had to learn it for myself how to move on
Once they're gone

Other Streaming <3

Suddenly [prod. caves x irby]

Produced by Michael Harrison & Dxnnyfxntom

a small lapse of judgement, fast
relay to judge her, the cars all packed
one thing about me
i never gloat back

now that you’re on a side
eyes weaver down
it’s cold inside but my fevers out
the door invites what i can see through now

fuck that, no, i can’t make another run
and i’m spinning every pistol till my life is done
stand straight, fuck that, nobody can blame me
i just wanna lay low, where all of the strays be

don’t just stare with you hand on the gun
a split second, converge into one

i find all your littering and tattoos
who’s the bastard? am i onto something that rude?
you can pass it up, and all of a sudden, that’s you
oooooh, can’t fake it under
the influence
the influence

fuck that, no, i can’t make another run
and i’m spinning every pistol till my life is done
stand straight, fuck that, nobody can blame me
i just wanna lay low, where all of the strays be

BASTARD [7 - 18 - 23]

Brain Dead/Stranger (Prod. Ipukebands + Loseralerrt)

incredible production by @prodbysxda

lyrics

surprising everything inside my fucking chest
she got all it on with her hands wrapped around my neck
not learning any lessons how i'm ignoring these threats
its so fucking ruthless inside this town its almost dead

i'm tryna set sail but I'm long grip and its starting to rust here
I exhale and open arms
but in the mirror I cant tell

don't come close to me
im surrounded by this rat hell
I dont wanna lose u baby girl
its just my heart kills

wish it was an odyssey how it goes dark then it turns light
but i'm out in these crashing waves and i'm holding on for dear life
I'm jus saying got my wrist wet and i'm not talking ice
im losing my grip but im holding my knife

flicking thru the memories and tryna the cause
this is how it turned out i'm not fucking around with god
who tf is u
I tell myself when I am lost
forget about those pretty nights that we had omg

why u always coming late?
but who's that in the parking lot
I just fucked my brain again
coz' I can not control my thoughts
and i'm losing my faith again
baby im, im losing my breath inside this fucking wooden box

late arrival

late arrival (woahsxda)

prod @tiedforsilver
@4ever-collective #4EVER

numbers game freestyle

im alone in this world
no one ever guves u a tissue
everybody jus gives a shit about u
since u gone from this world fuck i miss u

oh i got so weak in mind
sit here and i fucking cry
guess my brain jus needs more time
and i sit here
no one around me
in my life

go back there sit in the car
my bloods thick, im stuck in tar
an arrow goes right thru my heart
in my feelings oh my oh my god
come bit closer i know ur far
tho u still got my heart

u got all of me
yeah i need u here
u got a hold of me
this life is never fair
this life is never fair
ur the only one to understand my pain
thinking of all those words that remain unsaid

and when ur time is up
i would still sit there and u would be my last thought
atleast thats what i think now
cos nobody else can take ur place in my heart
heart
heart
heart
heart

go back there sit in the car
my bloods thick, im stuck in tar
an arrow goes right thru my heart
in my feelings oh my oh my god
come bit closer i know ur far
tho u still got my heart

i hate this place
and my state of mind
give me one more try
just one more time

oh i bet everything would be better
if i wouldnt have tried with u
now im a menace
cos i cant help myself
but i fall and regret it
and now just feel like the worst friend that someone could have yeah

feels so cold when i look up to heaven
dont wanna be alone
yeah im already stressing
out
over things i cant controll
always think its just my fault
i stay on my own
i stay on my
i stay on my own
i stay on my

go back there sit in the car
my bloods thick, im stuck in tar
an arrow goes right thru my heart
in my feelings oh my oh my god
come bit closer i know ur far
tho u still got my heart

demo

chapter1_warboys (sewerperson cover)

A night built for loud hearts and clear minds. The city hums hot, the lights hit hard, and every corner feels alive when the smoke drifts and the volume climbs. “Slay the City Lights” is built for the real ones — the ones who push through long nights, chase their spark, and carve their path through the glow.

Slay the City Lights

PSALMS – VOL. II: REFUGE IN THE STORM – The Shaken Remnant

Synopsis:
Volume II walks through Psalms 16–30 as a storm-and-shelter journey. These songs move from trusting God as portion and path, to crying out under pursuit, to the violent rescue of Psalm 18 where God comes down in the storm. Creation sings in Psalm 19, battle prayers rise in Psalm 20, and royal joy and pain converge in Psalms 21–22. From the quiet comfort of “The Lord is my shepherd” through lifted gates, tested hearts, thunder on the waters, and joy after mourning, this volume lives in the tension between danger and the refuge of a God who answers. The lyrics paraphrase the psalms closely, but each track is shaped as a modern, singable song.

BASTARD [7 - 18 - 23]

vil synth