would you, say
every, day
is harder than
the past, ey

get it, straight
ima, waste
feeling, blame
eat away

what are you doin, what are you doin this weekend, today
im crushing the pain till it eats at my veins
you know that im terrified of fuckin planes

but you get away
and leave me for grace
like every other week, you dont say

i know you dont hate
atums on the way
now im feelin good and cozy, in my brain

oh, october, is comin, im holdin on to grave
wait for the day
--

-autumn-

4x
(i need some rest)

hated everything i
fucking find about your life
about your-
puked out my stomach lines
now i’m fine
i say i’m fine
i say i’m-

swear to god i ain’t shit
showing up just to dip 
weather’s dusk
heart is thin 
i disrupt from within
shoulders touched
fuck is this?
why does love
make me sick
why does trust
never stick
just like us
i’m a bitch 
i’m a-

staring at a screen i 
cannot read i’m so incompetent 
imma take my leave i set the scene
that shit is ominous 
wash away the grease 
feeling clean is what i coveted 
shut your fucking teeth
i wanna scream
i’ve had enough of it

Leaf season w/ autumndropsdead (prod. nvki)

produced + featuring @xona

i won’t tell the truth
it’s getting too much to watch this shit all follow through
cuz we fight, and fuss, all night long
float just like a feather, winds are strong
i wouldn’t have to pay the homage if i didn’t see it through…

why couldn’t i just be you? (x5)

[xona]
who do I choose knowing the truth
cause I couldn’t be you and I didn’t want to lose

and I can’t wait for you down on the south side
I’m more than different, I decide to watch it go by
stop, I despise all the talks we had a like
-
why couldn't i just be you? (x5)

spotify

extol ft. xona [xona]

Fight Us!

wake up in the mornin i jus wanna roll up
dont know what im doin but ik im goin up
but bae u actin different lately i can tell u changin on me
i keep it 100 baby u more like two 20s and a cool 50
i gotta watch my back idk whos wit me
touch down touch down touch down
bae im in yo city
im tryna run it up yea im tryna touch a milly

ra ra ra ra ra ra
im tryna run it up yea im tryna touch a milly
ooo ok heres one thing to kno bout me
ima find a win no matter wat no matter were i be
mmmm oh thts jus the way it go
im not tryna fall in love again fuk it geronimo
huh yea
blame it on the
whatever tho
make up ya mind bae cuz this shit unprofessional

unprofeshinal [p. nojupiter]

Self Prod :)

Its always so fake
you stay up so late
dont try to escape
dont say im too late
I make mistakes

Im way too fucked up in my head
Its my love that i resent

I dont know why, I might break my ties
Might lose my friends is this the end?

If you really wanna know
then you know
and you`ll know
and you`ll know
and you`ll go
and you will never wanna stay

I dont like, my life
break sights

I will never make a friend
I will never stay in love
I will never make amends
I Will never be enough

tell me that l run away
tell me that im loved
tell me that il never stay
tell me im enough

HYPO

prod. numb

i wouldn't change my mind if i was you
cause girl you're only turning 22
we've got so much time ahead of us i hope its true
that life don't for granted, i can see you over the moon
your lies they become truth
there's nothing left to lose
i wouldn't cut my wrists if it was up to you immune
to the agony you made for me its hard to pick and choose
the people in your life cause you don't feel well, in ruin

take your time
don't leave me hear tonight
its hard to cry 
when you hold me every night

over the moon
there's more to life than lust don't re-abuse me
use me
for love
for life undone
cause baby you would choose to die tonight
and lose all that we had again, you're running my life
 
its gettin hot
42 degrees im feelin lost
wish me luck
wish me everything you wanted im in love
the more i try to lust
remove me from the picture, cant you see that i am done
take you
why cant i erase you
mess me up
ruin me for once
i tried
to realign
and fix all that i broken
its takes a lot of time
you see it in my eyes

over the moon

Produced and mixed by Carlby
Guitars by Kazba

LYRICS

Listen on Spotify!

Kindred (Prod. w/ Kazba)

Production: Pekarot
Original: https://on.soundcloud.com/byEB9ip4P6YjGzsC9

Lyrics:
A year ago today, 
I cut my wrist
Never felt the same,
Now I'm in the abyss

Stuck in a pit, yeah
Wanna die, yeah
Never felt the same, yeah
Always tired
I don't wanna be here,
Not anymore

Hate myself, 
I just wanna leave now
Cut my wrist,
now I bleed out
End my life,
yeah It'll be a quick out

Feelin so stuck in this drought
I'm never gunna find a way out

I'm so done with life
cause I'm forced to be 
something I don't want to be
I don't wanna be me
Please just take me 
out of this body

(Evergarden) 
I need time to think this through
i got choices i cant make 
i been tired as of late
i tend to think too much
at night i admit it 
i dont talk too much
hope i dont fall victim

been while  
hope ill heal now 
was kept away 
broke the seal now
i dont know how to feel 
not anymore 
x2

(withered roses)
Say goodbye to the old me 4x
Now these scars don't heal 5x

extol ft. xona [xona]

vil synth