Acid Test

It's been a long and strange year already.

Took a long weekend off work, got nicely trashed and let the music EXIST.

Enjoyed the shit out of it.

DANCE, MOTHERFUCKERS.

Psychotomimetic

Just sat in my dad's shed, writing self-incriminating music.

Quite liberating, actually.

Like many of my songs, this is about self-hatred / self-worth and the journey I'm on.

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intimidated by my microphone
staring up at me
the blank page never scared me much
but who am i trying to be?

keep pretending like im going to make the slightest fucking difference to the world
un fucking likely
ok so what if i just try to change myself?
youll fail. youre me.

(keep on pushing but you get back up
get slowed down but you never get stuck)

ive got far too many things on my mind
take these decisions away
if you be anything
then you be kind
do crimes
be gay

every time i do a good thing
i say i had a bit of luck
but when I get it wrong I blame myself
so really, what the fuck?

(keep on pushing but you get back up
get slowed down but you never get stuck)

I mostly manage not to hate myself
It took a fucking while
Sometimes I need a little distance
sometimes a country mile

I TELL MYSELF THAT IM WINNING
I tell me Im ok
DEEP INSIDE IM ALWAYS SPINNING
do crimes
be gay

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Image used via CC-license with thanks from Flickr user atoach

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while(--inf);

REMIX KIT HERE: https://drive.google.com/file/d/16-H6x1lO0i2h8swTiNDfxz1cQR1PpLPa/view?usp=sharing
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Deja You - this time with extra Salwa Azar.

My always incredible friend Sal kindly lent her vocals to the track, as I was looking for something to take it up a notch, and as usual, her voice just brings something a bit magical even to my dark ranting.

Find more Sal music at:
https://soundcloud.com/salwa
https://salwa.bandcamp.com/album/black-feather-wooden-chair

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We said we'd never go back
We said we'd never do the bad thing again
We promised we would grow up
We said that we would try to be better friends


I notice that we're alone
I see we find ourselves here again
One of us picked up a phone
The other closed the circuit, now let's pretend
again


Sit here with head in my hands
Imagine you standing over my shoulder
We execute bigger plans
Pull on the adult face but we don't grow older

Stood tall and stretching my legs
I know you're stretching yours too
Learned that I don't need to beg
To do what I need to do


I'm looking in on myself
Outside the window like a lover displaced
I'll make you happy again
Restart the cycle like it's all been erased

These loops they will never end
the things we do affect the things that we've done
Rewind and try it again
This time we'll be the ones we tried to become
again

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image used under CC-license by kind permission of flickr/nine2ninetysix

FAWM 2021

Deja You (ft Sal Azar)

after the fever breaks

sleep through this

Demo for February Album Writing Month 2021

FAWM 2021 Demos

subaqueous

A bit of gentleness for a change.

Even DeathBoys need to wind down sometimes.

Trying out a number of recently-acquired acoustic plugins and flexing my instrumental muscles a little in a way I typically don't.

A lot of the rhythmic parts here were me drumming on my laptop with my fingers, through a bunch of effects.

The photo for the track is from last christmas, spent with my folks, which I felt was appropriate as usually it's a... challenging time.

This year was lovely. Hugely better than expected. Just good times and love. So yeah, it fit.

Bettter Than Expected

Genuine privilege to work with Deathboy on this for FAWM. 

Mostly my noises, arranged and tweaked by Deathboy, it's a bit of a bop if i do say so myself

Viral Lode Vs DeathBoy - Archive

10th demo for February Album Writing Month with virallode https://soundcloud.com/virallode

perspective 01 (looprication + virallode)

Some filth that spilled out of my brain and into the sequencer.

I wanted there to be sirens. Sometimes sirens are a warning of danger, sometimes they're just there to tell you to pick up your state of awareness.

And sometimes they alert you, but sometimes they become music.

Quite a 90s vibe to both the orchestration / synth choices and the breaks in this. I am a lover of the 90s, so while I didn't set out for it to be an exercise in oldschool, I'm happy with how it turned out.

Dance, motherfuckers.

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Image used under CC-license by kind permission of flickr/artbystevejohnson

FAWM2021

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Power Noise, Rhythmic Noise, Industrial - Dark, distorted, nasty.

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