My homie: https://soundcloud.com/uglyfuji
https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

when I touch you my hands they start to shake
you’re quiet now I know im the mistake
you don’t really love me that’s ok
I wish you would have told me instead im just played

im freaking out over my stupid dumb ways
say you don’t care but you still wanna stay
I’m covered in ice but I melt to my waste
the great pretender am I so take

my emotions and my shitty fucking guilt
take a sip of this double cup and fill
this empty void inside my chest fill it with drugs and ill reset
my memories and my emotions as we bury it further down

so punch me in the fucking face
you just take and take and take
hows it feels to scream my name
what the fucks that meant to mean

yeah I love your fucking hate
yeah you’re filled with jealously
yeah cus all you do is just take
what’s left of my memory

-ugly fuji

I’m Wasting away 
I feel like nothin 
I’ve got shit to say 
but I can’t get the words out

Push me away 
Push me away 
Tried to be there for u 
but I don’t think that I should stay 
Push me away 
Kiss on my face 
Tell me was I worth it 
Or should I just be replaced 

Numb the pain With different strains 
I been feeling so fuckin strange 
Out my head I’m out my brain 
Think I need to take a break 
Think the words were all too late 
Im all alone do u relate 
When I’m alone I’m in a state 

Oh

Punch Me In The Fucking Face Ft. Ugly Fuji

Impossible 
Dumb fuck 
Why are you love struck ?
Impossible 
Dumb fuck 
Why are you love struck ?
You did it again again 
Fucked it up 
You’re drinking again again 
Yeah you’re fucking it up 

I watch the sunset down 
As I get let down again 
Pick up some really bad habits 
Some might even call me tragic again 

Oh good my mindsets low 
List of my problems grow 
I wouldn’t wanna meet me now 
I don’t blame you for leaving 
Oh yeah to top it all off 
I blame you for my breathing 

I blame you 
The shit you put me through 
Wonder if you’ll put me through it all again

Why’d you come back 
Was it to finish me off 
There’s no pain like that 
The way that you cut me off 
You could’ve aired me
I would’ve called it a night 
You said you loved me 
But then again you do lie girl 

OVERDOSE 
I WANNA FEEL 
ANYTHING 
COMATOSE 
HEADS FUCKED
ON SOME MEMORIES 
AND YET AGAIN 
IM THE ENEMY 

OVERDOSE 
YEAH I WANNA FEEL 
ANYTHING 
NOW IM COMATOSE 
HEADS FUCKED 
ON SOME MEMORIES 
AND YET AGAIN
IM THE ENEMY 

THE SUNSETS DOWN 
AS I GET LET DOWN AGAIN 
PICK UP SOME REALLY BAD HABITS 
SOME MIGHT EVEN CALL ME TRAGIC AGAIN

WATCH AS THE SUNSETS DOWN 
AS I GET LET DOWN AGAIN 
PICK UP SOME REALLY BAD HABITS 
SOME MIGHT EVEN CALL ME TRAGIC AGAIN 

[PART 2]

You say that you got me 
Okay 
When it gets rough 
Why don’t you play 
Your snaky attendance 
You don’t show your face 
I’m fucking falling 
My best mate is calling 
Oh wait 
I’m hiding 
I’m dying 
I’m crying 
I go through the motions 
Holy fucking shit these emotions 
Yeah FUCK
Just leave me alone 
don’t call my phone
The last time you’ll hear me is through a ringtone

Comatose

Lyrics

Keep telling myself 
Don’t fuck it up too much 
Going back to living off gold dust 
Wanna live, no I don’t wanna survive 
Breaking my back, sweat, years just to get by 
Just wanna make it for myself
Don’t wanna do it for no one else 
Don’t ever wanna hear that a motherfucker helped me 
Holes in my back yeah a shout out to the selfish 

Yeah you dream of money, fame and hella cars 
You break the roof you’re aiming for the stars 
They don’t believe you’re gonna prove them wrong 
Your faith it falters tryna stay strong 

But it’s okay 
Got a little magic imma smoke it
Focus 
Get yourself caught up with the locust 
Hopeless 
And you struggle through on and on
You’re falling through all the floors 
You hate yourself and all your flaws 
Put away your dreams, disband the cause 
Wake up, go to work and put your life on hold 
You don’t make enough to break all of these bones 
They’ll even take your name, make a database your home

Keep telling myself 
Don’t fuck it up too much 
Going back to living off gold dust 
Wanna live, no I don’t wanna survive 
Breaking my back, sweat, years just to get by 
Just wanna make it for myself
Don’t wanna do it for no one else 
Don’t ever wanna hear that a motherfucker helped me 
Holes in my back yeah a shout out to the selfish 

Keep telling myself 
Don’t fuck it up too much 
Going back to living off gold dust 
Wanna live, no I don’t wanna survive 
Breaking my back, sweat, years just to get by 
Just wanna make it for myself
Don’t wanna do it for no one else 
Don’t ever wanna hear that a motherfucker helped me 
Holes in my back yeah a shout out to the selfish

Don’t Fuck It Up

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Lyrics:
You can call me whatever you want
It'll never save you from yourself
Can't admit anything's your fault
So you live in your own made-up hell

Never willing to see it
Obvious you've been bleeding
Take it out on who didn't cut you
History repeated
Hurt the ones you hold close
Those who need love the most
Projecting all your flaws trying to hide
But it shows

I can't take it personally
'Cause I know that you're struggling to find your peace
Says more 'bout you than me
When you talk all your shit 'bout me behind my face
I feel bad for you
I can see right through
The facade that you wear to cover up your wounds
I can't take it personally
'Cause I know that you're struggling

Hate to see that you're stuck in your ways
Unaware of all the damage you cause
You can keep trying to run far away
But you won't ever escape from your flaws

Don't wanna throw you the blame
You probably grew up the same
Neglected through your youth, now you pay forward the pain
I know you do it to cope
But I just want you to know
You could do so much better if you wanted to grow

I can't take it personally
'Cause I know that you're struggling to find your peace
Says more 'bout you than me
When you talk all your shit 'bout me behind my face
I feel bad for you
I can see right through
The facade that you wear to cover up your wounds

I can't take it personally
'Cause I know that you're struggling to find your peace
Says more 'bout you than me
When you talk all your shit 'bout me behind my face
I feel bad for you
I can see right through
The facade that you wear to cover up your wounds
I can't take it personally
'Cause I know that you're struggling

Personally

personally

more

love...produced by autrioly

(lyrics)
her presence inside of my chest and its ending
i live in the past and im still here pretending that im feeling fine when im not
poison inside of my skull has my head go to rot
acting okay when im numb aint a shock to me 
im a good liar, i guess its a part of my essence
its something i dont understand
why cant i sleep without holding your hand?

numb as a mannequinn
i feel panic only when you aint standing beside me handing over all of your love as youre holding me close
is it the touch that im missing the most?
scrolling through pics on my phone only seems to remind me that i am now all on my own
im hardly existing with knowing youre missing
if i could rewind wonder how would it go?

do you want me as bad as i wanted you, baby?
its haunting to have any thoughts of us lately 
and dawning on me is the thought that a need for you daily is all that i need to be sane in this life
i might wanna be dead if i time it right
i could fly to a greater height, i know
maybe there i could get you back right after that
cuz bettering myself's the goal
i wont break

i want you out of my head
(x3)
so come to be mine and with me again

(x2)

cannot stop all the thoughts even while im unconscious
weep in my dreams and im waking up nauseous
is there a way i could stop this?
taking no caution
i could be sippin' on toxin

type out a paragraph, struggle to send
wish i was sure of myself but i only pretend
i look at the moon up above
what is this feeling im healing from?
think it is...

love.

<3 \\<

LOVE

"LOVE"˚ˑ༄ؘ p. autrioly

;))

https://linktr.ee/chrisrain

cover: @hugo.psd

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YOUR EYES (Prod. BigBadBeats)

7eddy - She Said w/ Lil Uber

Prod. Shades

@7eddy_777 on all plats..

MUSIC VIDEO

She Said (feat. Lil Uber)

It's the way that you hold me, forget bout this pain
I'd stay in this moment forever no nothing changed
True love never dies it's what they say, 
(I say fuck that), got me singing like
I would die for you, I would die for you


In a world that's full of demons and the shadows they reside
I hope you understand that imma kill them all on sight
cuz for you, I bleed the heaven's it don't matter if I fall
I know that you'll be waiting in the wreckage of it all
you could never do me wrongI love you more than you ill ever knowtake a piece of my heart everywhere you go (La La La) I would die for you, I would die for you(La LA LA)I would die for you, I would die for youIt's the way that you hold me, forget bout this pain
I'd stay in this moment forever no nothing changed
True love never dies it's what they say,
(I say fuck that), got me singing like
I would die for you, I would die for you

NOTHING’S CHANGED (Prod. Sorrow Bringer)

BATHING IN ACID, WATCH THE FLESH BREAK, BONES JUST REMAIN
I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE SUBSTANCE, A PIECE OF SHIT, YEAH ALL LOVE DECAYED
I'LL TAKE THE HINT AND ILL GO NOW, I GUESS SITRALINE'S NOW HERE TO STAY
THE HATE SWELLS IN THE GUT NOW, WILL I STAY OR EMBRACE THE PAIN

IM WAKING UP TO THE PANIC ATTACKS, 
IM UNSTABLE FOR TRYNA MAKE IT OUT JUST IN TACK
CANT SYMPATHIZE YEAH, DONT AGREE WITH ANY OF THAT, 
I TRY TO BUILD UP AND THEN I FEEL MY BONES INTERJECT

IT'S LIKE WADING THROUGH THE FOG NOW THE MEMORIES BLACK
DONT REMEMBER WHO THE FUCK I WAS GUESS HE'S NOT COMING BACK
THE KID YOU LOVED, SMOTHERED IN AN ANGER
AND YOU SHOVE, TELL HIM HE'S A STRANGER

AS YOUR’E MELTING YOUR BRAIN WITH DEODORANT CANS
HUFFING ON CHEMICALS, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU MAN
YOU SAY YOUR HARD, THINKING YOURE A STAR,
I'D RATHER FUCKING KILLING MYSELF THAN EVEN GET ALONG

WITH SOMEONE SO FAKE, YEAH A LIAR, YEAH WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU NOW
YOUR EYES, THEY CHANGE FREEZE ME UP AND I SHATTER ON THE GROUND
WHEN YOU PUSH YEAH, TIEING UP A NOOSE YEAH,
ITS BEEN A FEW YEARS, THINK ILL CUT OFF ALL MY LOOSE ENDS, CANT MEND

Panic

• Produced by APT. 102 - @apt-102
• Mixed by me
• Mastered by Sebastian Metzner
• Cover art design by me, photo by William Tran

• lyrics:

with the microphone as my medicine, 
all this sad shit as my epithet 
in a big room with the elephant, 
is my flow still fuckin’ relevant?

..

i’ll still do it for the hell of it, 
yeah, 
newsflash I’m still gettin it,
it’s a tuesday, I’m still gettin lit,
grip that paper like a paperclip...

i might come by for a while before i dip, yeah
but If it ain’t bout a check i’ll call it quits, yeah
got too much on my mind, i’m hittin' licks,
got too much goin on to give a fuck about a bitch, yeah...

real quick, that’s a lesson, 
you take that L,
it’s a blessing, 
you won’t learn shit with that flexing,
you won’t earn shit till you messin’ up, 
bounce back, 
smoke that ounce up, 
every time you pick that pen up, 
get dark thoughts
then i get buck,
don’t give a fuck

(bounce back, 
smoke that ounce up, 
every time you pick that pen up, 
get dark thoughts,
then i...)

i can’t buy more time,
i bite my tongue and wait...
i can’t make make you mine 
until you think you hate me...

imma shine but not before you break me...
that’s what I said back then, 
won’t you call me back?

i might come by for a while before i dip, yeah
but If it ain’t bout a check i’ll call it quits, yeah
girl i got you on my mind, so i get lit, yeah
you’ll be the last thing i see before i slip...

x

Vid on IDLEGLANCE

epithet (prod. APT. 102)

My anxiety won't leave me alone..
signed to Renegade Records
hmu for feats

NOTHING’S CHANGED (Prod. Sorrow Bringer)

vishisdead

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sorrow bringer 🍂

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