art credit: @rpsu (irusu)
produced by @ogpichu and a bit by me

//Lyrics

was it something you meant to say to me
i need a break, you on my rank falsely
got em in, run from the jakes, im gonna take what I need
I cannot lose, take another route
I know that soon youll know what im 'bout
you got this room fillin up with doubt

you just wanna take, mine
you never say sumn, feels like we watchin paint, dry
I could just wait time till I know I can make it right
fake, disguise
wait, this time
cause im gonna come back and
take, mine
you never say sumn, feels like we watchin paint, dry
I could just wait time till I know I can make it right
fake, disguise
wait, this time
cause im gonna come back

im at your home
you're not alone
you shut the door on me
walkin and steppin in clothes
you cant afford, on me
i dont need your advice
only lost when I try
god, my thoughts wanna die I
swear to god if you wont say something
Ive been in the wrong but I wont fake nothing
sinking in style
I was just a child
was it something you meant to say to me
i need a break, you on my rank falsely
got em in, run from the jakes, im gonna take what I need
I cannot lose, take another route
I know that soon youll know what im 'bout
you got this room fillin up with doubt

you just wanna take, mine
you never say sumn, feels like we watchin paint, dry
I could just wait time till I know I can make it right
fake, disguise
wait, this time
cause im gonna come back and
take, mine
you never say sumn, feels like we watchin paint, dry
I could just wait time till I know I can make it right
fake, disguise
wait, this time
cause im gonna come back

doubt

doubt [p. pichu]

luv u twin soundcloud.com/scrufff

i could b there for u, idc what i do to myself

spotify

scruff - flower journal (sai)

mel by @yokulol
written and recorded by me
cover by me

lyrics:

bitches talkin shit but they aint shit to me
all these fuckin labels want shit with me
why does everybody wanna deal with me
im too tired, too tired
but i guess its just what i deserve
faceplant, stomp down, know it hurts
last night i lost my worth
yeah, thats my shit dont care

yeah thats my shit, my shit
thats my shit uh huh
yeah thats my shit, my shit
thats my shit uh huh
no-scope through your face, know it burns
yeah i dont miss, dont miss
yeah thats my shit, my shit
thats my shit uh huh

you're so- you're so- 
annoying -nnoying
like everybody else just wants a piece of something
you're just- you're just-
like poison- poison
and my nights are highlighted with superficial noises

baby ima tell u straight up
every fuckin time i see your face i wanna break up
left the party early so id never have to change us
now im countin money in my hand its like im famous
and that shit was so difficult, mm, mm
like pins and needles through my skull, mm, mm

yeah thats my shit, my shit
thats my shit uh huh
yeah thats my shit, my shit
thats my shit uh huh
no-scope through your face, know it burns
yeah i dont miss, dont miss
yeah thats my shit, my shit
thats my shit uh huh

bitches talkin shit but they aint shit to me
all these fuckin labels want shit with me
why does everybody wanna deal with me
im too tired, too tired
but i guess its just what i deserve
faceplant, stomp down, know it hurts
last night i lost my worth
yeah, thats my shit dont care

curb

@1spoder
prod roku
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/bruise

lyrics -
open up the fuckin door hun
is this everything you wanted?
tell me did you really wanna
tell me did you really wanna
pop another bottle up
tell me is it lust is it really love
pop another bottle up
is it really lust is it really love
can you see what I see
through your stupid lies
it gets harder to breathe
every time

walk it down
throw it up love
love to be the one that you want
I keep falling down, keep falling out
did everything you told me to
talk every way you want me to
fuck it up
it's a dud
I don't love you
I tried it, no use
stuck in silence I bruise (I feel overwhelmed)
stuck in silence I bruise (I tried)
stuck in silence I bruise

are you amused?
go tie up that noose (it's all my fault)
acting like you nuanced and shit
alright love then burn off that bridge
tell me love how I'm supposed to live
kick yo feet up
wanna be us
she want more not enough
is it all you dream of
all you need love
fall in now I'm stuck
will you pull through?
I don't like you no more

can you see what I see
through your stupid lies
it gets harder to breathe
every time

walk it down
throw it up love
love to be the one that you want
I keep falling down, keep falling out
did everything you told me to
talk every way you want me to
fuck it up
it's a dud
I don't love you
I tried it, no use
stuck in silence I bruise (I feel overwhelmed)
stuck in silence I bruise (I tried)
stuck in silence I bruise

spoder - bruise

ambivalent

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0IHbekaueGek7nFPKpZpbD?si=89260079818e4242
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/desideratum

produced by 8een & arcane
additional production by me
mixed written performed by me
+ thank you eve for mixing advice

frick north york
thank you for listening, i hope you enjoy <3

///
the more that I try, more that I hide
the more that I try, more that I hide

the past few months I felt like I would die
before I did anything that I loved, oh my
I'll stay strong
eighteen round the corner, how'd I (make it!)
this long
all the pressure makes my head hurt
give it time and it'll get better
and if you hate it well then, know I put in effort :/
I do my best, how dare you say that I don't
still get nervous when there's lumps in my throat

I'm aware no one said it'd be easy
spoke to the teller now everything's clear, see
it all
pretty girl
girl

and if I don't wake up
tell every single person I love
that I put all my heart in
I will be an artist
there'll be people that care and I'll build something honest

go!
don't hide
do you even know who you are?
go!
how'd you even call that shit art? (desideratum)
go back pull your hair out, restart

I can't focus well my darling
got a stutter when I'm talking
you broke the news as I was walking
news when I was promised

desideratum

feat @scrufff
prod aftrr
cover art by aftrr
all plats: https://ffm.to/qrjgp3n

this an old song i finally got around to finishing, hope yall enjoy <3

lyrics:

[hook]
tell me ur problems
no i wont kiss and tell
i wanna be ur last
im by the wishing well
jessie confessing to me
but i got saved by the bell
get money then im gone, capice
aint a thing i cant sell

[chorus]
if this money talk then i guess im fluent
ohhyaa
sippin dirty rocks, she like how i do it
ohwwwoah
im mr. put it on, 10 bands on my cuban
ohh
with u im booted up, its u im pursuing
ohh

that girl tryna talk me down
we got history
her boyfriend he dont know about
its a mystery
what we had it was lost and found
playing games, what she want
guess im finding out
i guess im

[verse @scrufff]
then i leave im fkin headed out
remember when im going up
when im poppin now
ur friends gon know im pulling up
when they not around
ur friends gon know im showing up
when they talkin bout
kiss n tell
asking for help
im under pain
wishing well
when im still
not up to stakes
kiss n tell
asking for help
im under pain
wishing well
what im still
trying to save

[chorus]
if this money talk then i guess im fluent
ohhyaa
sippin dirty rocks, she like how i do it
ohwwwoah
im mr. put it on, 10 bands on my cuban
ohh
with u im booted up, its u im pursuing
ohh

that girl tryna talk me down
we got history
her boyfriend he dont know about
its a mystery
what we had it was lost and found
playing games, what she want
guess im finding out
i guess im

[bridge @scrufff]
change will come and i hate to say
that i wont ever be the same
u just think that loves a case
and mine will never go away

[chorus]
if this money talk then i guess im fluent
ohhyaa
sippin dirty rocks, she like how i do it
ohwwwoah
im mr. put it on, 10 bands on my cuban
ohh
with u im booted up, its u im pursuing
ohh

that girl tryna talk me down
we got history
her boyfriend he dont know about
its a mystery
what we had it was lost and found
playing games, what she want
guess im finding out
i guess im

[outro]
tell me ur problems
no i wont kiss and tell
i wanna be ur last
im by the wishing well
jessie confessing to me
but i got saved by the bell
get money then im gone, capice
aint a thing i cant sell

SPOTIFY !

kiss n tell w/ scruff

@zephyrcove 
out on all plats

guess i always thought i’d be okay
things dont usually happened that way 
i wish i could miss u the way you miss me 
but we don’t have to talk about it 
never thought i’d leave you stranded 
but we knew things wouldn’t be the same 
as they were when we were fifteen 

you know i never found a way to cope 
but i’m glad to know that you never lose hope 
looking back it was never what we planned to be 
going home was what was best for me 

i wish i could miss u the way you miss me 
but we don’t have to talk about it 
never thought i’d leave you stranded 
but we knew things wouldn’t be the same 
as they were when we were fifteen 

fifteen 
never meant much to me 
but as long as you’re around 
i can see it  
i don’t wanna leave you now 
but that’s okay 
that’s okay for now

fifteen

with @riensu

produced by @ihateukidu

spotify: https://spotify.link/QvikfVoncDb

me:

tell me what you want
i cant help but follow through
you know what it was
you gon tear my heart in two
dont got time to lose
its way too hard to choose
you aint been in my shoes nah
girl what i need to prove im

falling out of love
you dont see it though
driving me insane girl
way too many lows
times not the issue
cant lie swear i miss you
all the shit we been through
tell me if it tempts you

i dont wanna mess it up
girl u dont know how to trust
got no time to readjust
many times my heart been crushed
girl you break down
all my walls
damn i hate it
when you call
said i wouldnt get involved
girl you dont love me at all

run around,
when the sun is down
do you love me now?
girl are you playing around?
run around,
when the sun is down
do you love me now?
girl are you playing around?

riensu:

baby you know that i still think of you
you got me thinking what did i get myself into
i been needing you
i hope you need me too
dont wanna waste my time
on you
youre the only one that i've been needing in my life
speeding on the highway, bae im going 85
only when im with you is when i feel so alive
so let me know if youre down to ride

tempts you w/ riensu (kidu)

i know ur mad at me or something
and talkings just way too damn hard 4 me
but you've really done it this time
but i wanna know
why cant u go?
you're talkin too loud
leave me alone
i want you out
i dont really wanna stay
i dont really wanna stay with you
you dont even wanna know what im doing
i just wanna go home with you off my mind
get online cuz we're playing all night
i can not think straight
(where are you?)
im sorry if i lost my mind
ive really done it this time
now i just want out
why cant u go?
you're talkin too loud
leave me alone
i want you out

prod aftrr
quannnic - comatose
all plats: https://ffm.to/nb80vdn

who can i really Trust
I gave u my everything i guess it wasnt much
Everytime i try again it doesnt seem enough
I got love around but im afraid i might not give a fuck
hanging from the ceiling
think its time to give it up

try to turn this shit around but my head still spinnin
momma said dont fall i said ill be back in a minute
unreciprocated now u paint me as a villain
i think that i hate u
do u still pray that im winning

in my prime with no option
numbernine bitch i bought it
brother told me said i got it
im not really one for talking
thought i had it then i lost it
all ur problems i cant solve it
lost my mind off the time
let it all get so toxic

i dont need no one else
i dont need no ones help
put my heart on a shelf
all the damage i dealt
further ruin my health
think im losing myself

where'd u go
left my side, all alone
putting my trust in u only caused issues
cant tell the fake from the real
dont know how to feel
all alone, missing u
on the phone like

who can i really Trust
I gave u my everything i guess it wasnt much
Everytime i try again it doesnt seem enough
I got love around but im afraid i might not give a fuck
hanging from the ceiling
think its time to give it up

try to turn this shit around but my head still spinnin
momma said dont fall i said ill be back in a minute
unreciprocated now u paint me as a villain
i think that i hate u
do u still pray that im winning

tempts you w/ riensu (kidu)

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