i've been feeling gray all day.
thinking about all my mistakes. 
thinking about everything i hate. 
when i think about it, i get dismayed.
what am i made of? am i made of love, or hate?
no i'm not a hater.
i can be vulnerable, when i want to-
but i choose not to, sometimes. 
sometimes, when I get stressed out, i will block everyone out
in my solitude, i lean into, i lean into, i lean into 
sometimes, I feel blessed up and when I do, I love my life 
& when I feel broke, I visualize! I manifest everything in life. 
sometimes it starts out as a vibe, eventually turning alive! 
No, I cannot try anymore - I just gotta do what I gotta do
If I try, i'm gonna think too much. 
If I think too much, it's gonna be my demise.
& I want to live my life, my life! my life!
fk what you heard - it's a lie
I disappear in a disguise. 
You only care about btches, I only care about psychics-
I only care about magick. 
Your life is just too boring for me.
Materialistic. 
I got spiritual dreams. Give a fk about $.

dismayed (tmvjin & isibeats499)

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